It's really mysterious, he hasn't been able to think of it, he just can't think of it in this life, his people are safe.

But why all of a sudden, just like that? Definitely stimulated.

I asked Song You to find Ma Miancheng, he and Lu Huainian have never dealt with each other.

And I, I went through all the places I thought of, and still found nothing.

Lu Huainian, where are you?

Zhou Yixuan and Lu Sinian called me over and over again, and I was annoyed, "If I find it, I will tell you, don't call again, delay finding someone." “

Finally, there was no more calling, and I was next to the guardrail by the river, catching my breath.

I still remember the picture of his stomach ache when he came down from the Jiangxing that night, and now I have come to this place again. Lu Huainian, if he remembered the past, he would naturally know that I was Liu Ran.

But he didn't look for me, does that mean that he didn't quite remember it? Maybe it's just some snippet, maybe it's something, someone, but there's no me in it?

The more this happens, the harder it is for me to appear in front of him.

Why should I remind him of what kind of person he has become and what he has done to me after his amnesia.

The mobile phone suddenly rang loudly, and Song You called, "Wen Ying, Lu Huainian's dash cam, I look very strange." ”

"Where are you?"

"I just got back to the studio, are you coming?"

"Hmm."

I was tired enough, and Lao Song took me to Song You's studio again. Actually, at this point, I was a little tired, hungry, but I didn't have any appetite at all.

Guarding the dash cam, my brain was even more dizzy, and I couldn't get rid of the fog in front of me at all.

Song You saw that something was wrong with me, and when he came back from a trip, he bought all high-calorie things, and I dried two egg tarts and a glass of milk in one go, and after a while, my spirit slowly returned.

There have been too many things that have happened in the past few days, and the mental tiredness is more than the physical tiredness. So Lu Huainian, you'd better not have anything to do.

I looked at the dashcam again, and this time, I had a vague direction.

"Song You, I think I know where he is."

"Then we'll go now."

I shook my head, "No, I'll go by myself." If he's there, it's probably the worst-case scenario. I'll tell you when I hear from me, and his family. ”

Song You was obviously not at ease, but he also understood that I would never exaggerate, and if it wasn't for the worst situation, why would I face it myself.

Taking a deep breath, I walked out of Song You's studio.

This time I didn't let Lao Song take me, Lu Huainian recognized my car, I don't know how he would react when he saw me, for the sake of prudence, I called over.

Along the way, I can't keep my soul, what identity should I use to see Lu Huainian, what do I want to say to him in the first sentence, is this counted, our real reunion?

The radio is playing a song that can't be too old," ...... Sweetly with your lover, running in the wind, cheering loudly that you have affection, not in vain in this life, a voice you are willing, a voice I am willing, and there is no regret in shocking love. …… Some love turns into hate, and more love stories are moving, with a hint of beauty. “

I rubbed my hands, but my palms were cold in the heat.

The driver turned up the air-conditioner, increased the speed twice, and soon came to the place.

I paid for the car and put on a pair of sunglasses. This place has changed a lot, but many years have passed, and there is no longer the remoteness and desolation of that time.

Actually, I instinctively resisted coming back to this place, so after all these years, I really haven't come back. It's a terrible presence in my memory.

That night, the fear of Tarzan collapsing in front of me, and the despair of tomorrow will end, brought me a shadow that will never be removed in this life. How strong does it take to have a strong heart to come out?

I think it took so many years to come out, and I am only halfway out, so what about Lu Huainian, how does he feel when he thinks of this car accident again?

It's cruel.

I closed my eyes and walked further, vaguely remembering that the place where the accident happened was not far away.

Perhaps because of the tragedy of the car accident, or perhaps because of the subsequent car accident, this place has made a lot of improvements, many signs to slow down and be careful, and even indicate that it is an accident-prone place, and set up cameras, so passing cars have to slow down.

When I look at this now, it's like a lifetime away.

Lu Huainian sat on a small hillside not far away, looking at the cars coming and going, as if petrified, with a terrifying empty expression. I think I can feel his grief.

I suddenly didn't dare to approach him. What am I going to tell him? As another person involved in this car accident, I remember it from beginning to end, and he, from not remembering to remembering, this transition is obviously much more difficult than mine.

I stopped and looked at Lu Huainian from a short distance.

As if sensing my gaze, he tilted his head to catch my gaze.

The world seemed to stand still at this moment, and even breathing slowed down, as if it was about to stop.

My feet seemed to be pinned to the ground, and I couldn't walk, and he didn't mean to come to me. We looked at each other like this, I don't know what he saw, but what I saw was the vicissitudes of life in front of me.

