During that time, although Cao Cancan returned to his previous state, in my eyes, it was only superficial. Because I found that she spent more and more time alone, both at school and at home. Even between him and Cao Ge, he became a little estranged. Cao Ge also saw Cao Cancan's changes, she often tried hard to get into the child's heart, but unfortunately, Cao Cancan was in adolescence at that time, and in the absence of external stimulation, the child's body and mind at this stage would undergo great changes, becoming rebellious and isolated, not to mention that there were family changes, so Cao Cancan closed her heart very strictly.

Cao Cancan and I still go to and from school together, but we rarely talk to each other. She will often look out the window when she is in the car, look at the wind, frost, rain and snow outside the window, look at the picturesque life outside the window, just like me before, always like to find security from everything strangers. Sometimes she pursed her lips and sometimes smiled unconsciously, I guess it was probably because she saw someone or something that she felt could touch her heart, and it made waves in her heart.

I tried to talk to her a few times, but when the words came to my lips, I swallowed them back. Uncle Zhao looked at me with a helpless expression. Yes, I know what Uncle Zhao is helpless about, just like Uncle Zhao said, Cao Cancan is not better than me, this child has been weaker in heart since she was a child, but the family gave her a strong shell. This kind of superficially strong person will be particularly vulnerable once she has experienced some setbacks, and even if she heals, the wounds in her heart seem to be more difficult to heal than others.

The school was quiet during that time. It may be that, as I said before, the climate that formed has dissipated over time. It's like a typhoon passing through, although there is still a little bit of a remnant, but the momentum is not as strong as before.

Once, Kan Tao told me that when a senior student mentioned my family again, he casually told me how I was. As a result, Cao Cancan unexpectedly refuted on the spot, she said, don't mention this matter in the future, and don't talk about Cao Muxi in school anymore. Although I didn't say much in these words, just two sentences, I was still very grateful to her, and let me go, and I also let her go.

Later, Cao Cancan told me that after she read Aunt Qin's diary, when someone mentioned me again, she would think that we were both quite pitiful. I replied, "Sympathy? She smiled, "Pretty much." She said that there was even a time when she heard someone say me again, and it felt like she was talking about herself, so she was disgusted.

That's right, sympathy.

The father of the family is still depressed. This betrayal was also a devastating disaster in his life. Cao Ge sometimes has to take care of her father and Cao Cancan, and she has to go to the hospital to take care of her mother, she is very tired and haggard. Cui Yu often comes to accompany her, and it can be seen that she doesn't seem to be as disgusted with Cui Yu as she was before.

Lu Zhe drove to pick up Cao Cancan twice and went to his grandfather's house. Once, when he was waiting for Cao Cancan to go downstairs in the hall on the first floor, he accidentally bumped into his father. At that time, my father was not at all like the big belly that I saw for the first time when I first entered Cao's house a few years ago, and I don't know if it was because I experienced too much fire, or because I was hospitalized a few days ago.

Last time, Lu Zhe was still at home shouting that he would not let go of the Cao family, but that day, when he looked up and saw his father coming down the stairs, both of them froze. Cao Ge was so frightened that he hurriedly stood up: "My brother, just came out of the hospital." Lu Zhe glanced sideways and nodded. Cao Ge was especially afraid that Lu Zhe would rush forward and beat his father violently because of Aunt Qin, but to his surprise, Lu Zhe didn't make a move.

After being stunned for a moment, my father walked down a few steps. He said, "Come on, if you're going to hit me, I'm not going to fight back." "My father's voice was weak, very different from the stubborn, rude, arrogant and extreme father who didn't see anyone all day long.

Lu Zhe smiled slightly: "Don't fight." Seeing you like this, if I beat you again and spread the word, it will become me bullying you. ”

The father lowered his head and smiled bitterly, and nodded very helplessly: "Yes, yes, it's all like this, it's already like this." ”

Among their feelings, they can only be summed up in one sentence, things are people, and time has changed.

