She sits alone in the corner, surrounded by people she doesn't know, and she's a world by herself.

She didn't know how she had survived those two hours, only that by the end her legs were numb, her lips were dry, and the finger marks on her palms had become bruised.

She struggled to keep herself from looking at them, from seeing their laughter.

After the party, Qiong Yu was already drunk and unconscious, and was helped out of the private room by Gu Suche. Jona also looked very drunk, but she was walking by herself, and Sumire didn't help her. Gu Suche also looked a little drunk, Qiongyu was supported by him, Su Qing was worried that Gu Suche would not be able to support her, so she walked over and helped her.

When she walked over, Sumire Qing was also over there, and when she saw her, Sumire Qing was obviously stunned. Gu Suche also saw her, and smiled innocently, "Su Qing, you're here, why didn't I see you just now?" ”

Su Qing helped Qiongyu up, "Well, I'll sit next to me." ”

She felt that Sumire Qing had been falling on her, but she had refused to look up at him, but had kept her eyes on Qiongyu, and after arriving outside the door, she asked other friends to help send Gu Suche and Qiongyu home, and she also planned to take a taxi home.

She carried her bag on her back and was about to go to the taxi place, but just a few steps out, Sumire Qing suddenly caught up and grabbed her arm, "I'll send you back." ”

She turned her back to him, closed her eyes tightly, tried to restrain her emotions, and then turned around, looking into his eyes with a light smile, "No need, I'll just take a taxi back by myself." She looked in the direction of Jona, who was standing there alone, looking at them against the pillar, looking embarrassed, "You send Jona home, she looks very drunk." After saying that, he gently pulled out his arm from Sumire Qing's hand and walked in the direction of the taxi.

Sumire tried to hold her, but she had already flagged down a taxi and got into it.

After getting into the car, she finally smiled and leaned back softly in the chair.

The master glanced at her in the rearview mirror, "Girl, where are you going?" ”

She gave her address, and the car sped away, closing her eyes and tears streaming down her eyes.

The driver didn't look at her from the rearview mirror, and saw that she was crying so uncomfortably alone, so he couldn't bear it, so he talked to her, "Little girl, who is the boy standing outside the car just now?" ”

Su Qing wanted to control herself from tears, but the tears just fell down vigorously without obeying the call, she wiped them embarrassedly, and replied to the master in a somewhat choked voice, "He is my classmate." ”

The master glanced at her again, "I just saw you get on the bus, he stood in place for a long time, staring at our car, he cares about you." ”

At this time, Su Qing's mobile phone vibrated a little, she picked it up and saw that it was a text message from Jin Qing: Call me when you get home, pay attention to safety, she put the phone back in her bag after reading it.

"Hmm......... Maybe it's because I'm a classmate. ”

The master looked at her, sighed, and said nothing.

After Su Qing returned home, she changed her shoes in a daze, and Gu's father and mother were startled when they looked at her lost soul.

Gu's mother pulled her to the sofa and sat down, touched her forehead, and after making sure that she didn't have a fever, she quickly checked her other places, and Gu's father was also helping Gu's mother. Su Qing recognized them upside down, still sitting with blank eyes.

In the end, Gu's father and mother didn't find anything wrong with her body.

Gu's mother went to the kitchen and poured a cup of hot water for her, Gu's father sat down opposite her and looked at her, "Qingqing, what's going on, you tell Dad." ”

Su Qing pursed her lips, shook her head, and did not speak.

Gu's father and Gu's mother glanced at each other, and Gu's father spoke again, "Then why are you so depressed?" ”

Su Qing still didn't speak, and Gu's father and mother looked at her quietly, waiting for her to speak.

After a long time, Su Qing suddenly cried, "Mom and Dad, I'm so sad." ”

Father Gu looked at her calmly, "It's okay, you speak slowly." ”

"I like a boy, he liked me before, it's all my fault........." She sobbed and said, but Gu's mother looked at her in surprise with her eyes wide open, Gu's father motioned to Gu's mother with his eyes, and asked her not to speak first.

Gu's mother walked over and wiped her tears for Su Qing, and Su Qing continued: "But I always thought he was too good, and I wanted to wait until I was admitted to Tsinghua University as a graduate student before I was with him, but ............ However, I was about to take the exam, and he was with another girl. It's all my fault......... It's all my fault that I made her wait too long. ”

Father Gu sighed, "Is this because of this?" ”

"Uh-huh........."

"It's okay, adolescence, it's all normal. You'll meet better people later. ”

Su Qing shook her head, "No, I won't meet any better people." ”

Gu's father was about to say something, but Su Qing's phone rang suddenly, and Gu's father probably understood something when he saw the name on the caller ID.

