After Chen Laixiang's funeral ended, Yang Qianfeng personally sent Xiangyi to school the next day, and greeted her teachers, asking them to care more about and guide her, the teachers attached great importance to it, not only agreed to his request, but also told him to rest assured, they would always pay attention to Xiangyi's psychological changes, and contact him immediately if there was something, which made Yang Qianfeng feel a lot more relieved.

After returning home, Yang Qianfeng suddenly felt that his heart and the house were empty. The shadow of Chen Laixiang was all in front of him, sad, lonely, and helpless...... All kinds of feelings came to my heart.

He promised Chen Laixiang not to cry after she left, but now he couldn't hold back anymore, holding her photo and saying: "Ah Xiang, I'm sorry, I can't hold back anymore, you just let me cry!" ”

Although Yang Qianfeng saw many comrades-in-arms sacrifice by his side, he was also grief-stricken when he saw his fallen comrades-in-arms, but at this time he understood that the parting of life and death on the battlefield and Chen Laixiang's departure, the feeling of grief was completely different, and the way of venting was not comparable. I immediately felt better. And Chen Laixiang was taken away by the disease, where did he go to vent? Thinking about it, there is only one cry.

Looking at Chen Laixiang who was smiling in the photo, he said with a sour heart: "Ah Xiang, if you don't speak, you will agree." After saying that, he ran to the room, covered his head with the quilt, and cried loudly.

Lan Mei saw that Yang Qianfeng didn't go to her office after he came back, and he didn't show up after returning home, so she suddenly felt uneasy, so she ran up with Erxiang, she and Erxiang both had the key to the room, and they didn't knock on the door, Lan Mei opened the door directly, and found that he was sleeping on the bed with clothes, Lan Mei called carefully: "Third brother." ”

Yang Qianfeng slowly exposed his head from the quilt, and their eyes were swollen from crying when they saw him, and both of them shed tears in distress. Lan Mei said understandingly: "Third brother, I miss my sister!" You've been forced for so many days, don't break your body, cry if you want to! ”

Erxiang wiped her tears and said, "Yes! Brother, it may be much better if you cry, my sister will not say anything about you in the spirit of heaven. ”

Yang Qianfeng wiped his tears and said, "I'm fine, you guys go and get busy!" ”

After Lan Mei and Erxiang left, Yang Qianfeng remembered that Chen Laixiang said that there were things she left in her bedside table before her death, and she took them out to take a look when she left and thought about her.

Because Chen Laixiang jokingly said before, saying that this bedside table has her private secrets, and she can't see it without her consent, in fact, the cabinet has not been locked, she is just joking, but Yang Qianfeng really hasn't opened it once.

Walking to the bedside table, he gently opened the door of the bedside table, it turned out that there were all the letters she had written to him before, these letters were all packed into the envelope, only Yang Qianfeng's name was written on the envelope, and there was no place to send the letter, and none of them were sent, the letters were tied with rubber bands in each year, neatly stacked inside. In addition to the letters, there are five photo albums.

Yang Qianfeng took out the album first, and the first small album was all the photos of Chen Laixiang when she was a girl, although the number of photos was not large, but it recorded the process and changes of her growing from a little girl to a big girl; The second is a photo of her and Yang Qianfeng when they were in love and married, the whole album is pasted, she is full of happy smiles on each photo, recording the good times she and Yang Qianfeng had together during the time of love and marriage; The third book is basically a group photo of a family of three in different places, but the background is basically from Jinshui County; The fourth is a photo of Xiangyi since she was born; The fifth is a photo of Chen Laixiang and Yang Qianfeng going on a trip.

Yang Qianfeng looked at these photos and felt very sad, because Chen Laixiang really loves life too much, as she said, she loves the bits and pieces of life, among these bits and pieces, one of the happiest things for her is to go out with him, even if there is no scenery there, as long as it is the place he takes her to, it is the most beautiful scenery in her eyes. And he hadn't taken her out before because he was busy, until that time he went to Beijing, and when he was discharged from the hospital, he just went to some of the places she especially wanted to go.

In fact, Yang Qianfeng has watched these albums before, but the mood of watching them today is completely different from watching them before, after watching them, he suddenly felt sad and regretful, regretted not going out with her when she was in good health, regretted not leaving more of these moments and permanent memories with her, and regretted .............

Yang Qianfeng calmed down and took out the letters again, and found that the earliest was written in the year she graduated from high school, until she found out that Yang Qianfeng had transferred to the Sunshine Police Station of the Jinshui County Public Security Bureau. These letters are her emotional journey and the history of her pure love in this life.

The letters she wrote before graduating from high school may have been written in her homework book at the time, and later she tore them off and put them in envelopes when she sorted them out, and the contents of each letter were very short, like a diary.

The content of the first letter is like this: "Hello Yang Qianfeng! You didn't go to the classroom tonight for self-study, I don't know why my heart was very empty, although I took a book in my hand, but I didn't read a word, I always looked back at your seat, knowing that you didn't come, but I still had to look back until everyone was gone.

