Chapter 18 I want to see you

Everyone is like the wind, and sometimes they can't help but drift around. And when the wind is touching each other, you will find that change and immutability are only based on the heart. Because you are who you are, unique and yet incomparably familiar.

After returning to Jiangli that night, I walked aimlessly on the side of the road by myself, and at this moment I realized my insignificance in the face of loneliness. Thinking about his actions in that game, I found that people are really complicated. What I desperately wanted was distracted by a thought at the time. As I walked aimlessly, I found that the world had suddenly become so big that I was so lonely that I had nowhere to find a place to be. Suddenly I felt so small, so small that I had nowhere to hide. I was tired from walking, and I covered my arms a little cold, but I didn't know if it was cold or cold.

Squatting in front of the convenience store, I seemed to be able to barely find me through the darkness with the help of the lights in the store. The despondent pathfinder still didn't find a home after all.

I covered my head, scratched my head vigorously, and thought to myself: What should be faced must be faced after all. Just when I was a little devastated, I suddenly remembered a person in my mind, like the last shelter of the city, who had found a home.

I quickly stood up, reached for a taxi on the side of the road, gave the address, leaned back in my seat, and let go. The driver saw me like this, and he didn't talk to me as he pleased. Just when I wanted to filter out my thoughts, the radio station in the car remembered, this song is familiar to me, called forgiveness.

It turned out to be a song about the love story between lovers, but it also happened to me. The lyrics that let me hide alone are so apt. It was only here that I realized that the meaning that the song does not represent is the meaning you should be looking for.

Soon, the song passed, I closed my eyes and was still thinking about the lyrics of the song, but in my mind, a love entanglement stopped with the driver's hard brakes.

I paid, thanked me, and got out of the car. When I stood at the bottom of this big ship that had been there and looked up, I saw that it was so big, and it was clear at this moment that I had not usually noticed.

I shook my head, tried to shake my bad thoughts out, tried to smile, and boarded the big ship. I got on the boat with the memory of that night, and when I arrived at the ship's board, I used to look at the seat that night, and found that there was also a group of people sitting tonight, and I couldn't help laughing at myself, where I revealed my heart to Jiang Li for the first time, and now I looked at the boy who was sitting in my original position, and found that everything was so similar. I could even see the boy sitting in the place where I had sat that night, his eyes full of the girl opposite's every move. I even thought about going over to the boy and saying what you wanted to say out loud, because if you don't, it won't work out. I thought a lot, but the person was still standing still, not moving.

After a while, the waiter on the side called me politely, and I came back to my senses. Turning his head to look embarrassed and apologetic, he looked around and realized that it was hot tonight, and just when I didn't find a separate location, Daiki came out of the inner room and saw me.

As soon as I saw Dahui here, I said to the waiter, "Look, I'm here to find Brother Dahui, why don't you go and get busy first." The waiter smiled politely and walked away. I pretended to be relaxed and walked up to Dahui, and said with a smile, "Brother Hui, good evening." Daiki looked at me in some surprise and looked around again before answering me.

"Why are you alone tonight? The army is coming? I pretended to be relaxed and replied, "That one is going home tonight, and I am bored in the dormitory, just like coming to you for a few drinks to relieve my fatigue." Why is Brother Hui not welcome! Dahui didn't think much about it, so he smiled and shouted to me, "You kid, don't think about going back tonight, pour me here." With that, he came over and pushed me into his room.

As soon as I entered the house, I saw that the floor was littered with discarded bottles and cigarette butts, which were a bit overwhelming. Dahui was also a little embarrassed when he saw it, and Shanshan said: "Look, you don't come to talk to me in advance, don't you clean it up, you forgive me, come and sit down, you're welcome, just treat it as your own home, I'll go get some food and come back soon." After saying that, he went out in a hurry. I shook my head helplessly, smiled and sat down.

