Many people's love begins with a sense of déjà vu, and after falling in love, they must look forward to having another life of love.

In the love that has been touched by déjà vu, I believe that the marriage in this life is actually destined in the previous life......

Whoever says such things to me before I know Wish, I will definitely laugh at the ignorance of the other person.

In my opinion, love is just a kind of happiness in the game world, not to talk about a lifetime, let alone a past life and a future life, whose feelings and patience can last so long, it is impossible for a lifetime, not to mention an unknown afterlife!

I was born in a small northern city, my parents were both soldiers, and when I was very young, I lived in my grandmother's house and my grandmother's house, and my childhood memories are bumpy and tossing, and I always couldn't find a fixed place to live for more than a year.

At that time, I didn't dare to make friends, I didn't dare to keep my own things, I was afraid that if I moved suddenly, all these things would be gone, and the emotions I put into it would be wasted, and I would be left with sadness for myself, so ...... What's so painful about that?

Maybe it's these childhood habits that have developed my insecure sexiness in the future, so that when I grow up, I still maintain this habit, and in the end, it develops into love.

As a teenager, my parents, who had never seen a few deaths, died on the way to the outer border post.

The death of my parents did not have much impact on me, as if I had never had them in my life, but I added a halo of martyrs and orphans on my head, but unfortunately I was never rare, if it was possible, I would rather be like other ordinary children, have such parents to stay in the body, and taste what it is like to be home.

Without even shedding a tear, I went to his house with my father's comrades-in-arms who had come to pick me up.

It's just a different place to live, and a temporary place to live that is different from the previous life!

The people I call uncles and aunts are very good to me, polite and polite, but they make me feel so indifferent and alienated, it turns out that I am enthusiastic and generous, and it is also a kind of rejection!

After graduating from high school, I didn't go to college, but chose a modeling school, and at that time, I just wanted to leave this place that made me feel depressed and live my own life, which was just my own.

It was this choice that I started my life on the catwalk, and what I thought was independence was the beginning of another loneliness.

Only after entering the society did I know that people's hearts are complicated, the world is difficult, and there are iron rules in which line of work, if you want to become famous in this industry, it is as simple as picking up a few layers of skin!

But since I chose to come in, I still have to face it, I laughed and faded, and I should ...... This is the beginning of another game.

Anyone who knows me will first marvel at my appearance, and then think that I have a good temper, yes, I give people a fresh and gentle feeling, easy-going and elegant appearance, but who knows what kind of competitive heart will be under such an appearance.

If I'm not competitive, how can I pick a flower that I know is stained with poisonous juice?

Her name is Luofei, a model in one of our companies, at that time, everyone was not popular, and they were all working hard for their careers, me and her, both the same.

I'm not her first man, she's not my first woman, living together, just rubbing each other's loneliness, making each other warmer, not to talk about any feelings, we all know that in this competitive circle, it's too luxurious to talk about feelings.

When I held my head high and held the Best New Artist Model award that year, she walked past me with a smile and gave me a red invitation, "I'll move out tomorrow, and I'll get married on the 26th of next month, if you have time...... Let's have a show! ”

The bright red and dazzling invitation made me feel dizzy, and the big words of the bronzing seemed so dazzling and funny to me, and the woman who was still sleeping on my bed with her front feet was ...... I found a candidate worthy of selling myself, and my scheming can be seen!

There was no sadness, and there was no reluctance, watching her disappear in front of my eyes, as if I had never known, after her back left, I had another relationship opened simultaneously.

There are countless women who miss me Li Junxiu, even if I will not be decadent because of the flowering failure of a flower.

I have good capital, it's not that I'm narcissistic, at least among the people I've seen, there is no man as good as my capital.

I'm not a clean person, since I have good capital, of course, I have to make good use of it, and the emotional games that I started at the age of nineteen are the things I play the most skillfully except for the modeling steps.

