The author of the desert tomato is a sensual person, a sensual person, who likes to perceive life, and drags a few sentences to talk about the 30-year youth journey of inaction.

1. Youth is the lover of the passing years. I don't know if you are like me, one day, suddenly find that your youth has passed away, and the passing years have returned to the ordinary.

2. There are all kinds of strange things in this world, and how many unknown secrets have been achieved.

3. If the dilemma in this world that can make people feel ashamed of themselves in front of everyone's eyes is to remove the fig leaf, then there is another suffocating dilemma, that is, the public's perspective eye.

4. Sometimes, I think God is a very naughty child, when he thinks that your life is too ordinary, he will always add some fierce ingredients to you to try the heat, to see if your ability to bear has increased, and promised a particularly compelling name - growth.

5. If the world were to be divided into many social groups, what would be the largest group? It's the audience who eats melons.

6. After all, people in this world are very busy, so each of us must learn to entertain ourselves, which is a benchmark for survival and a necessary law for survival.

7. My mother and I are exactly like this, two people who echo each other from near and far, lonely, always a substitute for chicken soup for the soul.

8. I seem to be able to see through the longing and anxiety in the sun. I'm always hiding, I don't know what I'm running away from, or maybe I can't bear to face some regret in the depths of the years.

9. There are some things that are not necessary in life, such as a marriage without love. As someone later told me, life is like a car, and there are many levels. If you don't have the ability and right to enjoy the top, then it's better to walk.

10. The plot of life is always accompanied by the idiom of unexpectedness.

11. When I was young, I didn't know how complex games could be in the adult world. Later, when I thought about it, I really admired these good actors from all walks of life who lived beside me, and they were really for their own interests, and they could use all the resources available in this world, even if they were teachers.

12. When I was a child, I felt that God treated me too kindly, but when I grew up, in addition to comforting myself with the shallow blessings in my previous life, I also understood a truth, the mandate of heaven, partly, is in the hands of personnel.

13. It's a pity that in Aunt Qin's life, if you lose, you will lose, she is sure that there will be no more disputes between her father and Zhang Jing, but she forgot that the person who can't go into her heart will always be just an outsider to the other party's life.

14. Qingsi is always addicted to the years, if you want to turn Qingsi into gray hair, how many joys and sorrows do you have to endure before you have the courage to hold up the wig with endless words!

15. Later, on the way of growing up, I felt more and more that this kind of truth from the essence of human nature was too precious, and even myself, including myself, could not fathom my true face. Therefore, I will always have nostalgia for my mother and Aunt Qin.

16. The growth of each of us is forced, and the more we want to reclaim the desolate land in our hearts, the more we will encounter unprecedented surprises.

17. What is suitable or not? In this world, some people insist that what you don't like is suitable for you, but they are just trying to figure out the psychology of others.

18. Although my acting skills are clumsy, the beam of light can illuminate the joys, sorrows, and sorrows on my face, but it cannot illuminate the clouds and sunshine in my heart. The funny thing is that the audience has spent money to buy tickets, if I don't appear, how can I show the hot and cold state of this society?!

19. Life is actually like this, always when you feel extremely dark, and then a cloud mixed with hail floats.

20. Later, whenever I thought of the Cao family and the various personnel in this house, I couldn't help but sigh that in this world, all mortals are mortals. For mortals, it is difficult to describe all troubles.

21. When we are young, we do not understand that this generous gift of youth is so precious, and when love is affair with youth, we are busy dissociating relationships; When love and youth waved goodbye, we looked back to find those beautiful people in Fanghuali, but the lights were bright and the night was shining. Therefore, I envy Cao Cancan's boldness and courage, because that is the best evidence that she has loved herself through her youth.

22. It's a pity that people are like this, often resting on their laurels, squeezing themselves into a small space, competing with themselves, regardless of whether the outside is bright and white clouds or smoke and rain, it has nothing to do with it.

23. In my eyes, Cao Qi is a warrior in armor, invincible to all poisons. That night, after trying my best to uncover my unknown scars, in the days to come, this handsome and dashing uncle who can go to heaven and earth will also wear a mediocre hat in my heart.

24. Later, as I grew up, I tasted these mediocre people who passed by in my life, and it was not difficult to find that these people had a common trait, called kindness.

25. In fact, not all strength is innate, perhaps, it is a direct reflection of a life's belief in survival, but it is often labeled as it is and taken for granted.

26. I often say to others that if you are lucky enough to walk into the hearts of others, you will find that no one lives more easily than others.

27. Yes, the so-called story must have a script. And when I was forced to become an actor, I didn't practice a good skill, and I became a lame actor in a panic, so that the fox's tail soon leaked, and what followed was that the sky was turned upside down. An unreal illusion, a shadow of loneliness and messiness.

28. I don't know anything about sentimentality, anyway, after a moment of silence, I suddenly laughed to myself, sentimentality is useless, especially for the poor, who are poor in material and spiritual terms, it is a luxury.

29. It is said that money has a blatant effect, and I just lack the money to strengthen the courage.

30. Later, I learned that most of the knowledgeable and unreasonable came from the rich family!

31. When lust is greedy, all famous sayings and aphorisms are nonsense.

32. And there is only one thing that makes this lack of social morality, and can be exposed to the sun and let it shine - money.

33. In fact, as a student, I don't expect a teacher to be like a mother, but such a special relationship between the upper and lower effects, and the teacher's actions and inactions, can definitely affect a child's learning mood and the establishment of three views.

34. People, in the face of emotion, will lose many basic skills for social survival, including the mind, including the brain, including reason. Therefore, Aunt Qin's inferiority complex comes from her husband's unlove.

35. All the light in this world is the sharpest thorn of love given by love, and this light, whether it is bright or dark, all goes with the heart.

36. I glanced sideways at the plane tree outside the window, the sky that had not yet completely ended was stacked with silver and gray, and the afterglow sprinkled on the plane leaves finally illuminated the impermanence of the life of the mediocre.

37. should be the two closest people in the world, but I didn't expect that the days of getting along day and night were opened up by the distance in space.

38. However, I forgot that I am not a home, and in my limited mind, I could not sketch such a vivid and complicated plot development in reality. So, when one thing after another happened around me, I suddenly felt like a warrior on the battlefield, with a mine in front and a grenade in a step back. So, the bruises all over my body are the ending of the characters that fate has given me the best friendship.

39. It's useless to say anything, life, that is, life, has its own fixed number, and you can't complain about others.

40. As far as I was at that time, did I love or hate my mother more? It's like love to the extreme is hate, and hatred to the extreme becomes a complete expression of love. After all, love and hate are two vehicles that complement each other.

41. There is something external in this world that can change a person's character, so that he can disguise and abandon all his sharpness, and thus become cautious. This thing is called poverty. Poverty itself is a poison, which soaks a person's mind at the same time, pierces the blood, and injects inferiority complex into the bones.