Su Qing wiped her tears and stepped aside to answer the phone.

She listened to Sumire's voice ringing in her ears, "Are you home?" ”

"Well, here we go."

Sumire Qing's tone was a little cold, "Then why don't you give me a call?" ”

Su Qing sobbed, "I forgot." ”

Sumire heard her sobbing and paused, "I'm sorry, my tone is not good. ”

"Well, then I'll hang up first." Su Qing felt that he was already with Qiao Na, and it was a little bad for him to do this again.

Who knew that Jin Qing suddenly stopped her, "Su Qing! ”

Su Qing stopped his hand to press the hang up button and waited quietly for his next words.

"I......... Things are not what you see. ”

"Well, you don't have to explain it to me."

"Su Qing, don't think about it."

"Hmm."

After hanging up the phone, Su Qing was still the same, and she went back to the room after saying good night to Gu's father and Gu's mother.

She sat at the table, looking at a table of graduate school entrance examination review materials, and suddenly she had no motivation, she could still force herself to work hard in order to follow in his footsteps, who should she follow now? She had already included him in her life, but when she thought she was about to catch up with him and they were going to be together, he gave up first.

She put the postgraduate examination materials on the bookshelf one by one, and after cleaning the table, she took one of her diaries and put it on the table, unfolding a blank page. She stared at the page in a daze, and it didn't take long for her to come back to her senses and write down the date.

Her mind was now thinking about the poem she had written to him that concealed her love, and her heart was like a knife, she frowned fiercely, and wrote the poem in her diary: A gentleman of words, gentle as jade. In its board house, disturb my heart.

After writing, she couldn't help crying, tears fell from her eyes to the book, melting her words, she looked at these words with tears, and wrote a sentence that she didn't know to see in that book: I know that the roses are no longer blooming, but I still have a curtain of dreams, the full autumn lovesickness, gazing into the lights of the river, I don't expect you to suddenly think of my silhouette in the light shadow, I just ask that little bit of light to make you not feel lonely in the hesitating rainy night.

Just take it as a farewell to the past, to Sumire, my dearest boy, the boy I once loved deeply, my excellent boy I hope you can still live happily without me, happy, at least happier than when you were with me, I also wish you can shine in the field you are good at in the future, don't be burdened by anyone, anything, may you always be that confident teenager.

She barely finished her diary, closed her notebook, and sat in her chair for a long time, before finally getting up and taking a shower.

She stood in the bathroom, her head tilted, her eyes closed, and the warm water sprinkled on her face.

Her tears had dried up, and now her eyes were sore and painful, and her chest was suffocating. She wanted to find a place to vent, but she was not one to yell, so she could only hold it in her heart and let it feel uncomfortable.

After she took a shower, she wiped her wet hair with a towel, and her eyes inadvertently skimmed the radio placed in the corner of the bookshelf, it was all a long time ago, and she hadn't heard it for a long time, she put down the towel, walked over and picked up the radio from the bookshelf, tried to turn it on and listened, there was really a sound, but because it had been left for too long, the noise was very strong.

She casually switched to a station to listen, and in the murmur, she barely heard an anchor reading an article by Zhang Ailing, her hand wiping her hair stopped, and listened quietly to the anchor's words.

"There was only a lonely shadow, she, leaning on the railing; Her eyes, who had just woken up from the dream of youth, were still a little sleepy, looking at this crazy world, as if she couldn't solve the mystery of this life............"

It turned out to be Zhang Ailing's "Twilight", she used to like this article, and then the anchor read this article and began to retell some of her views on Zhang Ailing, but most of them talked about her and Hu Lancheng. She didn't listen any further, wiped her hair intently, and let the faint sound of the radio play.

She turned off the radio while she slept.

Perhaps because of the crying she had just had, she slept very deeply tonight, during which she sat in a lot of intermittent dreams, and she did not wake up slowly until eight o'clock the next morning, and when she woke up, she felt very heavy eyelids, and stood in front of the mirror to see that her eyes were swollen.

Just when she was worried about her eyes, she received a call from Du Qiongyu, who said to her in an anxious voice, "Su Qing, are you okay?" ”

She rubbed her red and swollen eyes, "It's okay. ”

Qiong Yu listened to her calm voice, still a little disbelieving, "Really? ”

Su Qing did not answer.

Qiong Yu sighed, "Did you see it last night?" ”

Su Qing hesitated for a moment, and finally said "um".

Now Qiongyu was really anxious, "Su Qing, don't think about it, it really wasn't his intention last night, it was ............"