That night, Liu Zhen, who woke up from the hospital, opened her eyes and saw me standing next to the bed, and immediately turned her head to the other side. After a while, she only said: "I don't need anyone to accompany me." ”

I didn't answer, and I didn't have anything to answer. After sitting on the side for a while, he walked away.

I knew that at that time, my presence would only make Liu Zhen more painful. However, when I left the hospital, I suddenly wanted to go back to Cao's house. And I chose to go back not because I wanted to see anyone, but because I wanted to see my old friend outside the window, the plane tree.

I opened the window and tried to reach for its rough trunk, only to find that the distance between me and it was always far and near, in space. I leaned over and stood on tiptoe, only to see that it was still a little bit off. Then, I suddenly remembered that in my world, I used to be so far away from those mediocre people.

That night, because of my fault and because of the indelible pain in Liu Zhen's life, the stars dimmed their colors.

As the protagonist of the incident, I have no way to ask Li Kai for an explanation because of Liu Zhen. In my heart, I actually want to fight for Liu Zhen, but I am struggling because of this special identity.

Li Kai and Liu Zhen have been together for two or three years, even at that time, in my opinion, the moment their relationship has come to an end, I still feel that I don't have the courage in front of the two of them. That lack of bravery is like the pain and helplessness of lying on the table and watching Li Kai throw Liu Zhen beside me, but unable to do anything.

I really owe it to Liu. Really, I really wanted to go and say sorry to her, but it was delayed for many years.

After the incident, Li Kai acted as if nothing had happened, and he was still arrogant and proud in the company. Every time I see him shuttling through the corners of the office building, I have an urge to rush over and tear off his disguised mask and reveal his filthy inner world under his glamorous exterior to everyone! However, sanity prevailed in the end.

I resigned in disgrace. Before resigning, he did not forget to mail the illegal act of embezzlement of the company's property obtained by Li Kai to the president of the group in an anonymous way. and went home to wait for Li Kai's career to change.

Everything was planned.

That day, I was sitting on the sofa holding a pillow, and the mobile phone in front of me was crackling with messages, and my colleagues from the original unit told me one after another that Li Kai had been denounced. But I looked at it, and my face was expressionless. I should have been happy, but for some reason, I felt as if I had lost the battle of revenge, and I had no joy of victory at all.

Li Kai was reported to the police by the company and sued him. On the day he was taken away by the police, Zhao Song opened a bottle of red wine and said he wanted to celebrate with me. He poured half a glass into the goblet, and I looked at the dark red liquid but didn't dare to pick it up for a long time. Zhao Song's eyes smiled, and he said, "Mu Xi, you are so good." ”

The corners of my mouth lifted slightly, but the words came to my lips but did not come out.

Am I winning love and losing friendship? No.

I drank it all, but I felt that it was Liu Zhen's tears and blood that slid through my throat and into my stomach.

As I said a long time ago, there's the unexpected behind the expected. Unexpectedly, the group went along with the vine, and also led to a major incident of Li Kai stealing and selling company secrets. Immediately, Li Kai suffered a lawsuit and faced a huge amount of financial compensation to the group.

The day I heard the news, I panicked. I patted my chest and was a little afraid, if I insisted on letting Liu Zhen hold her stomach and backhand the father of the child in my belly to prison, wouldn't I be a heinous sinner? Now, what is the difference between being a sinner?

During that time, I was basically sitting alone on the couch in a daze, thinking about what had happened, thinking about everything that could not have happened. Zhao Song told me that he had found a new job, but I was not excited, did not care, and did not verify. After moving out of Zhao Song's place, I didn't move back again, although I have always regarded myself as his girlfriend, but the distance is not just the sadness of parting in space.

In Li Kai's case, Liu Zhen was discharged from the hospital on the day of the first trial. I wanted to pick her up, but after thinking about it, I just did it. I heard that Liu Zhen also resigned subsequently, and I thought she would recuperate quietly at home, but I didn't expect that she actually went to study law on her own!

A friend told me the news. and said that it was rumored outside that she studied law because of Li Kai.

This argument is unacceptable to me. I don't understand, what magic does Li Kai have that can make Liu Zhen do this to him again and again? After all, this man has never loved Liu Zhen! Moreover, his moral decline has made Liu Zhen lose the right to be a mother for the rest of her life! And Liu Zhen was able to give up her job and the major she studied in four years of college for him, and instead study law on her own?

