Li Suyun listened to what Jiang Jianlong said, and felt that although the emotional experience and life trajectory between them were not the same, the ending was so similar, she couldn't help but confide in Jiang Jianlong: "I, like you, used to love someone wholeheartedly, but the final ending was so unfortunate." ”

Jiang Jianlong asked curiously: "You are also divorced." ”

Li Suyun smiled bitterly: "I'm not married yet!" ”

Jiang Jianlong hurriedly apologized: "I'm sorry...... I do not know....... ”

Li Suyun continued to say with a wry smile: "What's this, if my parents agreed, I guess I would have already obtained a marriage certificate with him." ”

Jiang Jianlong continued to ask, "Then why don't your parents agree?" ”

Li Suyun said uncomfortably: "After graduating from college, I once went to a remote mountain village to teach, it is a very remote and blocked small mountain village, surrounded by high mountains, the school is halfway up the mountain, it is not easy to go out, my ex-boyfriend used to be in this village, his home is very close to our school, it can be said that it is next to our school, he dropped out of junior high school without graduating, went to work outside, entered a factory, worked as a cook, and later saved a little money, repaired the family house, bought a van, Back home to farm. You know there are not many young people in the countryside now, I stay in that small mountain village, except for classes, most of the time is extremely lonely, my boyfriend grew up in the mountains since he was a child, so he is very good at having fun, he takes me to fish, pick mushrooms, look for game and wild fruits, and from time to time he also comes to our school as a substitute teacher for physical education, and plays with children in school, which makes me very happy there, and then we slowly establish a relationship, in fact, in my life plan, I never thought about it, I would be with someone like that. But the loneliness and somewhat isolated environment of that small mountain village inexplicably brought me and him together. ”

Jiang Jianlong heard her say so much, and said guessingly: "I know, you are a college graduate, and you are a child in the city, it is conceivable that your parents will not let you marry him no matter what." ”

Li Suyun said: "Yes, my parents were extremely opposed to me being with him, and then because my parents knew about my love affair with him, they didn't let me go to that school anymore, and found me a job in the city, and introduced me to some good objects, but at that time I was really carried away by love, the more my parents objected, the more I had more hope for this relationship, and the person they introduced to me, I didn't have a serious relationship, and I have been in private contact with my boyfriend." It wasn't until later that I eloped with my boyfriend and went to another big city to make a living, I think it was also lucky, he worked as a chef in a restaurant in a shopping mall, and the owner of the restaurant gambled outside, and lost all the money, he was in a hurry to beat the restaurant out in order to repay the loan shark, this restaurant is actually very profitable, after my boyfriend discussed with me, the two of us each found our friends and relatives, borrowed a little money, and finally knocked down the restaurant, and it took less than a year to do it, and we paid off all the money, The next year, he opened another branch, and in the next two years, he took out a loan to buy a car, bought a house, and opened another branch one after another. ”

When Li Suyun said this, he suddenly cried again, and then said: "It's actually very tiring to do a restaurant, when I first started doing it, I basically did everything, because I didn't have much money to hire people, I was both a cashier and a waiter, and I had to keep cleaning, thinking about the money I owed to relatives and friends, and the pressure was very great. I don't know how many times, it's because I overslept or can't be busy, I only eat one meal a day, it's really too tired, that is, at that time I often feel sick to my stomach, I thought that such hard-earned money would make us live a happy life, and my parents would slowly accept us, but I didn't expect that people are not as good as heaven, I paid so much for that man, but I found out that he was with another woman, and now I was diagnosed with cancer, I feel that my life is a joke. ”

After Li Suyun finished speaking, she kept convulsing and crying. In the quiet hospital room, it is particularly harsh.

Jiang Jianlong, out of sympathy, or sympathy, slowly sat up from the hospital bed, and then took advantage of the faint light outside the window to draw a few pieces of paper on the table next to the bed, groped out of the bed, and handed the paper to Li Suyun. Li Suyun looked at Jiang Jianlong's body with tears and blurred eyes. In the dark room, she could only see a swimming black shadow, but she had just heard the sound of drawing paper. She knew that she also needed a piece of paper to appear in front of her at this time, Li Suyun fumbled and took the paper handed over by Jiang Jianlong, then wiped her eyes, and said softly: "Thank you." ”

Jiang Jianlong returned to his hospital bed, sat on the hospital bed and said thoughtfully: "Many things in life are unpredictable, these days, I have been lying on the hospital bed and have nothing to do, I read some history books, I found that many dynasties have just started to build the country, have made a lot of plans, this plan is thinking about how to consolidate his power in accordance with his predetermined direction, want to make his dynasty more and more prosperous, forever passed on, the funny thing is that later, no dynasty can escape the tragic fate, Do you know what caused it? It's time. ”

Jiang Jianlong lay down on the hospital bed again and continued: "I should be a few years older than you, I don't know if you have realized now, there is no eternal thing in the world, as time goes by, everything is changing, even we ourselves will change, you see we have changed from a small child, to a middle-aged person, and then we may become an old man." ”

Jiang Jianlong said this, suddenly paused and then continued: "Of course, we won't see us grow old, what I want to say is that our bodies and our psychology are changing with time, and we can't even stop ourselves from changing, so what else can we do to stop everything else from changing?" ”

After Jiang Jianlong finished speaking, he didn't hear Li Suyun speak, Jiang Jianlong was talking to himself, and couldn't help but start to continue, "Do you know what I used to say to my wife the most, what it was, what I said the most was: 'I love you forever', at that time, when I said this, what I thought of was forever." I thought it was eternal love. I can't part with it from my heart, but I didn't realize it until today, the word Yong...... It is a kind of here and now that exists in memory, it is the eternal preservation of what happened, it is the freeze frame of time. Far...... It is everything that has not happened, far away, and the future that has not yet arrived. So now for me: 'forever' is a verb. I hope you can slowly understand like me that there is no going back to the road we have traveled, there is no point in us staying where we are, everything can only look forward, not thinking about the past, and not afraid of the future. ”