I smiled embarrassedly, "Really? Is it good-looking, or is it ugly? ”

"I'll go, I have to look good! Absolute beauty! Ah, by the way, introducing, my girlfriend! ”

Song Zitian on the side was half-joking, and said half-jealously: "Brother, this, it's not good to praise other people's girlfriends in front of your girlfriend!" ”

"Haha, don't mind, this is my sister, my sister!" Kan Tao said, and said it very naturally.

Song Zitian seemed to suddenly remember something: "Ah! I remembered, you are, the one who said three years ago, watching Cao Muxi grow up! ”

"Ah, yes, yes, it's me, it's me!" After the two of them exchanged pleasantries, when they were about to part, Kan Tao suddenly said: "Eh, Cao Muxi, after you graduate, are you in Nanjing?" If you're here, I'm getting married, you're coming?! ”

I was stunned: "Who?" Tie the knot? ”

"Haha, preliminarily, I'll get married after graduating from college, hey, I'm just talking. It's a year and a half. That, didn't you change your phone? Tell me! When I was a child, I really worried about you! Your brother is getting married now, and you can't witness my happiness? Before I could say anything, Song Zitian beside me agreed.

After Kan Tao left, I was stunned for a long time. Song Zitian didn't doubt it, but kept sighing on the side: "Look at people, ah? Cao Muxi, take a look! Everyone is planning to get married! I'm fine, I haven't even held my hand! You say, am I too sad! Can't we hold back the motherland! I heard him, but I didn't respond.

"No, you behave, I can interview you, are you like me, thinking about our marriage?" Song Zitian chattered beside me with a hippie smile.

I haven't replied, to be exact, I was a little confused by the two words in Kan Tao's mouth. What are those two words? Tie the knot.

For the kids who haven't stepped out of the college campus yet, we're really just kids. For the future love life, although marriage is an indispensable topic, but when you feel that it is both far and near, and someone around you suddenly brings up these two words without warning, you will find that you suddenly become very flustered.

On the one hand, he was panicking about the fact that he was getting old, and on the other hand, it seemed that the person who blurted out was none other than Kan Tao. It's not that I can't believe that he wants to get married, of course, I also know in my heart that even if he is not married, that object cannot be me. However, if I think that the time when I hid behind a tree was my farewell to my youth, then that day was a tribute to the past.

I jerked my head up and looked at Kan Tao and his girlfriend as they walked towards the mall gate. The relationship between the two people seems to be very good, they are very close. It was winter at the time, and it was very cold outside, so Kan Tao also wrapped his girlfriend in a scarf at the gate.

I never fantasized that girl was me, but, I don't know why, at that time, my heart was a little sour. Song Zitian followed my eyes and looked at the door: "What, your brother's marriage has stimulated you?" ”

I smiled, and suddenly turned my face to him and said, "I promised you." Then he turned and walked away. It took him a long time behind me to react. And when he reacted, he was like a three-year-old child, jumping around the mall. Looking at the way he looked, I suddenly felt funny. It's just that it's not him who laughs at me, it's that laughs at myself.

I laughed at myself, the boy in front of me had been chasing me for so long, and the moment I promised him, it was actually a few minutes after Kan Tao told me that he was going to get married. Is this another way of admitting that I'm waiting for him? Well, not exactly, it was me who was waiting for him to give me a correct, and complete, serious, negative answer.

The Cao family in the winter of that year was happy. I later looked for the reason, which is fundamental and direct, but Cao Cancan and I have grown up. However, she really grew up, and I really changed my mask. Cao Ge's children are already as old as Cao Chen back then. I bought him a lot of toys that he liked, and he was so happy that he kept running after me.

At Chinese New Year's Eve dinner, Cao Cancan suddenly asked me: "Are you in love?" ”

"Huh?" I was stunned. Before he could answer, Cao Ge first turned his head and asked anxiously, "Who?" Where are the people? ”

I didn't answer, but asked Cao Cancan: "Who said that?" ”

"Kan Tao! He said he saw you and your boyfriend the other day. I lowered my head and whispered, "Hmm." After finishing speaking, after using chopsticks to pestle the bowl twice, he suddenly looked up at Cao Cancan and said, "Kan Tao said that he will get married after graduation next year." ”

Cao Cancan was eating a piece of pork ribs at the time, and nodded: "Mmmm, he said it, I already knew." ”

Her performance was a bit of a surprise to me. I was very amused at that time, and I hoped that someone would be as sad as me, and I hoped that Kan Tao was just an object of memory in my own heart. It's just that Cao Cancan's so-called spiritual pillar, she really did it.

"His girlfriend, I still know him. People are okay, that is, a bit hypocritical! After Cao Cancan finished speaking, Cao Ge snorted and laughed: "Hypocrisy? Did you have hypocrisy when you were an adolescent? ”

"Sister-in-law! Whose youth is not rebellious! Really, say me again! Cao Cancan pretended to be angry.

"Mmmm, don't say it, don't say it, we're all so old, big girl!"

Yes, it's all big. Even the sycamore tree outside my second-floor window, the branches, are a little thicker than before. I took out the necklace my mother had left that night and looked at it for a long time. The Spring Festival of that year, for me, was a little melancholy. The melancholy thing is that Kan Tao, Shen Yue, and Jiang Shanshan are all piled together, which makes my heart a little blocked.

I found that I had become as if I had not been pampered, but in fact, my inner capacity was decreasing. I am more and more afraid of seeing the ugliness of this world, and I am even more afraid of seeing disappointment.

In the first month of that year, Uncle Zhao suddenly passed away due to a heart attack. Uncle Zhao's death is more like the loss of an old friend to me, the kind of injury buried in my heart because of heartache, has been accumulating, accumulating. Then, one morning after the year, I suddenly realized that the number of people left in the years of my youth was slowly decreasing.

Just like Kan Tao said, the people who watched me grow up, I watched them leave one by one. They didn't wave to me when they came, and they never gave me a chance to say goodbye when they left. In their lives, there is a flash of me, but they are condensed in my book "Mediocrity is Well", always alive, always with a beating heart, time and all are good, eternity, is the only long tune.

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