In the spring of Nanjing this year, the wind blew earlier than usual.

In the early morning of the 11th, I got off my plane back from Toronto. While waiting for my luggage, I heard someone call my name: "Cao Muxi!" "I turned around and saw that stupid girl, Liu Zhen. I waved at her, pointed to my luggage, and turned back. Something seemed to be pouring out of my eyes, yes, tears. The speed it left behind was unexpected, and I didn't let Liu Zhen see that I was crying. Because, I don't want her to know what is mixed in these tears.

It took almost 4 turns on the conveyor belt before I settled down and took my suitcase. When I dragged it towards Liu Zhen, my tears had already flowed from my face to my heart.

"Haha, surprised? Not surprised? I didn't expect it! Look, there's an even bigger surprise! When~When! A bouquet of flowers! For the beauty! Welcome back to the bosom of the Motherland! "I took the bouquet of lilies and roses and looked at it carefully.

The red is bright red, and the white is clean and pure. It's a stark contrast, like my 36-year life, which is polarized.

I used to be proud of this world with flaming red lips, as if I were the girl who does not eat the fireworks of the world, I am sharp in the depths of my soul, I try my best to get rid of all the mediocrities around me, I try to prove that I am different. And now, scarred by my wings falling from the sky, I thought that no one cared what was going on with me, because the people I had abandoned in my youth outside the glass windows of my world were hurt again and again. Yes, I am like a lily in that bouquet now, I am not pure, but my soul is clean.

And when those I have hurt choose to forgive again and again, I feel that I am happy while I have no place to be ashamed.

Liu Zhen suddenly gave me a hug when I saw the flowers. She hugged me so hard that her hair was so loose that it tickled my neck. But I didn't hide.

Liu Zhen whispered in my ear: "It's good to come back." This sentence, the tone is strangely light, as if she is talking to herself.

She took the luggage in my hand, grabbed in front of me and dragged forward, and turned back to me as she walked: "Mu Xi, I, I changed the sheets for you, I went to the International Trade Center yesterday to personally choose for you, your favorite sunflower flower!" You'll love it. This time, you will honestly live with me, and I will eat three meals a day, and I will definitely raise you to be fat. ”

Like a child, I followed her closely. Silently replied, "Well, listen to you." ”

In the spring of Nanjing, the wind is always mixed with a little tenderness. When I saw Liu Zhen walking out of the airport hall, the wind blew her hair fluttering, and it reminded me of the youthful charm and shyness of the passing years. Liu Zhen wore a goose-yellow scarf, the wind rolled up the scarf and her hair fluttered around, I really wanted to rush up and grab her hand, because I was afraid that the wind would be too strong and blow away the mediocre person in my life, no, I hope she will always live like a mediocre person, mediocre life is trivial and impermanent, ordinary and happy.

I reached out and wanted to grab Liu Zhen, but my hand was frozen in the air, and I didn't know what to do. Perhaps, I am afraid of disturbing the beauty of this time.

Liu Zhen opened the car door and told me to get in the car first, and she went to settle my luggage. When I saw the car, I had mixed feelings, a Cayenne.

When I was 24 years old, I had this, mine was navy blue, and this one was white. When I was driving it around downtown Toronto, I didn't know what kind of life Liu Zhen was living in China at that time, maybe she was studying or working. I didn't know then, and I don't need to know now. I only know that everything I used to have is gone.

Liu Zhen closed the back box, and seeing that I hadn't gotten into the car yet, she came up and patted me: "Hey! What do you think? Stupid! Get in the car, sister will take you to a big meal! ”

I smiled faintly and opened the door.

Along the way, Liu Zhen kept talking, and I just replied a few words briefly. She didn't seem to think I was tired from the long trip.

I did get a little tired. Declining her invitation to dinner, we drove straight to her apartment.

It is a house that is not large in size, but the layout and decoration are very tasteful.

