Opening your eyes and seeing you is like a ray of sunshine coming out in the morning.

You sat on the bed, rubbed your eyes, and said to me, "I woke up in the morning for two reasons, one is that I have slept enough, and the other is that I am hungry. I don't know how to proceed. You shake your head and lie down and slap the soft quilt, shouting "I'm hungry, get up and eat!" "Witnessing all this in front of me, it seems that there is no more appropriate move than taking out my phone and taking a picture." Come, look at the camera, and laugh! There was a hint of sarcasm in my words, and you glared at me, and I continued: "Look at your unkempt head, pay attention to your image, and I look at it!" "You completely ignore the word image I said, and instead start using your hands and feet together, like a child. Then he turned his head and asked me, "Did you look good?" If it doesn't look good, it was deleted. "For you like this, I always don't hesitate to smile at myself.

"What do you want to eat?" Leaned into my ear and whispered a question, then stared at me intently.

"You" I blurted out, and then avoided your eyes, not daring to look you directly.

"What do you say? Again, I didn't hear clearly. You took my arm and leaned over and asked me mischievously.

I glanced at the upturned corners of your mouth and smiling eyes, and quickly said, "Nothing, nothing······ I want to eat duck breast rice from the second canteen, what about you? ”

You didn't ask any more questions, smiled and said, "I want to eat the small fried pork on the second floor of the first cafeteria." ”

I said, "Okay, let's go to a cafeteria." "I decided without hesitation. I didn't think about you, but you weren't happy.

"What you said doesn't count, rock-paper-scissors, if you win, you will go to the second canteen together, and if I win, I will go to the first canteen." You said as if you didn't care about my compromise at all. At this time, my inner monologue is - you really know how to play, let you not, don't let you not, you asked me what to eat at the beginning of the original is a proposition, I can't say it right. Well, I'll be more accommodating to you. You ask me what came out of it, I said the stone, you thought about it for a while and then said start, and it turned out that both of them came out of the stone at the same time.

"You're really out of stone!" You're a little confused, and you seem to be still coming up with something.

"You won't be calculating me when I tell you the stones, are you? It's really a villain's heart. I said with a look of disgust.

"Okay, good, second one, what's wrong with you?" You asked me angrily.

"Scissors," I replied crisply.

"Rock-paper-scissors!" You shout. I'm out of the scissors, you're out of the cloth. "Let's go, go to the second canteen!" You pulled me along and said.

"What's the situation? Did you mean to let me? Then you can just do what I want in the first place, really. I said with a puzzled look on my face and a slight tone of reprimand.

"That's different, don't be deliberately humble, for the sake of fairness, you win with your ability, so listen to you." You feel like you have a lot of sense, and you explain the difference to me in a serious way. I was powerless to refute it, I thought about it, and then thought about what I was capable of, I was not impressed by this logic, but only by you.

As I walked, you suddenly stopped me and crouched down, and I looked down at you helping me tie my loose shoelaces. "The laces are all loose," you said softly, deftly tying the knot with both hands.

I just said "thank you" and asked, "You should tie your shoes regularly, right?" I'm not a schoolboy in your class. ”

"Yes, but we don't have a big baby like you in our class. The children in my class are very fun, I play with them like classmates, and I play with them all day, although sometimes it is quite tiring, but it is very happy······" You say it proudly. I can tell from your words and look that you are enjoying and content with your current state. In the eyes of others, you may be a person who likes freedom and independence, but in front of me, you never disguise yourself, and in my eyes, you are like a child. I play the role of an adult, when you want to be coquettish, give you a pampered look, when you are lonely, tell you that I am willing to listen to you at any time, and tell you that I am waiting for you at the origin when you are tired of walking away.

Our daily life together couldn't be simpler, nothing particularly worth mentioning or delving into, but I love the simplicity so much that I even feel that this time is too little and goes by too quickly.

"If there is a particular place you want to go, let's go together in the afternoon. I'm going home tomorrow, and you have to go back too. "You didn't look at me, you just said simply. Actually, I'm scared of this situation, because every time we separate, it seems like we'll never meet again, and even if we say goodbye, it's only hundreds of days and nights. I didn't show my reluctance or reluctance, and after a few sounds, I pretended to be very serious and asked, "Can I go anywhere?" ”

"Where else do you want to go? Isn't it possible that you want to go to Japan and France now? It is possible to go back and forth on the day in the nearby place. You glared at me and reprimanded.

"your heart!" I whispered in your ear without shame.

"You're already there, you don't have to go." You look me in the eye and say. I was surprised when you never reacted so quickly, and my heart was like a deer. If I'm not mistaken, I'm being tricked.