Of course, I also get a lot of benefits from it, but the game feelings belong to the game feelings, and I will never touch the marriage, no matter how much benefit I am promised, I will not put on that groom's dress and drag a woman into the church, which is not attached to my life beliefs.

Marriage in my eyes and feelings in my eyes are two completely different concepts.

Marriage, should be like my parents, holding the hand of the son, growing old with the son, not being born together, but dying together, for the same faith, for the same pursuit, and persistence, the love in marriage can last for a long time.

And feelings?

People have many feelings, and a certain minute in a certain period of time may produce an emotional outlet, but it is just a brain outburst after a nerve jump for no reason, which is not worth taking seriously.

Xiao Lu said that I am a man like the wind, destined to drift all my life.

I just smiled when I heard that, "Wind?" The wind is also very good, at least free, you can go wherever you want, this is also a kind of life! And you, you will always follow the wind, as a grain of sand! ”

Yes, Xiao Lu is the grain of sand that must follow me, he is my agent.

I used to think that my life would be like this, the glamour on the catwalk, the numbness under the catwalk, the girlfriend circling around in bed, and the chatter behind me.

Can...... The woman who had been married would suddenly come back and take my hand and say that she loves me and that she wants to be with me.

Love? It's a ridiculous word, I don't know if she loves me or not, but I'm sure she said she wanted to be with me, that's for sure.

How could the bald old man she married compare to my romance and the skills between the beds!

I never refuse women who take the initiative to send them to the door, women just need to be loved, you must not hurt their hearts, you can not love them, but you can't refuse them, this will make you look very ungentlemanly, like that kind of ungentlemanly thing, I never do it.

The lingering with Luofei is no different from before, it is still so smooth, if she hadn't broken the rules of the game between us, then, I may still be having fun with her to this day!

"Smack!"

When Luofei's slap landed on my face, there was no expression in my eyes except helplessness and anger.

I glanced at the other woman in my arms who had not yet dressed, and then at the angry Luofei standing on the bed, and said in disgust, "Get out, you all get out!" ”

It's obviously a frolic, so why bother to make everyone break up so unhappily! For the next week, I didn't go to see Luofei, and she didn't come to me, I thought that was the end of the matter, and there would be no more contact between us.

It's a pity, I was wrong, I underestimated this woman, once the woman became serious, once she became jealous, once she became vicious, then ...... She can ruin the whole world, especially a woman like Luofei who can stop for the sake of her goals.

The first was the woman who was in my bed that day, and she came with the news of the disfigurement of the car accident.

Then, it was Xiao Lu, who had been with me for many years and had been taking care of me like a nanny, who committed suicide at home, and the conclusion turned out to be depression.

I've known him for so many years, I don't know what depression he has, what a ridiculous result, and after I calmed down and thought about it, I finally Mingyue couldn't get rid of all this and Luofei.

Because, Xiao Lu has been advising me to stay away from the woman Luofei before, he said that I can play with emotions with any woman, but not with Luofei, otherwise, one day I will die.

I just couldn't have imagined that he would lose his life for me in advance, I ...... How can I be worthy of him!

When I ran to Luo Fei to question, she looked at me with a smile, which made me feel that everything was so strange, as if I had never known each other.

She was noncommittal about the facts, she admitted that she did everything, and she told me by the way that while she was looking for me, she also infected me with a virus called Messy Red, and said that she did it for only one purpose, to keep me, she said...... She loves me!

I've never seen anything more ridiculous than this, she says she loves me? I've never seen anyone love with this kind of hurt, this kind of trap, this kind of ...... Bloody.

I left angrily and drew a stop for this incident, because I couldn't find any evidence to prove that Xiao Lu's death and the woman's car accident were related to Luofei, and I couldn't sue Luofei through normal channels.

However, since then, I have started an ascetic life, and I no longer call any woman home, nor do I accept women who take the initiative to conceive, and even the agent who the company gave me a new arrangement, I also keep a certain distance from it, I am afraid that such a tragedy will happen again, but the tragedy still cannot be avoided.

