Last night, before going to bed, I saw a paragraph in English in the circle of friends, and I felt a lot, as if I was telling my heart, so I copied and pasted it into the notepad in my mobile phone. I woke up in the morning and read it carefully, and then I couldn't help but get out of bed, and I took a pen and wrote it down without washing my teeth or brushing my face. I think there should be people like me, when they see a certain sentence or hear a certain sentence, they can especially touch a certain heartstring of their heart.

“It is graceful grief sweet sadness to think of you， but in my heart， there is a kind of soft warmth that can not be expressed with choic of words. Those days when we were together appear in my mind time after time ，because they were so joyful， happy ，blest ，disappointing ，sad painful. I miss you ， miss you so much .”

While writing, I was thinking about a person in my heart, and I didn't feel too sad, just a little loneliness.

I don't know how to suddenly send you an emoji on WeChat, the last chat history was 6 months ago, so I didn't think you would reply. But what I didn't expect was that you replied in seconds, "Did you get up so early?" Then there was another one: "Today's New Year's Day, there should be no classes, shouldn't I sleep lazy." I'm fine today, I don't know what to do when I think about it······" Because I often look at your circle of friends, I know that you are now a teacher in a training institution in Shanghai, teaching children. I still remember that some time before you took the teacher qualification certificate, I accompanied you to the library to read books and do questions, and I never thought that you would be able to pass with one click. You said you hadn't gotten up yet, and said that after talking to me on the phone last night, you chose a few of my diaries and re-copied them, trying to see if you could feel the mood I felt when I put down the pen at that time, so I went to bed very late, but I woke up inexplicably in the morning, and I didn't want to leave the bed. I would love to tell you, tell you what I've been through during this time, tell you how much I miss you, but I didn't. Because I know that if you have me in your heart, you will feel bad when you hear this, if you don't have me in your heart······ None of this is what I see. I just want to be able to hear your words and hold your hand at some point during that time. And that's all in the past, and there's no point in mentioning it again.

After chatting for about an hour, you said you wanted to catch up on sleep and talk later. After that, I began to wash up and go out to eat breakfast, and the habit of eating breakfast began to slowly develop. I heard that the New Year's Day party will be held at the football stadium tonight, so I stood at the main entrance of the first cafeteria and looked in the direction of the football field, but I didn't seem to see any movement.

After returning to the dormitory, he was surprised to find that Yuan Zhe was already sitting in front of the computer and frantically clicking on the keyboard. I couldn't help but ask, "What's the situation?" According to your biological clock, now should be the time to go to bed at night" Usually he will sleep late when he doesn't have classes, and then he won't be able to get up until the afternoon of the next day. He simply replied with a "LOL". Last night, I heard that Yang Ke and several other classmates in the class were directly platinum in the grading competition, and only he was golden. I haven't been there for more than a month.,Both of them started to play LOL.,Before, they only occasionally accompanied to learn to play a few games.,Now they don't play dota much.,Start playing League of Legends.。 Viagra also woke up and lay on the boat to watch the TV series of the Anti-Japanese War type that he was fond of. Only Yang Ke was still asleep beautifully.

When we went to dinner together at noon, we saw that the football field had already begun to build a stage, and the New Year's Day party was indeed a thing. But this kind of activity, we basically don't go to join in the fun. At dinner, Yuan Zhe said, "I'll go to the football field later, I heard that this year's school girls are very good-looking······" I don't know where he heard about it. I just said "oh" to Viagra in response. Soon, he dressed up and went out, Yang Ke went to the school next door to accompany his girlfriend, and I and Viagra planned to stay in the dormitory. Just as I was playing Dota and you sent me a video, I hurriedly quit the game, still feeling more or less guilty about my teammates. At the same time, there is a kind of nervous and slightly excited mood. After receiving the video, I saw your smiling face, and I also greeted you with a smile. It was quite uncomfortable at first, and then the conversation was also very awkward, after all, I haven't seen each other for more than half a year, and I can feel that each other is cautious through the screen. Slowly, the conversation began to be very casual, as if it had returned to its previous state. Taunting each other, joking, and then talking about the past. When I said I missed you, I don't know if it was my delusion, but when I saw the tears in the corners of your eyes, it was my delusion, and you never seemed to leave.

Good night.

- Diary, January 1, 2013

What I can't stop thinking about you is the tip of the pen, and I think, on the day I saw you off, I still owe you a word - goodbye, we will meet again.