"What are you doing? Sullen. ”

Liu Xiyao walked to Bai Xue's room and found her sitting at a table near the window, holding a pen, holding her chin, in a daze.

Bai Xue came to her senses and pretended to be serious about writing something, but the tip of the pen did not move, as if it was stuck.

"Write a review!" Bai Xue smiled a little embarrassedly, "When I checked the ward with the director the day before yesterday, I was absent-minded and asked me about the patient's situation. ”

"What, can't you write it? You've started spelling out, right? Liu Xiyao deliberately sneered and handed her a glass of watermelon juice, "Freshly squeezed, fresh." ”

Can't write it? How could it be. Although Bai Xue is not like Han Yi to write and paint, she actually writes very well, let alone writing thousands of words of review, eighteen thousand is not a problem.

She was just purely in a daze, not thinking about Han Yi, nor thinking about how their relationship would develop, she just didn't think about anything, she was stupid in a daze.

In this summer in Chongqing, it is a great pleasure to blow the air conditioner at home and drink a glass of watermelon juice.

She took a sip, put down the cup, then stared at Liu Xiyao, and asked curiously, "How long have you not been in love?" ”

"Just a few months." Liu Xiyao thought about it carefully and replied affirmatively: "4 months!" It was not long after returning to school after the New Year. ”

Although she is only in her early twenties, she has also been in love several times, there are juniors younger than her, classmates in the same class as her, seniors who have graduated, and men who are seven or eight years older than her, like Han Yi's age.

The first few relationships were very short, a month, two months, and the time with the uncle who was slightly older than her was longer, more than a year, but in the end they broke up peacefully.

Bai Xue asked, "Do you hate him?" ”

Liu Xiyao said with a smile: "At the beginning, to be honest, I hated it, because she dumped me. Sent me a breakup text message and suddenly it disappeared. It's much better now, and I don't have time to think about those bad people, the things that worry about it. ”

"Is it just a sudden goodbye?" Bai Xue was very curious, probably because in the relationship between Han Yi and Zhong Ying'er, Zhong Ying'er just didn't say goodbye, she knew best what Han Yi looked like she was going to die or not to live, and she also knew that the most difficult thing for Han Yi to accept was this kind of behavior without saying goodbye.

"There is nothing in this world that does not say goodbye, and all departures are planned for a long time!" Liu Xiyao looked at Bai Xue with a smile, "Leave, there are many kinds, some people are gone, but their hearts have never been far away, and some people have never been far away, but their hearts have long withered." I used to be full of blood for a person, and I couldn't wait to share what I saw and heard with him, although I couldn't give him the most expensive, but what I gave him was the best you have. Those days spent in my thoughts, I was reluctant to turn off my phone when I went to sleep, for fear that he would suddenly send a message, but he didn't have time to reply, so he always looked forward to it day and night.

·····”

This may be the first time since the breakup that she has said what she has been hiding in her heart and has not said to anyone.

Many people are in a relationship, and they are aware of it later.

At first, I thought it was good, but slowly, I found that he didn't seem to value her so much, and every time she needed him, she couldn't find him.

Some people say that those who want to send you home are on the way from east to west, north and south, and those who truly love you are not busy day and night. Perhaps, the snubbing and disappearance on weekdays just proves that he doesn't love enough, or doesn't cherish it enough.

From full of anticipation, to disappointment, but began to understand, when she met someone who didn't understand her, a thousand words were a waste, and she began to understand, a person who insisted on pretending to be asleep would never be able to understand what she was thinking.

Until one day, he stopped telling her everything, until one day, she chose to bear everything alone, and the feelings were almost here.

She is not very old, and when she speaks, she looks much more mature than Bai Xue. She said with a smile: "If you can't see the person you love, you will have no choice but to let go, and if you can't get the person you cherish, you will decide to leave." ”

How many stories are in this smile? How many tears are there in the story?

An independent girl, a girl who is desperate to survive in life, will naturally bear and understand much more than the average girl.

When you talk about their feelings, you will inevitably think of yourself and make a comparison.

Liu Xiyao looked at Bai Xue, who was puzzled, and continued: "Seriously, I envy you! ”

She knew that when Han Yi was mentioned at this time, Bai Xue would definitely not be happy to hear it, so she simply said this. Hao Yali also said such things to Liu Xiyao before, and she said that she was very envious of Bai Xue.

Next, she was like a love mentor and "brainwashed" Bai Xue.

~

I saw a sentence in WeChat: A thousand men chase you, and not necessarily one man loves you.

Every time someone asks why you don't have a boyfriend, I always answer that no one wants it, and then they scoff, how is it possible, which girl doesn't have three or five boys to chase, it's your own vision that looks down on others.