42. The chaos of this world, chewed up and swallowed in the stomach.

43. Amorous people always give a certain life to the seasons, just like the polygonal body of a certain human heart, the unknown side, always hiding some little secrets about happiness.

44. Although this kind of thing seems to have no other way than to apologize, after all, in the status of no money and no power, it is inherently cautious, but the same thing happens to people with a disparity in rank, and you will magnify your fear more than 10 times.

45. But I have forgotten that in this world, there is yang and yin, and the rising sun must be accompanied by the setting of the moon. This is an irreversible law of nature.

46. The mother's complexion is very bad, although the afterglow near the evening is a warm orange-red, but the light sun does not blush the whiteness of the mother's cheeks. This alternating green and red world Zhen Bai, no matter how ordinary it is, at this moment, it has become different.

47. I have told others that my hatred for my mother is in the right ventricle of the heart, but the kind of family love that flows by blood is in the left atrium. The left atrium is precisely the closest place to the bottom of the heart.

48. The philistine heart of the mother and Aunt Qin has the unique weakness of women in it, but also has kindness, motherhood, and all the seven emotions and six desires that are connected with love. The uncle's mediocrity, compared with them, has more responsibility and dedication.

49. The leaves of the tree are so dense, but they can't hide the haze in my mother's heart, maybe the sun is not dazzling enough, my mother, just like that, blends alone with the old alley, slipping into the sad memories of childhood.

50. In this world, mediocre people have never had weapons and battle robes, but they have always had more courage to face reality than others, and this courage is called, life, life.

51. My age and circumstances have made me too much of a fantasy, and the news of my mother's well-being was my courage to live in peace.

52. I looked at the familiar surroundings, and it was no different from when I left, the only difference must be that the situation is still there, but the people do not have a sense of sadness.

53. In fact, when we are really faced with a lot of family affection, love, and so on, it is difficult for you not to judge the level of love between a person and you from the details, which is more like a kind of what we often say, looking for the shadow of love.

54. At first, I was afraid to face some kind of debt to my mother in my heart, or rather, I was afraid that the darkness would assimilate some dark side of my heart, and I did not want to face it, so I chose to let the light shine in the depths of my heart somewhere unknown.

55. After all, everything is divided into two, and while we demand from others, we are also revealing the selfish desires of our hearts.

56. Many people around us now are in a flash, and while you are lamenting and thinking about how the relationship between me and so-and-so was back then, you should understand that each of us is running in different directions, and time has taught us to go our own way. In the end, what is left behind, what really has too much intersection with you in this world is nothing more than family affection. The rest of the people are just passers-by.

57. Yes, in fact, many times in our lives, listening to the curiosity of people with a heart, always want to spy on other people's secrets, especially when the other person's secrets may have a relationship with themselves. Then, this curiosity will prompt him to explore the truth again and again.

58. From the perspective of family affection, can a person be indifferent when he sees his relatives being mentally devastated and tormented?! Then this person really doesn't deserve to be pampered and paid for by family affection.

59. I am like a silkworm chrysalis waiting for someone to peel off its shell, how many catties and taels are inside, whether it is alive or dead, you can know it at a glance.

60. The stop-and-go world of flowers, the busy life up and down, is like the fate of the karst landform that I have been three miles up the mountain and no way down the mountain after I left my mother.

Later, I began to resent the injustice of this world, because it took away my mother's wordless and short life, and then, leaving me alone in this world.

61. However, when the right thing happens at the right time, everything is called providence.

62. Everything, just copy and paste. I used to think that life would be ordinary and that it would get better slowly, but it would take time.

63. Later, I went around me to look for people with a similar mentality to hers, and there were very few. After all, being able to learn self-comfort and self-satisfaction is the embodiment of a person's better character, of course, there are certain prerequisites for this.

64. When nothing happens to them, too many people like to watch everything that happens to the life of the person next to them with a mentality that has nothing to do with them and looks at the excitement. In fact, it is not the fault of man, but the fault of social conscience.

65. But you have to understand one thing, sometimes the more you want to escape something, it is often pushed in front of you by a certain emotion or a certain psychological suggestion in this world.

66. Even if you have fantasized and imagined a variety of possibilities, and even imagined yourself as a person with superpowers, who can turn all unknown risks into dangers, you must always remember that imagination is always imagination and cannot be changed.

67. And you will also understand that except for the pair of eyes that really grow on your five senses, which are called eyes, everything else comes from the mind and neuroticism. Invariably.

68. I turned my head to look at the luxuriant plane tree outside, after all, it is only a tree, and although the moon and stars are sparse outside, when such a beautiful light shrouds the tree, it will not turn into a winged phoenix. After all, reality is reality, whether you are dazzled or confused.

69. People sometimes have a mindset that determines a lot of things. Looking back on me now, the whole person was in a fluctuating state. So, empty brains, empty eyes, nothing more than normal.

70. I don't know, have you ever found out like me that when people go through a lot of complicated and tricky things, the change in your mindset and mood is very noticeable during that period of time. You will go from anxiety and anxiety to hope, to blandness, to despair, and finally to despair, and finally to belonging, which is numbness. That's how I was then.

71. I simply closed my eyes and wanted to find something and answers for myself in the quiet space outside. It's a pity that everything follows fate, but fate has not arrived.

72. On that day, it was cloudy in Nanjing, and the fog in the south was very heavy, and in the morning, I saw the sun shining black behind the hazy clouds. The damp air blew through the gaps in the trees, making tiny droplets of water on my eyelashes. It's not like crying, it's better than crying.

73. This sense of fear that comes from the bottom of my heart makes me look out the window and see that the familiar sycamore leaves seem to devour me with teeth and claws. But after all, I am a mortal, I have no foreknowledge of the future, and I cannot avoid anything, so I can only let it go.

74. Once the mouth of human curiosity is opened, it is a bottomless pit, although in the process of exploring secrets, there will be thousands of cobwebs entangled, but unfortunately, such and so, for people with strong curiosity, it is simply exciting!

75. She is afraid that the greater her hope, the greater the disappointment, she is afraid that when one day love is not there and there is no family affection, she will be the most miserable person in the world.

76. Because while you close yourself off, you will open your heart to others to prying eyes without concealment, and refuse to let your dearest people snoop into the secrets inside. This is the biggest hidden danger of a person's social barrier caused by anxiety from the bottom of his heart.

77. It's a pity that God likes to play tricks on people, he always throws away the best and worst sides of people, and lets most people live in it, that is, mediocrity.

78. Although I am still young, I know that the momentum of public opinion is not controlled by man at all, and when a secret is torn open, most people swarm like a swarm of ants. If you want to kill them all, or it is simply impossible to trace the source.

79. People themselves will form a relationship between themselves and foes in a certain relationship distance. It is better to be an enemy all the time than to change from a pro to a sparse one. Once the relationship caused by hate is transformed, there is a time in it, and hate will grow in square multiples.

