After dinner that day, I went back to my bedroom, still under the lamp that I had written for many years, took out the bank card, and fiddled with the light. The silver light refracted by the light above me was so dazzling that I found that I suddenly did not dare to look at it directly, for I was afraid that it would blind some remaining thought that hit me straight to the bottom of my heart.

If I bought my own youth and childhood with money, what about my mother, who has passed away? How can she demand compensation from the ruthlessness of this world?

I shook the black card and said it was light and heavy. It carries too many unknown pasts, even, lives.

I smiled in my heart, how ridiculous fate was, always playing with me like a three-year-old.

I suddenly remembered Kan Tao mentioned by Cao Cancan during the meal just now. I have Kan Tao's contact information, and he has been lying quietly in my QQ. Sometimes, when I swipe the mouse, I will cross the bright name, and I will always pause inadvertently, and then, I will laugh it off.

During the summer vacation, Liu Zhen sent me two messages, to the effect that they asked me how I was feeling recently, whether I was feeling better or something. But I never replied.

High school classmates organized a dinner, I thought about it, and finally found a reason to prevaricate. I found myself less and less fond of having fun, not that I fell in love with loneliness, but that I didn't seem to have much to do but remain lonely.

Near the beginning of school, Song Zitian contacted me and said that he wanted to go out for a meal. I originally wanted to refuse, but as a result, this guy actually came to my door and waited for me, and if he didn't go, it didn't seem to be the case, so he simply agreed.

After Song Zitian went to college, he seemed to look a little more pleasing to the eye than he did in high school. I looked at him driving and smiled casually. He turned his head: "What are you laughing at?" Do you think I'm more handsome than before? ”

"Handsome! Pretty handsome! I exaggerated.

"Really? is so handsome, I didn't think about it, I put it around me as a boyfriend or something? What a face! He said with a grin.

"I didn't think about it." I turned my head. In the past few years, Song Zitian has always been obsessed with me, and I have always known about this. It's just that, to be honest, it's not that I don't like it, but maybe it's the Cao family, who is buried in love and marriage, that makes me not have any hope for the most primitive desires of this human being, maybe, there is a person in my heart? I don't know. Anyway, Song Zitian always teases me with something to do, although it is teasing, but in fact, I also know that it is serious. However, I always refused to go back with a hippie smile on my face.

"Then you think about it slowly. Master, I have good looks, money, and talent, and I am still dedicated to feelings, I'll go, where can you find a second one! Song Zitian held the steering wheel with one hand, and gestured in the air with the other hand.

"Don't make a fuss, don't make a fuss! I won't say anything else, where do you say your talent is? ”

"Didn't I send you my medal? Didn't you see it? I organized an anime creative contest at school, and one of my works won a national award. Second prize, second prize! That's my work! No, Cao Muxi, don't you look at anything I send you every time? Song Zitian said excitedly. When he said that, I remembered that I like, I really didn't see it.

"Look at your expression, you bring your phone, I'll take a look, did you delete it without even reading it?" Song Zitian stretched out a hand.

"What?"

"Mobile phone! Cut~ Cao Muxi, you make me sad too much. You said, I won an award, and the first person who thought of reporting the good news was not my parents, but you, I sent you so many times, and you didn't read it. It's so sad. Although there was an exaggeration in Song Zitian's expression, it could be seen that he was indeed sad because I didn't see it.

"I watched, watched, forgot." I argued.

"Pull it down! You're lying! If you read it, you say, the one I sent you, my certificate, what color? He raised an eyebrow and asked very formally.

"Yellow, yellow. No, white, white background. "I'm trying to make it up.

"Gotta get it, I'm stupid, I'm stupid and I'm still here to verify with you, waiting for you to surprise me, saying that you really saw it. Ay... Let's talk about the next topic, otherwise, I'm afraid that I will have a heart attack before I get to the place for a while. I smiled embarrassedly.

"Where is this going?" I suddenly looked out the window and asked.

"Take you to the bar."

"Bars? What are you doing there? Isn't that place particularly messy? ”

"Isn't there me? Oh, don't worry, I'm a ruffian, but I'm not a bad person. Don't worry. He said solemnly.

Actually, the original intention of my question was not to be afraid of him, but just to say it casually.

That bar was the second largest in downtown Nanjing at that time. There are no dazzling colorful neon colors on the outside, and the exterior design is very simple, but when you enter the turnstile, there is no cave.

I followed behind Song Zitian, and he turned around and tried to take my hand, but I threw him away. He glared at me: "Give it, pull the sleeves and always do it!" I pursed my lips and smiled, and pulled him by the sleeve, avoiding the crowd, and with great difficulty getting to the booth. The sound of the music was deafening, Song Zitian turned around, put his hands next to his mouth, and shouted loudly: "Here, it's only this now, you see, there is no place." It's very hot here. ”

I frowned and sat down in a reclining position after following his ass.

"What do you drink?" Song Zitian asked me.

"Drinks."

"Drinks? Sister, have you ever seen someone come to a bar for a drink? Can I get you a glass of boiled water? "He's a white-eyed guy again. As soon as he finished speaking, he snapped his fingers at the waiter in the distance and shouted. So, a very handsome young man in a suit and vest came to him.

"A dozen Corona, a fruit plate, a snack platter. Oh, by the way, some more ice, a pair of dice. OK. Song Zitian nodded skillfully.

"What did you order?" I shouted at him.

"Beer."

"I don't drink."

"Stop a little, come this time, drink beer, next time you come, I'll take you to drink foreign wine."

I pouted at him, "Who just said they were a good person?" Look at your posture, you look like a regular customer here. ”

"Haha~ This place, although it's complicated, but you don't have to be complicated! I'm such a nice guy. Besides, who told you that those who enter this kind of entertainment place are not good people? Song Zitian said and sat down next to me, looking like a hippie smile.

"Stay away from me!"

"Haha! Yes, yes, I forgot, you'll be there for the shadowless feet in Foshan! When I think about it, you kicked my car like that, and I can laugh and cry. Song Zitian said and said, and actually mentioned the incident that he thought about back then. I immediately slapped him: "Which pot is not opened, which pot is not mentioned." ”

He leaned back with a smile, and approached me with his hand on his chest: "Eh, Cao Muxi, you say, if I take you home one day, tell my mother, Mom, this is the girl I want to marry, she is good, and she will be able to live in peace in the future to ward off evil spirits." You say, my mother's face is so angry? When he finished speaking, he laughed and climbed onto the soft seated sofa.

"I'm so ugly? Can you ward off evil spirits? ”

"No, no, it's funny. How good-looking you are, that's the kind of cold you look like. Like, like a lily with frost. As he spoke, his expression became serious.

"Don't boast, it's all frosted, and the lily, your lily is frosted, you can still see it!" After saying that, the waiter came up with a fruit bowl.

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