The little woman's new book "Hanging Door Order" has been released at the starting point. Welcome!

Originally, I didn't want to write articles similar to fantasy or immortal cultivation from a male perspective.,After all,It's also the characteristics of the girl herself.,For that kind of fighting, killing, and the majestic scene has little perception and little understanding.。

So, I really racked my brains in terms of conceiving the plot and the wording, and I felt a little struggling.

In contrast, this kind of urban emotional theme is more suitable for itself because it is closer to life.

Of course, those who are suitable and unsuitable have all hit the streets.

Compared with the current traffic authors and traffic works, I have no background, and I don't have hard works, basically, hitting the street is also common sense.

Although there is still a little woman's heart under the rough appearance of the big tomato, sometimes I can't find my own position in terms of putting it into words.

Big Tomato has been writing intermittently since he was 12 years old. He was probably best at poetry and prose, and he was a gunman for others when he was in school. Perhaps, an excerpt from a famous artist you read may come from my pen.

At first, I was reluctant to publish my writing. I don't like to be spied on, and words, especially in down-to-earth realist subjects, will more or less show a person's three views and cognitions.

I was chatted with a veteran writer who said, "We young people like us have a clear goal, if it's for business, it's to cater to the general public." If you don't have that many ideas, follow your heart. Although I understand this, I am still confused in the moment.

If you can't get anything for countless days and nights of racking your brains and giving in, that strong sense of loss is really hard to accept. And abandon my own writing style to blindly cater to the market and be a so-called traffic writer, I said that it is not that I can't, but I really can't write.

Especially after announcing to his side that he was writing, he suddenly found himself in a mess. This kind of chaos comes from half of the negative energy, and the other half of the encouragement with high expectations.

Living to be 31 years old, some people say that I am too hypocritical and take other people's opinions too seriously. If you say I don't understand the world, that's probably a kind of irony. The life and social perception in "The Mediocre Are Well", it is not difficult to see that I have a thorough view of the world, but even so, I still can't come out of the world of others.

Why? Too many people are waiting to see the joke, and the rest of the people are on their way to the joke.

By the time I wrote chapter 120, I had a very severe depression. To be exact, a relapse of depression.

From 2017 to 2019, it was a major trough in the life of Big Tomato, and at one point he slept for an hour every night, and he used cardboard boxes to wholesale the tranquilizers. It's not because of writing a book, but the so-called trough, that is, there is no single line of disaster.

I'm not selling badly, and I don't have to. A street fighter with no traffic. How many people can be seen in this article? I know it.

And during the period when the mediocre people were well, they suddenly felt that they had failed in particular. For 30 years, nothing has been accomplished.

Marriage, body, family, children's education, economy, ideals, etc., all turned on the red light at once.

It's hard to be busy, busy, and do nothing. It's the kind of life that hits the back of the head every day with your busy feet, but you don't know what you're busy with. You will see your children around without time for them, and you will see your loved ones or friends who are in need of help, and you will see that you are powerless.

You will suddenly find yourself missing out on too many things and sorry for too many people, including yourself.

At that time, I often stood in front of the window in the middle of the night, looking at the neon lights, watching the lights, and then asking myself what I was busy with.

Standing at thirty, he still worries his parents, even his grandmother, who was still struggling on the death line at that time. It was a bleak time in my life. I often let myself cry as I wrote, and then I wanted to push open the window and jump out.

Yes, depression, the whole life, is without sunshine.

The profession of writer is a profession that has been persisted in but is not necessarily rewarding, and no one knows the sadness in it. That kind of process and hardship, that kind of days when the pay and the gain are not proportional, it is really difficult.

Although he is still alive and still has no heart or lungs, this situation also existed intermittently during the writing of "Hanging Door Order".

However, instead of crying now, I often giggle. It's funny to laugh at the path I chose, and I insisted on it so much that I didn't even know what the meaning was.

Fortunately, the draft of "Mediocrity is Well" was completed, and "Hanging Door Order" was written hard, which can be regarded as an explanation of a period of companionship for himself and everyone.

Take a bow! Thank you to the author of "Good Luck with Mediocrity" and everyone around Zhou Yongren!

Be safe for the rest of your life!

Don't worry about big tomatoes, I don't even know how to write some magic stuff myself!

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