(a)

Tuesday, September 29 Sunny

These days are boring, I don't want to do anything, I don't want to read books, and I don't bother to practice basic skills. Sometimes he weeps sadly, and sometimes he is full of resentment. I've been seemingly manipulated by out-of-control emotions these days. The unhappiness of the past, the pain buried deep in my heart always ran out inadvertently, I was so easy to loosen my mind, I was easy to get rid of the shackles of work, and I had no choice but to chase it and imprison it in my heart again. I look only at the present, selectively forgetting the past. Today is a little better, maybe because I went to the church last night to sing hymns and feel the solemn atmosphere of the church, and my heart is a lot clearer.

Yesterday morning, I rubbed until 11 o'clock, and went out with a washed tweed shirt from my mother, as well as my health care book and soymilk machine. When I arrived at the health center, the doctor checked and found that the palace height was still 33 cm, the abdominal circumference was 98.5 cm, and the length was 0.5 cm. Blood pressure is 148, usually 146, weight soared from 63 kg last week to 65 kg, and I grew 4 pounds a week, growing too fast! It should be normal to grow 0.5 kg a week, but I am two kg, eating too much!

When I got to my mother, my brother made a big pot of chicken and winter melon vegetables and ate them with steamed buns. I ate a big bowl and actually just had a bowl of sweet potato porridge at home when I arrived. After eating, I went to Shenglong Supermarket to read books, came back and grinded a big pot of soy milk, bought soybeans and black beans for 7 yuan, and dinner was soy milk and buns. My mother only drank a bowl of soy milk, and after eating, we went to church. On the way, my mother bought two more steamed buns with radish filling, and we each ate one.

After tonight's prayers, people prayed to our sick brothers and sisters, and we prayed that Heavenly Father would bless the world with fewer sicknesses and disasters. On the way back, my mother bought two small bowls of ramen, I haven't eaten them for a long time, and I miss them a little. I chatted and walked with my mother all the way, I was a month old, I was so tired from walking, and I went to bed early when I returned to the store.

In the past two days, the bones in my body have been in severe pain, and I can't turn over, I can't stand up suddenly, and I have to bend down and move step by step when I first get up. I haven't eaten "Fu Shi Fu" for many days because of toothache, which may be related to calcium deficiency.

Breakfast was soy milk fritters, and my dad still brought sweet potato rice. He and his mother only eat steamed buns dipped in garlic juice and do not eat fritters. After eating, I took some beans I bought yesterday, as well as sugar and soymilk and went home.

When I got home, I started squeezing radish strips, and I was worried that I would have to squeeze it for a day, and before I knew it, I was finished. A small soymilk machine should be called a juice machine. I bought it at the morning market in Beijing, manually, for ten yuan a piece.

Ate Fu Shi Fu, drank a cup of radish juice, ate moon cakes, and wrote these things. The things I had eaten began to intoxicate my nerves, and I became more and more sleepy, and some of them could not write. Go to sleep! Nap.

I took a nap at about 11:30, woke up at 12:30, drank some radish juice, went down and saw my father snoring, I wanted him to cut some meat and buy some dumpling skins, so I gave up. I always felt that I didn't sleep well, so I continued to sleep, and I woke up and felt sleepy, and I slept until three or four o'clock.

Dad is gone, I want to just go out and buy it myself, so that Dad can come back in the evening and eat dumplings. I went to Dashan Road to cut some meat, bought dumpling skins, and a box of thirteen spices. Thinking that Shaoruo was coming back with her brother and daughter-in-law, it was not as good-looking as hers, so I hurriedly took it upstairs to make it. After I made it, I gave my dad a lunch box, the second pot was served to my brother and daughter-in-law, and the third pot was eaten by myself. There is a lot of salt and thirteen spices in the filling, which is a little bitter. But because I bought fatty meat, it was still fragrant. It's still hot, sit outside the door and eat dumplings, and fan it to cool off.

