I was twenty years old, yes, I remember clearly, it was twenty years old, and I fell off a high sea cliff, and with my unborn child, against the rough waves, you fell straight down like a broken leaf, and were ...... by the inky black waters. Engulfed.

I have lived for twenty years, and I have only loved one man, but I never thought that he would give me such an ending, and I have never told anyone, even if Han Si asked him all kinds of questions in the future, and I did not commit suicide that day.

But who assassinated me, I haven't investigated this matter, what's the use of tracking these down? It's me who is stupid, it's me who makes others cheap, it's me who sends myself to a dead end, so what does it have to do with others!

But hate, hate is still unavoidable deep in the heart, bit by bit, so take root, many years later, I realized that hate and love are the same, both are a kind of feelings, because love can become hate, hate may just be an extension of love!

The Buddha said that if you don't love, then you don't even have hatred, you have no desires, you don't want anything, your heart doesn't move, you won't move anywhere, I still have hatred, which means that I still ...... Remember!

How can I not remember, I don't remember when I met him, the feelings of childhood sweethearts, the two little guesses are deep, but in exchange for him marrying another newcomer, I ...... Thrown into the deep sea and missing.

Lying on the hospital bed, with white gauze wrapped around my head and face, I sat in a daze, and the man who saved me sat with me in a daze.

I don't speak, he doesn't speak, even if I don't move, he doesn't move, I really don't know what I look like now, is it worth his side every day?

He's such a strange man!

"My name is Hanji, I will be your man in the future, you are also my woman, it is really good to come to Asia this trip, although I didn't catch the fish I wanted to catch, but I also caught a mermaid...... Still a mermaid! ”

Hanji speaks Chinese very well, and he has a quarter of Asian ancestry, but this quarter is only reflected in the time he speaks, and the rest is difficult to see in him.

His eyes are deep blue, his nose is also unique to Europeans, and his lips are as thin as paper, I seem to remember listening to fortune tellers say that people with thin lips have thin feelings, and now that I think about it, Cheng Jin's lips seem to be as thin as him.

I like that his head is tan, and with his not too white face, it feels comfortable no matter how you look at it.

His face was not as handsome and elegant as Cheng Jin's, there was a long fine mark from the left corner through the bridge of the tall nose to the right cheek, he once told me that it was a knife wound, left when he was fighting with the enemy before, and now it is much shallower.

I listened to him, just raised my hand to touch the thin scar, and only asked, "Does it still hurt?" ”

His blue eyes were slightly stunned, and then he smiled indifferently, "It doesn't hurt anymore!" ”

At that time, I didn't understand that it was this sentence at that time that tangled the two of us from beginning to end, and asked me to be by his side and watch him...... Die slowly!

After my injury healed, he took me back to Europe to find the best cosmetic surgeon and get a new perfect face.

The same is beautiful, but with a completely different concept, I used to be very beautiful, pure and pure, like a white brown flower still stained with rain and dew, gentle and pitiful.

At that time, Cheng Jin loved me very much, for fear of letting go, my people were in front of him, and he had to pull me wherever he went, at that time, our love was ...... It's so deep!

I remember every word and every look he said so clearly, and until now, I still can't forget it, this is the deep and doomed torture of first love!

And now I, my plastic surgery face is completely different from the previous me, my beauty is bright and dazzling, my beauty is thrilling, but this kind of beauty, what's the use, Qi can exchange for my sadness that day, the love that disappeared that day!

I don't like the way I look now, I can't say I don't like it, but Hanji likes to like to hold my face and look at it, and in the middle of the night, he always looks at me, looks at my face, watches me sleep, and watches me wake up, and I don't know if he has slept this night?

Not long after I arrived in England, I checked in with him, all of which was expected by me, no one will give their emotions in vain, there is always something to be reciprocated, and my ...... I've been rewarded for the best.

Yes, anyway, after I fell into the deep sea and was disfigured, Hanji was still willing to ask me, and was willing to heal me, and was willing to ...... Marry me......

What else can I say, maybe the moment I fell into the sea, I didn't care about any arrangement in this world.

