Hua Xin'er looked at the direction in which the football was kicking, and it turned out to be several teenagers in hospital gowns playing football.

Looking at this lively and active teenager, who would have thought that under their optimistic appearance, there was actually a hidden depression!

After a while, a couple of nurses came and disbanded the "junior soccer team", and it was too dangerous to play here.

Hua Xin'er still hadn't read enough of the book, so she unconsciously followed the boy forward, as if she wanted to make friends with them?

Xiao Gui hurriedly grabbed her: "I think you are sicker than me?" ”

"Poof", Hua Xin'er was amused, she stopped and asked with interest: "What is wrong with me?" ”

"Nymphomania!" Roseie was unceremonious.

"Hahaha", this really made Hua Xin'er's stomach hurt with laughter. Tears burst into laughter. Xiao Rose also laughed heartily, this was the first time she had found Xiao Rose smiling so happily after being admitted to the hospital.

Lunch is served in the hospital's cafeteria, and I usually order takeout to be delivered to the hospital. Because when Xiao Rose was sick, he was very afraid of seeing people and didn't dare to come to the cafeteria to eat.

Today, I was in a good mood, and Xiao Rose took the initiative to come to the cafeteria to eat. Xiao Rose not only has a good appetite, but also has a good appetite, orders a lot of dishes, and eats with relish.

Hua Xin'er watched her eat and didn't move her chopsticks for a long time. Xiao Zhu handed the food to his mouth, and said casually: "Eat first, and then talk about what you have to eat!" ”

Hua Xin'er seemed to understand this sentence, so she buried her head and ate it. Neither of them spoke, and they ate by themselves very tacitly.

After eating, Xiao Rose took Hua Xin'er to the rooftop of the hospital secretly. The rooftop of the hospital can't be casually let people go up, and Xiao Rose is eccentric, so he fooled the security guard in the corridor and brought Hua Xin'er to the rooftop.

As soon as she arrived at the rooftop, Xiao Rose was like a bird liberated from a cage, spreading her arms to make a gesture of soaring.

Hua Xin'er was not as interested as her, and said coldly: "Don't you have anything to say to me?" If not, I'll go. ”

Xiao Zhu grabbed Hua Xin'er, who was about to turn around and leave: "Xin'er, I confess to you that I really don't have amnesia." ”

When she saw the red dress before, Hua Xin'er was a little skeptical. Later, when he played football, he was even more suspicious that Xiao Rose had recovered his memory, or that he had not lost his memory.

After listening to Xiao Gui's words, Hua Xin'er fell to the ground in surprise, and Xiao Gui smiled very easily: "I don't care, why are you still so nervous?" ”

Hua Xin'er stared at her: "You stupid girl! After speaking, he hugged Xiao Rose tightly and cried.

It turned out that Xiao Rose did not have amnesia, and she pretended to do it before, because the hatred for Xu Xu in her heart could not be eliminated.

But the hatred is so deep and the love is so deep, Xiao Rose can't really leave Xu Xu, she can't do it, then she will go crazy. So I came up with a way to forget the past.

Amnesia! After the amnesia, everything is back to square one. If only life could only be as it was when she first saw it, she always remembered the beauty of Xu Xu when she first saw her, and she never forgot it.

After pretending to have amnesia, Xu Xu began to please her as he did at the beginning, and treated her gently, as if the former Xu Xu had come back all of a sudden.

If it can be like this forever, Xiao Rose is willing to never recover her "memory"!

But she can't accept losing her memory of Hua Xin'er, so she still retains her memory of Hua Xin'er. This is why she only recognizes Hua Xin'er and not others.

Hua Xin'er can understand Xiao Zhuo's mood, and when she hated Gu Hongxin, she couldn't wait to lose her memory. Forget everything about Gu Hongxin.

"But why did you pretend to be crazy and stupid and beat Wang Ma to injury, and beat people when you saw them, did you deliberately let us send you to a mental hospital?"

Hua Xin'er was very surprised, she had already gotten what she wanted after "amnesia", why did she have to toss to the hospital?

Xiao Rose suddenly burst out laughing, and after laughing, her eyes turned red again, but she held back and the tears did not come out.

"Have you seen the big talk Journey to the West?" Xiao Rose suddenly asked this sentence without a head.

"Ahh I've seen it, but what does this have to do with you pretending to be crazy and stupid? Hua Xin'er was puzzled.

"There is a shot in it, Zixia Fairy said that even if you can live a hundred years old, what is the use of living unhappily?"

Hua Xin'er didn't understand what she meant, didn't she take back Xu Xu's heart now? Why are you still living unhappy?

"Some time ago, I always felt uncomfortable, so I secretly went to the hospital for a check-up without telling you, and later found out that there was lymphoma, which was in an advanced stage, and it was only a month away."

"Huh?"

Hua Xin'er's jaw was about to drop, and watching Xiao Rose calmly say these words, it was like telling a story that had nothing to do with her.

