In fact, even though Peng Duoyun's original life was unhappy, she still didn't feel happy after she broke away, but lost her sense of familiarity and became even more lonely. After going to college, she felt that everyone's family was happier than her, so she felt even more uncomfortable and wanted to find someone to cry about.

But as soon as others cared about her, she immediately shrank away, she was afraid of those eyes that cared about her, and she was afraid that she would attract too much attention. Maybe Peng Duoyun didn't expect that she would live so entangled.

Her loneliness grew day by day, until she became obsessed with Xiu Hengyu. Such an unreachable glowing person has installed a way out for Peng Duoyun's aimless life.

Peng Duoyun often left messages to Xiu Hengyu's account, he set up an automatic reply, every time Peng Duoyun posted a message, the account would automatically pop up a message "I wish you peace and happiness every day". Although it was an automatic reply, it was enough for her to be happy for a long time. She put all her fears, fears, sorrows and joys on Xiu Hengyu, even if she hollowed out everything for him, even if all the time was lost in her infatuation with Xiu Hengyu, it didn't matter, she could bear it all.

Until Xiu Hengyu died.

He died quietly, without telling anyone, and died alone on the day she was looking forward to seeing him.

The last bit of light in Peng Duoyun's life also disappeared, but she didn't seem to be sad, except for a few tears, she didn't react again. Since then, she has never mentioned Xiu Hengyu again, and few people have mentioned Xiu Hengyu again.

At the beginning of the second semester of her sophomore year, Peng Duoyun accepted Liu Chaoming's pursuit and was with him. At that time, the personnel of their dormitory had changed several times, and Bai Zeqing began to woo Peng Duoyun in order to isolate Sui Jinyu, and treated her a lot better.

Liu Chaoming's family is quite rich, but he is not a man worthy of trust, and the girls around him are basically teased by him. After he took Peng Duoyun out to open the room a few times, he kicked her away.

Peng Duoyun accepted it obediently, whether it was Liu Chaoming or Bai Zeqing, she fully accepted the arrangement that life had arranged for her, whether it was good or bad, she did not make any resistance.

Tong Panpan said that Peng Duoyun invited Yu Er to meet, saying that the people in their dormitory finally met and wanted to get together. Yu Er sneered in his heart, but still decided to go to the appointment. Unexpectedly, Su Nuo, who had just returned from taking pictures in the mountains, said that there was something urgent and called Tong Panpan away. Yuer had no choice but to go to the appointment alone.

When Yu Er arrived, Peng Duoyun was already seated. This is a famous open-air café in Qizhou, which is opened on the roof of the building. It's early winter, and it's not very cold. Today's sunset is particularly dazzling, illuminating half of the sky, but there is no warmth when it falls on the body.

Peng Duoyun took the initiative to mention Sui Jinyu, but Yu Er didn't expect it.

"Listen to Panpan, you still have a connection with Sui Jinyu, is she okay?" Yu Erlang squeezed Erlang's legs, "Okay, very good." Peng Duoyun lowered her head and smiled slightly, "It seems that she has been doing well since she moved out of the dormitory." Yu Er picked up the boiled water in front of him and said coldly: "Yes, can she be bad without Bai Zeqing?" She raised her eyes to look at Peng Duoyun and put the water cup on the table again, "Why are you helping me?" ”

"Why can't I help you?" Peng Duoyun asked rhetorically. Yu Er stared at her, "I'm from Sui Jinyu's side, and you're from Bai Zeqing's side, why are you helping me?" Peng Duoyun seemed to have heard a big joke, "It's been so many years, what else is there to stand on." "She's so gentle, but she seems to be a little childish.

Yuer sat up straight and asked solemnly, "Why the hell are you helping me?" At this time, Peng Duoyun has faded from the youth of college, she sits opposite Yuer, dignified and elegant, full of gentleness, it is really unthinkable that she will do things that destroy other people's families.

She stopped laughing, stirred the coffee in front of her, and then looked up at Yu Er and smiled simply: "Because we are classmates, and we are a kind of people, I want to help you." ”

Peng Duoyun's eyes looked unfathomable, and Yu Er was in a trance for a moment, "A kind of person? "Yes, a kind of people." Peng Duoyun put down the teaspoon, leaned her head forward, and whispered: "We are all people who are afraid of this world. ”

Yu Er immediately felt a chill, and one of her hearts seemed to wrinkle, beating violently a few times. It is seen through and has to shrink to protect itself.

Yuer's eyes wandered several times, and finally quietly returned to calm, and she heard herself ask in a trembling voice, "What do you mean?" ”

Peng Duoyun lowered her eyes and began to stir the coffee again. Her voice sounded a little cold at the moment, "I'm afraid of the world, so I don't dare to go to the doctor to settle accounts if I am deceived, I am afraid of the care of others, I dare not communicate with others, and I dare not resist." You are the same, you are also introverted, you are cold on the surface, you also feel that Su Nuo is at fault, but you don't dare to tear your face with her and Bai Zeqing, you are afraid of bringing the war to yourself. You don't dare to go to an unfamiliar environment, it's hard for you to adapt to a new environment, you have to have someone with you, right? ”

At some point, she was staring at Yuer, "Others may not be able to see it, but I know it, because we are one kind of people." It's not the same as reacting, Peng Duoyun smiled calmly: "It's just that I'm used to it now, used to this terrible world, used to living like this, but you don't, I don't want you to get used to it, I don't want you to be the same as when I learned that Xiu Hengyu died, completely hopeless, so I want to help you." ”

The two faced each other and were speechless for a while. Yuer stared at her face for a long, long time before smiling slightly mockingly, "So you helped me because you felt sorry for me?" ”

Peng Duoyun was still smiling cheerfully, "That's right." She took her coffee, leaned on the backrest, and staggered her gaze from Yuer, staring at the traffic downstairs. Yuer squinted at her, cleared his throat and said, "You have a point, I was really afraid of many things in the past. ”

Peng Duoyun looked back at her and collided with Yu Er's gaze. Yuer added: "But I am different from you. ”

Peng Duoyun looked at her suspiciously, and Yu Er clasped his hands together and said, "I want to take the liberty of asking you a question." Peng Duoyun calmed down a little and nodded: "Ask" Yu Er opened his mouth and asked, "Why are you with a married woman?" ”

It was indeed a presumptuous question, Peng Duoyun didn't expect her to ask like this, she moved her body unnaturally, and said with a heavy face: "He found me." ”

Yu Er nodded clearly, "He found you, and you accepted it calmly." Whether it's good or bad, as long as it's given to you, you accept it obediently. Your family of origin has given you that kind of character, and you pin your hopes, and even yourself, on others, wanting to rely on others to pull you out, and even wanting to rely on others to live. However, no one is obligated to have to live with you. Xiu Hengyu, who you liked so much at the beginning, was also too busy in his own world. You don't have a place to hope, so you go completely along with life, you are afraid of the world, you succumb to it, you never even think to be on your own. ”