The night was heavy, the dream was heavy, and I finally saw how this man slept. He couldn't sleep at all, nightmares came from time to time, he closed his eyes tightly, he exerted all his strength, the green tendons on his forehead bulged, and his mouth murmured unconsciously.

I grabbed his hand, getting tighter and tighter each time.

In the second half of the night, he seemed to be able to sleep better at last. I didn't know that for some people, sleeping is like walking into hell on half a leg.

I lay on the edge of the couch and fell asleep before I knew it. Until the sky was bright, until Shen Yinan finally woke up.

"You know it all."

"Yes." I didn't get enough sleep, my brain was still a little drowsy, and my neck was sore. It's okay at night, but now after seeing the surroundings clearly during the day, I instinctively reject this place, and the smell of disinfectant water is everywhere.

I moved my neck and asked him, "I want to go back to Maodu, what about you?" “

He didn't seem to realize what I meant.

I definitely did it on purpose, taking that velvet box out of my bag, "Your combination lock, I cracked it." I took this, I haven't opened it, I guess it was given to me. ”

"Why do you want to set a date for our divorce?"

Shen Yinan did not evade, "Because I wanted to go back to that day and tore up the divorce certificate with my own hands." “

"It's useful to tear it up? Tear it up and you can guarantee that there won't be after these things happen? You don't have to make a choice, save one of me and Ling Xue? My last sentence was too sharp, and I said it anyway, knowing that saying it at this time would most likely provoke him.

Shen Yinan breathed heavily, "I can't guarantee it, Wen Ying, I finally know what happened to you." I hated myself, I wanted to save both. I always thought I was doing my best, but I was wrong in the first place. What can I do my best, what am I doing when you are most sad. ”

"So you can't get out even more? Don't be stupid, who else can you torture now besides torturing yourself and letting Ling Xue succeed? I'm not going to change my mind. Oh yes, I have to warn you that you've missed your appointment again. It seems that what you told me will never be fulfilled. This box shouldn't be so cliché that it contains a ring. “

I threw the box on him, "You and Ling Xue settle those pasts, those pasts, can you count them?" ”

"If you can't count it, you have to count it, I don't want to bear you anymore." He put his hands in his hair, and his expression was tired like he had never seen before, but there was a hint of relief in his eyes.

"But if Xu Ze hadn't stopped you, you wouldn't have been able to speak in front of me today. Do you think that with your emotions, you can handle Ling Xue? “

He couldn't stand it anymore, he pulled me into his arms hard, his chin was against my shoulder, I thought he would put away these vulnerabilities, but he didn't, he just spread out his uneasiness, unwillingness, remorse, and sadness in front of me, "But you don't want me anymore, no matter what I do." Since I saw you again, it's been much better, and yesterday it was out of control, because I knew that you had done so much to save her, and I simply pushed you to the point where there was no way out. “

"You haven't heard me say that, how do you know she's telling the truth? I'll tell you when I'm willing to say it. Unless you are willing to believe her and not what I say. ”

I tapped him on the shoulder, and he didn't let go of me.

"You've slept enough, haven't you, I'm sleepy, I want to go back to Maodu."

"I'll go back with you."

Needless to say, what he meant by going back together was that he didn't care about everything here in Jiangcheng at all. It's just that since he can think of coming back to make a complete reckoning with Ling Xue, why didn't he go to see Shen Junquan.

Xu Ze didn't know when he came, and he didn't know how long he waited outside, but he was relieved to see that Shen Yinan seemed to be back to normal. I know that this night was also an ordeal for him.

"Mr. Shen, ...... over there"

I glanced at Xu Ze, and Shen Yinan directly interrupted him: "As usual, hang with the best medicine." “

"I want to go see Shen Junquan."

Xu Ze was shocked, and Shen Yinan nodded.

Half an hour later, I showed up at Shen Junquan's nursing home with a xiaolongbao and soy milk in my hand. Shen Junquan was so thin that only a handful of bones remained, all on a ventilator.

When he saw me, he was so excited that the machine next to him made a sound several times.

"What are you anxious about? It's just that I'm not dead, so you don't need to make a fuss. "I took a xiaolongbao and put it in my mouth. I used to think that Jiangcheng's xiaolongbao was very delicious, but now I only feel greasy. I've really become accustomed to everything in Maudu.

"You didn't think this would be how you would end. I'm not here to gloat, but it's a rare time to come to Jiangcheng, and I don't know if I'll set foot in this place again in the future, so I'm just here to say hello to you. You've done so many wrong things in your life, but you let him carry it for you, are you really happy? Or is it that as long as you live up to yourself, everyone in the world, you can decide his life and death at will? For someone like you to stay in the world for a minute more is a blasphemy against the air. ”

"Don't worry, I'll take a good look at Shen Yinan for you. You're running out of time, and I, with a lot of time, take my time to correct what you've taught him, and little by little to turn him into what I want him to be. He will definitely not be a continuation of you, he will be much happier than you. “

I stood up and bowed deeply to him. I'm not wrong, there is still a lot of time in the rest of my life, no matter what the ending of me and Shen Yinan is, it is full of uncertainties, but it should always be that he and I have a new life.

Coming out of Shen Junquan's place, I heard the hurried footsteps of the doctors and nurses behind me, but Shen Yinanli didn't pay attention to it.