80. Everything that happens in this world has a certain hint in the dark. It's just that we are not Zhuge Liang, we can't see through the nebulae and we can't watch the stars at night, and we can't understand whether the sun is shining or the thunder is rolling. If you can, everything is prepared, where is the bad thing?

81. What does the maturity of man represent? It represents a lot of things on the mind, it means learning to hide one's emotions, and it means being able to pretend to like and get used to accepting everything that one is not willing to accept. That's what I am.

82. Man, as it is, when he does not know why, even for the onlooker, but every thing that has a secret to follow will attract the surroundings greatly.

83. Behind the empty heart of this young woman who has been hurt by her loved ones, there may be a wall made of paper. The paper is half haze, half blank.

84. However, this is the case with people, in non-blood relations, people go from familiar to strange, and most of them are gradually first relations. It's like a parabola, because of similar interests or some kind of affection, two people go from strange to familiar, and then to know each other, and finally because of things or some unknown feelings and gradually estranged, and finally there is no news.

85. And in reality, most people are the same, they all have a certain sixth sense. That is, good things don't feel good, and bad things have a certain spiritual omen. This kind of Mao shh It's just that people still have a problem, that is, they like to comfort themselves. Knowing that he is nervous in his heart, but he is moving closer to heart disease, this is self-deception.

86. The glorious sun is suddenly covered with a fig leaf by heavy clouds. I remember that at that time, in the face of the sudden disappearance of the sun, I also tilted my head curiously to look at the sky outside the office window, but I didn't know that the sun disappeared with me, in addition to youth, and all the lucky fantasies of my childhood for the future.

87. Human beings are curious animals, especially in the boring life, if there is something new that can arouse the appetite of others, it is like a fly, staring at the person concerned, like a puddle of rotten things fermented by the rancid smell, disgusting themselves, and fulfilling the flies who have a good mouthful.

88. When I say this, I know that I am one of the people here. After all, it's something that human nature itself hides in it. No one can escape. Ignoring what is going on outside the window is the work of a saint. And how many saints are there in this world? Very few.

89. In this world, there are always some unknown things called secrets, which lurk in the bottom of everyone's heart.

90. Before the incident, I was reluctant to admit that there really was that kind of bloody plot in life, just like the author with a big brain, and like the screenwriter with a wild mind.

91. I remember that after coming to Cao's house, on the day my mother was invited to be a guest for the first time, I was also looking at Cao's house not far away from the car like this, but the sunrise was still the same sunrise and sunset, but it was dusk somewhere in this autumn.

92. It is always like this in this world, and the strong must be tired. It's not that they are not good at expressing themselves, but sometimes, a certain emotion and mood cannot be expressed, and in the end it will be held in the heart and become a secret. And the secret has been secret for a long time, and the day when you want to make it public, you don't know where to start.

93. This is the way this is the case, but most people always choose to avoid some sad or difficult things. In fact, this kind of escape may come from a deep sense of insecurity. In many cases, there is another interpretation of self-deception, and I think my father's expression at that time seems to be able to interpret the second state of mind.

94. After all, as an official, any little thing that can be manipulated by others is a lethal weapon with lethal power.

95. Sometimes overconfidence is a fatal flaw, and the father is a living example.

96. If you don't go up or down, you can't go down, there's no way out, what's wrong. But what way? Fate always likes to joke with everyone, whether you are old or young, all the unknown risks you face, and all the regrets you face, are the road you must take in life, and you need to spend age and experience, and even need to waste your youth to fight a bloody road.

97. It will take most people a lifetime to see some people and things clearly.

98. There is no such thing as being too late in the world. If we attribute everything to fate, then fate is equal for everyone. Whether it is Zhang Jing, or Aunt Qin, or even for Cao Ge and me, it is the same for everyone, fate likes to make the same jokes, big or small.

99. I looked up at the sky in the distance, and there were a large white clouds that had been hiding something, like the secret that wanted to be revealed, and like the sunlight hidden behind it, the kind of weakness that would never shine on the ugly side of the human heart.

100. Inside and outside the door, thousands of rivers and mountains. The light behind the door was not as warm as I had guessed when I had not yet gotten out of the car, and the light spilled from the crystal chandelier on the shed, dazzling my eyes.

101. In the autumn of this year, in my future years, I have never seen such a cold as that year, in the eyes that fixed the focus of the pupils, the people in the hall of the Cao family, there was no rain and frost, and the audience was frozen in the ticket office.

102. Because, the eyes of a child do not lie, I see in her eyes the same pitiful self, that complex and changeable life, yes, is the best rich funeral of the years for my youth.

103. My name, a souvenir imposed on me by the world, but I don't like it.

104. The Cao family, which was quiet for a moment, did not look like a trapped beast at this time, but more like the theater stage where the mother used to sing, no, to be exact, the backstage of the stage, messy and messy. I hung my arms loosely, and stood like that at the entrance of the backstage, outside which was the stage, singing to others; The door is real, and the narrative is the unchangeable life of mediocre people.

105. In my mother's hand, I still clutched the old handkerchief, just like the sails of youth that I raised in the evening of the setting sun when I was a child.

106. The mother slowly withdrew her arm, and the slow speed was like a slow movie that froze time, playing leisurely in this Nanjing night that gradually withdrew from the soul.

107. I know that she is trying to hide the existing sadness caused by this mistake made by her youth.

108. If you have not felt the gloom of life in the adult world and affected your future, it is the favor of God. After all, there is drama everywhere, and drama is like life.

109. However, it is a lame drama to cover up the show, not to mention that mediocre people are not good at playing the leading role, after all, grease and powder, red mouth and white teeth, not everyone can do the ability to work.

110. Yes, when a person's emotions are at their extreme, they no longer bother to find an outlet, what she/he needs is an emotional stability, a way to move forward. Tears are sometimes not the product of cowardice, their existence does not explain anything, but only represents a certain person's emotions to reach a certain node.

111. I quietly looked at my mother on the side, she didn't seem to care about the singing and storyline outside this door, she was still that kind of stunned appearance, I couldn't see her eyes, I couldn't read all the thoughts and words behind her speechlessness.

112. After speaking, without waiting for my mother's words, and before my mother conveying her concern and love with this silent voice, I don't know if my mother is still standing outside the door, and I don't know when I will reach the dawn of tomorrow in this silent night......

113. I closed the door that tosses and turns human nature, but does not redeem the regret of the soul.

114. Maybe autumn is lonely and summer, and it is just to take the original color of life to play.

115. Yes, they went backstage in this theater and began to vent their lives.

116. I was in the door upstairs, listening to the chickens and dogs jumping downstairs with a blank face, and I couldn't help but sigh that the chaos in this world was really difficult for her and for myself.