In fact, the word taste has always been a word that I pride myself on. I used taste to isolate everyone around me, and I used this word to draw boundaries between people. Liu Zhen, this rough and unkempt girl when she was in school, in my life at that time, I couldn't even draw a line. And now, the details of all her expressions are all surprising that I never imagined.

I changed into a pair of satin slippers and looked at a photo on the bookshelf in my spare time when Liu Zhen was getting me fruit.

In the photo, there are three girls and a boy. From left to right, Jiang Shanshan, me, Liu Zhen and Liu Zhen's boyfriend Li Kai. And now, among the four people, only Liu Zhen and I are left.

Jiang Shanshan is in an insane asylum and is about to spend the rest of her life, while Li Kai has been out of this world for almost 5 years.

My hand holding the picture was shaking. I tried to control it, but to no avail.

Because, the youth of the two of them is here, and I can't shirk the responsibility.

Liu Zhen stood behind me, snatched the photo, and put it back on the bookshelf. "It's all in the past. Come and see how about the cantaloupe I bought today? I remember, when you were in college, you loved cantaloupe the most. I was poor at the time, and I stole a piece of it when you went downstairs to answer the phone, and when you came back, you found out that I was miserable. Haha"

Liu Zhen said it very easily, but I felt very uncomfortable in my heart.

She tied a piece, fed it to my mouth, and then asked me like a coquettish face, "Is it sweet?" Sweet or not? ”

In fact, I already have the taste of tears in my nose, how can I taste sweet and sour? However, she kept asking, and replied jerkyly: "Sweet." ”

Liu Zhen smiled happily, and her charming Danfeng eyes looked as good as a crescent moon. She was chattering about the toothbrushes and toothpaste she had prepared for me. I suddenly asked something I shouldn't have asked, "Where's your boyfriend?" I'm coming, where does he live? ”

Liu Zhen was stunned for a moment, turned her head, faced the wall to hang a windbreaker for me, and said casually: "I don't have a boyfriend." After Li Kai's death, I only talked about one. Later, the other party's parents disliked that I couldn't have children, and he was the only child in the family, so they separated. You see, isn't it good to be alone? How free? So, I said you can live here in peace. ”

Liu Zhen's words pierced into my heart, and when she turned around, I was already sitting on the sofa crying.

Liu Zhen sat down and hugged my shoulders, brushed my tear-soaked hair with her hand, and said softly, "Silly girl, I don't blame you. It's true. This is my life. Besides, you see, I'm fine now? Whatever you want, you have everything. You have a good rest, don't think about it. Obedient. ”

I cried harder.

Liu Zhen wiped the makeup on my face with paper and scratched my nose with her hand: "We are no longer young. Time has taught us that youth is destined to be sad and regretful. Whose youth is not at fault? Fortunately, youth is no more, and we are all still there. ”

I didn't answer because I didn't know what I was supposed to answer.

Liu Zhen is right, we are no longer young. It's like the spring wind blowing Liu Zhen's hair at night in Nanjing, and in a blink of an eye, it may be winter and summer.

I used to reject all mediocre people, and when I was not in my prime, I was so envious of mediocrity, and it was a mediocre person whom I did not take into account and hurt at that time.

When Liu Zhen fell asleep, I stood alone by the windowsill and watched the neon light and shadow reflected in the night in the distance. There are lights in the tall buildings that have not yet been extinguished, and there are life journeys on the road that are still galloping to find an exit, do they yearn for mediocrity as much as I do?

I took a sip of the lemonade that Liu Zhenchong gave me, sour and astringent, just like my mood at this time, lonely with a faint uneasiness.

I raised my glass to the moonlight and shook it, the lemon slices rose and fell a little in the light, and I overlapped the cup with the moon in the sky, hoping to see through the window the shadows of the mediocre people in Fanghua.

It's just a pity that everything was in vain.

I raise my glass to the moon and salute all those who pass by my youth, and may all be well, mediocre people.

After drinking this glass of water, I noticed that two lines of tears fell from the corners of my eyes.