On that day, the weather in Toronto was still very bad. Foggy clouds obscured the sun, and I wanted to look up at the sky, but found that I couldn't see anything but darkness. Standing behind Arauy, I let out a heavy sigh. Arauy looked back, "What's wrong?" ”

I curled the corners of my mouth and smiled, "Nothing." I just think God is too naughty. ”

Arauy didn't seem to understand: "Huh? Who is naughty? ”

"Nothing. Help me find a basement. I said helplessly.

"Good. So, which area would you like to live in? Arauy asked me formally.

I shrugged, "I don't know." ”

"Well, although this is not an urban area, I have lived here for a while, so I am familiar with it. If you're not picky, how about living in the house I rent? ”

"You rented it?" I asked, confused.

"Hmm." Arauy smiled faintly, "I'll talk to you later." Let's arrange your accommodation first. With that, I followed Arauy to a house.

It was a detached house, the house was huge, with three floors in total except for the basement. The landlord is an elderly grandmother and very kind person. After briefly telling her about me, Arauy patted me back: "Bring me a copy of your passport loss certificate issued to you by the boss at the hotel just now." ”

I groaned and frantically rummaged through my bag to find the piece of paper. After Arauy took it, he didn't forget to remind me: "A few more copies tomorrow, this will be very useful during your passport replacement." I nodded mechanically.

The landlord took the copy, looked at it, looked at me again, and then asked Arauy, "Do you have a copy of your passport?" ”

"A copy of your passport, do you still have it?" She turned her head to me and asked.

"No, no. Just gave it to the police. ”

"You just made a copy?" Arauy asked, surprised.

"Well, if these two weren't put in the compartment of the suitcase, it is estimated that they would have been lost." I said in frustration. After Arauy explained the situation to the landlord, the landlord meant that there was no way to prove whether I had smuggled in without a copy of my passport, and he was afraid of trouble, so he didn't want me to stay. Arauy struggled to explain to her until she swore that the landlord did not look like a bad person, and then agreed.

The basement had only half of the windows, and it was cold and damp. When Arauy was helping me organize my things, he suddenly asked me, "Are you going abroad for the first time?" ”

"Ah, yes." She smiled, "I can see it." Normal, experienced people will make a lot of copies of their passports, which are particularly useful, in advance, and carry their passports with them, so they would rather lose them themselves than lose their passports. I thought about it and didn't speak.

"Oh, by the way, the police told you to go through the reprocessing tomorrow. Don't you forget? Arauy reminded me.

I mumbled and didn't speak again.

The reason why I chose to find a basement instead of seeking help from the government is mainly because I know that as long as the passport is in Zhao Song's hands, it is basically no fun. At that time, I was physically and mentally exhausted. I don't have the energy to deal with more tedious things, and I don't want to go back to China, so I'll settle down first.

I paid the rent for the basement, which Arauy also paid for me. Arauy is like a noble and angel to me, and without her, I don't know what kind of mentality and face I should have when I returned to China.

I found that I was still "strong" in front of my family, and this strength was in quotation marks. Later, when I looked back and thought about myself, if I chose to bow my head in a timely manner, maybe my future would not be such a mess, but unfortunately, I always wanted to play the self-reliant side in front of the Cao family, and I always wanted the Cao family to know that they were dispensable to me Cao Muxi. It was this kind of psychology that laid a major foreshadowing for everything that happened in Toronto.

At night, I lay on my damp and gloomy basement bed and tried to take out my phone two or three times. I wanted to text Cao Cancan, and I wanted to text Liu Zhen, but in the end, I thought about it, but I didn't have the courage to stretch out that hand.

That night, I covered myself under the quilt, and I didn't sleep all night last night, which made my head dizzy, but I couldn't sleep. It's not the environment, it's that I don't dare to stick my head out of the quilt, I don't want to see the dark light hanging on the roof of the shed, I don't want to accept all this in front of me. I cried again. I feel sad about my downfall.

Think about the arrogance you used to be, think about the warmth of your uncle in Uncle Elm's arms, and think about the feeling of being favored by Song Zitian, at that time, I was nothing more than breaking my wings from high school.

I suddenly thought of my mother, I thought of Aunt Qin, that kind of basement days, that kind of penniless days, very similar to my life before I went to Cao's house. Lonely and depressed. I suddenly missed the days of the Cao family, even at first, I would sneak bread into my school bag. But, compared to the time, it was nothing less than good.

My friend later asked me, "What gave you the courage to choose to live in a basement abroad instead of living in a villa in China?" To experience life? "I know, my friend was joking.

I smiled wryly: "Because of self-esteem." ”

My friend replied to me, "It's good for people to have self-esteem, but in fact, many times, excessive self-esteem is asking for self-suffering and is useless." "There's nothing wrong with what she said. Although the relationship between me and my family is quite special, as a child, it is really unnecessary to insist on the so-called face and scale in front of my family.

In this world, there will always be people waiting to see your jokes, but there are other people who have been waiting silently by your side, waiting for you to be able to talk to them when you are in trouble, so that they can stand up when you need their help the most and solve all your difficulties for you. In everyone's life, the people around them will be divided into three, six, nine and so on. Many people imagine that the people around them are good people, while more people generalize about the people around them. Although in this world, the world determines people's unpredictability, but there are still a few people who are really waiting to see your jokes. In addition to the earth-shattering twists and turns of life, his life has been accompanied by suffering, and for most people, the occasional pain and twist and turn is actually a boost to his life.

Many times we don't want to lower our heads and tell others about our troubles, why? Because he needs to create a person who can be self-sufficient and contented in the eyes of others, and will not feel sorry for himself, he needs others to affirm and give him a strong label, and he needs others to know that he is actually living a very chic life. I was one of them. It's like after I slammed the door and went out in front of many people in the Cao family, it had already determined my current situation in Toronto.

This kind of behavior of slapping a swollen face and becoming fat is undoubtedly a pathology.

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