I saw a little stick passing by, and I picked it up and pumped it at him, and he was pumped in the face, and his face turned red instantly, and his lips moved, and he didn't say anything, and stood there like a piece of wood.

"I don't bother to argue with you about things that don't make sense, I'm wholeheartedly for your good, I used to be the same as you, just in the previous life, I was also crazy about a woman, and I lost my life several times in a row, at that time I thought I would never take the initiative to let go of her, but I finally let go of her, and I decided."

When he said this, he actually cried, my hand holding the stick kept shaking, and I cried too, for no reason, but I still wanted to continue to be strong.

"Alright, I don't want to listen to you say that again!" I wiped tears from my face and said.

"Why are you still lying to yourself? In fact, you yourself have already known that love is a poison wrapped in honey, which makes you relax your guard, confuses your heart, and then drags you down forever. He said loudly.

I covered my ears, I didn't want to listen to him at all, but he still chattered, at first I could hear him clearly, and then my brain became very chaotic, and it hurt for a while, and my ears began to buzz, and I couldn't hear half a word of what he said, only his mouth kept moving.

"It's annoying... Shoot him... Shoot him... After beating him to death, use a knife to cut off his flesh little by little and make him into a meat puree! Who called him so nasty. "This evil thought rose in my heart.

I didn't know how I could think that, I was taken aback by the thought.

"Calm down... Don't do anything out of the ordinary... Fang Ming, you have done a lot of wrong things before, you can't make mistakes again, you are already an adult, not a child, you should be responsible for your own consequences. "I soothe myself with reason.

"Calm down, people have been bullied to the end, do you still have to endure it? You're a coward! Have you forgotten? In the company, you are a gas bag, you are called by people every day, and the performance that is about to arrive will be snatched away by them, so that you can only be at the bottom when you should have achieved the ranking, at home, you are also obedient to Chen Lin in everything, what clothes she tells you to wear, what kind of facial cleanser she tells you to use, what kind of facial cleanser do you use, there is no claim of your own, in front of Jiahui, you are always played by others, you are still not a man? It's so supple, I think it's good for you to just buy a floral dress to be a woman, it's useless to grow that thing anyway. The evil thought in my heart began to speak to me again, and every word he said pierced my heart.

Oh, yes... When I was in the company, in order to maintain my good image, I was so humble at all times, which led to the loss of a lot of performance in vain, and I was called by others, and I never looked like a man in front of Chen Lin, I followed her ass all day long... When I experienced those things, I always comforted myself vigorously, it's okay to suffer a loss, it's a blessing to suffer a loss, but the dissatisfaction that was suppressed at the bottom accumulates more and more, I really want to look up to the sky and shout - why can't I be selfish?!

"So, he's something, kill him!" That evil thought took advantage of this time and began to stir me up.

"No... Fang Ming, you have to suppress this thought in your heart again, you have to be a good person! ”

"Fang Ming, you have no obligation to be a good person, life is only a few short decades, and you still don't think about yourself? You see that the person in front of you is so annoying, he is questioning the sincere love between you and Chen Lin, you can bear Chen Lin can't bear it, if Chen Lin is standing here at this time, she would have done it a long time ago! ”

"She won't, Fang Ming, you must not believe this kind of fallacy and heresy, even if you are a man in front of you, there is a very big gap between your thoughts and you, you have to communicate with him well, you can't use violence to solve everything, violence can't cure the problem!"

"But violence can make people feel cool, isn't the most important thing in life to make yourself happy?"

These two voices are constantly arguing in my heart, and when I listen to that evil thought, I think what he said makes sense, life is short, why not be true to yourself? But the idea of kindness is also very reasonable, since being a human being, there is an essential difference between him and those animals, how can he only think about himself? One should emulate the sages and be magnanimous in order to assume one's own human identity.

But... Ah! I'm really struggling, which statement should I believe?

"Enough!" I yelled, suppressing both thoughts, and then raised the thin stick in my hand again and slammed it at him like crazy.

I don't know exactly what kind of thought I believed, but I really needed to vent my anger, it had been in my body for a long, long time, but if I didn't, I felt like I was going to be driven crazy.

"Ahh - I shouted with all my might, and my eyes were red.

Who am I? Where am I? What am I doing? I don't know all these questions, I just instinctively vent my emotions, at this moment I just want to take off my clothes, be a beast, tear the prey with a mouth with sharp teeth, attack the enemy fiercely with sharp claws, leave no room for the other party, I don't want to care about anything anymore, and I don't want to be a good bullshit guy anymore...

"Kill you, Lao Tzu beat you to death! Killed..."

After the most impulsive period, my physical strength was slowly exhausted, and I did not have the strength to fight any further, and it was only then that my sanity gradually began to recover.

I finally saw what was in front of me.

He, the man in the white coat, all the exposed places on his body were red, whether it was on his face, hands or neck, one after another scars were raised, like the lines left by an airplane crossing the blue sky, and blood flowed out of the broken skin, although there was no blood in some places, it had turned black and purple, and the places wrapped in clothes were also damaged a lot.

And he himself, not hateful or hateful, still looked at me so calmly, there was even a little smile on the corner of his mouth, my attack on him did not change his original mood at all! At this moment, I was confused.

I thought he would be furious and beat me to the ground, or he would run away and ignore me again, but he didn't do anything, just a piece of wood, let me beat me, let me scold, what the hell is he?!

In fact, I know how much strength I have, after Chen Lin left, my mood fell to the bottom, and I lost my job because of low mood, no source of livelihood, three meals for a long time are not normal, sometimes only one meal in a few days, plus day and night upside down, in the underworld and the world continuous shuttle, and was robbed of a lot of yang energy by female ghosts, often people are not ghosts, if it weren't for Li Bo and the old beggar two people to give me tireless stew of various Chinese medicines, I would have gone to the underworld to reincarnate.

It didn't get better until I started working in Jiahui's pet store, but I was still pulled by my longing heart, and I couldn't return to my previous state of health.