I am writing to you to say to you: I am finished, I already love you and can't extricate myself, but I am too embarrassed to say to you, what should I do? Do you love me? ”

The content of the second letter was: "Hello Yang Qianfeng! I know that you and Ouyang Lamei are good, but I don't think you will succeed, because you are from the countryside like me, the son of a farmer, and although Ouyang Lamei grew up in the countryside, she is the daughter of a cadre, and sooner or later she will have to go to the city to work. So I think there is too much difference between you, that is, Ouyang Lamei agrees to be nice to you, but her parents will definitely not agree, so you can't make it (snickering).

I say this to you to say: Accept me! I'll be better than she is to you, really! ”

The third letter reads: "Hello Yang Qianfeng! Ouyang Lamei went to the city to study and we can't, let's face the reality! That's the difference.

I'm so happy in the days after she left because we were more likely (laughs). ”

The fourth letter said: "Hello Yang Qianfeng! I pay attention to you every day, and you always treat me as air, but when I talk to you, you are very good to me, always put down the pen to do homework and patiently answer the questions I ask you. Looks like you're the least annoying to me, isn't it? I'm so happy (hahaha). ”

The fifth letter reads: "Hello Yang Qianfeng! I know that you are hurrying up to review for the college entrance examination, to speak from the heart, I think you can be admitted to the university, but I don't want you to be admitted, because I have self-knowledge that I will definitely not be able to pass the exam, if you are admitted to our gap, you will definitely not be good to me, I really want you to fail the exam, then I will ............ Hahaha......... maybe you read my letter and think I'm bad! No way, that's how love comes. ”

The content of the sixth letter reads: "Hello Yang Qianfeng! We're about to graduate, and the days of meeting again after graduation are very few, I'm very anxious, really, very anxious, why don't you confess to me! Confess to me! As long as you open your mouth, I will depend on you for everything, I promise! ”

The seventh letter was written the night before she hugged Yang Qianfeng in class to confess: "Hello Yang Qianfeng! I can't wait, I want to act, I want to confess my heart ............to you, you must not laugh at me then, and you must not laugh at me in the future, okay? ”

The eighth letter was written after that night, although the date was not written, but it must have been written many days later, and the content was: "Hello Yang Qianfeng! I'm sorry, I'm really sorry, maybe I'm too conservative to let go! Maybe I'm dying to protect myself! Obviously, I took the initiative to hold you and confess to you, but I ...... But I still said something against my will - saying that you are a hooligan.

I don't know why I casually said such things in a hurry, but the words I said were like spilled water that couldn't be recovered, and what was more serious was that I made up a lie in front of Huang Xiaofang. I want to explain to you these days, but I don't dare to tell you, but I have thought about it, I must find an opportunity to admit my mistake to you, and I hope you can forgive me (cry) when the time comes. ”

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After graduation, I didn't write to Yang Qianfeng for a long time, until I opened a tailor shop, and I started to write to him again, at this time, the letters at the beginning were all written on stationery, and the letterhead was all changed to 'Hello A Feng', the main content can be summarized as follows: 1. I apologize deeply for the events of that year; 2. Miss Yang Qianfeng, confide in him his feelings, often think about him and stay awake all night, etc.; 3. Tell Yang Qianfeng that she is working hard to earn money, and let him marry him when he comes back from the army............

After knowing that Yang Qianfeng changed jobs, she found that Ouyang Lamei loved Yang Qianfeng so much, and Yang Qianfeng also loved her so much, at this time she was confused and didn't know what to do in the future? Especially after Yang Qianfeng and Ouyang Lamei got engaged, her emotional pain was extreme, and she also wrote a few letters during this period, and it can be seen between the lines that she was very depressed and pessimistic at this time.

After Ouyang Lamei left Yang Qianfeng, she wrote several letters to Yang Qianfeng, from which it can be seen that at first her thoughts were very contradictory, and she wanted to confess to him immediately, but she was worried that he would mess things up if she didn't agree......

Yang Qianfeng later knew that Chen Laixiang had always loved her, but he didn't really know the whole situation, and he was moved to tears when he saw her so straight about his emotional journey.

After watching the album and the letter, he decided that the room would remain as it was, and let all the things Chen Laixiang leave behind accompany him for the rest of his life.

A month later, Yang Qianfeng was still not used to coming home from work, his heart always felt empty, and he always had to watch the album left by Chen Laixiang at night before he could fall asleep.

Lan Mei and Er Xiang were in a depression when they saw him return home, and they were very sad, so Lan Mei specially found Zhang Lihua and Huang Xiaofang and asked them to help Yang Qianfeng get out of this shadow of grief.

Of course, Huang Xiaofang and Zhang Lihua wanted to help Yang Qianfeng, but Lan Mei didn't say it, they also wanted to help him, so they agreed.