Han Le:

I made an important decision more than a week ago, I wanted to tell you at that time, and talk to you by the way, but in the end there is still no, maybe I am afraid that I will hesitate after talking to you, I think such a thing if I finally give up because of hesitation, it is somewhat a pity for me, but now it doesn't matter, in fact, this decision is not a big deal, just when I wrote this paragraph, I checked it on the Internet, there are nearly 800,000 people in the world who make this kind of decision every year, There are almost 300,000 of them in China alone, and I'm just one of them - maybe you've already reached the point at the moment, yes, I'm going to kill myself, no, let's put it more bluntly, I'm going to die.

At the same time, as a friend, please don't call me and my family, and tell them that it is cruel to tell them that their only son is dying and cannot be stopped, and that it is obviously more humane to let them see my cold body directly in the morgue. In fact, you could have thought of me as a corpse—perhaps you saw the corpse before you came back to see the letter. Hehe, I don't know why, I want to laugh when I think of this scene, I am almost moved by my own death!

Maybe at the same time you know what I did before I died, and even if you don't know, I can tell you here, quite simply, I did one thing that I always wanted to do when I was a kid but never had the opportunity to do, and that was to be a big bad guy – 12 hours ago, I injected myself with a highly contagious avian flu virus that only exists in the lab.

I know that maybe my childish approach has hurt a lot of people, including even the people we know, even you, I can't guarantee this, I met Qiao Yiyu unexpectedly last night, if you have also seen her, I suggest you hurry up and go to the hospital for a few days of observation, but I believe you will be able to understand my approach, I remember that we discussed the topic of death before, and I also admit that half of my approach is out of purposeless selfishness, satisfying my own anti-social * desire for destruction, And half of it is out of revenge – don't think about it, not you.

I may not be able to choose a life that satisfies me, but I can at least choose a death that satisfies me, as you said before, and I think the same applies to me. So don't feel sad, this decision is the result of my serious consideration, remember what you said to me because of Qiao Yiyu, I believe in your judgment, so please believe me as much - I don't want me to leave you with the impression of a guy who committed suicide because of impulse, if you really think so, then our friend will be too much of a failure.

Okay, let's get down to business - I remember when you had suicidal thoughts, I said this to you, let you make a will before you die, and leave me a little bit, but I didn't expect me to be one step ahead of you, I don't have much money, a total of more than 13,000 cash, of which 10,000 I left to my parents, more than 3,000 when I was in this year's water and electricity rent, and a computer, a mobile hard disk, oh, QQ too, I officially announced that they all belong to you, and I reset the password, ******.

Also, if my parents come to you and ask you for my personal belongings, you can give them all the clothes and the like, but not the computer - I don't want the last bit of information I have left in this world to be misinterpreted by them, I sympathize with their loss of their son, and thank them for giving me more than twenty years of life, but that's not the same thing as I hate communicating with them.

Finally, if my behavior has caused you unnecessary trouble or even danger, I will not ask for your forgiveness, but only ask you to understand me, and that is enough. If the police ask you about me, you don't have to mention the letter to them, I don't want these words to be used as material by psychologists in the future, if my parents ask me about my life here, you say everything is fine, I can't think of it myself, if there are other people who care about my life or death, just tell them that I just deleted the number and stopped playing.

Oh, and finally, just glanced at the computer date, it's April Fool's Day - what an ironic coincidence, maybe it's because of this date, the meaning of all the words I wrote above will be temporarily misinterpreted, but time will tell.

Xie Yongqing.

When I watched it for the first time, Han Le did come with the attitude of appreciating April Fool's Day jokes, but when he saw that there were no common mischief episodes - such as "Haha, take it seriously" and the like, Han Le already felt that something was wrong, and after watching it again from beginning to end, Han Le was already a little panicked, Xie Yongqing usually likes to make some jokes, but the content is always harmless, and there are few misleading ingredients - not to mention that it is so realistic as what is written in this letter, If his family saw it, maybe they would call the police directly.

However, Han Le is not very sure of this judgment, after all, the content of the letter is too sudden, but if you think about it carefully, if what is said in the letter is true, Han Le will not feel strange - Xie Yongqing did do this kind of thing, maybe let him give him a gun or that knife to kill people on the road, he didn't dare, and he couldn't do it, but if you want to inject yourself with a virus, Xie Yongqing can do it, it's like if you have an extra piece of software on Han Le's computer, you can kill people by pressing it, although it is illegal to do so, But Han Le can't guarantee that one day he won't do it.

I don't know if it's a psychological effect or a real virus, when he thought that the content of the letter might be the real situation, Han Le really felt a little dizzy, his forehead was hot, he raised his head too much and glanced at Qiao Yiyu, who was busy making breakfast for himself, and walked over and asked with some uncertainty: "Do you feel uncomfortable?" ”

"What?" Qiao Yiyu was fiddling with the finger cakes on the pan for breakfast, and he hadn't reacted yet.

