I barely slept all night.

Liu Zhen designed the curtains of the guest room as a translucent floor-to-ceiling white veil, and the wind blew in through the cracks in the window, blowing the white gauze like a young shadow, making me see the pink skirt of childhood in a trance.

I don't remember what time it was, but when the morning light shone through the haze on my bedside, I saw the sunflowers on the quilt, smiling as brightly as the sun.

I had been lying in bed and looking at the light cast from behind the curtains, and watching the light grow arrogant as the moon faded.

While I was concentrating on my sadness, I heard the sound of Liu Zhen getting up. She walked and tiptoed, as if she was afraid to disturb me. I smiled in my heart, this girl hasn't changed after so many years, and she thinks about others everywhere.

I pushed open the bedroom door and saw Liu Zhen simply tugging her hair and making breakfast in her flesh-pink silk pajamas. Liu Zhen is not a beauty in my eyes, but after experiencing so many joys and sorrows in the world, I also truly understand that using beauty to describe a person must be due to her inner self, so as not to appear superficial.

I leaned against the bedroom door and watched her busy back. On the right side of the kitchen, there is a window, and the delicate light and shadow that comes in and caresses her face, as if a layer of cream cake is smeared on her, and it feels as if there is a little beauty in the air, and you can't bear to spoil her smart quietness, like disturbing a spring dream.

When she turned around to put fried eggs on the table, she found me.

"Mu Xi? Why do you wake up so early? I thought you were going to get jet lag. How's it going, how did you sleep last night? The sunflowers I got you aren't bad! ”

I laughed, "Yes, it's just that I always feel like I'm sleeping in the open in the field." ”

"Haha, then I'll change it to a steamer for you tomorrow, you don't have to get seasick!" She chuckled.

I'll go wash up. By the time I got back, the sandwich and milk were ready. She ate quickly, and I watched her gobble up and couldn't help but ask her, "Are you in such a hurry?" ”

"Hey, that's the case in China, it's not like catching up with the market every day. Who cares how well you sleep and how well you eat, what you want is efficiency. ”

"Efficiency, you can't go against the normal laws of nature, right?"

"Miss, you've been abroad for too long. This time, let's go back to China and get used to it for a while. I have a case today, so I won't tell you about it. After you finish eating, hurry up and catch up on sleep. Get yourself something to eat at noon, everything in the fridge, and wait for me to come back in the evening! ”

I coped with a "yes. ”

Liu Zhen behind me was busy with a burst of work, and when she stepped on her high heels and said goodbye to me, she suddenly rushed to my side coldly, startling me.

"Honey, why don't you drink milk? Good for the body. Yes, can't you get used to drinking this kind of domestic food? Why don't I go to the supermarket and find you an import? Which brand are you used to drinking? Send to me. ”

"Zhen, no need. I haven't drunk milk in a long time. ”

Liu Zhen raised her head and asked me suspiciously, "Don't drink milk?" What to drink? It turns out that Canadians are white, not drinking milk. ”

I smiled and didn't speak.

After saying goodbye to her, I didn't go to jet lag as Liu Zhen said, my head did hurt a little, but it wasn't because of the long-distance bumps, but since I saw Liu Zhen at the pick-up gate last night, I have been silent in the whirlpool deep in my heart.

I walked to the bookshelf again, reached for the photograph that was closely related to my youth, looked at it for a long time, and then sat down on the couch.

My hand never let go of the frame of the photograph. In my eyes, the frame is like a machine that freezes time, and if I let go and the frame comes out of the cracks, the people on it will disappear with the memory.

I leaned back against the pillow, tilting my head sideways to see the sunlight staining our youth. The people in the photo are all gilded with gold gauze on their bodies, quiet and beautiful. The tree in the background, I still remember the name engraved on it by Liu Zhen and Li Kai. It's a pity that all this, it seems, is disillusioned.

I looked out the window of the living room and could faintly hear the noise in the distance. The sun over Nanjing, as clear and pure as childhood, the spring breeze mixed with the joys, sorrows and sorrows of many strangers in the world, and I, in this season of understanding, fell into the black hole of memory.

If I could do it all over again, I would rewrite my 36-year life.

I was born in 1984 in Meiyuan New Village, Nanjing. At that time, the streets were so prosperous that when I returned to China in 2014, I almost didn't find the old house where I was born.

My mother in my memory was a fat-powdered woman who played cards with cigarettes in her mouth all day long, and she didn't have any energy to focus on me except that she didn't starve me to death.

In 1990, I was 6 years old.

"Ah oil, ah, what kind of little fart leak, scraped my baby's single head (change)?" My mother was playing cards with some of my neighbors, and I was lying on that old wooden bed in the inner room. The sound came from far and near, and I curiously pushed open the door to see what was going on.

I saw that at the threshold of the outer door, Aunt Wu was wearing a velvet satin robe, which was extremely incommensurate with her age. Yin and Yang looked weird, and his eyebrows almost flew into the sky between words.

Mother was busy with the game and didn't pay attention to what Aunt Wu said.

Seeing that no one cared about her, Aunt Wu simply put down her feet on the threshold, stood up straight, and repeated loudly. And this time, it was obviously said to the mother.

The mother held a card in her right hand, glanced sideways at Aunt Wu, and replied nonchalantly, "What are you doing?" Two Ace (A)! Ah oil~ This piece is playing, silly, ahhh oil~" Everyone laughed, and the card friends at the same table opposite reached out to their mothers to ask for money: "There are still two Guo Zi (coins), hurry, give it!" ”

Reluctantly, the mother took two coins out of a small black purse and handed them to the other person.

Aunt Wu was so angry with her mother's attitude that she crossed her waist, and her bloated body was even more swollen due to her chest luck. said in a loud voice: "What a nephew (vulgar and rustic foreigner), a five-two gangster (specializing in begging people for cheapness)." Aunt Wu said in a loud voice, overshadowing the entertainment of everyone in the room.

After hearing this, my mother threw a handful of cards on the table. Suddenly stood up and asked in a frightened voice, "Who do you say is the nephew?" I think you're the one who is very evil. ”

Actually, there was a reason why my mother hated the neighbors and said that we were strangers.

My mother's hometown is in Heilongjiang in Northeast China, and when she was young, she went south with the people in the village to work and arrived in Nanjing. In the old houses on this street, you can live in them for many years.