During the period when his father was hospitalized, Cao Cancan would occasionally go over to help get a wash of water and a towel. It can be seen that after Zhang Jing left, it seems that her relationship with her father has become closer.

Originally, I thought that the Cao family would just be so quiet, if it weren't for the diary incident, maybe Cao Cancan and his father would be as close as other fathers and daughters.

That time, it was because the school required junior high school students to copy the calligraphy in order to cope with the high school entrance examination. Cao Cancan rummaged through her cabinet and didn't find the copy, and then she suddenly remembered that it might have been placed in the bookcase in her father's bedroom by Aunt Qin. I bought this copy post very early, but she has been lazy and useless, Aunt Qin also nagged her many times at the time, and later saw that she really didn't want to write, so I took it and put it in the bookcase in my house.

When Cao Cancan went to find the copy that day, he was just about to leave, when he suddenly found that a book had fallen behind the cabinet and exposed a corner. When she took it out, she found Aunt Qin's diary hidden behind the bookcase. It is not difficult to see from the vicissitudes of this book that it should have been a long time ago. She quietly took it back to her room, wanting to see the little secrets locked in her mother's time, and walk through her mother's mental journey.

The time recorded in that book was about before Aunt Qin and her father met to Cao Cancan's birth, and then there was no more.

It is not difficult to see in the diary that although the recorded time is not long, it also briefly summarizes Aunt Qin'er's tragic love.

Aunt Qin's longing for love and her expectation of marriage before she met her father, to the joy and excitement of knowing her father, her love and love for her father, and then to the past when she encouraged herself to replace her father, and asked herself to give her father time, not to make noise, not to make trouble, to the self-deception of telling her father that he would be down-to-earth when he got married, to lamenting that the real marital state after marriage was very different from what he thought, to his father's indifference, coldness, and often not returning home at night, and carrying Cao Qi behind his back but being ambiguous with Zhang Jing in front of him. Grandma's ignorance and connivance, to one time my father drank too much, and beat her because Aunt Qin mentioned Zhang Jing, to find out that she was pregnant and struggled with whether to have this child, and when she gave birth, she was so painful that she died for more than ten hours, and her father was nowhere to be seen, and he went to the hospital after giving birth, and went home to sleep before going to the hospital. Then, there is no then.

What I wrote was actually a general summary, and besides, there was no blood relationship between me and Aunt Qin. Even I feel very sad, it is not difficult to imagine how sad Cao Cancan should be when she carefully reads her mother's emotional journey word by word, and then thinks of the suicide later!

Every word, every punctuation mark, has the light breeze of that year and month, and it is also written into that handwriting. Cao Cancan rubbed the occasional few pages of the diary, which had dried up and were slightly wrinkled, which should have been his mother's tears and blood flowing from her heart when she wrote about her dreams. The more Cao Cancan thought about it, the more she felt that her father was too much, so she couldn't even wait for her father's discharge, and went to the hospital angrily the day before he was discharged. I had just left my mother's house and went upstairs that day.

When I went out to fetch water, I happened to meet Cao Cancan, who came in, and I was just about to say hello to her, when I noticed something unusual.

"Are you well?" Cao Cancan's question didn't even have a subject. I saw my father looking at her blankly: "Well, I will be discharged from the hospital tomorrow." ”

"Don't, I'll give you another number, anyway, it's already in this hospital, let's treat it, treat it well." Cao Ge was peeling pears at the time, and she looked up at Cao Cancan: "Our little princess, your temper is not very good today, come, tell my sister-in-law, who bullied you, sister-in-law will avenge you." ”

As soon as Cao Ge's words fell, Cao Cancan pointed his finger at his father in a hoarse voice, and instantly exploded: "He! That's him! I'm going to give him a number, a ruthless and unrighteous number, a number that killed my mother, and let the doctor take a good look at it, why in this world, the bad guys are alive, but the good guys are gone! Mother Wu hurriedly grabbed Cao Cancan: "Cancan, calm down, this, what's wrong?" ”

Wu's mother looked back at me as she spoke, and I was stunned as I carried the kettle.

"Cancan, listen to your aunt." Cao Ge put down the knife as he spoke, bypassed the hospital bed and walked towards Cao Cancan.

"I don't listen, there's nothing to say. I now understand thoroughly and thoroughly, it turns out that my mother was wronged and chose to commit suicide, just like you and my Uncle Xue Hao said, it was not Cao Muxi and her mother who harmed it at all, even if there was no Cao Muxi, there might be a Cao Xiaohua, Cao Xiaocao's, it was him! That's him! It's the guy lying on the bed, he's my dad, my dad, he's forcing my mom to death! After Cao Cancan finished speaking, he squatted on the ground and cried uncontrollably.

In this case, there is basically no need for persuasion. A bunch of patients and their families gathered at the door, pointing and pointing, it happened that Xue Hao and Cui Yu came over, originally wanting to help them pull something back by the way today, but they didn't expect to run into a positive touch.

I leaned against the white wall behind me, I looked at my father lying on the hospital bed, he stared blankly at Cao Cancan, who was squatting on the ground and crying, and after a long time, when he turned his face to look out the window, I noticed that his eyes were red.

A room full of people flocked in place, silently feeling this sleepless ethical feeling.

When Cao Cancan stopped crying that day, I can't remember. In short, later, she was taken home by Xue Hao and Cao Ge. After returning home, Cao Cancan locked himself in the house, just like the days when Aunt Qin died, and it was played out again.

Xue Hao lit a cigarette in the hall and took a puff: "Don't owe anything to it, because you can't pay it back." Cao Ge didn't speak, he thought about it, and whatever he said, it was all empty.

My father came out of the hospital, but his state at home, except that he didn't give injections and didn't wear a hospital gown, was almost sick. During that time, he and Cao Cancan were basically one person in one room and hardly came out. It made Wu's mother sigh every time she went upstairs to serve food.

"Sometimes I think that the old lady always ate fasting and recited the Buddha during her lifetime, why didn't this Buddha bless and bless our Cao family to be more peaceful?" Wu Ma said.

"If people don't save themselves, it's hard for heaven to bless, and compassion doesn't cross themselves. Mother Wu, they all say that this creation makes people, and what is this creation? Three points of destiny, seven points of personnel. Cao Ge returned lightly.

After a few days, Cao Cancan came out of the house and returned to his previous vitality. It's just that not only did she no longer have any words with her father, but she even skipped her gaze. At that time, she was very much like me for a while, yes, I and my mother were also like that, flesh and blood, but the heart was separated by a piece of heaven.

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