"Seriously, the weather is so good, let's go for a walk outside the school." It's like you're asking for my permission, but I'm not used to saying no.

The environment around the school is very good, you can see Tangxun Lake less than two or three hundred meters out of the school gate, standing on the bridge, bathing in the warm sunshine, feeling the cool lake breeze, the sparkling waves in front of you flicker, and the vehicles driving behind you honk from time to time. We held hands and walked aimlessly. I can seem to conclude that this is the life I want to have twenty years from now.

Walking all the way, there was no place to eat or a small shop along the way, and when we returned to school, it was almost seven o'clock, and we were tired and hungry and went directly to the second canteen. When I entered the door, I noticed that the LED light on the wall showed the movie "My Ghost Girlfriend" at eight o'clock in the evening, and the title of this film was a suspected horror movie, anyway, there was no arrangement, so I thought I could watch it. While I was waiting for a good meal, I said I'd buy you a drink, but I actually went to the third floor to buy a movie ticket. I like to watch movies, but I don't have the right people to accompany me, so I rarely have the opportunity. It's not good to go to the cinema alone, and it's weird to have two men, so watching a movie with you is a beautiful thing.

I still remember the last time I watched a Thai horror movie with you, you were always scared by the background music, and then occasionally grabbed my arm, and when you encountered some frightening scene, you blindfolded me with one hand, and the other hand leaked a little gap to cover your own eyes. I'm not afraid of horror movies at all, so it just feels like you're being funny.

The old rules, rock-paper-scissors, the loser buys tea for watching the movie. I won, and you were so excited to go and buy me a cup of honey yuzu tea, and buy yourself a cup of black tea, with a bucket of popcorn in your hand. I ask you, "How do you buy popcorn?" Didn't you say before that it didn't taste good and you wouldn't buy it later? "You replied that I hadn't eaten it for a long time, and suddenly I saw it and bought it.

This movie is not a thriller horror movie at all, I misunderstood, except for a few thriller soundtracks, it can be considered a sweet romantic comedy, yes, you laughed several times. Fortunately, we both feel very good-looking, after all, you also know that I like Son Ye-jin, the star of this movie. After reading it, you asked me why I liked Son Ye-jin, and I said, "It's beautiful." You asked me as if you were jealous, "Is it good-looking?" So who do you think is better-looking? Who do you prefer? I didn't say my answer, you said to yourself, "It's really good-looking, I'm humiliating myself!" I smiled and agreed, "Well, it's pretty self-aware!" But, I still like you! You hurriedly opened the topic, "Forget it, don't listen to what you say······"

There was still some time before the dormitory closed, and we walked in the dark night with the lights, until we walked to the football field and sat back to back, the lights were all out, there was no one, it was very quiet. I asked you if you were cold, and you said it was okay, and I asked you to put your hand inside my coat, and then pulled the coat and draped it over you as much as I could, without too many words. When I got up to leave, it seemed that my feelings were getting stronger, and the hands holding each other tighter.

"Do you still want to keep a diary?" You're already lying on my bed, poking your head out and looking at me under the bed, writing a diary on the table. I said, "Yes! I want to write it down. Maybe after a year or two I don't remember what happened with you today, but when I see this, I should remember. "By the time I said this, you had already climbed out of bed, unfolded the folded sofa, turned the side to 135 degrees, and asked me to move it away, then took off the quilt from the bed and slept on it. You said you wanted to see me write in my diary, and when I was in the library, you would unconsciously look at me a few more times, because I was very serious when I first wrote and read. As I spoke, let me sit next to you and write on the folding table. I looked at you wickedly and said, "You sleep next to me, I'm afraid that I can't restrain my inner impulse and can't resist the temptation to do something to you, aren't you afraid?" You looked at me with contempt and said, "What do you think! I'm not afraid. ”

I think at that moment, there were countless different mes in my heart, and there were countless different voices. But for the uncertainty of the future, or even tomorrow's separation, I don't want to be anyone's stumbling block or emotional burden, maybe this is the so-called responsibility I have always been self-righteous about treating your feelings. I don't know what you're thinking, but at that moment I was awake and knew my mind. Is it because of this that we are so simple and pure, and I am so attached to you, I have always been at a loss.

You leaned quietly by my side, and I looked at you from time to time, and then wrote down this word until you fell asleep unconsciously. For the unknown tomorrow, for us who do not confirm each other, I think we still maintain this idealistic love, don't ask for anything, so that when you leave, I will not become a burden to you, and I will not become irresponsible in my eyes, so I think my love for you is simple and pure.

Put away the pen in your hand, carefully cover the quilt for you, gently kiss your forehead, close to you, lie on your side and look at you, hoping to enter your dream.

—Diary, January 23, 2013