This unpalatable meal is finally finished, I really can't get used to staying here, and I am in a hurry to leave as soon as it is over, because Mo'er is waiting for me at the gate of the palace, and Xuanwu is waiting for me in the house, and there is a few thunderstorms outside, as if it is going to rain.

When I walked out, there were several thunderstorms outside, and the wind made me tighten my clothes, and the lightning in the sky was indeed a little scary. As soon as I came out with my front foot, Chu Muxiu caught up with my back foot, and I originally thought that he would say something to the ministers inside that I didn't understand.

He ran all the way towards me, gasping for breath and asking me, "Are you really going to Zixu Kingdom?" ”

I really planned to get along with him as a friend, so I smirked at him, "You sneaked out this time after taking a leave of absence?" ”

He was puzzled and angry: "I'll tell you the right thing!" ”

"I'll tell you the right thing, the crime of bullying the king is to kill the head!"

"Can you stop talking like that all the time?" There was a bit of pleading in his tone, and now he spoke with me in that tone.

I turned from a smirk to a sneer, and looked at him in a daze, "What else do you want me to say to you?" ”

He didn't speak but seemed to be holding back something, and when I was about to turn around and leave, he grabbed me, he had never pulled me so hard, and it hurt me, "Can you stop leaving?" ”

I was holding my hand but I didn't feel it at all, I was like a walking corpse, and I said to him faintly, "How can I let His Royal Highness King Yi beg me in such a posture?" ”

"What about me?" He asked me.

"You are you, I am me, we are not people of the same world in the first place."

When I told him to let go, he pulled tighter, and he liked to disagree with me as much as he used to, I used to think it was called high-spiritedness, now I think it is called stalking.

I finally got impatient: "Let go!" ”

He dragged me hard: "I've missed it once, and I will never miss it again!" ”

I don't think so, if it were for him to say this to me two years ago, I would have been so happy that I couldn't sleep, but time has changed, things are wrong, and he doesn't seem to be so eager and needy for me.

"If you don't let go, I'll kill you!"

"You hate me that much?"

"Yes, I hate you, I don't want to see you again in my life, I want to kill you even in my dreams, are you satisfied?"

He looked at me for a long time, and then said, "How did you become like this?" ”

I pressed against his face and said to him little by little, "What? Got you down? Makes you look down on it? Who did I become like this because of whom, I wasn't forced by you, and I didn't thank you Chu Muxiu, so I beg you not to interfere in my life anymore, even if I don't marry the prince of Zixu Kingdom, I won't marry you! ”

He seemed to shake his body, and I could clearly see the tears in his eyes, and as the tears were about to fall, he looked up at the sky a little, and blinked again. Maybe he was afraid that I would see him cry or maybe he really believed my words, and let go of my hand one finger at a time, how much courage did he have before he slowly turned around and left.

My hands were still hanging in the air, a hint of coolness ran through my fingertips, followed by a few drops of rain, and then the rain became heavier and heavier, hitting my hair, and the rain filled my palms. Looking at his back that never returned, I was stunned for a moment and turned my head away, and when I turned my head, the tears poured out like a flood, in fact, I have been holding back not to let the tears fall, I am really uncomfortable. I don't know how long these cruel words have been brewing, but I didn't expect them to be said so easily in front of him. If I wasn't ruthless, we'd be entangled all the time, and if he didn't have me, his revenge would have gone much better, and I knew that I had been dragging him down from beginning to end. If I don't say cruel words, he will definitely have a dispute with His Majesty over my affairs, and I can't bear that kind of pressure in my heart anymore, and Huancheng can no longer resist the bloody wind and rain of another war.

The rain was at the right time, and as we parted, and it was getting heavier and heavier, I couldn't tell whether it was rain or tears on my face. The rain seemed to hit my heart, and the heavier it was, the more uncomfortable I became, and I cried and cried as I ran, and my heart ached, and I couldn't breathe or even see the road in front of me. It's been a long time since I've cried so happily, and it's even more uncomfortable than when Daddy and Aunt Song left. I still can't let go of him, why can't I let go of him. My heart was cut open, and then a handful of salt was sprinkled, so painful, so painful......

I thought I would love him for a long, long time, but the heavy rain blurred my vision and prevented us from getting closer to each other, and the distance between us was blown farther and farther away by the strong wind. I finally understood what love is, it is really bitter and astringent, no wonder Aunt Song said that most people don't want to touch it, I realized that it was too late when I came over, and in the end I was bruised by love.