Hua Xin'er finally understood why Xiao Rose was pretending to be crazy and stupid, she didn't want Xu Xu to see the pain of her final illness and the appearance of her hair falling out.

Xiao Rose wants to leave the most perfect image in Xu Xu's heart, and hopes that when Xiao Rose recalls herself in the future, all that comes to mind is her most beautiful appearance.

Xiao Rose's begging Hua Xin'er not to let Xu Xu come to see her this month, in the face of Xiao Rose's request, Hua Xin'er really felt very sad. This stupid girl is so sick, and she still has to maintain a beautiful image in front of the people she likes.

In the end, Hua Xin'er went through the discharge procedures for Xiao Rose, because as long as she stayed in the hospital for a day, Xu Xu might come to see her again.

In order not to let Xu Xu go, Qin Xuanzi became suspicious, and Hua Xin'er brought Xiao Rose to Milan. claimed to be going to Milan to find Gu Hongxin, but she knew that Gu Hongxin was not in Milan.

Now she doesn't want to care about Gu Hongxin's affairs anymore, let them toss how they like, she just wants to spend this month quietly with Xiao Zhuo.

In order to verify that his guess was good, after arriving in Milan, Hua Xin'er still went around looking for Hongxin. As she had guessed, she didn't find it.

Therefore, she was even more sure that the voice next to Qin Xuanzi at that time was Gu Hongxin, but she didn't want to pay attention to it anymore.

Xiao Rose's condition is getting worse and worse, and her hair is almost falling out. During this period, Xu Xu often made video calls, and every time Xiao Rose wore a hat to video with him.

Xu Xu also asked why he still wore a hat at home, and Xiao Rose told him that this was fashion. In short, every time he was fooled by Xiao Zhuo, he never made Xu Xu suspicious.

And just like that, a month passed quickly. Xiao Rose's illness left her, and according to Xiao Rose's request before her death, her future was to cremate the ashes and throw them into the sea.

Xiao Rose said that if she died, she wouldn't have to deal with the aftermath, she didn't enjoy it when she was alive, and she didn't need it when she died.

Hua Xin'er felt uncomfortable, she couldn't accept all this, Xiao Rose was her best friend. She is so optimistic and kind, she has never harmed anyone, why did she get cancer at such a young age? The world is so unfair!

After dealing with all the aftermath of Xiao Rose, Hua Xin'er took Xiao Rose's ashes back to Nanqing City.

After she went back, the first person she saw was Xu Xu. Xu Xu was very surprised to see her come back alone, and hurriedly asked Xiao Zhu why she didn't come back with her.

Hua Xin'er didn't say anything, put the urn on the table, handed him a letter and left.

Xu Xu looked at the box on the table and the letter in his hand, and his head was a little confused. He opened the letter with some trembling, and his intuition told him that he should not read the contents of the letter.

Dear Xiaomei,

It's been a long time since I've called you like this, are you surprised when you hear it?

I'm amazed that I have amnesia, and I can still remember your pen name. I believe that if you are as smart as you, you should have guessed that I didn't have amnesia, right?

Indeed, I don't have amnesia, I'm faking it. Just because I want us to go back to the beginning, how nice it would be if life was only as it first saw it!

In fact, I hate the phrase "if life is only as it was first seen". Because everyone, or every relationship, can't live forever when they first met.

I prefer the phrase "love over time", and I admit that when I first met you, you were kind to me, and I still remember it to this day.

But the real affection for you is produced in later getting along. Or maybe it's unwilling, it's unwilling to be abandoned by you, so it's always been obsessed.

Until this point, when I was writing this letter, I was confused, confused, and I didn't know if I loved or hated you?

Or is there no love or hate......

If there is no love or hate, then what feelings do I have for you?

What is the point of writing this letter to you now?

Do I want you to see it, think of me, or use it to gain sympathy?

Maybe it's both, I think it's more because I'm unwilling. Why is it that you hurt me, but I am the one who became a sinner?

It also made you hate me, saying that you hate me to the core, saying that I deceive people too much, and openly scolding me in public!

Do you know how much I hate you, but even so, I still hope you can do well!

Unconsciously said a lot of nonsense. I'm sure you're annoyed and tired of hearing it. This is really the last time, and there will be no chance to listen to my nagging in the future.

Finally, I would like to ask, when I die and leave this world, will you remember me?

Do you think about the beauty we once shared?

Make you hate little Rose

………

After reading this letter, Xu Xu was stupid, although Xiao Zhu did not explain his whereabouts in the letter, but the urn on the table had to remind him of more.

Xu Xu rushed to the door, and Hua Xin'er stood at the door, waiting for him. Before Xu Xu could ask, Hua Xin'er spoke first:

"Xiao Rose said to help her scatter her ashes in the sea, I don't know if you are willing to help her do this last thing, if not, I will do it, right?"

Xu Xu skipped the question: "Was she in pain when she left?" ”

"Xiao Rose was still thinking about you when she left, she didn't want you to see her, she was afraid that you would see her unbeautiful side, she wanted to be the most beautiful in your heart forever!"