After typing for an hour, I thought that when I was making dumplings in the afternoon, there would be flies flying around from time to time, so I found the blue gauze curtain I bought in Beijing and connected it with a piece of white gauze, because the top of the door also needed to be covered. After sewing, just wait for tomorrow to nail the nails, then wash your face and take a shower, and then walk back and forth. I'm going to move around a lot this month, so that I can have a smooth life. Walking and walking, I got out of my sleepiness and simply fell asleep.

Wednesday, September 30 Sunny August 12

I got up at about 7 o'clock, pressed my face, and didn't practice. It was too difficult to sit up for the past two days, and I didn't dare to move much in bed. Get out of bed and practice your body for a while, apply your face, and practice calligraphy.

Reciting "Picking Mulberries" and "Appealing to Heartfelt Love", Ouyang Xiu, Ouyang Xiu is also known as "61 Layman". The layman believed in Buddhism in his later years. What is "June 1st"? An old man, 1,000 volumes of gold and stone relics, 10,000 volumes of books, a piano, a chess, a pot of wine, leisurely, so called "61 layman", Ouyang Xiu's later life is really leisurely, indifferent, and elegant.

After carrying it, I went down to eat, squeezed the radish juice after eating, and prepared to let my mother and them eat dumplings tonight. The juice was squeezed, the quilt was dried, the curtain was nailed, the table was wiped down, and the slippers were brushed. When it's all done, sit down and write about these things.

After the curtain was closed, there was a cool feeling in the room, the flies were almost destroyed, and they no longer flew around to disturb people's minds.

At four or five o'clock in the afternoon, I went to my mother's place, and I wanted to make dumplings for my mother to eat with the radish residue after squeezing the radishes. I bought some meat and dumpling skins, and I made them in the store, and my brother-in-law and Yuanyuan were also there, enough to eat, but the filling was a little less, and finally the rest of the dough was also put in.

After eating, my mother and I walked to church. It was 20:40 when I went, and after listening to the Bible for a while, Tian Tian called to ask where her mother was, so I came out to call back. After listening to the sermon, my mother and I went to the prayer room to pray, and then went back. I bought a few apples to eat on the way, and when I returned to the store, it was already ten o'clock, so I washed and went to sleep. I still don't dare to turn over, so I can only sleep in one position.

Thursday, October 1 Sunny

When I went home in the morning, I installed the antenna, but there was no power, and the call came in the afternoon. When I came back, I ate a bowl of sweet potato rice again, and when I was sleepy at eleven or twelve o'clock, I fell asleep. Wake up in the afternoon to watch the National Day live broadcast.

When I see the neat queue, the white-gloved hands in a straight line, the neat steps, the equipment...... I actually shed tears inexplicably, it was excitement, patriotic feelings surged, I thought of my youthful ambition, thinking of the current downfall, even more sad, tears flowed endlessly.

In the afternoon, I miss the salty taste because I always eat sweets all day. So I went downstairs and got some vermicelli and cabbage, and cut a little meat to cook. There is still a bowl of mung bean and black bean soup cooked in the morning, and I wanted to drink mung bean tea, but it was boiled into porridge, so it seems that I want to drink it or squeeze it into soy milk. I ate a bowl of vermicelli and cabbage again, and I was very full. I wanted to lose weight in the past half a month, but I couldn't control my appetite.

In the evening, watch the National Day Gala. I thought that I would sew up the little cotton jacket when my stomach was in a while, and I thought that it would be better to do something just watching TV, so I took out the flower cloth, needle and thread, sewed the little green cotton jacket, and sewed the small cotton pants. The things for hospitalization are basically ready, and all that remains is to withdraw money and take the formalities. Wait until October 12th, the expected date of delivery is October 18th, I don't know if this child will be born later or early, it is best to give birth now.

I read the book for a while today, but I didn't study, it's 23:00 now, let's type for a while, this is also the basic skill. Practice the word "hour" and take a bath and sleep. This National Day is very laid-back.

October 2, the 14th day of the Lunar New Year, sunny Friday

In the morning, I took out my bank card and withdrew 200 yuan, and then went to the Internet café on Honglin Road to inquire about the registration of Beijing accounting certificate, and the registration time was as of the 18th, and the on-site confirmation time seemed to be 19~21. October 12th is the day when the baby in my womb turns 9 months old, and I hope she will come to this world early.

