Thinking of this, I couldn't help but fall silent. But my silence made Cao Yunxiao misunderstood, he thought I was angry that he suddenly had these requirements for me, so he immediately explained to me:

"Xiaobai, are you angry? If you think there is anything unreasonable about these demands I have made, you must tell me, you don't want to sulk by yourself, okay? Or if you think I'm doing this and you're making you feel uncomfortable, you can do nothing. ”

There was a rare fragility and caution in Cao Yunxiao's tone, and as I listened, I somehow felt a pain in my heart, and immediately explained to him:

"No, it's not like that, I don't think you're asking too much, what you said is what I should do, but I didn't do it, it's my problem, it has nothing to do with you."

"Then why don't you speak? Xiaobai, what are you thinking, what are you thinking, you tell me, I'm really not that smart, not I can guess what is in your heart. ”

"I..."

As soon as Cao Yunxiao asked, I immediately hesitated again. To be honest, I really don't know whether I should tell Cao Yunxiao about the questions I think of, because I know Cao Yunxiao's character, and I'm afraid that if I ask this question, it will affect his future career.

Although no one can guarantee that he will do this thing for the rest of his life, I really don't want that one day Cao Yunxiao will give up his acting career because of me.

He is suitable for this stage, he should shine on this stage, and I am not qualified to drag him off this stage, whether he loves me or not.

Seeing that I couldn't speak, Cao Yunxiao was so anxious that he repeatedly asked me what I was thinking and why I didn't tell him. At the end of the question, I really couldn't stand it, so I casually lied and said to him:

"I'm just a little worried, what will I do when I go to college and you don't have anyone by my side. How am I going to live if I never learn to solve problems on my own? ”

After I finished saying this, Cao Yunxiao was directly stunned in place. He thought about it for a long time, but he didn't speak, and his expression became more and more serious, which made me feel a little scared.

"Hey, Cao Yunxiao, what's wrong with you?"

"I'm sorry, Xiaobai, I never thought about this problem, I... I suddenly realized that I had never asked you where you wanted to go or what you wanted to study, and I felt that my boyfriend was really not qualified. ”

"This..."

I didn't expect Cao Yunxiao to say this to me, and I really didn't expect that my every move would have such a big impact on Cao Yunxiao. I feel that I can't bear Cao Yunxiao's sensitivity and fragility anymore, but when I think about it, I have to admit that if it weren't for me, he wouldn't have become like this. Some of me was starting to get upset, and some of I was torn between them. I don't know if I should find my own problems first, or how to comfort him first.

I really don't understand, how did it suddenly become like this, isn't it quite happy when you live like before and don't think about anything? Why do you suddenly think about these questions?

I pulled my hair irritably, and it took me a long time to calm myself down, and then I tried to comfort Cao Yunxiao and said:

"This... Well... I didn't tell you that, and you don't have to blame yourself. The main thing is that we didn't have a way to contact during that time, and there was no way to miss it. And... I think it's probably because the two of us have never thought about separating from each other, and we both think that where I go to school will not affect the two of us, so we didn't tell each other. ”

In the end, I felt that what I said was not fake, but this was the only thing I could think of, to comfort Cao Yunxiao and my own words. After Cao Yunxiao listened to me, he smiled softly at me, then held my hand and said to me:

"I seem to have suddenly understood something, Xiaobai, I may still be naïve in some ways, immature enough to think about our future affairs. But you believe me, I promise you, I will slowly learn how to be a good boyfriend in the future. By the day I marry you, I must be the only person in the world who can take good care of you. You have to wait for me, can you? ”

As soon as I had said these words, I felt an infinite amount of pressure, and I could not explain to him why I did not want to hear such promises from him, because I was no longer able to promise him that I would be with him as I used to.

It's not that I don't like him anymore, it's not that I don't love him anymore, it's not that I don't want to be with him anymore, but after experiencing these things, I suddenly understood that in real life, love is not the only condition that supports two people to go on. I don't want both of us to be so tired, but I don't know how to express my thoughts with Cao Yunxiao. Because if I tell him my point of view bluntly now, Cao Yunxiao will definitely think that I don't like him, and then the trouble will be even greater.

I really hate drinking at this point, because if I hadn't drunk yesterday, it wouldn't have caused a series of problems. But now it's useless to regret it, Cao Yunxiao said this, it must be another trouble if I don't agree to him, so I can only promise him first, and then find an excuse to send him back first.

After Cao Yunxiao left, I lay back on the bed again, and at this moment I had no hunger at all, I just stared at the ceiling blankly, completely unaware of what I should think.

I lay there until the afternoon, without contacting anyone, until around 4 o'clock, when the moon sent me a message asking me to go out, and I got out of bed.

The Moon's message is very simple, just let me go out for a while, say something to talk to me. With a stomach full of doubts, I found a random dress to put on, and then washed up briefly and went out.

I hurried as fast as I could, and found that the moon had not yet arrived. So I waited for the moon and helped Sister Kazuko, and Sister Kazuko sensed that something was wrong with me, and after making the coffee for me and the moon, she told me that if there was any problem and I couldn't figure it out, I could come to her at any time.

Although I know that Sister Fruit can't help me much, but after all, her age is here, and she must have more experience than me. Now I feel better even if I hear someone comforting me. So I decided that after the moon was gone for a while, I would talk to Sister Guozi about me and Cao Yunxiao.