Not long after, while I was still thinking, Daiki walked in, and I saw that he didn't hold anything in his hands, and just as I was questioning, the waiter behind me came in with a small cart. Before I could speak, I swung up with great power. Only then did I have a chance to speak: "It's not Brother Hui, I can't eat so much, I just want to come and chat with you, I really can't eat." Daiki ignored my words, helped the waiter put everything on the table, and sent him out. As soon as I came back, I reached out and opened a beer and handed it to me, and I couldn't refuse it, so I took it. Dahui also opened a bottle for himself, grabbed some peanuts and stuffed them into his mouth, and said to me: "If you can't eat anything, if you can't eat it, I'll heat it up tomorrow and continue to eat it, it won't be wasted." It's been so long since you remembered to look for me, I don't want to make good arrangements for you to forget me. He laughed out loud.

I looked at the hearty Dahui, and the bitterness in my heart also dissipated a little. I jokingly said, "No, don't you see that I'm watching Brother Hui busy, or I would have come a long time ago." Daiki also laughed, lifted the bottle and touched it, I picked up the bottle and touched it, and drank it.

To be honest, the first time I drank it, I thought it tasted weird, and I often heard people say that beer is like a horse's one, and after swallowing it, it is only bitter. After seeing me drink, Dahui said, "It's been a long time since anyone has come to drink with me, and it just so happens that you are here today, so you don't have to think about going back." I nodded and hurriedly ate two bites.

I could clearly feel the heat on my face, and Daiki looked at my face and blushed, so he joked, "No, it's not good to take one bite." Of course, I couldn't admit it, so I took the initiative to pick up the bottle and gesture to clink glasses, and Daiki also took advantage of the situation and began to drink.

That night, I didn't know how much I drank, but I just poured this medicine that claimed to be able to relieve a thousand sorrows into my mouth, but at this moment, the bitterness and helplessness in my mouth were also locked in my body.

When I woke up, it was already the next day. A sharp pain came from my brain, a tingling sensation, like a needle stabbing me all the time. I shook my head vigorously and sat on the bed for a while before I gradually got better.

As soon as I felt a little awake, the door to the room suddenly opened. I braved the glare of the sunlight to stare at the man at the door, and it took me a moment to realize that it was Daiki.

Daiki ignored all of this and walked straight in. He took a bottle of water from the table and threw it to me, and shouted as he cleaned it up, "Okay, let's get up, look at what time the watch on the wall is." I listened to this and looked at it and found that it was already past 10 o'clock in the morning. I smiled and touched my head and said to Daiki, "Ah, I didn't bother you last night. Unexpectedly, Dahui became even more anxious when he heard this, and walked to my bedside, pointed to my nose and said: "Yes, you didn't cause me trouble, look at Lao Tzu's dark circles, and I don't know if I was provoked to take care of that grandson, God, what kind of sin have I created." ”

I touched my head and smiled, and after taking a sip of water, I rolled over and got out of bed, ignoring Dahui, who was chattering. After getting up and getting dressed, I walked out of the room, stood on the deck and stretched, looking at the clear blue sky, and my mood couldn't help but improve.

I was also relieved by last night's drink, and I leaned on the deck of the ship and watched the sea beneath my feet gradually lose my mind. The sea danced slowly with the wind, as if happy children were playing together, and I watched the waves hit layer by layer, as if they were gradually erasing the bad memories in my mind, and I just stood there, forgetting the time.

At that moment, as if I remembered something, I took out my mobile phone from my pocket, turned it on and looked at the text messages one by one, stunned. It was at this moment that I realized my selfishness, and it was only because of my bad decisions that others were worried about me. At this moment I lowered my head again, and the hand holding the phone kept shaking.

I looked at the text messages sent to me by Jiang Li, my heart was a little foggy, I kept reading word by word, at this time I finally couldn't help it, dialed Jiang Li's mobile phone, gently put it to my ear, and didn't wait for a few beeps, the phone was connected.

"I want to see you so much!" I held my phone and said lightly.

The sea breeze blows the sea, and the surging of the blue waves also represents my heart, if it really comes to the moment when time stops, I hope to hug you, lie in your ear and whisper to you: I miss you so much.