That's right, the person who gave me flowers, but in the end stumbled into them by mistake, was Li Kai. He was Liu Zhen's first love. Liu Zhen told me that Li Kai was downstairs in the dormitory at that time, and when she grabbed her, she was stupid. It was the first time she had been up close to a man. She felt like her heart was bumping around like a fawn.

And I never told Liu Zhen that Li Kai chose to be with her, in fact, in order to be able to get close to me.

At that time, I was Song Zitian on one side and Kan Tao on the other, and I felt haggard in my heart. While taking care of myself, I could only throw this false lie to the kind-hearted Liu Zhen and tell her: "Well, that's right, Li Kai loves you very much." ”

At that stage, Liu Zhen was in a state of excitement every day. Although that Li Kai didn't put too much thought into his girlfriend like the boys I have seen, this Liu Zhen is still immersed in her own "love" and can't extricate herself.

Sometimes, when Li Kai buys something for Liu Zhen, he will bring me a copy. And the one that brought me was obviously better than Liu Zhen's, but the stupid Liu Zhen never knew it, and even hid in the quilt and laughed for a long time with the cheap goods from the stall she received. And the reason for giving me the gift is that I'm the matchmaker in the middle.

Seriously, I once thought about it in my free time, and I felt very sorry for Liu Zhen. But one of the important reasons why I often comfort myself is that I think men are only fresh for a few days, let alone ordinary people like Liu Zhen. I guess that Li Kai may have naturally split up after talking with Liu Zhen for a while. But who knows, this tug-of-war of love will last quite a long time.

The night is long, and you will definitely dream a lot. This also gave me infinite guilt for Liu Zhen later, creating a time condition.

I can't remember exactly how Song Zitian and I reconciled after that quarrel. However, perhaps out of weakness, after that time, when I talked to him on the phone, I tried my best to show that I was extremely excited. In reality, it's all fake. Every time I hung up, I would sit on the edge of my bed for a long time.

Sometimes I think about it, this love talk is really boring, and I don't stop acting every day without talking, and it's not as warm as it is at all.

I still suffer from insomnia for a long time, and the end result is crankiness. I often think of Kan Tao, the boy who once had a sunny face in my youth. It's just that how much I want to keep that sunny, enthusiastic, and kind boy in the memory of my youth forever? But reality does not allow it. After I met Kan Tao again and again, I found that the perfect him also lost to the world.

My friend once told me that a person's loyalty to love should not be put in human nature, as a standard to measure a person's goodness, evil, beauty and ugliness, he is only a person's preference and performance for external things and people who are attractive to him. However, I personally don't think so. In my opinion, the degree of loyalty to love reflects the most basic worldview of a person's approach to the world. However, if you want me to talk about love without shame, I don't know.

I grew up and stayed in this Cao family for so long, my father, my mother, Aunt Qin and Zhang Jing, and Cao Ge, there are too many examples around me who have broken down in love and failed irreparably. Therefore, I am not full of hope and hope for love. Kan Tao, it's like when I was in school, I took an exam, I tried my best to write an essay, and then when I was not satisfied, I erased it all with an eraser. And when I tried to transcribe it as it was, I suddenly realized that I had written something that I could not remember at all.

A few days later, I sent a text message to Cao Cancan. Roughly speaking, I met Kan Tao, but Kan Tao changed his girlfriend. Cao Cancan replied to me: "Hehe, it's normal for him to change girlfriends?" ”

"Normal?"

"Isn't it normal? People are all curious animals, whether they are men or women, whether they are for people or things, they are all the same. So, don't take this matter too seriously, and don't rise to the level of human nature. After all, Kan Tao, he's not your person. ”

Cao Cancan's last sentence undoubtedly woke me up. She's right, don't take him so seriously, because he's not my anybody. I later concluded that Kan Tao's existence was just the lack of fatherly love from my childhood to adulthood, and I nakedly placed some beauty for men on him. It's like, a certain kind of sustenance I put on Shen Yue? Similarly, Kan Tao is also a substitute for a certain emotion in my heart.

Cao Cancan's words made me a little sober from the chaos. Immediately, I shifted my attention and put some of my mind back to studying. Time flies quickly, and in a blink of an eye, it is time to enter the undergraduate exam. The results of the exam were relatively smooth, I, Liu Zhen, and Shen Yue all passed, but Jiang Shanshan did not.

Of course, her failure is also reasonable.

However, passing the exam did not make me feel better. A few times when I went home, Cao Ge chased me and asked me if I was fighting again. I smile wryly, fight? I'm not really that interested.

Kan Tao's affair seemed to make me depressed and serious for a while. During that time, I couldn't do anything to lift my spirits. I tried hard to deceive myself, and I told myself that all my actions had nothing to do with Kan Tao. However, you can deceive others, and in the end, the truth can't deceive yourself.

I told my friend that that summer, I had secretly tried to find a psychiatrist to see my illness. After thinking about it, forget it. Heart disease also needs heart medicine, to put it bluntly, just like Song Zitian said, others, always others, everyone has their own life, you don't impose some of your ideas on others, and then ask others to be what they think they are.

It's not that I don't understand this truth. It's just that just like when I chose to forgive the entire Cao family and my mother, everything will take time. Yes, that's right, it's just time.

When I was in Cao's house, I once heard Xue Hao say that my father went to the prison not long ago and visited Cao Qi. It seems to have been the first time his father went to see Cao Qi after he had been in prison for so long. I don't know what the two talked about. However, time has passed, and after experiencing the ruthlessness and impermanence of the world, these two men don't know if they can face each other with a relieved and relieved mentality.

When the summer vacation was about to start, my father stuffed me with another bank card. I didn't refuse, and after saying thank you, I closed the door. I guess my father should still give Cao Cancan a copy, which is also to make up for it.

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