At four or five o'clock in the afternoon, I thought that today was Friday, so I went to my mother's place. Walked to Church Road, on the way my mother bought 4 buns. It was 7:20 a.m. when we arrived at church, and we sang several songs tonight, and it was over at 8:25. I walked up to a ramen restaurant on the north-south side of the road leading to the church and asked for a small bowl of ramen for each.

At night, I always feel dry and thirsty. I slept until midnight, I got up and made a bowl of egg tea to drink, there was no white sugar, so I had to use brown sugar instead. At night, I heard my mother coughing, so I got up and made her a bowl of egg tea. My mother said that my approach was not quite right, instead of stirring with chopsticks, I should first stir the eggs, then add white sugar and sesame oil, and finally flush with boiling water, cover and simmer for a while, the eggs will not be broken, but sliced.

I didn't sleep well at night, because I ate a lot and slept a lot during the day in the past two days, so I wasn't sleepy.

(b)

October 3rd, the 15th day of the Lunar New Year, sunny Saturday

Today during the day in my mother's shop.

In the morning, the younger brother and sister-in-law came together and brought the polished radish, and they were going to make dumplings for lunch. My mother gave my brother and daughter-in-law 20 yuan and asked her to go to the supermarket to buy meat, and my brother said to buy mutton, so my father went to buy two bags of chicken necks in the morning, and was ready to go back to marinate them for my sister and them to eat.

I think that every time I go to church, my mother's glasses are always wrapped in paper and held in her hands, sometimes they are placed next to the table very casually, and the glasses case she once bought for her is lost. The glasses should be finer, so I went to the knitting shop and bought a crochet needle, bought a one-yuan thread, and asked the clerk to teach me a pattern. It's easy to learn, it's noon when the flowers are knitted, and I'm just in time to eat dumplings when I go back, the dumplings are not too salty, and the mutton radish dumplings are not as delicious as the big meat radish dumplings. After eating, I went to the weaving shop again to learn how to weave hollow pieces, and basically learned it, but I couldn't remember the number of roads, so I knitted at will. I sat and knitted until dark, and then I knitted the covers. My sister said I was smart, but I didn't do my job meticulously. Although she is a master of knitting sweaters, she can't hook flowers, and she thinks that hooking flowers is not easy to learn, and she is also an unconfident person.

In the evening, my mother and I waited for the No. 7 bus to come home, and a girl asked us to carpool with her. After waiting for a long time, the No. 7 bus could not come, we got on an elderly motorcycle, and when we were about to leave, the girl stopped a taxi and told us to come down and share a car with her.

The car was not far away and I felt dizzy and wanted to vomit. It was easy to get to the door of the cotton mill, the girl paid three yuan and left, and the mother paid 6 yuan. After getting off the bus, we couldn't help but vomit, we were going to sit in front of the house, but we got off early because it was too uncomfortable. My mother bought two red bean popsicles, and they got much better after eating. We walked home, but the cotton mill wasn't far from home.

When we got home, we ate Dad's braised chicken neck. The chicken neck is really fragrant, and it is better than the one sold. After eating, we ate another five-kernel mooncake, in fact, we had already eaten a bag of mooncakes sent by relatives during the day. After eating, the dumplings were wrapped, and the leftover dumpling filling at noon was brought back. He wasn't worried about his father's health, so he came back to take a look. Dad's heart has not been good for the past two days. My mother said to steam the dumplings and put them like this.

I went upstairs to watch CCTV's Mid-Autumn Festival party. The party was also exciting, the people who appeared were basically celebrities, and the songs were basically nostalgic old songs. The host of the show said that the moon was very good tonight, but unfortunately I forgot to go out to admire the moon. I just watched TV while hooking things like that, and my mood slowly improved. I remember walking in front on the way back, my heart full of sorrow, tears coming out of my eyes. My heart is sad and desperate to pour out to my Heavenly Father: If I am so cowardly and deceitful by nature, how can I stand in this world of the jungle? What nostalgia is there in this sinful world? Heavenly Father, you don't protect me, you can't bear to see me in trouble, and some of the pain in my heart is only willing to hide it deep in my heart for a long time, and I don't even want to talk about my diary......