When I fainted on the T-shirt table, I really understood what redness was!

The terrible virus is intertwining my body, making me likely to die at any time, and I can't help but return to Luofei's side.

Looking at the woman's bright smile, I felt as if the opening of the daffodils made me not interested in playing bed games with her, and I was perfunctory.

This kind of mixed life made me feel more and more frightened, and my desires and dissatisfaction and tricks were full of tricks, like the death knell of death, speeding up my approach to hell.

I couldn't live like this anymore, so I decided that I was going to flee, even if it ended up being death, it was better than rotting by her side.

——————— the beginning of an ordinary life—————————

With all my savings and a bottle of medicine stolen from Luofei, I found a very small city and settled down.

In order to live longer, I gave up all my previous hobbies and made myself live like a ninety-year-old man, eating the food with the lowest salt intake every day, chewing raw vegetables and fruits that are not processed with oil, and drinking milk and white water porridge.

After this kind of life has lasted for a while, I can't stand it anymore, it's so boring, it's better to die like this, maybe it's easier to die than now!

Then, I took a lot of sleeping pills, I don't know if I was taking fake pills, or if I didn't take enough of them, and I thought I was dead when I woke up.

This experience also made me understand a truth, if I really die, I'm afraid I don't even have a person to collect my body, rot, what a terrible thing, I have such a ...... Narcissistic face, or ......

So, I started the plan to rent out the house, which was implemented for more than two years, during which countless tenants were changed, but none of them were able to stay for long, so naturally, I didn't die.

I don't remember being the first dozen or hundreds of guests who came to my place, I just remember that she was the funniest of all the people who came.

She blinked her big pure eyes, called me a goblin, and accused me of the rules, but she had to endure it.

On the first night of staying, the embarrassment of her going to the wrong bathroom, and our future life, it was like being arranged by God, we ...... After all, there is a feeling.

I suddenly believed the saying: many people's love begins with a sense of déjà vu, and after falling in love, they must look forward to having another life of love.

In the love that has been touched by déjà vu, I believe that the marriage in this life is actually destined in the previous life......

I admit that I fell in love with her, fell in love with the girl who was nearly ten years younger than me, more than 30 years, for the first time I experienced love, I realized that it turned out that what I have been pursuing all I have been longing for is not a free life like the wind, but a pure love that can be kept, and a woman who is willing to accompany me for the rest of my life.

When we weren't together, every time the phone rang, we were so excited that we wanted that call to be from the other party; When we are together, we always stare at each other, each glance is deeper than the previous one, deepening the depth of love, and we all want to drown in each other's eyes, unwilling to extricate ourselves.

She was by my side, for the sake of my body, she was understanding, never asked about my past, knew it was a bad story, but didn't say a word, just silently stayed by my side and helped me wipe away the sweat.

I remember that there is a book that says: Every girl used to be an angel without tears, and when she met the boy she loved, she had tears, and the angel wept and fell into the world, so every boy can't live up to his girl, because she once gave up the whole heaven for you!

When I was finally thirty-three years old, I waited for the girl who was willing to shed tears for me, but I didn't dare to guarantee that I would not fail her, and what I wished to give up for me was as simple as heaven? If I lose her, not only will I have no rest of my life, but she will also ......, how can I give it up!

When I wanted to avoid it, I found that I couldn't avoid it at all, and every attempt was the result of heartache, and finally, in the slap that I made a wish to myself, I finally understood that this love was my destiny, and I couldn't escape!

Fortunately, fate is not always so cruel, I can finally be with her clearly, holding her hand, walking on the street, shopping in the mall like all couples, sitting in the cold drink shop for a while, watching her worry about my body, watching her busy with my life, ......I have never been so happy, as if I saw the dream of childhood prayer, have a home to settle in, and there is a person waiting at home!

In the windy sky, love is everywhere, but I have exhausted all my body and mind to catch it, and there is only this one, how can I not cherish it, I can't give up, then, let me be selfish once in my only remaining life, let me ...... Love her!