117. I don't know if my mother had a dream of an ugly duckling turning into a white swan, but unfortunately, the dream woke up quietly, and ruthlessly chose to laugh at my mother's daydream on a cloudless day.

118. But I suddenly found that this woman, branded in my heart, has always been so unspeakable and unhappy.

119. On the edge of love and hate, how much misery is unknown in the world.

120. That thunderbolt on a sunny day is associated with eroticism and betrayal, and this lightning bolt splits the soul of the victim, because the body is no longer important.

121. As I have said, man is a self-deceiving animal, and this self-deception is especially vivid when encountering some unfortunate things.

122. I walked slowly forward with my cup in my hand, I tried to feel the suffocating atmosphere and also tried to melt myself into this embarrassment. But after I tried it twice, I found that I was always a spectator and an outsider to the adult world compared to the adults in this room. That's all.

123. There are so many unspeakable words that they all turn into a sigh in the end.

124. The world is like this, the conscience is a product of the conscience of society and the desire of the human heart. Since it comes from the bottom of the human heart, this kind of self-directed thing that comes from the heart is not governed by objectivity at all. Therefore, even if everyone thinks that the father's attitude and reaction are really outrageous, but after all, who can influence whom?

125. Human personality has a thousand facets, and if some people behave differently in certain things, they will be different from the behavior of ordinary people as the public knows.

126. Perhaps, by being born as a human being, this shackle of subjective consciousness is forced to be clasped with the hat of moral conscience, and it rises to a certain height. Putting aside secular prejudices, this matter is not favored by people at that time or in the current society, but it is not uncommon. The seven emotions and six desires of being born as a human have led everyone to have a certain passion and longing in the pursuit of new things, and of course, there are some people, just like my father, who hide an old lover in their hearts, and self-enclosed in the years of their lives, but they provoke thousands of people to be idle.

127. Everyone has their own untold stories and hearts, some are obsessed with the passage of time, some are hateful and sip, and the father, although he is also in the love of life is not unfulfilled as he wishes, but everything about him will not be blessed and favored after all, because, sickly.

128. There are people everywhere, and loneliness everywhere.

129. Silence is the pain of conscience and the restlessness of the soul.

130. In the middle of this step, looking forward, all the way down, is both flat and deep; Looking up, it is unfathomable, cloudy and foggy, cold like the top of a mountain, and frosty like the pole of the day.

131. If you ask me what do I cry for? I'm crying, my future, nothing.

132. I suspect that even a sun has been hanging high in the sky recently, it will not be able to illuminate the little puddle of water that has accumulated in my heart.

133. The plane tree in the morning is like a well-behaved and sensible child, standing on the land of the annual rings outside my window, not noisy or noisy.

134. I had a few cards in my hand, but I played this good hand to a bad time.

135. The two branches that stretched out of the courtyard hung down in the morning when the morning dew was dense, and the morning was not clear, and it was old and dusty.

136. For too long, too long I was afraid that people would mention my mother, the scar hidden in the depths of my soul, and it felt like, like if you mentioned it, I would panic.

137. I, on the other hand, set my eyes out the car window. Look at the traffic outside the window, and see all the hustle and bustle that has nothing to do with me.

138. Walking and stopping along the way, how many human landscapes I have missed.

139. Actually, the gossip between the two teachers is not wrong, too many men and women become fathers and mothers without any psychological preparation, this kind of position that goes directly to the post without taking a qualification certificate, generation after generation, how much ignorance has been harmed, and how much romance under the cherry blossom tree has been buried?

140. The sound of the wind in my ears and I run extremely fast, I assume that I am a nimble fish that can easily and merrily swim in the mundane realms of the world.

141. Maybe a stubborn person like me, how many people in this world are like me, afraid of being cared for, afraid of being softly lifted in their hearts, afraid of being guessed, when you feel that many of your little psychology are well hidden by yourself, in fact, you are waiting for a good time, so that you can burst into a sea of tears in an instant and drown the past.

142. The haze is far away from the stream, and the trees want to be quiet and the wind does not stop. My gaze seems to have lost the sensitivity of the previous few days, the time that stayed in front of me, indifferent to the flowers, and the loneliness of life parting.

143. What is this road of life, with ravines and ravines, one foot deep and one foot shallow, like? Like the boundless wheat fields in the dark world, there is yellow and clear, but there is no harvest.

144. The haze is far away from the stream, and the time that can't be seen in the past is indifferent, how many flowers are indifferent, and how many partings are lonely. So, you choose to raise a bouquet of flowers to the world one morning, but the world blames you for forgetting the greeting card. So, when you have written a message for the future, bend your knees and give it to life, however, the flowers are lost to time, and the decadence is left in vain. You write, write, send, send, and only then do you understand in the twilight: flowers have a reblooming day, and no one is young anymore.

145. Actually, you can't say that vanity is a fault, it seems to me that it has the same characteristics as many of the qualities that people are born with. It's like human greed, lust, and even a lot of thoughts buried in the subconscious, so many emotions that are destroyed by the world and prejudices and radicalize.

146. This communion of characteristics that arises from the inside out, there is, it is not wrong, and if it is exceeded, it is wrong.

147. I didn't understand at the time, why are there so many people in the world who don't think it's a big deal to watch the excitement? Later, I realized that stealing other people's negative privacy to inflate their own entertainment index is a common problem for most people, and it can even be said to be an innate kind of heart.

148. Because, that inferiority complex is a bacterium injected into the depths of the soul, which will choose to be comfortable or divide at high speed as the environment changes! But no matter what, once it appears, it is destined to follow for a lifetime.

149. The brick walls and mud tiles with endless stories have become a wall that encircles people's hearts.

150. This huge house is so depressed and desolate at the moment, and every bright light seems to have lost the most basic warmth in it.

151. The sound that rubbed my ears was like a river flowing through my heart, and the feeling of wetness came spontaneously.

152. And in fact, it is not me that Cao Cancan is disgusted, but the social status quo behind us. This kind of perverted society, which has an endless ability to exploit incompetent people, makes people lose their most basic love for it. Needless to say, Cao Cancan and me, in this world, there are too many people, they can only choose to let it go in the face of too many grievances in life, and occasional venting may also be considered cynical, not with the same kind of people and seek to survive, so, during my time in Toronto, I often told my friends that everyone in this world is a disaster sufferer, and everyone's life can be written into a disaster blockbuster. However, tragedy and comedy are inseparable, and what you want to leave to the world depends on your own mentality.

153. I am running in front, and someone is chasing behind, then the hurried scene of you chasing me and catching up, in the current dim and gloomy night, is like a game of chasing, chasing the fate of the protagonist, disturbing the flashing lights of the supporting characters, and alluding to the dark humility at the end of the bizarre city.

154. My heart is clustered, like frosted ice crystals, shining brightly on the body of the sycamore. In this moonless night, there is a light of its own.

