"I don't know."

I don't really know how to describe my heart. I kept trying to convince myself countless times, to believe in him, to get close to him, to integrate into him, but whenever I really touched him and integrated into him, the heart in my body and the heart in his body seemed to have a plastic film on each other.

This film of his would make me suddenly startle and retract to my own hand that I wanted to touch.

It's like the long list of poems that Long Qianye suddenly left halfway through when I was dancing with Fang Yan, and to be honest, I really didn't understand what those obscure poems meant at first, but Fang Yan answered it for me.

She held the wine glass and suddenly placed her hand on the top of my hand when I touched the cup, covering my hand tightly, she said: The mountain has trees and branches, and the heart is happy, and you don't know, in the Lechuan River, next to the Sansheng Stone, on the bridge, in the boy forest, it's very strange, I still love you.

She, a woman, how could she say these extremely ambiguous words to me, so I can imagine it with my toes, there is only one truth, because after being reminded by the dialect, I almost woke up, maybe these words were said by Long Qianye. The long list of poems he recited, the first word of each line of the poem was all connected to form this poem. Taken apart, the whole poem he read, the words spoken in tongues.

The mountains have trees and branches,

I don't know.

In the Lethe River,

Next to the Sansheng Stone.

On the bridge,

In the boy forest.

It's weird,

I still love you.

Come to think of it, the mountains have trees and branches, and the heart is happy. This sentence is actually not like what Long Qianye explained, what mountain has trees and branches on trees, but it should be a love poem, right?

In the Lechuan River, next to the Sansheng Stone, on the bridge, these images can only be seen by the dead, and Long Qianye himself said that in the last life, in order to save the woman named Hua Niansheng, in order to protect her well, he was willing to suck her own essence without any perception of the flooding of demons in her heart, quietly, and died in her arms.

He also said that he had waited for her for a long, long time, so long that he couldn't count the days. So at the end, he suddenly added a boy forest, it's very strange, I still love you, it will obviously make people think about it.

So the question is, is he in love with me or the woman named Hua Niansheng?

It's not that I'm not confident in myself, it's that he doesn't give me enough confidence to believe in myself! He has loved Hua Niansheng for so long, and has waited for her for so long, how can he say that he loves if he doesn't love? That's counterintuitive, isn't it?

So, I'm afraid that after I dissect a heart to others without reservation, I still can't get rid of the fate of becoming a substitute for others.

Even if I am reincarnated from one of Hua Niansheng's three souls, we are two completely different people, why should I always live in the shadow of Hua Niansheng? I just want to be myself and just myself!

I am neither able to read or tell fortunes, I am not sure what my future will look like, and I have no clairvoyance and mind reading skills to penetrate his body with external force to see what he is thinking.

When I thought of how frightened and helpless I was when Long Qianye had just made me the carrier of Mu Jinhuan's soul and used me as Mu Jinhuan's stand-in to forcibly ask me, so I didn't want the tragedy of the day to happen again.

That's right, Mu Jinhuan. Thinking of Mu Jinhuan, this makes me even more confused, Long Qianye obviously loves Hua Niansheng, why did he like Mu Jinhuan again, and now, he said that he likes me, how many women can he fit in his heart? Did he say the same thing to Mu Jinhuan to Mu Jinhuan at some point in the past as he did to me?

If this is really the case, then how deep and terrible the man in front of him, who seems to be calm and harmless to humans and animals on the surface!

"Okay, Hongu asks you, do you like Hongu?"

Without hesitation, I replied to Long Qianye, "Yes." ”

"If this palace says that this palace doesn't believe it, how do you feel?"

"I ......"

This stumped me...... If he doesn't believe me, I believe I will never die......!!

"Anyway, if I like it, I like it, if I don't like it, I don't like it, if you don't believe it, then I'm helpless. It's not easy for me to live, so there's no need to please you. ”

"Look, you're still like this yourself, what do you make Hongu think?"

"That's probably only God knows, you know......"

“…… Hongu told you to be serious, don't be naughty. ”

"I don't have it, it's a matter of facts."

"Good! Then let's have a real matter-of-fact discussion. If you don't untie the knot in your heart today, you may not be able to doubt this palace. ”

"Then you say, I'll listen to you."

It's okay to spread out everything and make it clear, but you can't accept it if you hide it.

"No, this is such a difficult question, are you sure we're going to talk about it here?"

I was surrounded by courtiers and nobles who opposed me and Long Qianye, and I and Long Qianye were chirping here for most of the day, and they didn't say anything to destroy it, which is already considered to be polite and benevolent, I don't dare to expect these people to have no opinion on my intimate contact with Long Qianye......

