Time flies quickly, a week is about to pass in the blink of an eye, Li Xinyang still hasn't come back, what about me, I thought that time would dilute my sadness, but it turned out that I thought too much. Time did not make me slowly forget the feeling of sadness, on the contrary, because Li Xinyang was getting longer and longer, I didn't see him, and I felt even more uncomfortable. I haven't been in a good mood these days.

Today's class was very relaxed, and there was nothing to do, so I decided to go to East Lake at noon today to see the scenery I had seen. If the person who accompanies you is gone, then why don't you go and take a look at the scenery that you once saw with him?

This is my secret, I don't know if it will also be a secret hidden in Li Xinyang's heart. We have all been at a confused and ignorant age, and we have all beckoned to the melody of youth. Youth is a train that never returns, it can only keep running forward, there is no end, and there is no turning back.

The sky was still blue, but there was one less person to watch with me. The sea, I still hate it, his fishy smell, if there is no natural fishy smell, maybe, I will also fall in love with that, the vast blue ocean! Li Xinyang, the world has not changed at all, why are you no longer by my side?

I want to cry, I want to cry out loud. You don't know how many times I've been alone in the past few days, at home, secretly wiping my tears in the bedroom. You don't know, I don't dare to cry out loud at home, even if I have tears, I have to go to the faucet and pretend that I am washing my face. My feelings for you are really too small. I can't let anyone, the person who accompanies me, be sad. That's my mom, that's my dad, I can't cry in front of them and make them worry!

How many times have I tried to persuade myself, give up, sometimes, those don't necessarily belong to you. But I don't want to, I just want to say, why did I have to hold on to something, whether it was you or something else, why did I end up leaving me? What am I doing wrong? Why can't I have all the things in this world that I care about? Could it be that all of this is my whimsical?

I don't want to, I don't, but why can't? I want to cry, I want to cry out loud, do I want to be taken captive? I just want to cry silently in one place. To be honest, although I have been feeling uncomfortable in my heart for so many days, I haven't cried out loud yet. Because, I am always accompanied by familiar people, when I go to school, when I come home from school, there is my father and my mother, I don't want me to cry out and let the people around me worry about me.

I don't want my sadness, my sadness, to bring pain to others. If that's the case, I'd rather grieve alone for the rest of my life, and I will never show it, I won't let others see that I'm a little sad, I just need to cry silently in a place where no one knows.

Actually, I can really feel that she seems to know that I have been in a sad mood recently. In the past, she could always tease me with three sentences about how Li Xinyang was, but in the past few days, she has never mentioned the word Li Xinyang. Even Zhang Xiaoyan, she rarely mentions it in front of me.

Perhaps, really, I'm worried about my feelings. Or maybe it's Zhang Moran, who is no longer willing to mention any familiar names in front of me. After all, after Li Xinyang left, especially in the past few days when I went to school, I seemed to be a different person. Even I feel that way. Usually Mo Ran chats with me, and I'm always happy to talk back. But in the last few days, I'm no longer willing to deal with Mo Ran. Sure enough, it's me, has it really changed? Could it be that Li Xinyang left because of this?

Although I know that Li Xinyang's departure is just to study. He needed a bigger future, and his grades, his Olympiad awards, were enough to get him out of the high school where he didn't have much development. No, there was a university that sent him an invitation, so he left here and went to that university to study high school.

Although I know that it is a journey for Li Xinyang to chase his dreams. However, maybe I'm really selfish, I really, I don't want to hope that Li Xinyang will go to other places to study. But I thought about it again and realized that if I really thought so, wouldn't it be too selfish. That's about Li Xinyang's future, I can't let Li Xinyang give up the right to chase his dreams because of his momentary selfishness.

Now that I think about it, who am I Li Xinyang? Maybe it's all my own fantasy. The so-called fantasy is always so much more perfect than reality. It's not that if you think about it, you can achieve it. After all, this is a realistic and skinny world, and no one will dream about what will happen in reality.

Noon soon arrived, and I walked out of the school gate alone, along the road, and walked to the side of East Lake. It seems that the water of East Lake has not completely melted. The current temperature is also quite cold, at least I feel that the temperature has dropped significantly today. The kind that is very cold and cold. There's not a bit of green, there's not a bit of flow. At this moment, the East Lake is very quiet. Even people are scarce.

I walked along the edge of East Lake and looked at the lake that was still frozen in ice. My heart suddenly calmed down, and sure enough, because I came to a familiar place and came to an environment that had experienced vicissitudes, would my mood also change accordingly?

I don't know what happened to this change, but what should have changed and what shouldn't have changed have also changed a little. This world still hasn't undergone some changes in essence or changes because of our group, weak individuals.

The world is still magnificent, and the people around you are still here, not gone. It's just that because of a small change, or a butterfly effect will occur, and then leave, and then fade, and then it will not be lost! I stood in Li Xinyang, the place where I used to tell the secret, looking at the still frozen lake, and I had a lot of words in my heart, and I wanted to say it to him personally.

Now I don't dream anymore. I only hope that Li Xinyang can tell me a little, just a little, about him. As long as I know a little bit about him, I'm satisfied. Seriously, it's not right to be selfish. As for me, although I want to be with him all the time, but that's impossible.

I hope he can be happy, he can be happy, and that's all.

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