Pushing open the door and walking out, the snow has fallen since last night, and I have stepped on the snow one by one, and Chu Muxiu's blood is still sticking to my hands, and the blood is dripping on the ground and dyeing the snow under my feet red. I reached out to catch the snowflake, which was originally white, but turned red as soon as it landed on my hand.

The people who loved me have left me, the people I love have been using me, and now I have nothing. I looked up at the snowflakes floating all over the sky: "Oh my God, how many things are you going to take from me......"

When I walked to the door, I saw Mo'er standing at the door with an umbrella, and she smiled at me, but the smile was bitter and ugly, but even then I felt a little comforted in my heart.

She came over and moved the umbrella over my head, "Miss, let's go home." ”

I said, "Okay, let's go home." ”

I didn't come back for two days, and a thick layer of dust accumulated on the gate of the Prime Minister's Mansion. I walked into the yard, the yard was full of snow, I seemed to see the young me building a snowman there, Aunt Song ran after me all over the yard with her clothes, Daddy came back from the palace and brought me back those novelty things, I sat on Daddy's shoulder and beat the rattle, and the housekeeper bought Uncle Zhang's Songhua cake for me.

Everything was so good, but they never came back. I miss Daddy, I miss Aunt Song, and I miss my lively Prime Minister's Mansion.

I didn't regret it until they never came back, I was wrong, I was very wrong. If I had listened to Daddy's words and married Lu Huai early, if I hadn't been so selfish and wanted to be with Chu Muxiu, if I could be a little more sensible, our family wouldn't have become like this, and you wouldn't have died. It was I who led the wolf into the house, I who harmed our family, and I was the sinner of the Nan family. Why are sinners like me still alive, why don't you let me die with Daddy, I'd rather die with Daddy.

I couldn't sleep well at night, and I had a dream that my father said he didn't want to die and he told me to save him......

"Don't, Daddy!" I opened my eyes suddenly, and saw no one in the empty room, it turned out to be a dream.

Mo'er wiped the cold sweat from my forehead with a handkerchief: "Miss, you have a nightmare again!" ”

I turned my head to look out the window: "Has the snow stopped outside?" ”

"Stopped!"

"Then let's go somewhere!"

"Good!"

It was already late, and Mo'er and I were going to see my mother with the lights on. I gave my mother an incense, and then knelt on it, and my mother smiled very happily, I think my father went down to find her.

"Mother, do you blame Ah Candle?" I looked at the portrait and asked my mother.

My mother just smiled, but couldn't say half a word, and I thought it was ridiculous to ask someone who had already left to speak.

I don't regret knowing Chu Muxiu, I'm not aggrieved or sad, I just feel tired, exhausted, tired, and tired to sleep well......

I always have nightmares at night, sometimes I wake up in the middle of the night and fall asleep on the side of my bed, sometimes I see her sitting outside the door quietly wiping her tears.

I cried inside, she cried outside, Mo'er used to cry, but how can I become so crying now?

Aunt Song, I seem to know what love you told me when I was a child, it is both giving and taking, it can bring us joy and beauty as well as death and sorrow, it can be a shield to save you or a sharp weapon to hurt you.

Loving this thing is really torturous, whether it's what I give to others or what others give me, I feel so bitter......

Mo'er and I went to the dock to see off Uncle Zhang, the singer on the boat didn't know what tune she was singing, anyway, it was very sad, the sad tone just catered to this picture, Uncle Zhang said that Aunt Song was gone, and what was the point of him staying here.

Before leaving, he gave me two bags of pine flower cakes, and said earnestly: "Ah Candle, Uncle Zhang is a rough person, and there is nothing good to give you, the only thing that can be done is this pine flower cake, you take it and eat it, I am afraid it will be difficult to eat such authentic pine flower cake in the future!" ”

I said, "Yes, I will never be able to eat the best Songhua cake in the world in the future." ”

Uncle Zhang laughed like crying: "Otherwise, you can go with me, there will be endless Songhua cake by then!" ”

"After all, this is the place where I was born and raised, and I still want to stay!"

Uncle Zhang patted me on the shoulder: "Okay, I won't tease you, if you can't stay in this place anymore, I'll go to Lingcheng to find Uncle Zhang!" ”

"Hmm."

I waved at Uncle Zhang on the dock, he looked at me with a smile at the bow of the boat, the boat drove farther and farther, and the singer's voice became quieter and quieter, and then I gradually lost sight of Uncle Zhang. I think he may have gone to find Aunt Song, and he must be happy at this moment.

In this big Huancheng, I'm really the only one left.

Xiliang was defeated many years ago, has been hating Tianyue, the border area is ready to move, Xiliang King just took this opportunity to collude with the border Xiongnu, has begun to attack the people of Tianyue to show provocation, ministers have reported to ask His Majesty to send troops to Xiliang. Xiliang and the border are both small countries, and Tianyue is a big country with hundreds of thousands of troops, and military attachés and generals abound, even if they join forces, they may not be Tianyue's opponents.

Nian is the queen's mother country in Xiliang, and His Majesty can't bear to hurt the queen, so he has been hesitating. In fact, he was waiting for the queen to bow her head, as long as the queen begged him a little, even if Xiliang was destroyed, her father and several brothers would be let live.