After Han Le repeated the question, she shook her head: "It's nothing?" What's wrong? ”

Han Le was a little unsure: "I seem to have a cold, you touch my forehead to see if it's hot?" "After saying that, I regretted it a little, which may cause misunderstanding.

But Qiao Yiyu didn't think there was anything, so he directly stretched over and tried it: "It seems to be a bit high, why don't you go home and take some medicine." ”

"No," Han Le said, but there was a little drumming in his heart, and he sat back in front of the computer and looked at the name of the compressed bag, "What is the cause of my death?" ", and heard the mobile phone come back, "The user you dialed has been turned off, please dial again later", the whole body suddenly shivered, and then suddenly stood up and said to Qiao Yiyu: "I'll go to the hospital to see." ”

……

Han Le is not the only one who has the same discomfort, Professor Liu has just woken up in the hotel at this time, but he doesn't pay too much attention to it, he is getting older, and the discomfort after drinking is getting stronger and stronger, maybe he also catches a cold...... When he washed his face in the morning, Professor Liu touched his forehead with some warmth and sighed.

When Xie Yongqing came back early, Professor Liu was still pressing his forehead that was a little dizzy, smelling the vinegar and feeling a little hungry, and asked Xie Yongqing, "Xiaolongbao?" ”

"Yes," Xie Yongqing opened the bag, successively put the xiaolongbao, ginger shreds, and vinegar on the small coffee table in the room, and handed the other party a pair of chopsticks, "The hotel provided it for free, I brought it back for you, eat it while it's hot." "You can still eat, you still want to eat, and you can still eat.

Professor Liu was indeed hungry, so he picked up the chopsticks and stuffed one into his mouth, the authentic Shenhai xiaolong soup dumpling, because he was in a hurry to eat, the juice scalded his mouth, but he didn't get angry but laughed: "It tastes good, you can eat it too." ”

"No, I've eaten downstairs," Xie Yongqing looked at Professor Liu's smile and the little white on his temples, and couldn't help but feel sad for him, and said, "You eat slowly, I'll go back to school first." ”

"...... material?"

"Oh, look at my head," Xie Yongqing patted his head, "I was in a hurry to come over yesterday, and I forgot it in the dormitory, but I am still not sure about some places in it, I am too anxious to tell you about it, give me two days to confirm it and then send it to you." ”

"It's not in a hurry," the old man was able to endure at this time, "You're also busy during this time, so let's give you three more days off, and you can send it to me on the weekend." ”

"No problem." Xie Yongqing agreed, he didn't know if the old man would live until the weekend, it was up to him to create, anyway, in his own plan, he would not live that day, such an empty promise was to promise another hundred and he had no pressure, "Then I'll go first." ”

As soon as he came out of the room, Xie Yongqing put on a mask for himself, in fact, it would not make much difference whether he brought it or not, because the old man would come out again, as well as the officials who drank together last night, the service staff of the hotel, and that Zhu Yuxiang...... Xie Yongqing is just doing this to comfort himself, it is very hypocritical to do so, but Xie Yongqing doesn't want to delve into this problem at the moment, he just wants to make himself feel a little better and meet death in a better state.

If it is the usual avian influenza virus, it is generally transmitted through the respiratory tract, multiplication, and gradually enters the bloodstream in the process, which is a relatively long stage, which generally takes a few days or even a week to complete, and in this process, the body's immune system has been able to respond, and the virus begins to fight, and finally the resistance is completely defeated, it often takes more than ten days, if there is a good medical environment to assist, it may drag on longer. But Xie Yongqing knew that he didn't have so much time, he had already started to have a high fever at more than 5 o'clock in the morning, if he hadn't been prepared to take a large dose of antipyretics, he might have passed out now - the virus in his body was directly injected into the blood, and the virus might have completely skipped the outpost battle such as the respiratory tract and entered the stage of all-out war, and he had to do everything he needed to do before he could clearly control his body.

The road back to the dormitory from the hotel is not far, it only takes 20 minutes to walk, and it takes 5 minutes to take a taxi. In fact, it is very similar to his current situation, if he takes a taxi, he may harm one driver, but if he walks back, he may harm people along the way, and finally decided to take a taxi, not that he decided to harm only one driver, but Xie Yongqing felt that he should save his physical strength as much as possible.

Suicide is actually very untechnical, there are many ready-made examples, and the range of options is also very large, just a rope or a blade for a low-key point, don't choose sleeping pills, toss people for a long time, not to mention that they may not die, and then do it at home as soon as they grit their teeth, if they live alone at home like Han Le originally did, it is estimated that they will not be found if they are rotten; Choose a high-profile building, think about life melancholy, sing loudly about the motherland, or even scold the government, blame him for God, and in short, in the end, swoop into a free fall - don't think about what it's like on the ground, that pile of things has nothing to do with you, just think about flying through the last few seconds of your life......

