etc., it is precisely the most meaningless thing. Whatever he wants.

I closed the door, carried Xinbao into the baby chair, and began to feed her rice cereal little by little. Adults' emotions can be transmitted to children, Xinbao probably didn't feel my special emotions for the person at the door, her attention turned to rice paste, and slowly stopped remembering that there were strangers at home.

After Xinbao finished eating the rice cereal, I wiped her little mouth and face, and then put her in the game mat to play. She has a lot of toys and can play well on her own, and if she gets bored, she will come to me.

I sat down on the sofa across from Xinbao and watched her from time to time, and there was freshly squeezed juice on the coffee table, and I poured myself a glass and another glass of water.

"Sit down." Actually, I don't think I need to greet Shen Yinan. Skip these steps and put on your own attitude, as if I was like this with him in the past, there is nothing wrong with it, at least it is efficient.

Shen Yinan didn't sit down opposite my sofa, he sat next to me.

I frowned, "Do you say it first or do I say it first?" “

"Say what?" He didn't seem to be awake again, and his mind wasn't on the line at all.

"Since there's nothing to say, that's fine." I took a sip of the juice and said, "I think you've seen my life." I'm happy with the status quo and don't want anyone to bother me. “

Shen Yinan's expression was calm, he didn't know what he was thinking, and his eyes were slightly deep.

I think it's redundant to say something to some people. Regardless of whether he thinks I'm really dead or doesn't believe I'm dead for more than two years, now when he sees me, he will know my choice. A lot of things don't have to be said, they come and go.

The people and things in Jiangcheng have been far away from me, and I have never thought of looking back. There was nothing I had ever had, I was in a hurry, and it was just one of the stops on my journey.

After a long silence, Shen Yinan repeated: "I can afford to wait." Wen Ying, your fate with me is not over yet, and it shouldn't end like this. “

So this conversation, declared a failure, right?

A deep boredom came from the bottom of my heart. How long has it been since I've felt this way? It seems that after saying goodbye to the past, I didn't feel anything like it again.

Once the peace is broken, I really feel the urge to blade the intruder.

But these two years of life have made me accustomed to Buddhism, and I can still restrain this emotion.

"Shen Yinan, why lie to yourself? What is fate, seven points depend on the sky, three points depend on people, this is fate. On you and me, that is, nine points depend on God, and one point depends on deception. Many years ago, you and I no longer had a fate. In fact, when I see you now, I only have one feeling, that you can't even be called an old friend. “

I don't know if the last sentence stabbed him, his face changed, and his eyes overflowed with something that he might call pain.

I was like an outsider, watching him suffer, watching him cocoon himself, but I didn't mean to save him. To this day, I seem to be repeating his role back then, and from this perspective, I can see more deeply how painful I was back then, and I don't think about it for myself.

But people always have to go through certain eons before they can go to the next step, and I think I am going through the calamities at that time. Now that I have broken free from the cage and regained my life, I categorically do not allow myself to return to the cage.

Just like people in the dark, if they have seen the light, they will no longer like the darkness, just like after seeing the beautiful scenery, they are no longer willing to be monotonous, a truth.

"I couldn't talk about knowing you Shen Yinan before, and now I can't talk about knowing you a little bit. But I think that whether Wen Ying is dead or alive should have no effect on you or you. You shouldn't have any interest in digging up the past things again, and I will only think that those overnight meals that have been separated for too long will be rancid. ”

I don't give him a chance, my voice is still flat, like talking about the most ordinary things. People are not like this in life, when they should be hypocritical, when they should not be hypocritical, they should be neat.

I finished the juice, pulled out a piece of paper, and wiped the corner of my lips. On the other side, Xinbao was holding the doll and having fun, grinning and saliva falling down, especially soft and cute, such a picture, I just watched it a hundred times, and I didn't feel tired.

Shen Yinan followed my gaze and also looked at Xinbao.

"Before I got the complete information, I heard that you had a child, and I heard that the child was more than a year old, and I was thinking, is the child mine, will you hide that I gave birth to my child. How ridiculous, I know you won't, I know it's impossible, but I still pray, I'm willing to exchange half my life for this in case. “

"If the time is not right, the age is not right, then there is still a possibility, it is you and someone else...... If that's the case, I'll have to be vicious again. It is better for you to hate me than for you to be dead. I don't believe in fate, but sometimes I wonder if I have done too much evil in this life to get this kind of retribution. ”

I pursed my lips and didn't say anything. If I had been in the past, I would have thought, how ironic, Shen Yinan told me that if I don't want it, why does he think that I will wait for him, I have to him?