And what about the mother? My mother has not been in the hospital since the last time she was admitted to the hospital with my father. At that time, everyone just thought that my mother was just staying for a while, but as a result, this day gradually became a time, and there were no days to calculate.

I still remember that time when she was hospitalized, she was as stubborn as before, and she had to remove the needle and slip away. I don't know, my mother rejected the hospital so much, was she afraid that Cao Ge would spend too much money, or did she know that she couldn't get out if she was in?

Soon, the mother's body began to ache. It seems that the pain caused by cancer is the kind of pain that is bone-blowing, in short, it is not easy to say. Gradually, ordinary painkillers can no longer have a certain effect, so Cao Ge asked people to get a lot of special medicines, which are specially used for pain relief in the later stages of cancer. The side effects of the medicine tossed my mother out of shape.

In this way, it lasted for two or three months, and the painkillers did not work. The mother soon lost weight due to the torture of illness, and this emaciation should actually be put in quotation marks, to be exact, it should be called withered. At that time, the feeling was that you only had to go to the hospital to see her for two days, and then you opened the door and you saw that she had changed.

It was a difficult time for my mother, and she sometimes turned her head to my side as best she could, when in fact, I was deliberately sitting out of her sight. My mother didn't have the strength to speak, but her eyes were always beating when she looked at me. I felt as if my mother had something to say to me, but she couldn't. Later, I guessed that if my mother could speak, she might say, "Mu Xi, are you here?" Don't delay your studies, mom is fine. "Something like that.

During that period, I once had a fever because of a cold, so I couldn't take care of my mother with Cao Ge. As a result, to my great surprise, Cao Cancan actually went to help me take care of my mother for two days. In fact, when it comes to taking care, my mother ate very little at that time, almost half in a coma, and occasionally fed some water when she was awake, watched taking some medicine, and taking injections and the like. Still, I was very impressed.

When I was almost sick, I pushed open the door of the ward and found Cao Cancan wiping my mother's hands with a wet towel, and she looked back at me: "Are you well?" ”

"Well, you, why are you here?"

"It's okay to be idle, and there is no one at home, so I came to see Auntie." This seems to be the first time she called my mother and aunt after the East Window incident, and she has called me several times before. Later, she said that Aunt Qin was not early, and God would not give her a chance to fulfill her filial piety, so she went to see my mother, which was considered to give herself a chance to fulfill her filial piety.

Complications soon developed from the mother's illness, and metastases appeared. Cao Ge and Xue Hao discussed transferring their mother to a hospital, but as a result, they took the report and went to several good hospitals, and the doctors shook their heads, there was no need. The mother soon fell into a severe coma, waking less and less.

I told myself in my heart to be mentally prepared and mentally prepared.

The mother was in a severe coma in the middle and late stages, and one day, the father suddenly died. On that day, everyone was there, including Xue Hao, Cui Yu, Wu Ma, and Cao Cancan. The moment my father pushed the door in, everyone stood up. Perhaps, the mother has been waiting for this moment for more than ten years.

At that time, my mother needed to open her mouth to breathe even though she was plugged into an oxygen tank, and she barely drank water. The doctor warns that this is not a good sign, but perhaps, it will last a while. After my father entered the house, for a moment, my mother's head shook and her eyes opened. Perhaps, it was her soul that woke up the sleeping body and told her, look, Cao Mu is here. When the mother turned her head to her father's side, she looked around and finally stopped at his father's face.

I don't know, can my father still recognize it at this time, the one lying on the bed is Rong Jiao'er, who sang Kunqu Opera in the Meilin Theater more than ten years ago?

I don't know if my father can still be recognized by my mother at this time, and the man in front of me is the man who buried her life?

The mother stared at the father like that, two people, between the four pupils, how many heart-wrenching tears, wrong love, sleepless nights, and cold wind of life and death were hidden!

Cao Ge suddenly patted me on the shoulder, and also patted Cao Cancan, so the room full of people left with interest. What my father and mother said, I don't know.

It's just that on the night my father came, my mother didn't even get painkillers and slept peacefully.

Cao Ge told me that your father's arrival can be regarded as a wish of your mother.

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