Sitting in the car to the airport, I looked at him deliberately, "You probably never thought that one day you would follow me so unhesitatingly." ”

"No, I've been thinking about it for two years."

Well, I'll keep my mouth shut. There are some things that I can just look at and don't have to put on my mouth.

But seeing him like that last night undeniably really scared me and worried me. Xu Ze said that he had never slept all night, and I don't know if he has been like last night every night for more than two years.

"What are you thinking?" Shen Yinan naturally held my hand in his palm.

I glanced at him and quietly pulled my hand out. Talking is talking, I don't think he'll touch my hand.

"Ling Xue told you to be relieved, are you very obedient?" I'm going to laugh or not. At the end of the day, you deserve it.

"I couldn't accept that you were no longer there, and yesterday, I couldn't forgive myself."

I wanted to ask him, what would he have been waiting upstairs for me last night if it hadn't been for that accident yesterday? What's in the velvet box? I had a gut feeling that it wasn't a ring, because Shen Yinan knew that I would definitely not make a promise easily.

Maybe it was my silence that kept him from talking, or maybe he was too tired to think of me, but neither of them spoke from here to the airport.

In fact, I was really tired, I didn't sleep much all night, and he was disturbed by nightmares on and off, and several struggles almost tore my hands off. I had to brace myself and look at him.

On the plane, I asked the stewardess to get a blanket, and then closed my eyes to rest, Shen Yinan gently pressed my head on his shoulder, I really didn't have the strength to move again, so I let him go.

I don't know when I arrived in Maodu, Shen Yinan woke me up, I was still sleepy after landing, and someone began to play to fish in the water, and his hand was frequently placed on my waist.

I held my eyelids and finally returned to the shore, and as soon as I put my belongings down, I couldn't get up as soon as I collapsed on the sofa.

In the past two years, I have been comfortable and comfortable, and I have hardly been so busy and hardworking, let alone the hard work I used to have, and staying up all night is the limit.

But wait, I suddenly opened my eyes and glanced at Shen Yinan standing on the edge of the sofa, I didn't seem to let him stay here?

"What do you want to eat?" His voice was very faint, but there was a hint of joy and joy in it, which I captured.

I was wary. I was worried about the pain last night, but I still haven't figured out what to do with him. I'm not willing to be good to him, and I can't get past myself if I'm bad to him.

"You're living upstairs." I don't remind you lightly.

He wasn't annoyed, he just said that he would go upstairs after cooking for me.

I slept until it got dark again, and this time I really slept full, and my body was very comfortable. The room was open, I was covered with my quilt, I got up and went to the dining table, and in the small clay pot were stewed pork ribs, although it was cold, but it could be eaten as soon as it was hot.

When did this person learn this hand? Didn't you know how to cook before? Anyway, I'm hungry, this thing is the best to eat, and if I can't eat it, I'll just make a noodle.

After heating it up, I thought it was delicious, how long did he stay in my kitchen before it was cooked?

After eating, I took a shower, changed into comfortable cotton loungewear, turned on my computer, and exported the reports of several stores. In a few days is New Year's Day, which represents the beginning of another year, and also means that from this period until the end of the year, it will be particularly busy.

It's definitely been a good year, and next year I'll have to figure out what I want to do. As I watched and calculated, by the time I had inadvertently filled a few pages, the night was getting late.

The doorbell rang, and I subconsciously thought it was the one upstairs. Look at the cat's eyes, really.

I only opened the door inside and looked at him through the security door.

He said lightly and a little innocently: "I can't sleep." ”

Doesn't your uncle always be unable to sleep, and now he can sleep when he comes to my door? What do you mean?

I deliberately choked him: "You slept well in Jiangcheng, maybe Mao is not suitable for you." ”

"Wen Ying," Shen Yinan deliberately let me see his snickering, "You know, it's because you're there." You're in me to really fall asleep. ”

Seriously, I'm not a soft-hearted person, but in the middle of the night, people are not suitable to make any decisions, and when he stands outside my door like this, I only think of him struggling last night, and my heart seems to want to be softer uncontrollably.

I opened the door and tried to say that I could only let him lie on the couch, but before I could say anything, he pressed it against the door.

His hand around my waist was tight and warm, and his head was buried in my neck socket for a long time.

I heard him say something dull and astringent, and a little grateful: "It's good that you're here, thank you for still being there." ”

I understand what that means, if there is no more Wen Ying in this world, Shen Yinan's deep depression will not see an end.

After Shen Yinan said this, he consciously went to lie on the sofa. My quilt was still on the couch and I didn't take it in, so he just pulled it up and covered it.

The night was as cold as water, and I stood on the balcony with my coat on, taking in the lights of Maodu. There is no hustle and bustle of Jiangcheng here, there is just the most ordinary tranquility, which is not at all like a place where a man like Shen Yinan will stay.

But he is here at the moment, like an ordinary man, in a woman's home, at a certain vulnerable time, he still needs this woman's comfort, which feels a bit special.

It was about two o'clock in the morning, when I was half dazed and half awake, Shen Yinan began to unconsciously struggle again: "Wen Ying......"

I subconsciously stroked his back, "Don't make any noise, I'm not leaving." ”