Jay and I bumped into Iverson as soon as we walked out the door of the café, he was a drinking buddy I met at the bar two years ago, and we used to drink together like buddies. Jefferson was wrapped in a black coat and holding a cup of coffee in his hand.

"It's been a long time since I've seen hua, how was the holiday?"

"Not bad. What about you? Winters in New York are cold, right? ”

"You're right, it's cold, I'm almost a statue." Jefferson rolled his eyes in amusement.

We hugged and he looked at Jay and asked me, "Your boyfriend?" ”

"Yes."

"Hello, I'm Jefferson."

"Hello, Jay."

Iverson laughed, "No wonder they say you don't come to the Pub often, it is." ”

"Sorry, I forgot to introduce you to Jay."

"It's okay, let's drink together another day."

"Of course." I say.

After the pleasantries, Jefferson walked to the school, and Jay and I walked to the nearby barbecue restaurant.

"Did you use to go to bars a lot?"

"Yes. When a person is in a foreign country and is lonely when he has no homework, he will go to the Pub for a few drinks. I said, "Do you believe it?" The boy, Jefferson, I knew he was studying finance, I knew he lived on the Upper East Side of New York, I knew he had five children, but I didn't have his contact information. We all rely on chance encounters. ”

"If you say that, I'll suspect you like him." Jay said jealously.

I patted him, "What do you want?" ”

"Hua, remember that kiss when we met at the bar?"

"Of course."

Jay pulled open the door, I entered, and he followed. The shop is on the second floor, you need to go up the stairs, and on the first floor there are some pictures of carefully made barbecue, and the walls are colorful. One of my feet had just stepped up a staircase when he suddenly held me down, and I leaned back against the wall.

"What for?"

He didn't answer me, he looked at me faintly and kissed me immediately, but just once.

I looked around in a panic, but fortunately there was no one, and then scolded him again: "Neurotic! ”

I scolded him, but my heart was extremely excited.

We went upstairs, the waiter served us, and while ordering, I received a call from my mother.

"You order first, I'll go to the bathroom." I said, and handed him the menu.

"Hey."

"Yihua, have you eaten?"

"I'm ready to eat."

"Are you coming back for the summer vacation? Dad's fiftieth birthday on July 7th, come back then, you see you haven't come back for the Spring Festival. ”

"I should still be in school on July 7th."

"Then ask for leave and just have a meal."

"Let me fly back for so long to eat this meal?" I said sarcastically, "Don't you really know he has women out there?" ”

My temper suddenly came up, and I said this sentence that hurt her dignity.

"You...... How can you say that about your dad! ”

"You know that. So what else is there to say, those women can't wait to help him celebrate his birthday! I don't like him, why celebrate his birthday? ”

"Yihua! How can you say such a thing? My mother said angrily to me on the phone, "His business is so big, he always has to bring a decent female companion when he goes out, and his mother is too old to go around with him." ”

She was still trying to explain to me.

"Don't explain it to me, I have eyes, I can see it, what you don't see doesn't mean I haven't seen it!"

"You... What do you see? ”

I didn't want to hurt her, so I restrained myself from calming down and said, "Okay, don't say it, I can go back to see you, but I won't go back to see him, I'll hang up first, I'm going to eat." ”

I hung up the phone and washed my face at the countertop.

I looked at myself in the mirror and remembered that when I was a child, they all said that my eyes were like that man, a little sharp, as if I could see through everything. And my mouth and nose are like my mother's. My mother used to be a ballet dancer, so I have had a good temperament since I was a child, and I am very grateful to them for giving me a beautiful temperament and a beautiful face. However, I could not forgive him for his deception, nor could I accept their apparent detachment.

In the summer of my freshman year of high school, I heard the man's voice on the phone outside the study, and the person on the phone seemed to be coquettish, so he kept coaxing the man, but my mother was obviously resting in the room at the time.

Later, I followed him and saw him enter an international hotel, and when he came out, he still had a young and beautiful girl in his arms, who looked only three or four years older than me. She wears heavy makeup, her chest is very cool, and under the white miniskirt is a pair of slender legs.

Once I deliberately asked her why she didn't go out shopping with some rich ladies to buy bags and play mahjong. But she said that women should teach their husbands and children, and since men are working hard to make money outside, she should take care of us in the Lord.