I went to bed after taking a shower, and I didn't wash my clothes because the water was out. I slept until midnight, sweating all over, especially on my forehead. Tonight's weather was no different from summer, so I got up and turned on the fan.

Sunday, October 4th Sunny 16th day of the eighth month of the lunar calendar

At five or six o'clock in the morning, my mother went upstairs and called me because my bike was still in my mother's shop and I needed to ride it back. We took my father's senior motorcycle to my mother's shop, and my mother took dumplings and chicken necks to the store to eat hot.

I arrived too early, and it was only a little after 8 o'clock after a long stay, so I rode back. When I walked to the north end of the bridge, I saw a woman pushing a tricycle to sell a dog, and there were many people around, and after a while, only one was left, a total of five or six. I asked how much it was, and the woman said 200 yuan and a 400 yuan. She said that she lived in Bayi Road, and because the house was going to be demolished, there was no place to feed, so she sold the female dog together. I didn't expect the dog to be worth 200 yuan just after a full moon, and I thought of the clever and greedy dog at home, and I felt that it was not suitable for my house. He should be in a well-off home with two other dogs competing with him for food. Dad hates it for eating mouths, and always beats it for it, it should be pampered, it should be treated as a princess or prince by its owner, I don't know if it's male or female. I went to the Kangtai Pharmacy opposite the gas station and bought two bottles of sodium bicarbonate, and then went to the opposite restaurant to buy a bowl of tofu brain, and rode to my mother's store. My mother immediately drank two or three tablets of sodium bicarbonate, her stomach was acidic, and it needed to be neutralized with alkaline drugs.

It was already past 9 o'clock, so I went to Shenglong Supermarket to read a book. I focused on the book "The Beauty Sutra of a 31-year-old little woman". The author was originally a short and fat, unattractive "lazy cat", and later practiced yoga, paid attention to maintenance, and after 7 years of yoga practice, gradually transformed into a beautiful eyebrow: slender waist and fair skin. Yoga's rejuvenation and fitness skills are quite good. After giving birth, I also practiced yoga, and the author said that the abdominal breathing method of yoga can keep the waist slim. The things she uses on her face are all edible, which is more effective than the world's famous brand cosmetics. She said that women want water spirit, in fact, it is to nourish yin, which requires more "four things soup" (angelica, Chuanxiong, rehman, white peony). She often applies her face at night, and during the day, she is exposed to the sun, which is easy to leave marks. The author writes on the Internet, gradually becoming a source of amateur manuscript fees, and her own job is a lawyer. I read this book in Beijing, and it is still beneficial to read it now.

When I returned to the store, I was just in time for lunch: fried chicken with potatoes, mung bean soup, and steamed buns. At about two o'clock in the afternoon, when the sun was not too strong, I rode back.

When I got back to the house, I took two persimmons, two mooncakes, and a sugar cane and went upstairs.

These days, I am getting more and more lazy, I don't want to read books, I don't want to practice calligraphy, memorize poems, and I'm not interested in practicing typing. Eat full every day. Today, when I went to Kangtai Pharmacy, I weighed 67 kilograms, 134 kilograms, and I grew 4 pounds a week, and I gained weight at an astonishing rate.

Thinking about it, I was unwilling, so I sat down and wrote Ouyang Xiu's "Tasha Xing" (waiting hall plum remnants) with a brush, "Butterfly Love Flower" (the courtyard is deep and deep), thinking that practicing words is not only to practice skills, but also to cultivate self-cultivation, if you can insist on it every day, and you can exercise your willpower, you should insist. After practicing, I practiced typing for another hour. There are some things that must be insisted on every day, at least half an hour a day is spent on this, such as practicing calligraphy, typing, and memorizing poems.

