That night, Qiu Miaoben was reading a book in the living room, and when I washed up, I found that the book was fastened to his lap, and the person had fallen asleep. I crept over and shoved my cold hand through his trivial hair and into the warm back of his neck.

He suddenly clamped my hand backwards, and I reflexively retreated, and the next second, he pressed me and turned around at a great speed.

A silver light appeared in front of him.

The right eye is first covered in a patch of red. A chill was felt on his face, then a tingling pain, followed by a scalding burning sensation. I covered my eyes in pain and heard the sound of a folding knife falling to the ground.

"Yes, I'm sorry......"

There was a panicked murmur in my ears, and the debris on the coffee table fell to the ground. Then, I was beaten and picked up. The sound of slamming doors, footsteps on the stairs, and the sound of engines starting all came to my ears one after the other.

But I couldn't see anything.

"I'm sorry...... Sorry, sorry ......"

It's such a small apology all the way.

When he was in the car, he repeatedly called someone, but he never got through. Somewhere at last, he spoke to another person.

"You don't answer the phone - help me, quick!"

"Are you kidding? I just- ah, forget it, what's going on?"

“...... It's me. ”

"It's ruthless...... Emergency care has to be paid for. ”

It was an equally young male voice. The owner of the voice took me with strong arms and placed me on a somewhat damp operating table. It took a long time to treat the wound, but his movements were sophisticated. As if trying to make me less nervous, he was busy with his hands and didn't have a word with me.

"I've heard of you, you're his new partner. ”

“...... Uh, uh-huh. ”

"I was having a surgery when he called, and I was looking for something before I had cleaned up. There's blood on the bed, and you don't care, right? Next I'm going to take medicine, it's going to be painful, bear with it. ”

Before I finished speaking, I felt a burning pain, and my previously faded sense of touch became sensitive again. I gritted my teeth, cold sweat on my forehead.

"Don't blame him. ”

After that, the doctor stopped talking.

How could I blame him?

Although, in the sudden surprise at the beginning, it was really mixed with astonishment and complaint. But soon, they were replaced by confusion – that is, why he reacted the way he did.

The answer is obvious: he must have experienced enough betrayal.

So much so that the instinctive sense of self-preservation is still deeply engraved in the bone marrow in front of such a girl.

But the reason I didn't care about it at all was that it wasn't a serious injury. The doctor said that I was lucky, the long-term training had made my reflexes more agile, and the flash back at that moment happened to make the blade stagger my eyes, and the wound was not deep.

It's just wonderful. If I can no longer see the world, I don't want to linger.

Taking off the layers of wrapped gauze, Qiu Miao's eyes were complicated when I said this.

"At least I don't want you dead. ”

"Wait, I have the right to make my own choices, right? I'm born with a disability, and I might be used to it, but if I take away my senses, I'll go crazy. If that's the case, I'd rather die. ”

That's how I survive.

"I disagree. ”

When did you feel entitled to control my life and death, are you such a self-righteous person?" I looked up angrily and was about to retort, but when I saw his eyes, which had always been smiling, it was as if a thin layer was covering them, and suddenly I couldn't speak.

It's not his fault – at least, I don't blame him.

All in all, I can't get used to this expression. Think about it, every time he looks at me in the future, he will definitely see this shocking scar.

Although I didn't want to pursue it, I still had this to say:

"Well, I'll forgive you for one thing. ”

"What is it?"

"Why don't you ...... Don't take care of your hair anymore and keep your hair long like a literary youth. It's funny to think about, and I'll laugh at you to my heart's content—and, give me back my car. ”

"Good. ”

A warm smile returned to his face.

And the doctor's territory, we have been there many times since then. It was secluded and not spacious, but it was spotlessly clean and well organised by the doctors.

Sometimes doctors come to us as well. We gaged with other cadres: clubbing, drinking, playing board games and so on.

The doctor taught me where the key points are, how to protect oneself, how to save one's life in an emergency, how to kill a person with a single blow, how to make people feel pain clearly, and how to make the most of the fear of the human heart.

When I have the opportunity, I will practice them one by one. Occasionally the doctor needs something, or I see an interesting and abnormal anatomy, I will take it down and bring it to him.

It's cruel, it's bloody, right?

Didn't you say we're bad people?

Such vicious and vicious bad guys.

People who live in the shadows are not as yearning for the light as they are in the TV series.

