Chapter 19: Answers
The wind blew in my hair and into my heart. After I said that sentence to Jiang Li, the world seemed to be still, and Jing was a little scared. Before calling, I thought a lot of Jiang Li's reactions, maybe she would ask me anxiously, maybe she would be sad and bitter, maybe she would scold angrily...... But I never thought that Jiang Li would be so calm, so calm that it was as if nothing had happened.
At that time, my heart began to be a little anxious, thinking about what Jiang Li would say to me, and at this moment, she spoke.
"Li Ran, let's meet the two of us, there are some things we should talk about." At this moment, my heart beat slowly, no one is stupid, especially when this feeling happens quietly, the touch is impressive.
I was also very calm at that time, and when I thought back later, I realized that maybe that was the first time I felt like I was standing in the same position with Jiang Li, and it was a kind of shortcomings that I didn't need to cover up with fatigue, and even a little humble existence beside her. That feeling of relief made me feel like the big stone that was pressing on my heart had finally been removed. After I asked Jiang Li where he was, I hung up the phone, and after I settled down, I stopped a car on the side of the road and went there.
In the car, I didn't talk to the driver as usual, not because I didn't want to, but somehow, my heart was very quiet at that time, so quiet that it was like a frozen lake, how could a small pebble make waves.
Seeing the situation, the driver didn't say anything more, turned on the music in the car casually, and started himself. At that time, I also began to think of what I should have said after seeing Jiang Li, but before I could finish thinking about it, I had already arrived.
I paid and said thank you and got out of the car. At this time, I found out that the place where Jiang Li asked me to come was a bubble tea shop, which looked small but had some mood and artistic conception from the outside.
Before I could take a full closer look at the shop, a breeze blew through and the familiar scent slowly blew through my body, and I knew she had arrived.
Sure enough, Jiang Li was standing behind me, she was wearing a floral dress that day, a pair of white sneakers on her feet, and only a little light makeup on her face. I said hello to Jiang Li, and then motioned to go in to chat, Jiang Li nodded and began to walk inside. Looking at Jiang Li, who was a little cold, I didn't have the heart to think about other things, just followed Jiang Li's steps step by step, as if I couldn't see the end of Ruth.
After entering the store, the two of us found a place to sit by the window, and when we saw that Jiang Li was a regular customer here, we began to look out of the glass with empty eyes after sitting down, but I began to look at it. There is no one in the store yet, and it may not be up yet, so it looks a little empty. The interior of the store is well decorated, making full use of every inch of space, and in my opinion, making this bubble tea shop a bit like a café, the same is that it will make people feel comfortable.
Just as I was still looking, the owner of this shop walked over to the two of us, and said hello to Jiang Li, Jiang Li ordered two cups of milk tea, and when the boss looked at me, I nodded to him, signaling that this would be fine, and then the boss went to prepare.
In the process, Jiang Li and I still didn't have a conversation, she looked out the window, and I stared at my shoes, as if the world had nothing to do with the two of us. After a while, the milk tea came up, and I pretended to be calm and took a sip, thinking about how to break the deadlock. Before the milk tea slipped from my mouth into my stomach, Jiang Li took the lead in speaking.
"Li Ran, I don't like people to lie to me, I really don't like it." Jiang Li's words confused me all at once, and my brain was spinning rapidly at that moment, but I still didn't find that trace.
I shook my head and said casually: "Jiang Li, did you misunderstand something, how could I lie to you." After Jiang Li heard my words, I could clearly see the disappointment emerging from her face, and at that moment she did not continue to ask me, but kept looking at me, looking at me intently.
This time it confused me again, but I thought about it but still didn't realize that I deceived Jiang Li there, but when I saw Jiang Li's eyes staring at me, I was silent, and I didn't continue to explain, but avoided looking at Jiang Li, staring at the milk tea cup in my hand.
There was another moment of silence, and in the process, I drank the milk tea in my cup one by one, trying to stall for time to make me think. But it backfired, and I put down the cup of milk tea in my hand, which had already bottomed out, as if the two warring sides had lost the reason for a truce.
Jiang Li looked at me and put down the milk tea cup, as if waiting for this moment, and said to me again: "Li Ran, I think we need to separate, now you are no longer the you I saw at the beginning, I don't know if you have changed or I have changed, but I am already a little disappointed." After saying this, Jiang Li walked out of the bubble tea shop.
I looked back and watched Jiang Li get farther and farther away from me, strangely, in the process, I don't know why I didn't stay, but quietly watched Jiang Li's figure slowly disappear from my eyes, at that time I wondered what the answer was, what made Jiang Li so disappointed, or, I did something to Jiang Li without my knowledge, all of this frantically hit my brain at that moment, but at that moment I still clearly knew that I was out of love.
I took the cup of milk tea on the table and drank it, at that moment I was like a flower irradiated by the sun, and I urgently needed a heavy rain to wash it away.
I slowed down for a long time before the feeling of regret came to my mind, why I didn't pull her back at the moment Jiang Li left, why I couldn't give her a hug when I felt Jiang Li's disappointment, why I couldn't be the first to understand what happened to Jiang Li. Of course, it's too late to say anything, and in this moment, I lost her.
I got up and went to the front desk to pay the bill disappointed, and when I left the door, I found that it was already dark, and I walked helplessly on the side of the road alone, walking aimlessly, at that time, I just wanted to walk quietly and not everything.
The road gradually became lively due to the arrival of night, and the hot weather during the day also turned into cool, I looked at the cars and pedestrians on the street, and the feeling of loneliness quietly emerged, which made me even more sad that this dream of Jiang Li was finally over.
I held my phone and looked at the familiar number, but I didn't have the courage to dial, I don't know why, at that moment all my courage was like being sealed, even if I mustered all my strength, I couldn't press the key, because I knew that I didn't dare to call.
What I was afraid of was that Jiang Li rejected me again, so that I never had a chance to explain, what I thought at that time was to let this hope remain in my heart and support me towards the dream in my heart.
The streets are full of people, and they seem to be bustling, but in my heart, they are as cold and silent as a cold winter night.
As I walked, I found a barbecue restaurant on the side of the road, and most of the people at the outdoor table were shirtless, bumping around with friends with cups of draft beer in their hands. I made my way through the crowd and found a place to sit down.
The waiter didn't seem to have time to take care of me, so he just threw me a menu at random, and hurried away, I couldn't help but smile when I saw it, and began to order the food without saying much.
When the waiter hurried past me, I took the opportunity to stuff the already written menu into his hand, but he ignored me, took the menu I gave him and hurried past, and then there was an endless wait.
When I was bored, I took out my mobile phone and looked at it, looking at the text messages they sent me, I couldn't help but feel a trace of warmth in my heart. The original feeling of guilt in the basketball game has gradually disappeared, perhaps, my beloved has left me, that feeling has already eliminated the guilt, at this moment, I just want to find a few people to drink with me, chat.
I pretended to be calm and dialed Zhao Jianjun's phone, and under the sound of the phone, my heart was constantly trembling.
The phone rang in a few clicks, and I listened to the anxious inquiries on the other side, and didn't say much, just told them where I was, and they didn't say much, telling me that I would be there in a while, and hung up the phone.
After the phone stopped, I looked at the phone and couldn't help but be stunned, listening to the familiar voice on the other end of the phone, my heart finally let go at that moment, it turned out that they had been there all along.