As the saying goes, the moon is sixteen round on the fifteenth, and today is the sixteenth of August, and when I look at the sky, there is no moon. Halfway through writing this journal, it started to thunder and rain, and I went out to put away the clothes that were hanging out and put them in the bathroom. It's still hot, and I have to keep wiping my sweat.

Monday, October 5 is sunny on the 17th day of the eighth month of the lunar calendar

Last night, until about 11 o'clock, I was still calling my husband's house, but no one answered.

I called again at 9 o'clock this morning, and my mother-in-law answered and said that they had all gone to my uncle's house, and my uncle's son got married today, and my husband was still playing at my uncle's house. My mother-in-law asked me when I would give birth, and I told her the exact date.

This morning, after pressing my face and doing some exercises, I began to memorize English words. After memorizing, I went down to eat, and after eating, I came up to practice words and memorize poems. My sister also came, and my younger brother took my mother and father to the steep mountain in the morning to see them. When they came back, they went to my uncle's house, and my sister went upstairs to sleep with me, and I kept practicing calligraphy. At noon, my sister said she was hungry, so we went down and fried two dishes: ants on the tree and chili scrambled eggs, and I ate so much that I was so swollen. In the afternoon, my sister watched TV, and I memorized poems, wrote calligraphy, and squeezed soy milk. After the soy milk is rolled, it tastes like soy milk and the color is white. Sister Okara used it to apply to her face, and after washing her face, her face looked ruddy and shiny. A handful of beans squeezed a few cups of soy milk, and a good bean mask. At night, I also applied the leftover bean dregs to my face, and after more than ten minutes, I took it off and rubbed my feet, and I felt that my feet were also smooth, which was really a win-win-win thing! My sister said that if she was like me, she would be very young now. Actually, I don't usually bother to do it, otherwise why wouldn't I look young?

In the evening, my dad scrambled eggs and fried peppers, fried meat with beans, and sweet potato rice soup. Tian Tian called me down to eat, and I only typed an hour in the afternoon. After eating a bowl of sweet potato porridge, I want to eat more but my stomach is distended, I really have a big stomach.

After dinner, I went upstairs to see the charm of Henan TV, which can also be said to be a special concert of Song Song Zu Yingying. Her songs mostly praise the motherland and the party, and the political flavor is strong. She is the queen of folk songs, and her voice is loud and beautiful, especially "Good Day", which can be very pleasant and emotional. I couldn't help but be shocked by her beautiful and peerless high voice, and even more shocked that her face was still more charming than before. She and Yang Lan should be in their early 40s, but they are still slender, fair-skinned, bright-eyed, elegant and charming. The years have not left a trace on their bodies and faces. They have no bags under their eyes, no droopy cheeks, no double chins, and they still look like they are in their twenties and thirties. Their work is undoubtedly busy, but they are not tired, but more energetic and energetic. They have been engaged in their favorite professions for decades, and their familiarity in their careers makes them happy and proud, which is probably spiritual beauty. I believe that they usually pay attention to skin maintenance and exercise, Song Song Zu Yingying has a son at the age of 39, and Yang Lan has a son and a daughter, but they don't make people see that they are childbearing.

When being a girl, people pay attention to exercising, and many people are less likely to exercise the older they get. In fact, the older a woman gets, the more she should take time out to exercise, maintain her skin, and delay the onset of aging.

Dong Jie, Coco Li and others who appeared at the party a few days ago are still young and beautiful, although most of them are mothers. They are all successful people in their careers, and they are also people with strong willpower, and they will strictly control their diet. In fact, depending on your body, one meal a day is enough, a cup of soy milk in the morning, and a fruit or a cup of soy milk in the evening. Thin women with good figures and good skin should be enviable and respectable because they can control their appetites.

Physical exercise should be a top priority from an early age, because this is the perfect time to grow taller and lose weight. There is also the need to cultivate hobbies in your child from an early age, so that he or she will feel confident and sunny when he or she is fifteen or sixteen years old. After all, a confident person is a person who does not give up easily. It's eleven or twelve o'clock at night, sleepy, go to sleep.