155. It seems to have brought me back to the midsummer season when I first entered the Cao family, the green pure clear veil, how many times around the sycamore, a few strokes, it evolved a painful memory of childhood.

156. Yes, relics, which were once alive in this world, and which were left to us by our beloved, are the only proof that she has been in this world. For every loved person, the relic is warmth, a breather for the soul, and a continuation of every irreplaceable love. Therefore, when the mother told Xue Hao what the item he was looking for, everyone was silent and instantly surrounded by a sense of responsibility.

157. The weather in Nanjing is always strange, the wind that comes and goes around and parting, but it can always stop at the tip of someone's heart.

158. In this world, who dares to face life is not a tough guy? Speaking of which, they have also experienced countless blows and setbacks in life, and finally chose to cross the river by feeling the stones. However, after all, it takes courage and courage to cross the river, and the bulging sail has achieved everyone's passive choice.

159. The end of autumn has not yet arrived, but it is dyed with cold frost. I couldn't see my old friend's eyes clearly, and its quiet and low-hanging appearance didn't seem to say that the years were quiet, but felt miserable.

160. Sometimes, the object itself is inanimate, but we give it emotion, and this external emotional blessing makes it possible for this tangible object to be flexible and vivid to a certain extent. It's like this box in my hand now, in the palm of my hand, it is hot and shining endlessly.

161. Everyone understands this kind of truth, but the moment it really happens, when you need to fight your pain against time, you suddenly realize that you are so small and insignificant.

162. In this world, the most difficult thing to guess is the human heart, and at the same time, the most scary thing is sometimes, it is precisely the bizarre mind of the person next to the pillow.

163. Most people like to live in a world of lies, and self-deception is sometimes not a good thing, but it would be a pity if such behavior was linked to stupidity.

164. Know that being hopeful for love is a mistake in itself, no matter with whomever it is.

165. In the silent atmosphere, I found that it was not only Zhang Jing himself who was contemplating, but also a room of wandering people who had nowhere to put their souls.

166. The swamp of life, hidden in the corner of fate.

167. She really decided to be a lonely goose again, from her own youth, to fly again!

168. I once came to the world in the days when the grass was rising in the spring, but I said goodbye to this life in the sorrow of the autumn moon. I wanted to plant a tree in my heart and watch it grow and grow, but I found no hope in the middle of the way. I wanted to write a poem for myself, to see it long, sad, affectionate and sad, but at the moment of parting, I was silent and alone.

169. After walking for so long, I suddenly feel that life is so long, and it is too late to see the scenery of the future, and it is too late to warm the future sun, and the world is already slightly cold.

170. Every wave of the hand in this life is to prepare for the final parting, waving and waving, it is really a world apart.

171. We can't catch up with the face behind the mirror, because time is merciless, and time loves to be arrogant.

172. Life is like this, running around, stumbling, and if you have regrets, don't panic. Time is always one step ahead of life, just like the squad leader in line when you were a child, if you are absent, he will also record you.

I suddenly seemed to remember something, turned around and ran back to my room, I pushed open the window to look at my wordless plane tree, at that moment, there seemed to be a spring breeze blowing the green in my heart, rippling, rippling, so that I fainted in the past, so that I couldn't bear to look at the ethereal sun in the future.

173. I didn't have time to look back, I didn't prepare songs and wine, and I lost the furnace that could warm reincarnation, and let the heavens and the earth be desolate, and I could not return the wounds of mediocrity in my life.

I know that even if I have a brush and language, I can't paint the sadness of life, and I can't go all out to run to life, and then end up lonely and sad.

174. People sometimes need to have talent to do something, and that is called innate capital. This kind of capital, under the premise of not having it, you can learn it, but it is too difficult, and the results are mostly not ideal.

175. She is not right at all, the Cao family is like a military camp, and everyone in it has the ability to resist the enemy tenaciously and fight against their own strong inner endurance. Aunt Qin is not an exception, she just charged into battle first, and learned about the situation of the enemy army for the "comrades-in-arms" behind her, so as to make a good military strategic deployment. Who are the enemy troops? In the face of the collapse of the sky, the optimistic mentality and the useless realist assertion of the Cao family to set an example.

176. It's just that I was young at that time, and despite the many misfortunes and disbelief, I was still full of hope for the future, and I hoped that my future could be as I imagined, and of course, the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment, this is an indisputable fact that this society has taught us.

177. Later, someone asked me, how many parts are there in the script of this life? I don't know. In fact, no matter what the theme of the script is, how wonderful the plot is, or what kind of tragic and innocent main structure, you desperately want to change it, change it back and forth, and the final script is your established life. This is the powerlessness of being born.

178. She recites sutras and reiterates Buddha almost every day, is she using a popular word to face the impermanence of the world? Is it Buddha? Perhaps. But after all, there is a decades gap between her living environment and the present, and she does not understand that the so-called Buddhist outlook on life is based on the efforts of subjective consciousness, the permission of objective factors, and the correct three views. However, grandma's Buddhism, the prerequisites, do not have any of them.

179. I lay on the bed and looked at the ceiling, my eyes were full of white walls and loneliness, and the endless sadness in my heart had never been warmed by blood since the words of being deliberately driven away.

180. At that time I thought, if this person all looked the same, there would be no such thing as mediocrity and non-mediocrity, after all, the nature of human existence determines that the general direction of each person's troubles, worries, pleasures and hopes is the same. They all crown vulgar thoughts in everyone's joys, sorrows, and sorrows, and instill them in their own vulgar desires for life. This in itself is the commonality of human beings, and only fate gives everyone a difference.

181. "In this world, although most of the joys are the same, and the misfortunes are different, in fact, when we go through the grief of the present, we always expand infinitely, and when we recall the sorrow of the past, basically, it is all brushed aside. Because, apart from sorrow, there is nothing else. I said.

182. That night, the plane tree outside my window was not only empty and empty, but full of depression, just like this Nanjing that was about to enter winter, between heaven and earth, the wordless depression interpreted the life and death of the Cao family. In the days following the incident, I stared at the suitcase at the door, trying to see through my father's heart, and also trying to see back at the red dust that the Cao family once contained.

183. It's just that people will bury their sorrows in their hearts over time, and then choose to remember the past on a specific day.

184. Later, I concluded that one of the indispensable manifestations of this man's growth over time and age was his thickening of face.

185. It's just that the so-called fool is one who often thinks things too simplistic or too complicated, and then puts himself in a situation of chicken feathers.

186. Public opinion, if it has formed a certain climate, is what the textbooks say, it is bound to appear as some natural phenomenon, and it will take time to retreat.

187. You will find that in a person's life, when he wants to remember some happy times, it seems that the painstaking thoughts are only for a moment, and the happiness of empathy is extremely short-lived. However, whether it is touching the scene or asking for affection, people's sad feelings are always easier to be turned out from the bottom of their hearts. It's like dust floating in a trash can, which is usually invisible, but if you throw something into it, it will be dusty in an instant.

