Since she suspected that Xu Shu had the idea of becoming a monk, Xu Jing was distressed, but she couldn't open her mouth to comfort Xu Shu, and she had the heart to accompany Xu Shu more, but she had a pair of children involved, so she thought of Gao Zhinan in desperation, and wrote a letter to Gao Zhinan, asking Gao Zhinan to visit Xu Shu more.

After Gao Zhinan received Xu Jing's letter, he suddenly felt uneasy, and then turned over the letters with Xu Shu in recent days and read them all over again, and felt that Xu Shu's tone was a little different from the past, so he hurried to Peach Blossom Villa.

It's just that compared to Xu Jing's worries, Gao Zhinan is more envious of Xu Shu's free and easy days now, while she is trapped in a boxy house, repeating a boring and boring life every day, day after day, boring and desperate.

"I really envy you, just go, live alone in such a big Zhuangzi, you can do whatever you want, unlike me, you are always constrained!"

"Is it okay for Sister Zhinan to move in with me?" Xu Shu narrowed her eyes with a smile, "This Zhuangzi is so big, I live alone and lonely!" ”

"I'm afraid it won't work!" Gao Zhinan shook his head, "I'm here today to see if you've been doing well, and I'm here to say goodbye to you!" ”

"Farewell...... Where is Sister Shinan going? Xu Shu's heart trembled, thinking that Gao Zhinan was going to marry far away.

"Go to a far place!" Gao Zhinan raised his head and pointed to the north, with yearning and helplessness in his eyes, "A few days ago, I heard from my father and mother that the Beidi Rouran clan was about to send an envoy to our dynasty to ask for their new successor to the Rouran tribe of Yu Jiulu Qiulun Khan, the emperor wants to crown a princess and kiss Rouran, and select ten unmarried family daughters from various families to marry, I plan to follow!" ”

Nominally, it is a marriage, but in fact, I am afraid that it is the princess's concubine, and the concubine has no status like a slave outside the Saiwai, and she is trampled on, and once she leaves the customs, there will be no possibility of returning to the Central Plains, why did Gao Zhinan do this?

"Beidi is so far away and desolate, why do you have to go so far? You just said that you would go far away, and I thought you would marry far away...... But I didn't expect you to say this! Xu Shu couldn't restrain the shock in her heart, and looked at Gao Zhinan in puzzlement.

"Far from married? I probably don't have any hope of getting married seriously in my life! Gao Zhinan sneered, "You know what? Last year, my father wanted to send me to the palace to be elected, but unexpectedly I was defeated, but my father still didn't give up, and turned his head and heard that the Queen Mother chose a concubine for the eldest prince, and even wanted me to run for the eldest princess. It's ridiculous! The Gao family's face is about to be lost! ”

Although Gao Zhinan had a smile on his face, there was no joy in his smile, only a thick ridicule and indignation, "If it weren't for the fact that the queen was pregnant and the matter of electing the eldest princess was temporarily shelved, I don't know where to be embarrassed now!" ”

Can loyalty only be expressed by giving a daughter to the royal family? Isn't the tall man too eager for quick success?

Gao Daren, who had been oppressed for many years, began to be reused, and he was eager to establish a closer relationship with Imajo to realize his political ambitions, and Gao Zhinan, as his daughter, was his political capital and was destined to become a stepping stone for his advancement.

"So this time, after hearing that the Beidi tribe came to the envoy, I thought that my father might also have such thoughts, saying that Mobei is desolate, and which of the girls raised by Jin Zun and Yugui is willing to go? Father could have used me to show his loyalty to his six relatives! So it's better for me to bring it up first, at least my mother will feel better, and I also want to see the scenery of Mobei! ”

"It's bitter cold outside, the people are fierce, Sister Zhinan, why do you want to bet on this anger with Lord Gao? Maybe Master Gao won't do this, even if he does, he may not be able to get what he wants, if you don't want to go, I can help you......" Xu Shu wanted to speak and stopped, if Gao Zhinan was unwilling to go out, she could go and ask the queen to let Gao Zhinan stay, the emperor is now the time for the baby queen's belly, and he will obey the queen's words, and the queen also promised that Xu Shu would agree to her a request.

"My father's idea is just one of the reasons, the most important thing is that I want to go myself!" Gao Zhinan smiled and pinched Xu Shu's face, "I have already thought about this matter!" Rest assured! I've been living in the courtyard of the deep house for more than ten years, and I want to go out and see it! Especially when I see you living so comfortably now, I can't help it! ”

How much did it cost Xu Shu to get her comfort now? Xu Shuxiao's heart was sour, "You look at me comfortably on the surface, but that may not be really comfortable, and only I, a person in it, can experience the inner taste!" ”

"Really comfortable? Do you really want to escape into the void? Gao Zhinan finally asked Xu Jing's doubts.

"I really wanted to see it before...... Master is wise and open-minded, and following Master can comprehend countless true knowledge, which is better than living a hundred times as barren as now, but Master is so good to me, I don't want to burden Master......" Xu Shu can almost foresee that if she really becomes a monk, what kind of face will the Xu family use to mention her and Master to the world, Miaofan Shitai's first reputation will be trampled under the feet of the Xu family, and she Xu Shu is too deeply bound with the world after all, and she can't enter the empty door!

"Why did Sister Zhinan suddenly ask this? You're a lobbyist for someone else, right? Xu Shu came back to her senses.

Gao Zhinan didn't hide it, "It was Sister Xu who asked me to come, she was afraid that you wouldn't be able to shave your ordination!" ”

Xu Shu sneered, "I just said that the eldest sister's tone was wrong when I left that day, it was for this, why did she think I would have such thoughts?" ”

"It's not just Big Sister Xu, even I thought you were really going to become a monk! You've made me feel ...... lately" After hesitating for a moment, Gao Zhinan thought of a more appropriate word to describe, "Sentimental!" It's as if you're about to leave us at any moment! ”

"It's just that I'm suddenly idle, and I'm a little at a loss!" Xu Shu touched the thin cocoon on the palm of her hand, which was thicker before, and it slowly became thinner after being idle, "Before I either found this door, or that one begged to come over, I worked hard every day, lest I disappoint other people's expectations and make it difficult for my grandmother and mother to be people, at that time, it was difficult to have a free time, I often couldn't help but think when I could be idle, I didn't have to do anything, how comfortable it should be, but when I was really idle, I couldn't help but miss the old days, it seems that I am a hard worker!" ”

At that time, Xu Shu was busy and didn't have time to think nonsense, unlike now when he is idle and empty!

"People always seem to be like this, coveting what they can't get, nostalgic for what they have lost, and never cherishing what they have in front of them!"