The green pothos got the news from the palace and hurriedly ran back, "Niangniang, Niangniang is not good, our Xiliang and the Xiongnu colluded, and now the court has turned the world upside down, and the ministers have asked His Majesty to send King Yi to send troops to Xiliang!" ”

The queen combed her hair, the comb slipped off her hand, and said gloomily, "What did you say, what did Your Majesty say?" ”

"Although Your Majesty hasn't issued an edict yet, but the minister makes trouble like this every day, and Your Majesty will make an edict if you can't do it!"

The queen straightened up anxiously, "Xiliang was defeated once twelve years ago, and then sent me over to make peace, and my father picked up a life, I can't let Xiliang fall into trouble again, Luluo, you come out of the palace with me!" ”

Lu Huai came to me today, this is the first time we have met since our Nan family was full of beheadings, he is still the same as before, but he looks at me with a little unbearable and ashamed.

Osmanthus tea is gone, I replaced it with Biluochun in the house.

We are still sitting in the pavilion in the courtyard, the last time I sat with Lu Huai like this, the osmanthus on my head was still blooming, and now the branches are withered.

I poured him tea and said, "There is no osmanthus tea!" ”

"How are you doing now?" He asked me out of nowhere.

I was stunned for a moment, and then brought the tea to him, "There is nothing good or bad, there is good food and a good place to live, isn't this what people want to live?" ”

"And what are your plans for the future?" He asked me again.

I said, "Let's take it one step at a time, we don't know what will happen in the future." ”

What I said seemed to startle Lu Huai, he didn't speak for a long time and just drank tea vigorously, in fact, I didn't know what to say to him, and I only cared about drinking tea with my eyes down.

"Xiliang colluded with the Huns, Tianyue may have to fight, I ...... and King Yi will go, and this time life and death are uncertain, I don't know how long it will take to come back. ”

Lu Huai paused when he said King Yi, I knew that he was afraid that I would be sad at mentioning Chu Muxiu, so I said lightly, "Then you be careful." ”

"I think you've changed!"

"What's changed?" Lu Huai always said that I had changed, but I didn't know where I had changed.

"Becoming less talkative, indifferent, withdrawn, cruel to himself, unwilling to trust others anymore, no aura in his eyes, expressionless like an iceberg man, not smiling, in short, he has become unhappy!"

Lu Huai described me, isn't it the former Chu Muxiu, once I wanted to share all my happiness with Chu Muxiu, and then he gradually opened his heart and became a flesh-and-blood person, but I lost that lively and cheerful self, completely lost......

I smiled bitterly: "Lu Huai, people will change, what you like at the age of six is not necessarily like at the age of sixty, we have all really grown up, and we can't always think about relying on others." ”

He said, "Yes, after so many things, it is wood!" ”

"Wood, wood?" The mention of wood reminds me of that man again, and even though we have become like this, I still think of him, and I only blame myself for not being angry.

After saying a few words, Lu Huai was leaving, I went to the gate to see him off, and he smiled and said, "Go back!" ”

When I turned to go back, he stopped me again, "Ah Candle, I want you to be the happy you used to be!" ”

I was stunned for a long time and didn't know how to answer, but now it seems that I can really only cry and laugh.

I've forgotten what that happy Nanyan candle used to look like, and now I'm just a soulless sinner living with a body in disarray......

The queen came to King Yi's mansion in person, although Chu Muxiu was still haunted by what happened last time, but she was the queen after all, and Chu Muxiu still had to be entertained.

The queen looked at Chu Muxiu and asked with some expectation: "I heard that King Yi is going to send troops to Xiliang?" ”

Chu Mu's slender fingers kept grinding the teacup, sipped the tea slightly, and said casually, "This is Your Majesty's will." ”

The queen hurriedly bypassed the teacup on the table, wanting to grab Chu Muxiu, "I know this is Your Majesty's will, but those Yulin soldiers and officers and soldiers all listen to you, Xiliang colluding with the Huns is a great crime, I don't ask Tianyue to stop the army, I just ask you to let my father and brother live!" ”

Chu Muxiu subconsciously dodged, got up and walked to the door, "Xiliang was defeated, and in just twelve years, he made a comeback and even colluded with the Huns to provoke Tianyue. If I let your father and brother go, I will not be able to ensure that they will cause any more trouble in the future, and this is related to the dawn people of Tianyue, and I will not tolerate it! ”

The queen followed behind her, feeling unfair about Chu Muxiu's despair, "For the sake of the Southern Banquet Candle, you can put down your face to rob your relatives, and you can give up the military power that is most beneficial to you for revenge, this is not the previous Chu Muxiu, you have repeatedly violated your bottom line for her!"

"Nanyan candle is my bottom line!"

"You like her so much? Where am I not as good as her? ”

"She is upright, kind, what she thinks of is always someone else, you are vicious, cruel, and unscrupulous in order to achieve your goals, you dare to say that the Nan family's full house has nothing to do with you? Why would you want to hurt those innocent people? Chu Mu pressed step by step, the queen was in a mess, retreated to the edge of the table step by step, and finally barely stood on the corner of the table.

"Her love is silently giving, your love is endless, and you can't compare to her in your life!"

As soon as Chu Muxiu's words fell, the queen fell to the ground along the corner of the table in a distraction, clogging her throat, "It turns out that I have always been such a person in your heart?" ”

"People are watching the sky, if you don't want people to know, unless you don't do it!"

The queen suddenly laughed like crazy: "But no matter how good she is, she is far away from you......"

"I'll get her back, I will."