188. I understand the meaning of my father's words, he is not referring to this one thing, she used her own mistakes to draw a clear line with the Cao family, just like the 38 lines on the table when I was a child, male and female, there is a difference.

189. Zhang Jing turned her back to everyone, she lowered her head and sobbed, but when the wind was strong, the tears were cheap, because before others could see them, they dried up.

190. The hustle and bustle of this life, round after round of people coming and going, and how many of them can really go to the hearts of others.

191. In that season, I Xu Shaohua will live forever, mediocre, and forever.

192. In this way, several generals of the Cao family withdrew from the stage of mediocre history in my youth. They are all ordinary and ordinary people living in this world, they have dreams and pursuits like others, or sharp, or tactful, but no matter what, the road of this life, whether long or short, has a fixed number.

193. They have all thought about others, they have also rowed and sang in the long river of their lives, and they have all loved those they love among their mediocre people, but their love is abrupt and loved, and some of them are unorganized.

194. Yes, in the three years when I was ten ~ twelve years old, I went through reincarnation and impermanence, and bid farewell to one mediocrity after another in the Cao family, and in the end, in addition to Cao Ge and Cao Cancan, only my biological parents remained. I suddenly felt a rapid relaxation in my chest, I felt shortness of breath, in this heaven and earth, has there been time for me to bid farewell to my loved ones? I have never said goodbye to the mediocre people I have passed by in my life, nor have I paid attention to their short and hurried journey of life.

195. Mother Wu's words are right, desire is a war horse, if you don't have the ability to control it and the determination to conquer it, don't go near it, because it will run farther and farther, faster and faster, until it throws you off the horse, and your body and mind are burned. It's a pity that there are too many people who know this truth, and there are too many people on the road to the horse training field, but too few people return unharmed.

196. "If a man does not save himself, it is difficult for heaven to bless, and mercy does not cross and destroy himself." Mother Wu, they all say that this creation makes people, and what is this creation? Three points of destiny, seven points of personnel. ”

197. "Whatever you owe, don't be giving, because you can't afford to pay it back." ”

198. She will often look out the window when she is in the car, look at the wind, frost, rain and snow outside the window, and look at the picturesque life outside the window, just like me before, always like to find security from everything strangers.

199. The mother stared at the father like that, two people, between the four pupils, how many heart-wrenching tears, wrong love, sleepless nights, and cold wind of life and death were hidden!

200. When one day, when Cao Ge's mouth no longer mentions "sister", and Xue Hao's mouth no longer mentions "Rong Jiaoer", I know that my mother has entered the past.

201. The past is not unbearable, it is you looking back, but it is unbearable to see, taste, and speak.

202. The title of director is not a bull, but a creation of the times. The common people think that the cow who is an official is a cow, but in fact, what is there that is not a cow for an official like me? What I did and his business probably didn't match, but the left was just adding the word "director" after any name, and this person would suddenly flash lightning.

203. People who are too sharp will naturally suffer.

204. I used to think that if I buried it, it would never appear again. And in essence, any kind of character and mood in the bones, planting soil and growing trees, throwing water into the water, this kind of thing that cannot disappear and exists in itself, is just temporarily put into a time capsule, which will open at a specific time, allowing you to see your state of mind at that time. Then, it dawns on you that time has never changed its concept, and that everything is just self-deception. For example, the kindness, humility, self-esteem that I put in the capsule.

205. Yes, poverty is a person's more sensitive identity label, you can see it in your eyes, but there is no need to say it to build momentum, especially if you add a backbone to the end of the word poverty, that basically denies the dual sides of a person's material and spiritual, which is no different from directly sentencing people to death psychologically.

206. What Liu Zhen buried in her arm may not only be the black memory of the past, but also the "generous gift" of growth that her youth gave her in the year when she struggled and hesitated alone.

207. Black public opinion, different from public opinion. It's like a tug-of-war. There is no such thing as friendship first, competition second, and no one pays attention to the true intentions of the organizers of this competition. And the truth of the matter is often on the side of the rope with fewer people. What about the other side? The black-pressed melon-eating audience. This, to put it bluntly, in the final analysis, is a contest between the strength of the number of people and the psychological endurance of the parties.

208. Liu Zhen's background has created a growth in the attention and expectations of others since she was a child, and this attention is not caused by her external factors, but by the concept of family education. Although she has been instilled with a good and correct three-view education, her excessively high expectations have also made her like a sheep walking on a tightrope. Simple and hard-working people, honest and pragmatic is synonymous with their personality, their down-to-earth attitude to life and spiritual pursuit only a little above the benchmark living standard line, worthy of admiration. However, people living in a closed environment often hide huge "safety" hidden dangers behind their limited social awareness. That is, overestimating the stability of good and evil in human nature in this society, and underestimating the immutable truth of "unity is strength" in society.

209. If you think that the "secret" thing is going with the wind, then you must also believe that the wind will come again. There is no shortage of topics and lovers. Just like those characters who have been in the limelight and have retired from the rivers and lakes for decades, future generations still like to hear about it when they mention it, and even, when it is clear that a cigarette can finish the story, they can have an afternoon tea with their eyebrows fluttering.

210. That's right, to the point. What is the difference between having money and not having money these days? Do you know? "What is it?" "It decides whether you look at the earth or the sky! It's just that no one looks at the real society in parallel. Money, isn't that what it is, although there are a few small hairy tickets, but in the pocket, the aisle can float! Close to the body, the butt is followed by a vote of nodding and bowing! Sticky face, if you don't stick properly, snap ~ blindfolded, then it's easy to can't tell the uphill or downhill road, if someone with crooked thoughts leads you to a dead end when you can't see the road, you will definitely die. ”

211. She shook her head: "Even if you don't really graduate, but, my generation, I'm afraid it's inseparable from alcohol." I looked at her red face against the green trees, just like the feelings of our generation in her words, clear and eye-catching.

212. Alcohol is an urge that can make people go from pretending to being promiscuous, allowing you to enjoy the process of peeling off your shell, and try to find some hidden and potential feelings in your heart. But you're trying to dig out another self with alcohol, and basically, you're getting nothing but getting drunk.

213. Wine, not to the depth, not to the depth. If you are deep, you don't know that you're drunk, and when you're awake, you don't know your heart.

214. I don't know, what is poured into the stomach by the person who poured cup after cup? Is it the pity of youth? Is it the sadness of the years? Worried about the future? Is it reminiscing about the past? is still reminiscing about the past, and a certain regret of regret is vivid.

215. Behind this act of using alcohol to temporarily numb one's nerves hides a common trait of all human beings, that is, a sense of powerlessness in life.

216. Some people have tried to rewrite their fate by getting drunk with God, but God is not invincible to alcohol, but the wine itself is a little trick played by God. Or you are bored, or you are to blame.

