After Wang Jingjing left, it took me a summer vacation and half a semester to recover, and my academic performance, which was quite passable, plummeted.

Over the years, Wang Jingjing often appeared in my dreams to torment me, and when I woke up in the middle of the night, I always felt that she was hanging from the window and staring at me fixedly.

I was thinking that maybe this is the reason why I have always looked stunted for so many years, which is not quite in line with the genetic theory of genes.

My father was born tall, and I heard him talk about it once, and my mother was also very tall.

I, on the other hand, look like a child I picked up.

The shadow left on me by this incident lasted for many years, until another family moved in across the door.

That beautiful girl, if Wang Jingjing was still alive, should be her age, and she should be as good-looking as her.

I had a preconceived idea in my heart and regarded her as Wang Jingjing, so that I would never have to feel guilty again.

Sure enough, since Hua Fangfei moved to the other side, I don't have that nightmare anymore, and it seems that Wang Jingjing, a child, has been removed from my mind.

However, it backfired, and everything was due to Hua Fangfei's dog-like father.

It was he who made Fang Fei's image of the goddess in my mind fall from the clouds to the bottom in an instant.

What makes me even more angry is that the girl Fang Fei is already insensitive to this perverted life.

It was a very difficult time for me, and that nightmarish feeling came back, but it was no longer Wang Jingjing hanging at the window and smiling at me in my dreams.

It's that unsightly picture, and I feel like I'm going to run out of it.

That day, on the playground, when I was arguing with Fang Fei, I actually saw the third child hiding behind the plane tree.

I think I promised Fang Fei not to talk about it, but the third child can, and the third child may be the best person to save Fang Fei and me.

What I didn't expect was that the third child, who has always been good-tempered, did something stupid.

Love is selfish, and there are people who lose their minds for the sake of love.

For example, me, for example, the third child.

He ran to Fang Fei's house in the middle of the night and took a knife to cut the scum directly.

I later heard that there were more than 30 knives, and the knives were fatal.

That night, I drank some alcohol and dreamed too.

In my dream, I heard someone crying on the other side, it was Fang Fei's voice.

I was angry and threw myself on top of my head, I didn't know why she was crying, was it for her scumbag father?

He's dead, shouldn't she be completely freed?

It was indeed Fang Fei, she stood in front of the window, crying profusely.

I tried to persuade her at first, but she ignored me and just cried for her.

I asked her again for whom she was crying, third? Or is that scumbag?

She still didn't say anything, and I was angry.

Ask her, why don't you die?

She stopped crying and looked at me in amazement.

I said that six years ago, a little girl had died in this room, and she was hanging in front of the window where she was standing at this time.

Perhaps she was watching her in the dark.

I asked her again, and the third child entered the bureau for her.

What are her plans for the future?

She replied that she had no relatives in this world, and her life had become very slim.

She asked me again, did what I said before still count? Take her out of here and go to another life.

I asked her, what about the third child, what about the third child?

She was hesitant, saying that the third child would not be able to get out if she went in!

I don't think the third child is worthy, and they all say that if a woman is ruthless, she will kill someone.

Her ruthlessness made her last trace of beauty in my mind consume.

I stood up abruptly and asked her, is she the one with the third child?

She still looked like a pear blossom with rain, and nodded shyly.

I was furious, and I said, why don't you die? There are so many women in the world, why do you think I will accept a woman who is as good as she can be.

I glanced at her in disgust, and in her astonished eyes, I turned and walked away.

She probably felt ashamed and shouted behind me.

"Jiaqing, you bastard, who said that you wanted to raise me and take me away?"

I looked back at her with pity again, and I said a harsh word.

"I raise you? But are you worthy? ”

She was furious: "Jiaqing, you are ruthless." Since you have blocked my last way of life, I have no choice but to die, and I will die for you immediately. ”

I think she's even more ridiculous, was I blind in the first place? Why would I like such a woman?

I said, "You die, I watch you die, I want to see if you have the courage to die." ”

I turned around and went back.

She probably didn't really want to die, but a white scarf was placed on the window, glowing faintly white in the night.

She took a small bench and stood up, glancing back at me hatefully before hanging her head.

I said impatiently, "Hurry up, I'm sleepy." ”

The little bench was a little shorter, and she couldn't reach it.

I said, "Look, it's not easy to die, I'll help you." ”

I walked over and picked her up, and she was probably angry with me, hanging her head on the white scarf.

But I just want her to die, what's the use of her staying in this world if she doesn't die? A poor social parasite.

I kicked the bench away, and she struggled at once, but the more she struggled, the tighter she hung, and she pointed at me, trying to speak but couldn't.

I knew she meant that, she wanted me to let her go.

Hmph, how could I?

I just gave her a nonchalant look and turned away.

When I got home, I collapsed on the bed, and in the middle of the night, I slept soundly.

Later, I interviewed for my copy of "The Sorrow of Youth".

Readers are asking why I don't play so much.

I think, dear Mandoli, you should understand why!

I just want to clear the dark side of my heart, thinking that then I won't see the third child, Fang Fei, and Wang Jingjing running to me in turn when I dream back at midnight.

Can I still afford these lives?

Recently, they have been appearing more and more frequently in my dreams, which makes me feel at ease every day.

I chose to run away, but it didn't solve anything.

This is the truth I have realized in the past six months begging in the underground passages, no matter what kind of identity I am, where I appear in the eyes of the world.

I am the young Jiaqing of the year, I can never wash away the sins on my body, I can only go to the other world to confess to them.

Well, a bit of gossip.

You may be tired of watching it, so let's stop here!

I have no opinion on whether you choose to make this letter public or destroy it.

I wish you all the best

Signed: Your acquaintance goose.

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On this spring morning, the goose chose to dissect itself and show it in front of Loya.

To be honest, she was a little confused, and the sleepiness along the way disappeared in an instant, replaced by a hunger that went deep into the bone marrow.

Take out the dumplings in the refrigerator and prepare them for the next pot. After hesitating for a moment, he took out the phone and dialed Yi Tian.

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