However, even if I don't say whether I look up to others or not, I don't see how much anyone thinks of me.

I always feel that some boys' pursuits are like games, he thinks you're good, you can be used as a girlfriend and he starts to pursue, in fact, when it comes to liking you, there isn't much to like, you don't agree to his pursuit, he immediately gave up, such a difficult person, or change the goal.

Of course, there are probably some sincere ones, who think you're very good and really want to be with you, but this is not necessarily love, people say that falling in love without the purpose of marriage is a hooligan, but I think the pursuit of marriage alone is a hooligan, people say that marriage is a man's best respect for a woman, but I think love is.

Some people say that girls have no love, and whoever treats her well will love her

Who, but the definition of good for each girl is still different.

There are always friends who complain to me that it is so easy for some people to meet love, and they just break up and talk about another immediately, while we are so difficult.

I said that everyone's requirements and perceptions of love are different, for example, I have very high requirements for love, I want him to understand me, I want him to warm me, I want him to feel love, I want me to be with him for a lifetime, I don't want to try if I have a little anxiety and doubt.

Some people, as long as two people have fun together, they can probably use it to fall in love, and as for how much they can talk about it in the future, they will see as they go.

Some girls are easily confused by some appearances, send bouquets of flowers, remember your birthday and all your anniversaries. You think how much he loves you, but in fact, this only proves that he is probably a hearted or romantic person, but it does not mean how deep the love is.

I have a female classmate, tall and tall, with a good face, I used to have a boyfriend who I talked to for a year, she often said to me: I want to break up, but I'm afraid he won't agree, he loves me too much, I went to Shenzhen for my own development, worked hard for my career, and did a lot of things for me.

Every time I listen to her words, I want to refute two sentences, is it for you, didn't he want to go to Shenzhen by himself, didn't he work hard because he wanted to make a difference.

He's just coaxing you in such a nice name, do you really believe it?

If he really loves you, will he yell at you every day?

If he really loves you, will he watch you work while you move, sitting on the couch and smoking?

Later, they quarreled and broke up, and it was the boy who mentioned it.

I think she is a person who is blinded by her own good conditions, she will think that I am so good, I deserve so many people to love me very much, so she easily believes that those flowers and sweet words of romance represent love.

And many ordinary girls, do not have so much self-confidence, even if someone is attentive and thoughtful by her side every day, they will not easily regard it as love, such a girl's heart is very deep, not some superficial language and romance can touch, it needs a very deep heart, to be able to understand what she needs.

First of all, you have to make me feel that you love me, and if you don't like me to the extent of love, it's okay. But you only made me feel that I want to get married, I am a suitable marriage partner, and if you want to fall in love, I meet the criteria to be your girlfriend, but there is not much love in it.

Yan Geling has a book called "Frost Fall", the heroine is a little nanny from a high-level family, she likes the youngest son of this family, and the youngest son also likes her, but because she is a little nanny, he refuses to admit that he likes it, he lies, he hides, he escapes, he has a new girlfriend, the same high-level family, the same pride, the same he respects her but doesn't love her, they work hard to love each other, they know that each other is the most perfect couple, but they don't love. He likes Frostfall, but because of Frostfall's career and pursuits, he doesn't respect her

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True love is not just to feel that she conforms to your view of mate selection, nor is it simply a liking, but should like her, respect her, and no matter what kind of family, what kind of profession, and what she has experienced.

The rich give you material, the time gives you companionship, and the emotional gives you romance, those are not the true and complete appearance of love.

True love should be, the heart is dedicated to you, the fun-loving is stable for you, the anxious is waiting for you, the love is evasive for you to persevere, and the proud is humble for you.

Because you try things that you are not good at, for the sake of you to become a more worthy and better person, this is the most silly and true appearance of love.

For some people, love is really hard, but no matter how difficult it is, you can't give up hope, because it's real, but it's not your turn yet.

As for me, the question that should be considered now should be to be more independent and live a better life. Like you, you have cultivation, assertiveness, and such a decent job as a doctor to support yourself!

~

Bai Xue expressed doubt, is it as good as you say? Will there be someone who truly loves me?

She silently wrote a poem she liked very much, "Love" by Roy Creeft

I love you

Not just because of the way you look,

Also because,

When I'm with you,

The way I look.

I love you

Not only because of what you have done for me,

Also because,

For you,

What I can do.

I love you

Because you can summon out,

The most real part of me.

I love you

For thou hast traversed the wilderness of my heart,

As easy as sunlight penetrates crystal,

My stupidity,

My weaknesses,

Barely exists in your gaze.

And the most beautiful place in my heart,

but illuminated by thy light,

No one else has bothered to go that far,

Others find it too troublesome to find,

So no one has ever discovered my beauty,

So no one has ever been here.

(End of chapter)