217. The meal that day, perhaps because of the wine, lasted longer. It was long until the evening, and those figures swayed in the shadow of the setting sun, and suddenly shook the youth, the troubles of the youth, the first half of the life that was about to part, and the mediocrity of the second half of the life. Shake lost the innocence and innocence, and the sunset that evening was infinitely better, but, at dusk, easy to get old.

218. If you have a few pounds and a few taels, you will have to count it if you toss and toss.

219. I can't help but laugh dumbly in my heart. God seems to have predestined the end of something, just like I caught a cold at this time, which is destined for this farewell ceremony that is related to the youth, and I am absent. Will there still be a day to come? Fang Chang didn't know.

220. My father is right, in addition to money, he and I at this time have already missed the years that the years have given to human nature the most true and good. From the breaking of the ground of growth to today's flourishing summer flowers, the green and ignorance along the way, the regret and anxiety along the way, have been ruthlessly torn off the page by time.

221. That kind of embarrassment, like an old man in her twilight years, rubbing the clothes of a young child, what else can she do but sigh at the passing of minutes and seconds?

222. The card in your pocket, with the large numbers in it, can really be exchanged for the warmth you missed? Of course not. However, the price of "commodities" is determined by the market, and in the context of conditions that are determined by market supply and demand, I have turned my past sadness and grief into a voluntary "transaction" between buyers and sellers. Is it ridiculous? Hehe~ A priceless thing that has not yet been evaluated by assets has been forced into the market for valuable circulation, what is this called? The degradation of the spiritual product is filled with limited matter, and in the end, it is nothing more than the result of the double shock of the material and the spirit.

223. Is it venture capital? Haha~ I laughed at myself and thought too much. This "transaction", which is not equal in value or equal in value, has long been risk-averse when I was young. And investing? I'm an adult, what to vote for? Invest in me for retirement? If it is true, then my father's account is shrewd enough.

224. "What is the difference between running to the dark and going mad?" Cao Cancan said.

225. Time has passed, things have changed, and the only thing that has not changed is my loneliness for so many years.

226. My brain is blank, just like the white wall opposite, white and mottled, and there are years of time.

227. Just like Kan Tao said, the people who watched me grow up one by one, I watched them leave one by one. They didn't wave to me when they came, and they never gave me a chance to say goodbye when they left. In their lives, there is a flash of me, but they are condensed in my book "Mediocrity is Well", always alive, always with a beating heart, time and all are good, eternity, is the only long tune.

228. The vast majority of us love in a vague way, and without warning, we don't love.

229. That's right, what is the so-called dog blood of the plot? That's expected, and the unexpected happens. And that is expected must be the part outside of your three views, and the unexpected is precisely the dark side of human nature that you have not touched.

230. So, one day, you suddenly change from a spectator to a protagonist, and after acting in a spurned play, you will be drenched in dog blood and become a hermit crab in disgrace.

231. When you are young, you don't know what growth is, but when you are young, you will suddenly wake up to the fact that the so-called growth is just those detours that have been taken, winding and messy, revealing a little smell of grass, but the rich sentimentality that is brewed with tears afterwards covers up the arrogance and arrogance that were once restless in the sun.

232. When I suddenly looked at the blue sky with my arms on my pillow, I remembered my flamboyant youth, the vitality that could be smelled in my hair, and at this moment, I had already bowed my eyebrows and surrendered to the panic and uneasiness given by the fading of this youth.

233. I suddenly felt that I had been busy living in this cold world for so many years, but in the end, I was busy doing nothing. Then, I took a few glances and suddenly realized that the iconic sign that has disappeared with age is to talk about the past and give a little overview.

234. When everyone dragged their suitcases out of the campus, although we had not yet received our graduation certificates at that moment, everyone knew in their hearts that this time, the youth raised the practice wine and said, farewell!

235. There are too many people in this world who always like to do the opposite. We call it alternative. As everyone knows, a person has a 99% chance of encountering the so-called alternative in life. A man who is accustomed to eating foie gras with red wine, you want him to have a potato stew with eggplant, that is called freshness, but if you give him bran vegetables, in his eyes, I am afraid that his soul has been defiled. This is not the same thing as filling your stomach, after all, the spiritual needs of those who fly in the sky are always greater than the actual objects that grow in the ground. Including, people who have jumped out of the pit since childhood.

236. It's a pity that Li Kai, who is accustomed to traveling around the world in a paraglider, has already become an eagle with full wings looking for prey everywhere, and is no longer the quail waiting to be slaughtered in the cage in front of the barbecue restaurant.

237. I have never thought that it is a sign of shame and cowardice to leave everything to nature. Rather, this person, after experiencing the impermanence of the world, has smoothed out the edges and corners, she has given up the colorful world of flowers, and from the day she chose to adjust the reality to black and white, she has been indifferent to the freshness and excitement brought by the flowery future. This is not a handshake, it is the result of her fighting too tired and losing too badly.

238. Although we are not very young anymore, that day in the school playground, there were children in school uniforms playing football, and the young people who ran on the way were like a light sail, swaying back to many years ago.

239. In those years, the elegance was just right, not arrogant or impatient. Although we are all running to different sides of life, we have the same memories as a souvenir of youth.

240. You know, when God is joking with you, if you are young, then you can laugh.

However, when you have reached the age when you can't afford to play, every time God plays with you "eagle catches chicken" or "throws handkerchief", you will have a sense of powerlessness to withdraw your soul! Because, even if you survive, age will make you lose your enthusiasm and passion for life. So, we choose to escape, and then we become more and more lonely.

241. If someone had asked me during that time, what was money besides its blatant effect? I will not hesitate to tell him: listen to his words and shine all over the world.

242. The word death is foreign to me. For many years, no one around me has chosen to say goodbye in such a radical way.

243. God's punishment is sometimes a very cruel thing, and he will make you look good in front of people who treated you with disdain! It's as if there's an ability to stick to it, so it's impossible for you to disappear from the other person's sight at all.

244. Hey... Sometimes I can't sleep, and I think like she was in college, and I'd rather each of us be good than that lipstick now.

245. Compared with the smoky miasma of those verdant years, I would rather our lives are as good as ever after experiencing the bloody storm. That's all it takes.

246. For a long time in the future, I was afraid to remember that past, and I was even very afraid of someone shaking my head in front of me, and that feeling was like telling me that there was nothing I could do.

247. Sometimes, what does the word powerless represent? It represents resignation. It's a pity that in our lives, if it is a trivial matter, it is just a matter of accepting fate, and everything related to life and death is full of heavy sorrow and sorrow. You feel like you have anger and resentment in your heart, but you don't know who to send it to. Do you want to blame God? But he found that he didn't even have the courage to complain about him.

248. That woman grew up with me all the way in my youth, and what I did seemed to me had risen directly to the embodiment of a person's conscience, and what I had lost at that time was the most basic sense of trust.

