(92) "Struggle" with the moon
Misunderstanding is a very strange thing, especially when it is discovered, it always gives people a feeling that is more funny than comedy, and more tragic than tragedy. Anyway, when I heard the moon say this to me, I didn't know if I wanted to cry or laugh, or if I just wanted to shout twice, and shout out all the things I wanted to say but didn't dare to say during this time.
Seeing that I hadn't spoken for a long time, the moon had been sitting there with her head down, and she couldn't help but be a little worried, so she cautiously pushed me. It took me a push to come back to my senses and smile at him.
"I never wanted to stay away from the two of you, and I didn't get mad at you because of this, I just didn't think it was for me to be involved."
I try to keep my voice as flat as possible and try not to carry any emotion, but many times, this strong feeling cannot be controlled by myself. So when I said this, I obviously felt tears in my eyes, and I didn't even dare to blink in order to keep it from flowing.
After hearing my words, the moon's eyes were also a little red, and her tone became flustered unconsciously, and hurriedly explained to me:
"Xiaobai, you believe me and Zexin, the two of us really don't dislike you, we care about you very much, we ......"
"I never said that you two dislike me, and I know how many pounds and taels I have, and even if you don't dislike me, I don't think I'm suitable to participate in this kind of thing. I'm going to mess it up, so I might as well quit myself so I don't get you two in trouble. ”
I didn't want to listen to the moon continue to explain this kind of explanation, which seemed to me to be very useless, so I interrupted her directly, and explained it to her again in a clear and serious manner.
Although the moon lowered his head when he said these words to me, so that I could not see his expression clearly, I could still see that the moon's mood was lowered at once, and this depression was transformed into a scar that was deeply imprinted on her heart.
The biggest advantage of the moon in this life is that she values feelings, if she likes someone, no matter what that person does to her, she will give 100% for him, even if it hurts herself, she will not hesitate to do it. And if you want to talk about her shortcomings, it is probably too emotional. Because she pays too much attention to her feelings, she often has no principles for herself when she gives, so that many people will live up to her goodness, and use her to the fullest but never want to give her the same return. If she can't meet the person after that, she will always be the one who pays, even if she makes herself scarred, she doesn't feel tired, and she doesn't want to give up.
She is like an iron man, always so energetic, always so strong that she can't seem to be defeated. But in fact, it's really easy to hurt her, as long as you put all the fault on her like I just did, and show your innocence and indifference as a victim strongly, then even if the wrong person is not the moon, she will bear all the faults and double the pain.
This is definitely the best way to hurt the moon.
But why on earth would I do that?
I'm angry, I'm helpless, but I really don't want to hurt the moon. I just want to state the facts, I don't want to be perfunctory, I don't want to lie, but why can't I control myself from using such a tone? I knew that if I did this, I would be poking at the most painful part of the moon, why did I refuse to let go of the moon and myself?
Thinking of this, my tears couldn't stop falling and landed on my hand with a "snap" sound.
Although the voice was soft, it still fell clearly in the ears of several of us in the silence. When the moon heard me crying, she slowly raised her head, pulled a very ugly smile, wiped away my tears with both hands, and said to me with red circles under her eyes:
"Look at you, what are you crying for? I think I'm not good-looking and I always cry, don't you know that people are the ugliest when they cry? ”
Even though the moon could still laugh with me, I knew that her heart was on the verge of collapse at this point. I sniffled, brushed her hand away, and tried to wipe away the tears that kept flowing, and answered her intermittently:
"I never cared about looks, otherwise I wouldn't have wanted you two a long time ago."
"So we're going to say goodbye now?"
"If we don't say goodbye, how can we start again?"
Even though they were usually much smarter than me, when I said this, the moon didn't realize for a moment what I meant. She looked at me stunned and didn't say a word for a long time.
I don't know how much I'm going to undo the mistakes I made on the spur of the moment, but I really didn't want to be separated from the two of them. Although I am also angry and I feel sad, but no matter what, the two of them are really my best friends except Fu Chengwen and Cao Yunxiao, I don't think I will ever meet someone like the two of them in my life who is so compatible with me, I don't want to give up the two of them just because of such a passerby.
It's not worth it.
After about half a minute, the moon had not yet come to his senses, Cao Yunxiao was really anxious to see it on the side, so he pushed the moon and said to her:
"What do you think? Are you stupid? Do you know what Xiaobai thinks in his heart? You keep saying what you say, but you ask people what they think. Do you think Xiaobai thinks that you two dislike her, do people think so? You don't ask clearly, it's always like what you think you think, what do you think so much? If you can make it happen just by thinking about it, then I also think I'm an actor, do you think it's okay? ”
Cao Yunxiao's poisonous tongue woke up the moon, and the moon realized that what Cao Yunxiao said was indeed right, so she asked me a little urgently:
"Xiaobai, what do you think?"
I said in my heart, Cao Yunxiao, you stupid boy, if you don't understand the specific process, don't interject. I've just said everything, and he asked me to say it again, did he want me to slap myself in the face?
Really, this guy who has not achieved enough things and has more than enough failures, the next time he encounters this kind of thing, he shouldn't have been brought here at all, and he didn't help at all, but he made trouble for me. Take a hundred plating to read the latest chapter of "A Paper into a Book, a Thought into a Written Claw Book House" for the first time.