At that time, I realized why on my mother's birthday in the past, he was always the one who gave the most expensive gifts, but not the one who accompanied her on her birthday. I also realized why my mother always stayed at home and did this and that like a nanny.

But I was never well taken care of.

Because my sister, who is six years younger than me, was born.

I knew that my father always wanted a boy, but my mother couldn't give birth.

However, he was very good to his sister and gave her a nice name, Xie Yi'an.

Since she was born, they have cared a lot less about me. They like to make her laugh and take her hand to play in the garden, while I sit under the desk in front of the window of my room and write the homework assigned by the teacher. I would secretly pick up the small bench, bury half my face behind the curtains, and watch them hold my sister's hand with envy, watch them laugh and talk, and listen to their joyful laughter.

My sister always smiles happily, she has no teeth, big eyes, and she is cute like a doll, but I don't like her.

Then one time I was running against boys at school, and I lost, and I fell while rushing to the finish line, and I rolled twice on the red plastic track, and both knees were broken. The physical education teacher took me to the infirmary in a panic to bandage me and asked me if it hurt.

I shook my head and told him very firmly, "Teacher, I don't hurt." ”

When the doctor saw me say this, she smiled and praised me for being the strongest girl she had ever seen at school.

The teacher asked me what my family's phone number was so they could pick me up.

I shook my head and said I didn't know.

So he sent me home.

When I got home, there was no one at home, I didn't have the keys, so I sat at the door and waited until dark.

Later, I saw Aunt Yang come back first, she was our family's nanny. Aunt Yang was very happy to see me sitting at the door of the house, she said: "Yihua, I went to pick you up from school just now, and I didn't wait for you, but I was in a hurry, but fortunately you came back." Aunt Yang was very aggressive, and then called her mother again and told her that I had returned.

It turned out that my sister had a fever, and they took her to the hospital, and her mother was still with her sister in the hospital, and her father was on a business trip.

I didn't speak, and I leaned against the wall back to my room, holding on to the pain in my knees.

I was in second grade at the time.

Aunt Yang cooked a lot of white porridge and took it to the hospital in an insulated box. I sat alone in the big, quiet dining room and was scared, always feeling that a ghost would pop up around me at any moment to eat me, so I finished my dinner in fear and ran back to my room.

The doctor at the school clinic told me not to touch the water, so I washed my face and went to bed.

I'm good, they all say so.

I never told them about my fall, and my mother took care of my sister in her room after she was discharged from the hospital, carrying her around the room. Aunt Yang said that her mother was coaxing her sister to sleep, and she said that children can only fall asleep when they lie in their mother's arms, and they will sleep soundly. She said that my mother used to put me to sleep like this.

I'm not impressed, though.

God knows how much I envy my sister as I stand in the doorway and look at her.

Later I also had a fever.

I didn't wash the dirt on the side of the wound because it was dirty, so I tried to wipe it off with a towel the next day, and it became inflamed.

That's when they found out I had a knee injury.

They also started to take care of me, helping me to take a day off and let me rest at home. When I was hungry, I had porridge to drink and noodles to eat, and my mother came to accompany me and tell me fairy tales, but I didn't like to listen to fairy tales at all. I'm a childlike person, otherwise I wouldn't have raced the 50-meter dash to compete with the boys in my class......

The phone rang again, and it was Jay calling. He pulled me out of my tragic childhood memories.

"Where are you? Aren't you okay yet? ”

"I... I'm all right. ”

"What's wrong? Very tired look. ”

"Nothing." I said, before I hung up, I said, "I love you." ”

"Come back quickly."

I went back to the table with a little pain in my eyes. Jay asked me what was going on, and I shook my head and wouldn't say.

"You tell me, I'm your boyfriend, I have the right to know, right?"

"Let's talk about it after we're done, shall we?"

I don't want to argue with him anymore.

From the pleasant atmosphere when I first came to the restaurant to the cement-like solidification now, I would have tried to adjust it if I used to, but now I really can't do it, I'm so tired.

When I got home, Jay took off my coat and apologized to me: "I'm sorry, I was a little angry when I was in the restaurant. I just want to care about you. ”

"Yes, I know."

"Really?" He said, "Are you okay?" ”

"I'm fine. As long as you are with me, I will be very happy. ”

"Then who the hell did you just get a call that made you so depressed."

"A little bit at home, but it's fine."

I don't want him to know about these things.