If it weren't for my fault before this, I'm afraid, out of the relationship between my classmates, I would have knocked on Liu Zhen's door and asked for clarification.

I haven't studied law, but I guess anyone with a little common sense should be able to know that the boring and rigorous nature of law and its profundity are destined to be a difficult subject, especially if you are self-taught!

After a long, long, long time, Liu Zhen told me:

"Actually, I had feelings before that. However, even so, I believe that there will be nothing between you. Later, when everyone grew up, I thought, you say, this Li Kai's heart is so high, is it because he is young and immature? Then I'll wait! When he matures and is grounded, everything will be fine. Unfortunately, I forgot one thing. In this world, there are too many people who always like to do the opposite. We call it alternative. As everyone knows, a person has a 99% chance of encountering the so-called alternative in life. A man who is accustomed to eating foie gras with red wine, you want him to have a potato stew with eggplant, that is called freshness, but if you give him bran vegetables, in his eyes, I am afraid that his soul has been defiled. This is not the same thing as filling your stomach, after all, the spiritual needs of those who fly in the sky are always greater than the actual objects that grow in the ground. Including, people who have jumped out of the pit since childhood. When Liu Zhen said this, her eyes were fixed on a certain point in the distance. I know that this remark was felt from the bottom of her heart after experiencing the ups and downs of the incident between her and Li Kai.

"I once thought that if one day, Li Kai really changed and wanted to have a home, then I, Liu Zhen, would be his best choice. I don't know where my confidence comes from, but I think home is down-to-earth. It's a pity that Li Kai, who is used to traveling around the world in a paraglider, has already become an eagle looking for prey everywhere with full wings, and he is no longer the quail waiting to be slaughtered in the cage in front of the barbecue restaurant. chose to use the child to tie Li Kai, in fact, it was also a helpless move. I know that what I'm doing is not favorable, and that I have a good chance of putting my life on the line for it. But I don't know what happened to me at the time, I just wanted to go my own way. That day, I was just passing by the company and wanted to go upstairs to tell Li Kai the results of my inspection, but I accidentally bumped into the two of you. ”

After Liu Zhen said this, she didn't talk any further. And in that conversation, I was always a party involved, but I listened quietly as a bystander. After staring at Liu Zhen for a long time, I mustered up a lot of courage before I whispered, "Do you hate me?" ”

Liu Zhen turned her face around at that time and smiled faintly: "Don't hate." It's true. Don't say that everything that happened between you and Li Kai is not emotionally involved, even if there is, this is also my Liu Zhen's life. The path was all chosen by myself, and I had millions of opportunities to turn back by Li Kai's side, but I was carried away by my own self-deception and his disguise. If it is not Cao Muxi, there will be Liu Muxi, Zhao Muxi, Li Muxi and so on. I later understood that if you don't love, you don't love, and it has nothing to do with who he likes. ”

"Do you regret it?"

Liu Zhen didn't answer me directly, she paused: "When I knew that I was about to never be a mother, I looked out the window for two days. I thought back to what I had done to Li Kai for so many years, and I just suddenly felt so pitiful. That was the first time I felt sorry for myself since I was a child. Liu Zhen's words made my tears stay in my eyes and dare not flow out.

After being silent for a long time, I asked again: "You, since you have seen it, why are you still studying law?" ”

Liu Zhen smiled: "Regarding the matter of self-study of law, I have never explained it to anyone. Actually, I didn't learn it because I wanted to help Li Kai, I was stupid before, but the uterus is gone, and I still learn the Fa to argue for him, so I should really be dragged out and shot. Studying law, it's just that after going through so much, I suddenly realized that I should be able to help some girls like me, and maybe, a certain word of mine, a simple legal aid can save a woman's life. Some people say I'm confused, they say, I should live a chic and happy life. I feel like I'm okay, I've given my fate to go with the flow. I never thought it would be a shame and cowardice to leave everything to its course. Rather, this person, after experiencing the impermanence of the world, has smoothed out the edges and corners, she has given up the colorful world of flowers, and from the day she chose to adjust the reality to black and white, she has been indifferent to the freshness and excitement brought by the flowery future. This is not a handshake, it is the result of her fighting too tired and losing too badly. ”

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