The heart is dead, just like everything in this world is dead, what others do to you, what you do to others, you will not be too careful.

Everything was so peaceful, from the moment Hanji said he wanted to marry me, and I entered the new house with him in his arms, I was smiling all the time, and all I could give him was to smile, laughing, better than crying!

Will I never see Cheng Jin again?

This is the question I was thinking about when Hanji kissed me, at this moment, I felt that I was a little cheap, he didn't want me anymore, I was in the arms of other men, but I was still thinking about these useless things, hehe......, why didn't I die that day!

yes, why, and why should I see him? A lot of people don't need to say goodbye because they're just passing by. Forgetting is the best memory we give each other.

Wouldn't it be great if I could forget him, then I wouldn't have to hate him and devote myself to loving this man who hugged me?

"Have you ever loved someone before?"

His kiss stopped suddenly, without warning, as did his question, which surprised me quite a bit.

It was the first time he had asked me about my past in nearly a year of being around him.

I don't know how to answer him, but if it had been before, I would have been very happy to tell everyone around me that I had loved and loved me, and that he loved me and that we would always love him.

When everything has passed, I found that the funniest thing in this world is to talk about love, how can there be any feelings to talk about in this world, it is not a trick to deceive people, but I believe it, but I ...... Ruined!

"I know, you must have loved, and when I rescued you from the sea, the doctor said you ...... Just had a miscarriage, probably in the sea......"

Hanji's voice was thick and deep, and it had a strong attraction that I had to look at him.

With those blue eyes and complicated expressions, he didn't know what kind of answer he wanted to make him happy.

Yes, I just want to make him happy now, not just because he's my savior, he'...... From tonight onwards, it will be my husband.

"No, I haven't loved, I've been ......, you should know about that kind of thing, and then, thrown into the sea, that kid...... I don't know whose it is! ”

I said it coldly as if this matter was close to me, but my heart was as painful as blood, and I was afraid that my face was so white that it was bloodless!

"Since you haven't loved, then hate, it's also an emotion!"

He was silent for a long time, and finally said a word.

"Why did you marry me?"

The first time I saw him, I thought he was a strange person, just like what he did, so strange.

He is rich and powerful, and the women around him are like a hundred flowers, but he took a woman like me who fell into the deep sea and had plastic surgery.

"When I see your eyes, I feel warm!"

He smiled, his thin lips raised gracefully, but his gaze deepened in his smile.

"Then why did you marry me?"

I didn't think about his question, I closed my eyes before answering him, and then said, "Because I want to get married!" ”

That night, he still slept with me in his arms! There is no such thing as a man and a woman, and I wonder more and more why he wants to marry me, just to see my eyes.

The candles in the cave house and the wedding night that I dreamed of a thousand times when I was a child ended in such an atmosphere.

However, I'm already what I'm called!

——————————— the dividing line for newlyweds————————

"What flowers do you like, and I let them plant them in the villa?"

On the second day of the wedding, he asked me who was hiding in bed while tidying up his clothes.

"White Camellia!"

I answered truthfully.

"White camellia, is its flower language flawless? Perfect for you! ”

He turned around, a pair of deep pupils, stained with intoxicating tenderness, I think, as long as it is a woman, I will fall in love with him!

"No......, how can you despise my love!"

How can you despise my love, the hidden meaning of this flower, just like its face and its color.

Although he is humble, he can ask proudly, "How can you despise my love!" ”

And I can only envy its arrogance, but I can't do it so freely, and I still can't blame it so much...... Blame Cheng Jin.

"Okay, in the future, only this kind of flower will be planted in the villa!"

Hanji is a strong man, and he does what he says, in just a few months, the villa has become plain white, and sure enough, there are no other flowers except white camellias, so I don't know when I see this full white...... What a sad thing.

At that time, who knew that if a man could be so domineering for a woman, he was already in love.

I live a leisurely life as a young grandmother in the villa, waiting for flowers and plants every day in my spare time, listening to music with Hanji at night, and letting him fall asleep with him in his arms......

A few times in a while, in my sleep, I obviously felt that Hanji was emotional, but he never touched me, this strange man, he didn't say that he didn't ask for it, how could I take the initiative, I couldn't avoid it!

