Liu Zhen's news came very suddenly, and it came suddenly, and I only felt that it had been a century since the last communication.

Putting down the phone, he leaned against the wall of the hospital alone, his mind full of Liu Zhen's shadow. I don't know, after so many years, how is the girl who used to be in college only giggling and crying now? I don't know, when she really sets foot on this land in Toronto, and I, what kind of mentality and expression should I use to face the former Liu Zhen?

After all, along the way, Cao Muxi has changed back and forth, and even she can't figure out her true self. If I were Liu Zhen, I would definitely dislike my current self.

During that time, I found that all the strength I thought was going down the drain. I used to think that with money, I would have the ability to soar on my own, I could fly high or glide against the horizon. But I found myself wrong. Just like the saying that is often said in the mouths of ordinary people, money is not everything.

Indeed it is. At the end of the day, I'm still overestimating myself. As I had an endless amount of money in my pocket, I suddenly realized how helpless and desolate it was to be alone in a foreign land with a child who was born frail and sickly! And the birth of this child also made me have no face to tell my family at all. And how Liu Zhen knew, I was not interested in knowing in such detail.

The luxuries I liked, because of the child's illness, tortured me to the point that I was as unkempt and decadent as Jiang Shanshan who knelt in the rain and pleaded with me. I suddenly found that during that time, I had lost a lot of interest in life, even if you put mountains of gold and silver in front of me, there was no longer the health of a child, and let me sleep peacefully.

A month later, Liu Zhen really came.

I kept stopping and stopping on the way to the airport to pick her up, and I was a little hesitant and hesitant, in the end, scared.

Far away, when Liu Zhen appeared at the pick-up gate with a suitcase, wearing a smart suit and a ponytail, I suddenly panicked. I wanted to look away from her, but in the end, I found that I was powerless.

God's punishment is sometimes a very cruel thing, and he will make you look out of the way in front of those you once disdained! It's as if there's an ability to stick to it, so it's impossible for you to disappear from the other person's sight at all. So, I stared at Liu Zhen like that, with endless pressure and uneasiness in my heart, watching her walk towards me step by step.

Liu Zhen smiled as before.

"Mu Xi!" She greeted me, but I didn't know whether to hug or extend my hand.

It was as if I had seen the college girl with a plain face again. I wanted to cry, but in the end I put it back.

I took her straight to the hospital. After Liu Zhen heard about the child, she was always worried. I know she's worried about her child, and she's worried about me.

She tentatively asked me about the current state of my life, and I smiled wryly and didn't answer. Liu Zhen was very knowledgeable and did not speak again. Along the way, the speechlessness and embarrassment continued all the way to the hospital.

In the hospital, Liu Zhen kept teasing the child. It can be seen that she really likes him. Liu Zhen comforted me not to worry, there is a sister in her unit whose condition is somewhat similar to his, and now they are all like normal people, and they are all eighteen or nineteen. I don't know if her words are true or not, but I feel a little more comforted inexplicably.

In short, every word Liu Zhen and I said at that meeting seemed to bring me to tears. I suddenly realized that I had become vulnerable in the past few years. Even though I can't live like a queen in that house in Toronto, my mother's blood still flows in my bones.

Just like my mother did when she was alive, she always cried when something happened. When I was young, I always felt that my mother's tears would upset me, and I thought she was too cowardly. And now, I understand a truth. Crying, as an outlet for emotions, has its necessity. And more often than not, it's not that you want to cry, it's the thing that tears are, and they will involuntarily flow down on specific occasions and at specific times.

In the face of Liu Zhen's visit, I was dumbfounded throughout the whole process. Liu Zhen's enthusiasm trampled my conscience under my feet. She has already studied herself to obtain a lawyer's certificate, and she and I must have been in vain for so many years.

I originally wanted Liu Zhen to play with the child for a while and then let her leave. After all, as a mother, to some extent, it seems that she can understand some of Liu Zhen's mentality problems when she sees her child. But as a result, this Liu Zhen said that he would not leave anything. She bought a lot of toys for the children, and the two of them played like mother and son. And, that day, the child was in surprisingly good shape.

The more Liu Zhen behaved as if nothing happened, the more uneasy I became. I don't know what God is going to do, none of the people who have appeared one after another, what has happened, none of them seem to be inseparable from me. I felt like a sinner through the ages, whose conscience was tormented by those philistines after being ignored and watched.

That day, Liu Zhen did not leave until the evening and returned to the hotel where she had arranged to attend the meeting. Before leaving, Liu Zhen hugged the child, with endless reluctance in her eyes. I still remember that scene vividly.

What impressed me particularly was that Liu Zhen told me half-jokingly before leaving that the child would call her godmother when he grew up.

As soon as my godmother said this, my nose became sour.

On the way back to the hotel to send Liu Zhen, I suddenly asked what I had been holding back for a long time: "You, do you know Li Kai..."

As soon as I said the beginning, Liu Zhen picked up the words in the co-pilot: "I know." It's dead! ”

Liu Zhen said it very easily, as if she was talking about a person who had nothing to do with her. However, it was the person who was gone, but she beside her couldn't be a mother for the rest of her life.

Liu Zhen was silent for a while: "It's good to be dead!" Save others from harm. As she said this, she turned her face out the window. I don't know, looking out the window, are there any tears flowing down the face?

After a while, Liu Zhen turned her face: "Do you know that Jiang Shanshan is crazy?" ”

I braked suddenly, startling Liu Zhen. My actions made Liu Zhen mistakenly think that it was the shock she showed when she suddenly heard the news.

"You don't know wow! She's crazy! I heard that I found a man, and that man was not a good person, and he couldn't do without having a child, but he was asked for debts by the man. As a result, the miscarriage was stimulated and went crazy. I heard from my classmates that someone went to see her. Now I'm so thin that I can't look like it. Ay... Sometimes I can't sleep, and I think like she was in college, and I'd rather each of us be good than that lipstick now. ”

After Liu Zhen finished speaking, she lowered her head.

I took the opportunity to wipe tears from my face.

What Liu Zhen said is also my feelings. Compared with the smoky miasma of those verdant years, I would rather our lives are as good as ever after experiencing the bloody rain. That's all it takes.

On the way back from seeing Liu Zhen off, I parked my car on the side of the road. Alone looking at the traffic and strangers on the street. I looked up at the dim light and suddenly burst into tears without warning. I cried for a long, long time, until my eyes were dizzy, and I cried until I ran out of a box of paper cigarettes.

It took me a long time to calm down before I slowly returned to the hospital.

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