However, at this moment, I will not gloat because he is not doing well, and I will not be full of resentment because he is doing very well.

Whether he's doing well or not, that's none of my business. Isn't there a popular saying nowadays that you love for a short time? If you calculate it carefully, between me and Shen Yinan, the time that can be called like or love is really short, as short as a meteor, as short as a flash in the pan, generally experienced people will not think that at that moment, it will be called Fanghua, it is just amazing or stimulating, how many people will pay for this kind of moment?

As it happens, I think he and I are both rational people. Emotion, not without it, but relatively thin.

"I've always been conceited, thinking that there's nothing I can't grasp, and if I had known that I'd end up in this way, I'd teach my conceit a hard lesson; If I had known, it would have become a fantasy to say another word to you; If I had known, I wouldn't have had a chance to think about it in the future; What's the point of what I hid from you before, what I never said to you? It doesn't make any sense at all. I said to others, there are no ifs, when it is my turn, I am more cowardly than anyone else, hoping that it is a dream, and nothing happens when I wake up. “

Shen Yinan took out a chain from his neckline, and the mottled marks on the pendant seemed to tell how wild the fire was more than two years ago.

"I should be a little luckier than Lu Huainian, at least I can get this chain. But he is much luckier than me, he has owned you for five years, and there is a source between you. As for me, you didn't leave me anything, and even remembering to go to your father's grave was providing clues. ”

His eyes were getting red, the tide of unwillingness and guilt, and even some other emotions mixed in, suddenly burst out, and he couldn't hold it back, and he showed it unreservedly in front of me.

I was indifferent, at opposite ends of his urgency.

Shen Yinan stuffed the chain back into the neckline, he gathered his mind, and suddenly said: "Wen Ying, you don't want to hear those things anymore, you don't want to go back to Jiangcheng anymore, everything is as you wish." But one thing, unless I don't see you again in my life, then I may let go until I am old enough to die.

Now that I see you, I can't let myself die. You don't want me to bother, then I won't bother, you want me to stay away from you, I can not appear in front of you, whatever you want, I will give you, I will not force you, I will only, in the same way that you guarded Lu Huainian back then, to guard you. “

I almost burst out and said he was crazy. But think about it, for a person like him, only what he wants to do and what he doesn't want to do, can I stop him?

So whatever. I have been guarding Lu Huainian for a few years, and Shen Yinan can taste it if he wants to. In case I also have a marriage partner, in case I get pregnant before I get married, in case I suddenly fall in love with someone vigorously, he can taste this kind of guarding.

"Done?" I looked him in the eye.

"There's a lot I want to say, but I don't think you'll be soft-hearted if you tell you in one breath." Shen Yinan was just a moment just now, his emotions were amazingly exposed, and now he has basically changed back to being a person who is not shocked.

I pointed to the door, and he got up and walked to the door.

I threw a sentence behind him: "You left one, one right, all run to me, confession of confession, confession of heartfelt feelings, but whenever I have shortcomings in my heart, I am really led by your nose." Ling Xiangdong said that he likes me, do you think I believe it or not? You said you would wait for me, do you guess I believe it or not? “

Shen Yinan's body moved slightly, I only saw his back, not his face, so I don't know what his expression is, but it must not be a good expression.

"Even what you see with your eyes may be fake, not to mention that you can't touch the hearts of people who can't be touched. Shen Yinan, although it shouldn't be, I still want to tell you, even if there are ifs in this world, you may not be able to grasp anything. Emotional matters are not up to anyone. An opportunity, even a second to fall in love with someone, it will only be easier not to love, not even an opportunity is needed, as long as you want to come out, it is never too late. “

The door opened, and he strode out, as if he had swept away the loneliness that belonged to him in the room, and the room was still as warm as before.

It's better to do less of things that don't make sense. I smiled and went to play with Xinbao, what Shen Yinan, all left behind. It's not that I don't have a heart now, it's because my heart is alive again, and I have a new hope and longing, that this strength will not be easily shaken.

In a healed world, with just the right sun and the right temperature, why should I let those tidal memories flood with memories? Shen Yinan, you are really not me, I came out, and you were trapped in it, but I don't want to look back at you anymore.