I don't know if he will be in the same pain as me, but then I always wonder if we ran away together before, what the situation would have become, whether there would have been so many innocent people who had died, and whether we would be able to be together without guilt.

Seeing me crying and running out, Mo'er was frightened, and ran over with an umbrella to ask me what was wrong, did someone bully me, or did it hurt if I fell somewhere? She asked me a lot of questions, so I didn't know how to answer, I cried and poked my chest, and said to Mo'er, "Mo'er, I'm here, it hurts here, it's about to explode, it really hurts, it hurts......"

"Miss, let's go home, we won't enter the palace again, go home ......"

I don't remember how I got back to the house that night, and Mo'er didn't ask me what was wrong, and when I got up the next day, I told her about going to Zixu Kingdom, and she didn't say anything, but said that if you don't feel comfortable here, you might as well try another place, maybe to another new environment, and this person will slowly become happy. I thought she would blame her for making her own decisions without consulting her, I originally thought she didn't like the so-called Zixu Country.

I also solemnly told Mo'er, this time I really want to go to Zixu Country, and I may never be in Huancheng for the rest of my life, she will never see Qianche in her life, if she is really reluctant to stay, I don't want her to leave with the same regrets as me. When I asked Mo'er to stay, she became anxious, and actually knelt in front of me, grabbed my hand and cried and begged me to take her, she would definitely not cause me trouble.

Mo'er was completely wrong, and I was always the one who caused trouble. She said this, what reason do I have to drive her away, in fact, I am still a little worried that Mo'er doesn't want to go, if I am left alone in that Zixu country, I must not know how to live, I will definitely be homesick and think that I can't eat.

After much thought, I decided to send Xuanwu back to the border, and he asked me where I was going, why didn't I take him with me? I said that Uncle Zhang's Songhua cake was the most authentic and delicious, and I lied to Xuanwu that I was going to buy Songhua cake from Uncle Zhang, and it was not safe to leave him alone in the house, so I would go to the border to pick him up when I bought it back. The child is as easy to deceive as I am, and he will believe it when I say it so nonsense.

After more than a month of armistice, calm has slowly returned to the border. In fact, on the day I came back, I began to ask someone to find other relatives of Xuanwu, and learned that Xuanwu also has an uncle and aunt at the border, although it is not a relative, but it is a good family, and they have no children and have been looking for Xuanwu, I secretly wrote to them, they said that they have not been able to find Xuanwu and are very anxious, if I can, please send Xuanwu back. In fact, I think they are right, I have no blood relationship with Xuanwu after all, and I don't have the right to live with him, he will only live a life of exile with me, I believe they will be good to Xuanwu.

On the day Xuanwu left, the carriage stopped at the gate, and I put a lot of sugar gourds and some other snacks next to Xuanwu's luggage, and stuffed his small bag with silver. As Aunt Song had done for me, I repeatedly told the coachman to send Xuanwu to his uncle's door, and when I saw his uncle come out to pick him up, I went back and left. At first, the coachman was reluctant, but I stuffed him with a lot of silver before he agreed.

I took Xuanwu's hand and told him to be obedient on the road, and Mo'er ran over with a few pieces of pine cake and asked Xuanwu to take it. Xuanwu also happily pushed it away, and then said, "I don't want it, aren't you going to go to that Uncle Zhang to buy Songhua cake, when you come back, Xuanwu is still afraid that there will be no Songhua cake to eat." ”

I shook my head and said, "yes, when we come back, you'll have endless pine cakes......

We didn't say a few words, the coachman was impatient to leave, the carriage drove away, Xuanwu pulled the curtain and shouted to me, "Sister, you must remember to pick me up!" ”

I nodded while crying at Xuanwu, and then shouted with a long mouth, "There is food in the package, and don't run around on the road!" ”

"Sister, you remember to pick me up!"

Maybe I didn't answer Xuanwu in the last sentence, and he asked me again, but I really didn't know how to answer. In fact, for a moment, I felt that I was very evil and ruthless, and I didn't even blink an eye when I deceived Xuanwu. When did I stop lying as much as I talked? We'll probably never see each other again for the rest of our lives, and I just hope he doesn't hold a grudge against me and lives well.

The carriage gradually moved out of my sight, and when I turned the corner, I couldn't see anything. I remembered when I was a child when I went to the palace and Aunt Song sent me, at that time I was like Xuanwu, looking forward to seeing Aunt Song soon. But when I was a child, Aunt Song came to pick me up, but no one waited for Xuanwu anymore.

I can finally understand Aunt Song's concern at that time, she is really afraid that something will happen to me, and I am really afraid that I will never see Xuanwu again.