Slowly, time turned Jiang Shanshan's affairs into the past tense. And I seem to have gotten better from that self-blame.

As a result, what happened next shocked me again!

One day, a woman came to the house. Canadians are not amazing, they are ordinary people. At first, I thought she was a new neighbor, but it turned out to be A's wife.

However, that time, there was no scene of the main room forcing the palace junior, she just told me briefly that I was not the first, nor the last. Then he left.

The staging of this kind of plot is not bloody for me. And it didn't have much of an impact on me.

As for A's marriage, although I haven't asked about it before, it's expected that I got married. However, I never tied myself to the so-called "little three". My identity, even I think it's a mystery. is a junior child, but he plays the hypocrisy of his wife everywhere.

Perhaps, some people here will say that under normal circumstances, the wife is never hypocritical, and it is precisely because she is not hypocritical that she has the tragic ending of being abandoned in the end.

Soon after the woman arrived, I found out I was pregnant.

So, I made an appointment with A to negotiate terms, divorce, and marriage. Or, give me money. Naturally, A disagrees. As far as he was concerned, he would never allow anyone to threaten him with children, and I was just trying to get a try. I didn't think about marrying him, so I laughed at the result.

However, that child, I decided to stay. After learning of my decision, A was furious and told me that if this child was born, he would never care about it. At that time, I looked at A, who was standing in the hall and was furious, and smiled back and forth.

No one knows what I'm laughing at, what I'm laughing at is that I actually saw my father Cao Mu from A's actions at that time, thinking about the shadow of my mother when I faced it! Right! It's supposed to be such hysteria! And stretched out his finger and told his mother: "If you want to give birth, I will never stop you!" But listen, this kid, I will never admit it! ”

How ridiculous! After many years, everything is repeating itself!

My relationship with A was completely Buddhist at that time. When she grew up in my belly little by little, I suddenly felt, it seems, I can feel the kind of maternal love that Jiang Shanshan had at that time, or, Liu Zhen?

However, I don't have Jiang Shanshan's idea of wanting to fight for anything for the sake of the child. And the news of pregnancy, I didn't tell Cao Ge about it. However, Arauy knew. She told me to get rid of the baby, but I still insisted on doing it. In the end, Arauy couldn't help it, but he always looked at me and sighed.

In the middle of my pregnancy, I unexpectedly received a message from a colleague in my previous unit, who said that Li Kai had died in prison.

The word death is foreign to me. For many years, no one around me has chosen to say goodbye in such a radical way. Therefore, even if this Li Kai is a bad person, when this name is associated with death, I still feel that I can't accept it! I read that message three times before I was sure, yes, what they said was indeed that Li Kai was dead.

They said that Li Kai himself had a congenital heart disease, and after the third trial, Li Kai died of a heart attack while facing huge financial compensation and years in prison. Li Kai's sudden death made me feel a little surprised. After being stunned, the first thing I thought of was Liu Zhen. I don't know what kind of mentality Liu Zhen, who is far away in China, is looking at this sudden incident at this moment!

And I really just wanted to avenge Zhao Song! I just wanted the company to kick Li Kai out, but I didn't expect things to be so big! Did this tell me that I had indirectly killed another person? Is it?

I buried my head in my arms, I didn't know what was wrong with me! This world is not friendly to me in the first place, why, I want to fight back even a little, and I have to play so big? Am I a sinner? Is it? I don't know, but I'm certainly not a good person.

Perhaps, this is retribution. Since I got the news of Li Kai, I suddenly had a high fever and had repeated attacks. As we all know, antibiotics during pregnancy cannot be taken casually, but the high fever of nearly 40 degrees makes the doctor a little panicked! And before that, I was always in good physical condition!

The doctor also gave me a preventive injection and told me that it is very likely that the baby in the belly will be affected by the frequent use of this antipyretic medicine, and the child is also in danger. So, for a while, I was stuck in a tangle. If there is a fever or no fever, the child will suffer from it.

During that time, I was always running around the hospitals in Toronto alone, trying to find a way to neutralize sex. As a result, the cause was not found, and the child was found to be stunted compared to children of the same age during the subsequent examination. It sent me into anxiety.

So, in the second half of my pregnancy, I spent almost all of my time in nervousness, restlessness, anxiety, and trepidation. On the day of the birth, Arauy came, and A was very trustworthy, he really didn't care about the child.

I don't know if my mother was as free and easy as me on the day she gave birth to me.

But as a result, the child was born, a boy, but the congenital resistance was weak, and the lungs were not fully developed. After a full month in the incubator, the child finally came out. Arauy helped me take care of the children during that time, and I was also emaciated due to physical strength and mental strength, and the so-called "confinement" has not been done well, and then I also fell into the problem of back pain.

The child who returned home did not necessarily get better, and all aspects of him showed that he was different from other normal children. And, half a month later, shortness of breath caused by choking almost killed him. For this reason, Arauy and I discussed that it would be better to take the child to the hospital. It's too dangerous now. And just like that, in the middle of the night, Arauy drove me and my baby back to the hospital.

I didn't think anything about it at the time, but this scene, when I think back later, is so sad.

A didn't ask about the child's condition, and it seemed that the child I insisted on having had become a farewell gift between me and him.

When the child was half a year old, the doctor talked to me, which roughly meant to prepare me psychologically, although he was not very serious, but after treatment for more than half a year, it was found that he also had congenital heart disease. The damage to the body caused by this congenital imperfection will still cause him not to be like a normal child, and even more intense sports in the future may cause him to have an accident. Also, there is no way to determine whether it is related to the series of medications I took during pregnancy. They also regretted this.

At that time, I was leaning against the wall, covering my mouth with my hands and crying. Arauy hugged me: "It's okay, the doctor is just telling you the worst so you can be prepared." You know, when you can take the worst, it's all good and a surprise for you. ”

I was not at all happy in the face of Arauy's comfort. I asked myself in my heart, retribution? Are you punishing me? It's good to punish me, why punish my child?

During that time, Arauy and I were almost in the hospital. I look at the child every day, and it's very worrying. He looks like a normal person when he is normal, but he has to be careful every time he eats or activities. Moreover, he looks very thin.

Unexpectedly, during that time, I suddenly received a message, it was actually Liu Zhen.

"Mu Xi, I heard that you gave birth to a baby? Why didn't you tell me? I may travel to Canada on a business trip in a few days to see you and your children when the time comes. Chaste. "In just a few words, I held the phone and cried for a long time. Arauy kept asking me who I am? I kept shaking my head.

Yes, I don't know how I should describe Liu Zhen, who she really is to me.

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