Xie Yongqing originally planned to find a way to get himself a small device for euthanasia, but in fact, it was not difficult to do, it was nothing more than three automatic boosters, medicines, and a bed, just ask a junior brother to make an electronic automatic control device, it was very simple, but it would take a lot of time to prepare - but courage would be worn out with time, and Xie Yongqing did not feel that his courage to die could support it for a long time.

So it's only a little simpler, after returning to the dormitory, Xie Yongqing pulled the doors, windows and curtains, and then took out a roll of tape, sealing the possible gaps between the doors and windows, after doing it, he looked around, felt that there was nothing missing, and then pulled out a small basin from under the bed, which was full of some white carbon for barbecue, and a small bottle of gasoline for ignition, he took these things to the bathroom and lit them, and then lay back on the bed, poured himself a glass of water, and took two sleeping pills, now he can rest assured, Sleep forever.

……

"It's been confirmed, it's bird flu!" Han Le had been transferred to a closed ward, and the doctor said with a nervous expression that was more nervous than him through his protective suit, his voice was a little muffled, and the voice was like a sledgehammer hitting all of Han Le's thoughts, "Think about it carefully, have you ever come into contact with poultry anywhere in the past few days?" For example, the vegetable market ......"

Han Le knew what the answer was, but he wasn't going to say it. At this time, he clearly recalled the words left by Xie Yongqing in the letter for the first time - "If my behavior has brought you unnecessary trouble or even danger, I will not ask for your forgiveness", in fact, Xie Yongqing does not need to ask for extravagance, Han Le has already forgiven him, even if he knows that he is dying because of this, Han Le is only a little lost - maybe Xie Yongqing is really dead now, maybe not yet, but even if he knows that he is not dead, Han Le does not plan to say it and let people save him, On this point, Han Le and Xie Yongqing had a consensus very early on, a person should have the freedom to die.

"No," Han Le shook his head and denied the doctor's speculation, "By the way, can you contact this person, I had contact with him yesterday, and he looks like he has a cold......"

Han Le gave Zhu Yuxiang's phone number to the doctor, and Zhu Yuxiang swiped this number on the wall of their corridor, it was difficult to remember, originally he kept this number just to find an opportunity to take revenge and go back to prank, but now it may be able to save his life.

Then Han Le called Qiao Yiyu again, told her the "bad news", and asked her to come to the hospital for a check-up - maybe she was also infected.

Qiao Yiyu was a little shaken on the other side of the phone, and Han Le could even hear that he was nervous, and this attitude made him somewhat relieved: "You mean that you are very likely to die because of this?" ”

"Theoretically," Han Le also dragged the words, pretending to be relaxed, "but I hope not." ”

"I'll be right here, what hospital are you in?"

About an hour later, Han Le saw Zhu Yuxiang being carried next to him through the transparent glass window, and the doctor quickly came over and told him: "When I found him, I was at home with a high fever, and I couldn't speak, fortunately, I found it early, otherwise I would be in trouble." ”

"And what about now?"

"It's only under control for the time being." The doctor who spoke was relatively young, and as soon as he said it, he knew that something was wrong, and changed his words, "You don't have to have a psychological burden, don't be scared by the name bird flu......

"Don't comfort me, I know." Han Le used his mobile phone to check it out on the way to come, and it was nothing, but it was a mortality rate of 68 percent, a little more than two-thirds.

What the hospital can do is to closely monitor the development of the disease, so that the human body can maintain a good physical state, after all, the real resistance to the virus depends on the human body itself, more than 10 o'clock in the morning, Han Le's body temperature gradually climbed, once exceeded 39 degrees, but perhaps because of full psychological preparation, Han Le felt that his spirit was quite sober, and he was even ready to let Qiao Yiyu go home: "Help bring me the computer, I think the days without a computer are more terrible than being terminally ill...... By the way, have you checked? ”

Qiao Yiyu just shook her head slightly: "I'm fine." ”

The computer was still in the store, and Qiao Yiyu left Sun Xiaoyun and Zhang Xin in the store to continue to operate - if it was someone else, it would definitely be closed, and it would be so uneasy to leave two new employees, and there was no basic supervision. Qiao Yiyu asked Zhang Xin to send the computer over, and then told Sun Xiaoyun that if she was too busy to be alone, she could hang up the business card - but if she sold it, she would give her a dollar for each cup.

But when the computer was delivered, Han Le had no heart to play, the whole person was hot, and the sweat was even more out, the nurse in charge of him had already come to change the sheets a few times, and the antipyretic medicine was also hung up, but the effect was not obvious, a group of doctors looked at it several times, and the words were only comforting - Han Le could hear what they meant, this was just the beginning of the long tug-of-war between the body to resist the virus.

This situation lasted until more than three o'clock in the afternoon, during which Han Le vomited once, and after feeling a little better, he heard a belated news from Qiao Yiyu: "Three or four avian flu patients were sent in the afternoon, and there were many reporters!" ”