Sometimes Hanji will be very busy, and he will not go back to the villa once in ten days and half a month, and I never ask.

He was afraid that I would not be able to cope with the affairs of the villa alone, so he called more than 30 of his subordinates to let me choose a housekeeper of the villa, and I raised my hand and pointed to the man surnamed Xing, leaving him.

I thought that I could live like this for one year, two years and three years, and live carefree, maybe one day Hanji will not spoil me like now, he will leave, and it doesn't matter, people who are born again will always have nothing to hurt anymore.

In the boring days, I fell in love with the study of cosmetics, and over time, I even studied a set, and casually put a white camellia into the bottle, and named it white camellia, but I never thought that in the future, this small bottle turned out to be the best tool for my revenge.

I thought I was going to forget the name Cheng Jin, but some people deliberately didn't let you forget it, I don't know why Hansi had to order Cheng Jin's information to show me.

Hanji cruelly pointed out how happy he was, he and his wife, and their son ......, they were so warm in the photo, but outside the photo, I was so miserable, I had to change my appearance once before I could exist in the world, this ...... Why?

Why did I have to taste all the bitter fruits of the love change back then, I was obviously the most innocent there, but I became the most tragic among them.

In the past half a year, Hanji almost intentionally or unintentionally, pointed out the pain that I had forgotten again, and even taught me how to hate?

——— if you don't want to be hurt again in the future, then you must ...... Get stronger!

This is what Hanji taught me when he left the villa, and it lifted the memory that I wanted to escape from again, and it hurt.

Yes, it's not something I want to forget that I can hide, it's not something I want not to ask for, it's okay...... Returned it.

Wiping away tears, I entered a school under the order of Hansi, studied business management, put all my heart on books, I swore that I would regain everything I had lost, I would ......, I would make Cheng Jin bankrupt.

Isn't he okay to give up my childhood sweetheart for the sake of power and marry a wealthy lady? Then I'...... I can also make a sacrifice with revenge and hatred for my own rebirth.

The spare time of studying, is the ear and sideburns of me and Hanji together, the love that stops at courtesy, in this world, there are few pitiful, but I just met it.

I don't know what kind of image Hanji is in front of others, but he is a gentleman and a gentleman in front of me.

His smile is fresh and elegant, his eyes are deep and peaceful, his demeanor is polite, he took me to England to watch equestrian shows, go to Hawaii sea bathing, go to Norway ski ......, his love for me, let my heart slowly soften, slowly indulge, I think...... I'm in love with him.

Love is such a sad thing, when you are completely influenced by it and want to put your heart into it, it plays a big trick on you and lets you know...... What is cruelty.

When Hanji's blood stained my white dress red, I was stunned.

Seeing him being wheeled into the emergency room, I didn't even know how I was standing, how I was thinking, and how I was getting used to the pain.

Messy Red - When I first learned about this virus, Hanji's life was not long gone.

He was the first person to survive this virus.

Lying in the hospital bed, he is very thin, why didn't I observe it before, he is getting thinner and thinner? Why didn't you notice that his face was getting paler, I ...... I'm so stupid.

It was also on that day that I realized why he didn't touch me, and I learned what the nasty virus used as a way of transmission.

"I didn't want to teach you how to hate, but I ...... I can't teach you how to love again, I think, as long as a person has thoughts, whether it is hatred or revenge, as long as he still works for a goal, then ...... It's better than living in a mess! ”

So it was, he let me see those things, provoked my hatred, just wanted me to stop living like a wandering spirit, when I was, I ...... How can I understand his painstaking efforts!

"If I die, my society will be handed over to you, you apply what you have learned, and you must not live up to my trust in you, those ...... Those friends have been with me for many years, they will support you, and you must do your best to ensure that they are well-being! ……”

In the end, I couldn't hear what he was saying, I just knew that I kept crying, as if only tears could wash away the pain, and I was so afraid that his blue eyes would close their ...... I couldn't open it anymore.

The pain was heartbreaking, far worse than when I knew that Cheng Jin was going to marry another woman.

