There seemed to be a person standing in the sunlight, and she looked up at the sky. So sad, so helpless, full of hostility. I wanted to step forward and listen to her world, why it was so sad, but afraid of being hated. At this time, I saw her sit down, hugging her knees, looking ahead with confused eyes, I heard her sigh, and then said to herself, "I want to give up, but there are too many worries, life should be like this, or am I wronged myself with affection?" I was amazed that this sentence seemed familiar, I must have heard it somewhere, but I couldn't remember it. I tried to get a closer look at who this person was, but no matter how much I looked, I couldn't see her face clearly. Then I saw her stand up, sighed, and said to myself, "Go home." ”

I followed her to see where she lived. I had a strong feeling that this person must be very familiar to me. I saw her descend the hill and onto the road. I raised my head and looked, "Aiguo Road" I seemed to vaguely know something in my heart, but I didn't have time to verify it, because I saw her turn into an alley in front of me, and now the feeling in my heart was even stronger, "Does she live in the same neighborhood as me?" But there are no good friends in the same neighborhood who play with me. ”

I followed her into the "Patriotic Family Building" and watched her enter the first unit and go up to the second floor. Now I finally understand that my intuition is correct, no wonder I feel so familiar with this voice, I also feel uncomfortable when she is sad, it turns out that she is me, I am her. Is this who I used to be, and why can't I remember this day in my memory?

Familiar community, familiar corridor, familiar door. "Knock knock" I knocked on the door, and I didn't see any joy on my face at all, but it was calm and a little distressing. The voice of the strange woman behind the door was "who" and "me". At the moment of opening the door, I barely squeezed out a smile on my face and greeted "Auntie, I'm back" This person is ..... Stepmother. Yes, I remember that when I was 10 years old, my parents were divorced, and I was sentenced to my father. At first, I didn't realize how much of an impact this would have on my life later on. On the contrary, I simply thought that even if my father and mother remarried, they would definitely be good to me. But life is so teasing people. Two years later, my father remarried without the slightest hesitation. I didn't attend the wedding because I lived on campus. Soon after marriage, the stepmother became pregnant and was a boy. None of my fantasies came true, but gave and giving, and forbearance, and in the end, all I got ridicule and disgust.

I saw me walk into the room next to me, and that's when I had a real smile on my face. The room is not big, and when you walk in, there is a large bed that takes up half of the room, and there is a TV next to the bed, and behind the TV is a closet. I saw an old man with gray hair, about seventy or eighty years old, but in good condition, talking and laughing. "The girl is back." "Well, grandma, I'm back, what TV are you watching?" "I'm watching a police movie, you see this patrol is arresting people..."

This gray old man is my grandmother, and the only one in this nominal family that worries me. Every weekend, I would watch TV and chat with my grandmother at home, and I would buy a bunch of delicious food and eat with my grandmother. During the holidays, I would use the pocket money I usually saved to buy my grandmother what she liked to eat or wanted. And my grandmother would always secretly stuff me pocket money when no one was around, and always be the first to give me a red envelope during the Chinese New Year. Grandma often said: "My eldest granddaughter, if you are unhappy, just tell grandma, it's no big deal, grandma is here" Thinking of these pasts, my heart felt uncomfortable for a while. I can't imagine what would happen when people found out that I was missing. Grandma must be in a hurry, I don't want to cause trouble to everyone, make grandma sad, because my affairs will cover everyone's life with a layer of haze.

At this time, all the scenes in front of me were gone, and only a white expanse was left around, as if it was in a fog. Immediately afterwards, I saw the former me, appeared in front of me, looked at me with a smile, and said, "What a sad memory, I know that you are the future me." Once we became strong because of pain, the wheel of fate has changed, in the future, please don't forget everything that once was, I know that for you and me, it is liberating to be able to really let go, but the pain will never leave. I wanted to say more, but time was running out. In short, no matter what you become in the future, you must insist on being your truest self and be kind. But don't forget the past, because the past is what makes you who you are. Believe in yourself and you can do better. For me, and for the sake of other people you love......"

Yuna.Yang