Mo Ran, is she really dead? I can't believe my eyes, I don't want to believe it's true! This can never be true! The friendship I've just regained! I thought, I thought it would last a lifetime! Why is this happening, I just saw Mo Ran for three days, and after only three days, did she leave me? I can't accept this cruel reality, but what can I do if I don't? I don't know what to do anymore. Do you have to accept this so-called arrangement from God?

I don't know, is this reality that I accept really what I want to accept? Or many years later, in retrospect, I will start to loathe myself, I will start to loathe myself, these choices I made when I was younger! I don't know why those things are happening! Maybe it's something I'll never figure out! It's like reality, and I can't imagine it.

With such a feeling, I went to Moran's funeral. It was a mournful, really sad funeral. Bouquets of wreaths were placed on both sides of the funeral site. I don't know why, standing there, I suddenly couldn't cry. People who are sad to a certain extent can't cry! I was standing in front of Moran's black-and-white photo, just clubbing, I really didn't know what to do! My memory is still in high school, when the two of us ran to the water room together and took physical education class together.

However, the old days are gone. Our present, or our future, has been frozen in the evening of that day, and Mo Ran's slightly trembling hand took my hand, and then slowly lost strength, and fell asleep without saying a word. She left me forever, and she really left me forever.

I watched her and left this world. Our promise has never been fulfilled again in this life. We don't have the best friends we can be for life. Are we just passing by? I don't believe God would do this to us. We are not just passers-by in each other's lives, we are each other's friends, and we are the friends that each other can rely on the most!

When the funeral was over, Mo Ran's mother handed me a notebook, which was a few paragraphs that Mo Ran wrote to me. The notebook was empty, just a few sentences. Those words are written like this: Yongning, when you saw this book, I was no longer there. I don't know if there is a chance to get your forgiveness in this life, if, if you have forgiven me, then please replace me, bring this notebook, write down what you see, and treat it as if I am with you forever!

Why, to write such sensational words! I don't want to cry at all, why do you have to make me cry! I obviously haven't been able to keep my promises, so why are you telling me these words! I hugged the notebook and cried! Obviously, you don't need to say it, Zhang Moran, you are not here, you are not with me, why do you still do these things to deceive my tears!

I left, I left the city again. Nowadays, there is nothing in this city, there is no one who can be missed. I don't care about anything anymore, so why don't I leave this sad place of right and wrong?

When I left here, I went back to college. Suddenly, the wound that seemed to have just been healed was torn apart again. I don't know how long this mood should last. Maybe it's a lifetime, maybe it's a year or two, maybe it's a few hundred days, maybe tomorrow I'll forget those pains! Perhaps, where did so many maybes come from!

Instantly, I felt that college life was so difficult! It's really too difficult, I don't know how to describe it, when I used to spend every day, I didn't feel much, there was a feeling of living like a year, but now, it's really a feeling of living like a year!

I don't know what I'm going to do. Have I lost a lot of things in my so-called life? All I care about is really gone! I see, all of a sudden, I understand something, I hope that my world will not have such sad stories again! I just want to spend the rest of my life well, there are no more stories that make me feel bad, I'm just an ordinary person, I'm not a god, I can't be happy after being hit so hard.

I'm a person who can't accept the pain. I'm just an ordinary person in this world. What reason and qualifications do I have to judge those things? I'm really, just a self I can't understand.

The puppet is bored and flashes in a hurry. Four years of college, and suddenly it felt fast, and it was suddenly over at that moment. I don't know what to say, but it's always hard to achieve what you care about, and what you don't like, what you don't care about, always starts to flash around you!

After college, I started looking for a job all over the street. Unfortunately, maybe it's my personality! I searched for fifteen companies, but none of them were successful. So, I'm not looking for it anymore. Those, there is no such thing as a story at all, just let her disappear! Not being able to get a job early is indeed a big disadvantage for me!

I don't know what I'm going to do next. It's really confusing! It's like, here I'm standing, there's a bridge between the two of them, but the bridge is broken. I'm on this side of the bridge and don't know what to do. It's really boring to the extreme, I think of such a bunch of things!

I don't have a job, I'm still going to look for it! I may not be able to find a suitable job, but I don't want to rely on my mom and my dad, I want to live independently. It's a big deal to work more jobs and do more part-time jobs. Here, I can still support myself. It's just that I've been learning computer knowledge for several years. Maybe one day, my life will suddenly change, and someone will make an offer for me.

Talking and thinking, thinking about it, sure enough, the offer came. It was a technology company that took a fancy to my computer science skills and invited me to participate in one of their company's game projects. Let me report to the company this Friday, and then I don't need to intern, and go directly to the project work.

This news is really good news for me. I don't know what to say, but after so many rejections, I couldn't be happier to have a place to take me in and let me go there, use what I've learned, solve work problems, and go straight to work on projects!

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