I and Hansi, the bits and pieces of my life with Hansi, are indelible in my life, in this marriage, I have always been pampered and loved, and all the difficulties are borne by this man himself, he ...... He never told me!

On the eve of his death, Hanji was so energetic that he pulled out the needle in his hand and took me to the beach secretly.

Sitting on the beach, the water overflowing our legs, I snuggled into his skinny arms and let him hug me tightly, and his last words were "Miss, I love you!" ”

We've been together for so long, the first time I've heard him say that, he's never said it before, I thought ...... He......

As tears rolled down her cheeks, Asaka broke through the clouds and poked her head out, as if welcoming the holy light of Hanji's soul to the other world......

That day, I lost ...... My husband, my love.

He was Chinese New Year's Eve at the age of thirty and eight!

——————— the dividing line of death—————————

In the days that followed, I took over the society that Hanji had left me, and all of his legacy.

It was only at this time that I learned what kind of number Hansi's family property was, and what kind of organization Hanji's club was.

From the beginning of the burnt to the later skillful, I won the respect of everyone in the community, and I ...... But I know very well that this is no better than Hanji*.

Hanji's death made me unload another hatred and carry a new hatred at the same time.

I have to admit that after I fell into the sea, I was only motivated by hatred.

Unlike the previous hatred, I went from wanting to ruin my family to wanting to kill the person who had harmed Hanji.

After Hanss died, in addition to devoting myself to the business of the club, I devoted all my energy to investigating the messy red and bringing the messy virus to the woman who brought the messy virus to Hans.

This is far more eager than when I was rescued from the sea by Hanji and wanted to take revenge on Cheng Jin.

So, I registered Ren's head office in France, so I applied for the White Camellia series project, so I slowly shook the net open, just waiting for the little flying insect...... She threw herself into the net.

I returned to my hometown with the project I wanted to invest in, and I deliberately lured Cheng Jin into this project, ready to kill two birds with one stone, but I didn't expect that when I really saw Cheng Jin, this desire would disappear.

It turned out that it was the lies woven by Hanji who deceived me, Cheng Jin...... It wasn't a happy time, the woman died, and the only child left behind was a cripple.

Hanji did that, it was really as he said, just to let me remember a hatred, so that I could live with high morale, I don't know, in the other world, if he is also so unyielding, he can also wait for me with high morale.

Goodbye Cheng Jin, he is no longer what he used to be, the young man in white clothes and white shirts with clear eyes no longer exists, and now his ...... At most, it can only be described by the word Confucian merchant, but is this Confucian merchant the person I want to take revenge on?

He is not, he is no longer there, so can my hatred also end, and will the entanglement between me and him no longer exist?

It should be like this, then why can't I forget him in my mind, if I can forget, how can I take over the young man named Leng Yi from Qin Yisan's hands.

His eyes are the same as Cheng Jin back then, and his appearance is also six points similar, when he hugged him in bed, it seemed to be back then, in the youth of the year, but why did that feeling completely different!

Hey, it's just a substitute, no matter how good it is, how can it be compared to the bygone years!

Just as I was about to let go and push him back, I suddenly saw the wound in his eye.

He looked at my expression, so scared, hiding a faint pleading, just...... I don't know what he asks for, do you want me to keep him? It's okay to stay, but how can I really fall in love with him?

The young man's youthful feelings are really touching, he listens to me so much, he will respond to whatever I say, no matter what I ask him to do, he will do it without hesitation.

When he trembled and hugged me, and cautiously said that he wanted to marry me, I seemed to see Hanji from behind him.

Those blue eyes, as before, calm and deep, his appearance stayed there for a long time, and I unconsciously said the word, "Good! ”

Leng Yi excitedly asked for me, as if I was already his wife, but I knew that it was ours...... The last time, and after that, I will not be like this again, and I must send him away.

In his life, I am just the beginning, and in my life, he will be an end, and I have no intention of being attached to it again.

I just want to manage my trap well, get justice for Hans, and then go back to the villa where we used to live.

There are white camellia flowers, so imaginary with the white in the depths of memory, so close to the love in the depths of memory, my lover, will also show his calm smile in the white camellia, and a touch of starry dark blue.