249. More than anything that is blessed with emotion, money is the coldest and most bloodless existence. If you put money in space, then it is a piece of paper. Yes, while the colorful paper did give me a great sense of security, it was only on the surface of the sloppy skin. And when a person's prosperity fades, you will find that your heart is still extremely empty. This emptiness is the emptiness brought about by the evolution of emotions.

250. Man is the most affectionate animal, you will see through others in the process of your growth, but also see through your own cold-bloodedness, that kind of cruelty, will subvert your cognition.

251. It is not just the faces of familiar people that dissipate with time. However, all the glamorous things in your life will be changed by the vicissitudes of life, including the mottled bits and pieces of your memory, which will make you suddenly wake up when you want to recall something at the end, it turns out that what you have been forcing yourself to try to remember, all at once you forget everything.

252. During that time, I looked at these mediocre people passing in front of me, but the reason why they ended up was because time made each other strange and hazy.

253. I'm thinking that sometimes it's a good thing that you can't remember, and this feeling makes you feel that life seems closer to the truth. It's like reaching out and touching the flesh and blood that has vividly jumped in the depths of your soul, and only to find that everything is just a moon in the water.

254. It's not that I don't know the meaning of mediocrity, my mother once said that the so-called mediocrity is the impermanence of the mediocre world, and the mediocre world is fine. You can have pursuits, but you can have a degree, you can have dreams, but you must judge the situation and appropriately relax the requirements for this world.

255. It's just that there are too many things in life to grow up and find that, and age is a springboard. You will only understand the truth when you look back at the past after you have walked a part of the road yourself.

256. In this world, God never cares for anyone, and everyone's growth is based on pain and helplessness, and only then does he slowly see hope and sunshine.

257. I still feel that God is not beautiful, and that is God owes me an explanation of humanity.

258. It is only now that I understand that God is a very naughty man, and he does not like people to play games with him about conditions, and he does not like people chasing after his ass to ask for answers. His so-called answers are all in the fault line of time, and they can only be revealed when they go over.

259. People have different feelings about things and people at different ages. At the age of 33, I must have more to say about the world, but I don't have the spirit to ask for explanations. My life is a mess. After going through the years, I am sober, I want to live well for all the people in this world who love me, in order to let those mediocre people know that I am moving closer to them, and I have forgotten hatred

260. What did time give to the woman in the photo? And what did she give back to those hurried mediocrities in her life? Although it is not an equivalent exchange between people, I think that what I have done has been insulated from the four words that should be taken for granted since then. I owe a good word to those mediocre people, and before I was 33 years old, I basically had already drawn an end.

261. I suddenly remembered the first time I saw Cao Cancan, I was sitting in the back seat of Uncle Zhao's car, that kind of fear, that kind of cowardice and fear;

I suddenly remembered that after the incident at the east window, I didn't dare to look up at Aunt Qin'er's eyes, I didn't dare to dissect her inner world through her confused eyes, I was afraid to see Aunt Qin'er's helplessness;

I also remembered the way my mother looked at me before she died, and I, after I was ten years old, I owe her, Mom.

Is the grievance of this world revenged? I think it's pretty much there.

262. In the past few years in Toronto, all the beauty I boasted of was rewarded with one resounding slap after another in my pain.

That year, when I got into Liu Zhen's Cayenne, I was the poorest beggar under the sun, even though I was not short of money.

263. Everything in Nanjing is familiar and strange to me, Liu Zhen drove the car and took me through the strange night of Nanjing, when the hurried people walked under the neon, I saw my young and ignorant self, and the youth that was gradually drifting away, and insisted on going my own way!

264. In the photo, I saw Li Kai, who had lost his life because of my hatred, greeted me: "Hey! Cao Muxi! In the end, it was I, Li Kai, who won! The advantage of being one step ahead is that you can watch you behave recklessly in the world! ”

265. I saw in the photo that Jiang Shanshan, who was sent away by me for the second half of her life because of hatred, squinted her eyes and smiled at me: "Hi! Cao Muxi! Now you know the benefits of money, right? It's like me when I was in college, my soul piled up with banknotes is vulnerable! Didn't your mother teach you to be a philistine? Haha~ Learn to see the world with a normal heart, anyway, I can't learn. I wish you a speedy return from your studies! ”

266. It was as if I saw my mother feeding me buns again, and that year, I was 7 years old;

I saw Aunt Jean sorting my schoolbag and pouring a glass of milk for me, when I was 11 years old;

I saw my grandmother's cunning and mean appearance, and saw her helplessness in trying her best to protect her son, that year, I was 12 years old;

I saw Cao Qi wearing a tie, with a graceful appearance, and his gestures were all seen by the chic charm of a man, that year, I was 13 years old;

I also saw Zhang Jing's just right makeup, she was shuttling up and down the Cao family's mansion, that year, I was 14 years old;

I saw Cao Ge perming his wavy curly hair, bright and moving;

I saw Ziyunfei enchanting and charming, full of charm;

I saw Cao Cancan and Kan Tao talking about their youth in the sun;

I saw Song Zitian's heart under the appearance of Song Zitian's child;

I saw Liu Zhen's timid eyes looking at me in college;

I saw Shen Yue's helplessness and tears hiding in the corner at night when no one was around, desperately trying to live;

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I saw the 33 years I had come along the way, I saw my presumptuous and flamboyant flying under the blue sky, and I saw those mediocre people as if they were in a different world.

267. Time is indeed a good thing, he has allowed me to grow up slowly in these years in Toronto, but I also understand how much time and energy I have spent so many years to perform this long-planned farewell ceremony?

Say goodbye to whom?

Say goodbye to youth;

Say goodbye to your younger self;

Say goodbye to all the mediocrities in my life who pass by.

268. When Cao Cancan disappeared at the end of the air floating in the annual rings, I knew that the girl who had a loud voice in my debate about right and wrong had said goodbye to each other's desolate youth road forever.

Seeing each other again, it is already middle-aged.

269. Yes, the crowd has passed, things are not people, and "Family Portrait" has become the only lonely point for his father Cao Mu.

270. My 33 years, ups and downs. It wasn't until the years after the watershed that I really became the philistine person that my mother called me. Perhaps, it was only after I re-stepped into the land of the Cao family that I was touched by the philistineness of my mother and Aunt Qin.

271. Nianhua is a song, while you sing a lullaby and the red sunset, the world is impermanent, the world is safe, everything, there is something to expect, something to look forward to.

272. When I was young, I sang a song of praise to life, but I forgot that the philistine man stood at the front of the overture, waiting for the interlude of this piece. It's just that I can let it be rearranged into my life at the end, and my mother said, Cao Muxi, you succeeded!

273. The story, is it here?

That's it!

Thanks to the little Z who wrote for me.

I wish you all the best for the rest of your life, readers.

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Sogou