"Come with Hongu."

"Where to ......"

I looked at Long Qianye suspiciously, and then looked at the courtiers and nobles behind me who saw me and Long Qianye both getting up from the seats and holding small hands and staring at us in a daze, feeling embarrassed and embarrassed inexplicably......!!

I feel that this birthday party is too unusual...... It's quarrels and quarrels, all kinds of quarrels, there is no good dragon meat, no dragon liver, no dragon lungs, anyway, I didn't see a single hair, I didn't eat anything on a trip, and I set up so many enemies for myself, I feel that I am really full...... But when I think about it, I wasn't full at all......

Since I was hungry in the morning, I ate a piece of pastry fed by Long Qianye and drank a few glasses of wine!!

"This palace and Xiao Fan'er have important matters to discuss, and everyone loves Qing and is at will."

After saying that, Long Qianye pulled me away.

My God, this is the inner sanctum?? These furnishings are also a little extravagant, right?

Whether it is the grand gate and high beams, the round arched windows made of coral, or the glittering crystal stone at the corner, they all show grace and luxury. The continuous arches and cloisters are even more exciting. Elegant and exquisite, there is no lack of comfort, plastered wooden frames and pillar decorations, some floating algae clinging to them and the placement of house appliances and appliances are all in contrast to each other, how to see, how beautiful.

Especially the feeling of being in it as if you are far away from all the hustle and bustle of the city, the feeling of tranquility is really impressive!

"This is the inner hall of the palace, do you still like Xiao Fan'er?"

"That's not like it, it's just that I like it so much, I've never seen such a prosperous house."

"It's okay, everything that this palace has is Xiao Fan'er's, if you want anything, tell this palace in time, this palace will definitely do its best to meet Xiao Fan'er's needs."

Forehead...... Why do I think what Long Qianye said seems a little wrong......

"Just now Fang Yan came into the inner hall to change clothes, did you also come here?"

"How is that possible? What's going on in your head...... These inner sanctuaries are all independent. This inner sanctum, where it leads, leads to the dormitory of the main palace, and the inner sanctuary of the dialect of course also leads to the palace where she lives. ”

I thought it was so...... Scared the hell out of me!!

I smiled awkwardly, "That'...... Let's continue with the topic we just had. ”

Long Qianye pulled me to sit on the stone bench, and then slowly said to me.

"This palace kills and drinks blood in mortal dust, not to become a demon, but to protect her, and in the end it still can't withstand the tricks of heaven's will. During the period when the soul of death in the last life of the main palace returned to the underworld, he stayed on the bank of the Lechuan River day and night and did not dare to leave half a step, not for reincarnation, but to meet and accompany Nian Sheng on the way. But the palace waited for her for tens of thousands of years, but she didn't know that she actually turned into a flower on the other side of the river, hiding day and night and repeatedly painting the riverside, and the palace and him were accompanied day and night, but they didn't know each other. ”

"A billion mortal reincarnation, so many entanglements in the world, have faded with the reincarnation, only the palace, still wandering on the side, obsessively do not forget the past, remember that she once had a wish in the cardamom year, a lifetime of life and death companionship, alone in the cold platform lonely, see all those dead people one by one walked through the hometown, on the other side of the Yellow Spring to find her eyebrows, but I don't know that she went all the way to the west to worship Bodhi and become a Buddha."

"In the relationship, I am most afraid of being disappointed every time, and my heart will become cold little by little. Every time, Hongu is one step late, either missed or one step late. Relive a life, countless days and nights, stirring the palace can not swallow, can not sleep, since seeing the mandala Buddha Nian Sheng, the palace has completely woken up, the reason why the palace is so memorable to the Nian Sheng, is just those stubborn, those unconvinced, those entangled, in support. I once thought I couldn't go out, but now I can't go back, so this palace wants to throw them all away and welcome a new beginning with you. Now, do you understand? ”

Okay, I probably understand Hua Niansheng. But what about Mu Jinhuan, I am extremely eager to know, what does he think of Mu Jinhuan?

"What about Mu Jinhuan?"

"It's just that the palace searched all the graves, not for a long sleep, and found the already decayed face of Nian Sheng, and then overturned one of the souls of Nian Sheng's reincarnation that the palace had worked so hard to find into that face. Counting this time, she was accidentally injured and died by your father, and she died twice. She's very good, but many times, Bengong doesn't feel anything about him, and just deliberately sees her as Niansheng. ”

"What about me?"