Turning around is the end of the world.

I thought I was going to cry, but in fact, I couldn't cry anymore. The mood is indeed sad, but it's okay. That kind of emotion that was too heavy, it seems that at this moment, it has also become very light.

Except for life and death, the rest are trivial.

I walked slowly towards him, and Lu Huainian stepped down a few steps from the small hill.

I have thought more than once what it would be like if he remembered me. And now, neither sad nor happy.

"You, remember?" No matter how cliché it is, I still ask this first question.

Lu Huainian did not lose his armor as I imagined, maybe the precipitation of the past few years has taught him that silence is the best attitude.

It was a long time before he said, "Yes, I remembered, all." ”

After that, there was another dead silence. I didn't know what to say to him, as if it was too much.

It was Lu Huainian who spoke again: "I have a question I want to ask you." ”

"You ask."

"At that time, I asked you, do you know me, why don't you admit it?"

He didn't mention it, and I forgot that there was such a time. It was probably the first time that he noticed something, so he found the source and asked me something like this. But I not only denied it, I also stimulated him.

"I can't admit it, I can't admit it." In everything I do, I think about the consequences, and the few times I do it, it is indeed impulsive, so that when I pay the bill, it hurts so much.

If I had confessed at that time, would he and I have recognized each other in advance? It doesn't, it makes things even more out of control.

"How do you know that what you did for me is what I want? Liu Ran, I can't accuse you of anything, I blame myself, damn it, damn it. If I had been the one who died in the car accident, wouldn't there have been so many things? “

"Don't drill the horns, Lu Huainian." I wrinkled my eyebrows, I didn't like to hear him say that. Neither of them died, that is, God is extraordinarily gracious, and they must always live contentmently.

He suddenly burst out laughing and couldn't stop laughing, "It turns out that the most pitiful person in this world is me." Everyone hid from me and protected me. “

"Yes, those who care about it will hide it from you, and those who don't care will want you to die."

"Give Zhou Yixuan and Lu Sinian a message, your family only has them."

Lu Huainian's gaze was like a knife, "How did you say such calm words?" My family is only them, but what about you? You do so much and never thought you'd stay with me, right? ”

I sighed faintly, "I once thought about it, but in reality, how can it be as people wish?" Lu Huainian, go back, since you think about it, you should take your own responsibility. Don't forget, you and I have a gambling contract about the Lu family. ”

"Lu, what a funny Lu. The Lu family, which I never cared about before, has become a belief that I want to live for in recent years. Isn't it hard for you to look at me like this? Liu Ran, what is your heart made of, it's not uncomfortable to watch me marry Zhou Yixuan? ”

Isn't it uncomfortable? If you are the same, is it not uncomfortable.

"I've thought about it, desperate to stop it, but don't forget, it's me on one side, Lu Jianbang on the other, don't say you don't think about it, even if you think about it now, who will you stand on? I know you too well, you failed Lu Jianbang once, you won't want to let him down a second time. When I made a fuss about your wedding, I also fantasized about whether you would think of me, whether you would remember your promise, but no, you didn't remember anything. ”

When it comes to the loneliness and desolation of walking alone in the dark, even if he understands it, can he feel it?

"Go back, you and I, if you have more, you will be rescued as early as that year, and my name is engraved on the tomb, and you can't say it at all. Guarding the source for you is what I want to do, and it is also my fulfillment of my promise, you don't need to have too much psychological burden, because today's source of products also has my hard work. ”

Lu Huainian's eyes were red, his green muscles were bulging, and he was trying his best to endure something.

I understand, I understand. The former Lu Huainian is back, I should have breathed a sigh of relief, but damn it, I actually think that it is better for him to be the cold-hearted Lu Huainian, at least, he doesn't have to think about these pasts anymore.

I hurt once, it hurt like cramps and broken bones, is he like that now? The debts owed must always be repaid, Lu Huainian. I can't bear this part for you, because that's how I gritted my teeth and came here.

I'm not good at facing these at all, sensational, throbbing, sad, from before to now, I've never been good at it, so Lu Huainian, it's better for me to take a step first.

"Liu Ran."

My hairs stood on end, the name came out of his mouth, and I always had the feeling that he was calling someone else.

"Can you hug it before leaving?"

I haven't come back to my senses yet, Lu Huainian's arms have quietly arrived, with him and me for half of their lives, sandwiched between their respective grievances and hatreds, and finally, reconciled with each other and themselves.

My heart was immediately grabbed by a pair of invisible hands, and my eyes were sour.

The boy is like this, and the boy is not yesterday.

The most painful thing is that we can't go back.