We are banished by the light into the darkness and cannot forgive, nor can we forgive everything that happens in the light.

Each of us has our own story. Some I know, some don't, some are willing to say it, some are not.

I don't really like to talk about my life experience, and I only talked about the specific plot with Mr. Qiu. As for whether he told others, who he told and how much, it was his business. I didn't stop him from bringing it up anyway.

This kind of thing, when it comes out of one's own mouth, is somewhat miserable.

I don't want anyone to think how fragile I was in the past, and I don't want anyone to think I need help.

Although, I have to admit, I was very fragile in the past.

I vowed to be stronger, but I didn't know what level would make me feel satisfied.

I just want to keep moving forward and never look back at my past self again.

But no matter what, everything that leads to the status quo has a reason.

Those who are simply loyal to the chaos are not absent, but they are few and far between.

I don't know if the doctor counts as one, but at least he feels like he is. And, everybody says so.

The so-called "good and evil" is not an absolute position, there are evil means in good, and there are good laws in evil.

In the same way, there are no inherently good people, and there are no inherently evil people.

As for Qiu Miao's past, I don't know much about it, and I haven't taken the initiative to ask. I heard that although it was very ordinary, he himself was relatively evasive.

Also, who wants others to poke their scars repeatedly.

I knew that even if I asked, he would tell me a good story about it for the sake of this scar. Just the thought of it makes me feel unnecessary.

Knowing that he was willing to tell me, that was enough.

Do you think Mr. Qiu is a good person?

So it was with him. Whenever the creature I tortured let out a terrible scream, and the others trembled and stepped aside, he was the only one who stood quietly and straight behind me, with a calm face and a calm mind, as I had known him.

Just like in the movies, he plays the role of an elegant and ruthless villain.

He also dealt with many of the little pitifuls who tried to kill back when they were dying. With him, I can do whatever I want, and everything is reassuring. Naturally, when interrogated when necessary, he would play the appearance of a moderate.

Red face and white face singing and harmony, we are a match made in heaven.

As a result, our position in the organization is increasing day by day. As for funding, I've never been too concerned. I don't have much to spend, and when I'm short of money, even if I talk to him, he basically doesn't ask me what I'm going to do.

I never thought I would live such a dream life. Opportunities and risks coexist, and there are thrilling and exciting things happening every day, overwhelming, but so fulfilling. That's the freedom I want, complete freedom.

Any freedom that presupposes restraint is not absolute.

Absolute freedom, on the other hand, will bring about disorder in the social order.

So what does it matter?

The laws and rules did not protect me when I needed them, on the contrary, they took away what was important to me.

Then I don't have to obey it.

"We're going to go on like this, aren't we?" I wiped the shiny muzzle.

"Maybe. ”

"Be confident, sir. I swear, we'll never get bored. ”

We took a big deal and assassinated a well-known professor in academia. It seems to have something to do with a religious organization, I don't know about it, but they came to the boss and offered us a lot of money, and they gave us the task.

It seems that the surname is Xie, or is it a solution...... Something, study the stars. It doesn't matter, I don't care - it seems to be so well-known, I asked for an autograph, and maybe it will sell for a big price in the future.

I dive in with ease and did a great job.

Later, Qiu Miao told me that we already had enough money to do something else.

At the time, I was fiddling with an orange-red electric bass. It was a birthday present he had given me earlier – even if it wasn't a sad day, just an excuse – and I loved it, it fit well with my car.

I wasn't very good at playing, and I was making new noises every day.

"And what do you want to do?"

I took him and drank half of the water and took a sip.

"Where to play, or...... To open a store, it is better to have business acumen than to develop a new source of income. ”

"Okay, how about a bar?"

"Hmm, I'm leaning towards a teahouse or something......"

Perhaps it was because of the long period of turbulent life that he longed for tranquility. But I didn't understand it at the time.

"Oh yes, I just said that I have something for you to deliver today. ”

"Then I'll go now. ”

I threw the water with the lid screwed on, and he expertly caught it with one hand and replied to messages with his phone in the other.

"If it's too late, I'll tell them you'll go tomorrow. ”

"Ah, no problem. ”

"Well, stay safe. ”

He patted me on the head again, and I pulled his hand away.

I didn't know I would regret it.

Whether he regrets agreeing to deliver the goods, or does he take his hand away?

Then, when I understood the value of peace and quiet, it was too late.

Hopelessly late.

- Oath · Fin -