Later, when I was chatting with Liu Zhen about my feelings during that time, Liu Zhen said this.

"Mu Xi, you don't know that during that time, when you beat Jiang Shanshan with you and ridiculed her with words, it was like two people! I've been looking for an opportunity to ask you what happened, but I've found that I've been looking around and haven't found the right time to ask you. At that time, you were not cold, but stupid. It's like, crazy about getting out of your mind? Yes, it's like you're crazy and can't be interested in anything. Hey, I was in love with Li Kai at that time, and I didn't have much time to spend on you. Besides, after all, they are still living together, and they can often see you, and in their hearts, no matter how they say it, they have a bottom. ”

I smiled, "You're right, it's really like losing your mind." ”

"Mu Xi, what happened at that time?" Liu Zhen tilted her head to look at me, and I knew that she still wanted to know the answer. But I still chose to keep my mouth shut: "It's over, it's not worth mentioning." ”

Yes, I have never talked about Kan Tao with Liu Zhen, and I have never talked about it in the future. I don't say it, not because I'm hiding it as a secret, but because it's not worth mentioning in the past tense.

Between me and Song Zitian, it is still that kind of long-distance relationship, except for the winter and summer vacations, he will often get tired of me, either watching movies or playing games. And I, in fact, prefer that someone can give me a certain amount of space to be alone.

Jiang Shanshan's boyfriends changed one after another, but later I learned that they were all in that circle, and there were basically no good people.

After I was promoted to the undergraduate, I thought that the study task would be heavier, but as a result, when I was eager to do a good job of heavy study, I found that this was very different from the undergraduate that others had originally taken, both academically and in management.

"Mu Xi, you said, the school doesn't pay attention to us? This test took so much effort, is it considered a vain test? Liu Zhen said dejectedly beside me.

"I took all the exams, and said that it was useless. If you come here, you will be safe. In this sentence, I seem to be persuading Liu Zhen and myself.

Liu Zhen and Li Kai, in my opinion, are no different from shaving their heads. Sometimes I feel a little better, and when I see Liu Zhen who is silent in "love", I always want to knock on the top bunk bed and tell her the truth. As a result, he never had the courage.

Li Kai would often pretend to send Liu Zhen and then peek at me. And I don't know this, but every time I see Liu Zhen's "happy" appearance, I can't bear it.

Soon, I felt that I couldn't stay anymore because the school didn't pay attention to the post-secondary education. It was that state of being idle all day that made me suddenly feel the urge to enter society. After much consideration, I decided to look for a job. And I didn't tell Cao Ge and my father about this.

My friend asked me, everyone else is afraid of entering the society too early, how can you still take the initiative and be eager to try? I smiled, maybe I wanted to see deeper and more thoroughly through the unknown darkness of human nature in this world.

Liu Zhen persuaded me: "Mu Xi, you are not short of money, you can rest assured in school!" You're going to go out and look for a job, and I feel like I'm not learning, and I'm a plaything. When she said this, she did have a sense of self-reproach.

I smiled faintly: "It's not that I'm short of money, I suddenly feel that I can't stay still." Liu Zhen didn't speak again.

That semester, Jiang Shanshan basically didn't go back to the dormitory, and no one knew where she went. As for Shen Yue, it seems that there is no big change, and she is still alone.

And I didn't lie to Liu Zhen, I chose to go to society, really just because I couldn't stay. But what do you actually want to do in society, or what kind of job do you want to find to pass the time? I don't have a goal myself. Later, I knew the reason why I was so anxious, and I wanted to see what kind of big dye vat society could make Kan Tao change.

I know that if I talk to Cao Ge about this, she will definitely arrange a job for Cao Cancan just like she did at the beginning, and then move in Xue Hao, Cui Yu, and seven aunts and eight aunts to use their relationships. But at this point, Cao Cancan and I also said that we didn't need it.

Before I found a job, this matter was known to Song Zitian. He called me angrily and asked me why I was in such a hurry to get an internship. Isn't there a year left until the internship? And the answer I gave him, he didn't agree.

"What will you do? Cao Muxi, you can't even tell the difference between good guys and bad guys! You're stupid, you've definitely been deceived in society! What should I do if I am trafficked? What to do if you meet a bad guy? What if I don't? Yes? "I know that this series of questions is because I care about me. Only people who care about me will go out of their way to stop me from doing anything that might hurt me. But I felt like I had been brainwashed and insisted on going my own way.

Song Zitian saw that he had no success in persuading me, so in the end, he took a step back and asked me to go to his family's company. But I still refused very firmly. He scratched the phone. A few days later, he took a leave of absence and came to me, explaining the truth over and over again. In his eyes, although I am a person who does not speak much and is very cold, I am still the kind of fool who does not understand society. He said that he was afraid that I would suffer in the society, and he said that he had a lot of worries, and he said that he would let me wait, and when he interned next year, he would go to Nanjing, so that he would have a bottom in his heart. However, he said that breaking the sky didn't seem to change any of my decisions.

I found that my stubborn temper was becoming more and more similar to my father's. I still vividly remember that my father used to talk to Zhang Jing about it, every time my grandmother talked about him, he would talk back, and later, when he didn't want to say it, he would choose to be silent and pretend to acquiesce, but the result was that he went his own way.

That's how I am.

My reasons are also very strong, what is the difference between an earlier year and a later year? Basically, at our age, for adults, sex has already been determined, more than a year is not too much, and one year less is not too much.

In the end, Song Zitian left in a hurry. I sat alone by the flower bed downstairs in my dorm and turned my head to watch the sunset. I feel that because of Kan Tao, I have become silent. This also shows that the place and meaning of that name in my heart is much greater than I imagined.

The sunset that night was especially beautiful, so beautiful that it was mesmerizing. I looked at the slanted bright red, like the bright smiling face of Kan Tao in youth? Like the breeze left by my mother when I was young? Like what? Like, I have been looking for a long time, the parting and melancholy of the mediocre, quiet and peaceful.

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