Section 243 The Fault of Wanting to Refuse and Welcome
The moment I saw Li Kai in the unit, my heart suddenly sank. Yes, yes, although I have always tried to convince myself, I also know that in the adult world, there is not only freshness, but also another state related to feelings, that is, stalking and entanglement.
Therefore, in addition to the surprise and surprise, Li Kai's arrival also made me vaguely smell an ominous premonition.
After seeing him, he greeted him as usual, and in the face of my surprise, he was very calm. Also, as the leader of the event, everything is under his control, and he has no need to explain it. He generously told his colleagues that the two of us were classmates, and I just smiled faintly at this. As a "beauty" like me, Li Kai is my classmate's business, which makes my colleagues joke.
"That's good, boy, and the big beauty are actually classmates? Classmates are not shallow! You can't be following the goddess's ass, are you?! "Jokes are jokes, and people's jokes are also a little. After all, he is a science and engineering man. It's really not right to come to an advertising company to do sales. However, Li Kai's explanation is very reasonable, he said that he was a little timid, so he wanted to do sales exercise first. And, every time, he said that he had a girlfriend and that he and I were in the same dormitory.
As for the fact that Li Kai came to my unit, Liu Zhen also knew. It's just that the stupid Liu Zhen didn't think much about it.
Later, I chatted with Liu Zhen, and I asked her: "Even if it weren't for me, Li Kai, you haven't found any clues?" ”
"Hey, I just started work at that time, and you know, I'm already timid and scared, and I'm worried all day long. When you are anxious, how can you care about him? Besides, Li Kai himself is lukewarm to me, and after each other goes to work, there are few phone calls. Do you know Mu Xi, when he told me that he was in a unit with you, I was quite happy, thinking, with you, I have the bottom in my heart. ”
I smiled, "You have such a big heart. ”
"Wrong, it's not that I have a big heart, but now I look at it, I don't have a heart at all! But, seriously, I really didn't expect that his ambition would be so big. Because Li Kai is also a child from the countryside, the living expenses from the freshman to the junior year are only more than 1,000 per month, and the conditions in the family are similar to me. Li Kai's play is very good, he has been using me as a springboard, just to get close to you. It is possible that for others, the gap between rich and poor and vision may be really unimaginable. You say, he shouldn't have the idea to be a son-in-law, right? When Liu Zhen said this, she always looked very relaxed. It felt like he was talking about someone else's business, and it had nothing to do with him.
And during that conversation, Liu Zhen and Li Kai couldn't help but break up, and Liu Zhen also lost her ability to have children because of Li Kai.
Her understatement did nothing but make my self-reproach worse.
I asked Liu Zhen, "Does people's ambition have anything to do with money?" ”
She said that when she was before, she didn't think that money could be much of a motivator or be able to do anything. But later, especially from Li Kai, she discovered that money can make a lot of nothing, into something, and a lot of impossible, into possible. This is a sad reality in society. Liu Zhen said that she had no idea to dissect Li Kai until she found out that everything about this man was not what she saw on the surface.
Sometimes, if you want to explore something, you need to climb up the pole to be able to feel it, otherwise it will be flies flying around, and the road will run to the dark. And to explore Li Kai, money is his best clue. This is also the reason why Li Kai later went to prison.
In the first half of the month, Li Kai and I felt that the distance between me was just right, just like ordinary colleagues, there were no radical words and actions. However, the good times did not last long, and soon, Li Kai began to show his fox tail.
As a salesman, we often have to go out and run business. Therefore, Li Kai began to ask to have a meal with me alone while we were out to talk about business. Even though I refused a few times, I ended up eating it twice. Slowly, Li Kai began to intensify, from eating to shopping, watching movies, and even buying clothes to ask me instead of Liu Zhen.
I started to show a strong disgust at what this person was doing, I messaged him and told him that he had a girlfriend, it was Liu Zhen, and we were just colleagues. And watching movies and going shopping, which can further develop the relationship between two people and interact with each other, is what couples should do, not colleagues. My words were a little intense, but at that moment, I didn't care about so much at all, and I poured out my thoughts that he was approaching me through Liu Zhen.
It's just a pity that I underestimated him. The man's reply to me left me speechless. At the same time that I reprimanded him for not wanting to drink like a drunkard, I was also returned by Li Kai. He asked me, if you knew it from the beginning, why didn't you say no? If you don't refuse, it proves that you want to have the next step. In that case, why do you accuse me?
In fact, what Li Kai said was not wrong, so after he sent that message, I didn't reply. It's because I don't really know what to say. Sometimes, the desire to refuse and welcome is a very annoying thing, it will give people a hint called ambiguity, and ambiguity itself is a great negation of a person's feelings and life, including human nature. I know that it was my vague attitude that gave him some illusions, so it is indeed my responsibility to do so now. He's right, and I'm not in a position to accuse him.
In fact, when I analyzed the problem of this relationship later, Liu Zhen accounted for a very important part in this ending. I didn't say it, I didn't refuse, not because I wanted to be with Li Kai, but because I didn't dare to face Liu Zhen and talk about my concealment and harm to her.
After the text message incident, Li Kai really kept a certain distance from me, but this suddenly cold relationship, in the eyes of colleagues, began to make articles again. And, during that time, Li Kai actually broke up with Liu Zhen on the grounds that it was inappropriate. Liu Zhen called me crying, and I heard her on the other end of the phone talking about her pain. I actually wanted to interrupt him and tell her that Li Kai was a scumbag, and it was really unnecessary. Think about it, or forget it.
I thought that Liu Zhen would be fine if she cried. As a result, one day, Liu Zhen came to the unit.
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