He's really that kind of thing, everything is hidden deep in his heart, and he won't confide in others easily. Take the tears that fell from his tears today, crying more than any woman I am, presumably except for me, he is such a proud person, he should never show such a vulnerable side in front of outsiders, right?

The child is not mine alone, he is the child's father, my heart hurts, his heart should be more painful than mine, either choose the child, or choose his mother, this dilemma, put on anyone has to collapse.

"Ulla, let it out."

"Ula Ula ~ Master, Ula is here~"

…… This guy actually got out of Long Chino's sleeve......!!

"What are you doing in a daze, give me the medicine."

"Ulaula ~ Master, I'm sorry, it was His Royal Highness the Crown Prince who saved Ula, for the sake of His Royal Highness the Prince, Ula had no other choice but to cast a peach and repay it with Li ......"

Seeing that Ula thought I was going to blame it, and that she was about to cry, I hurriedly stopped, "Don't say it, give me the medicine." ”

It can repay kindness, and it is also excellent.

Ula looked at Long Qianye, then at me, and finally waved the small green leaf shaped like a hand on its side, and a pill the size of a fingernail appeared in front of my eyes.

"How are you going to get my baby out of my belly?"

"Ulaula~ drain the essence of the little master, and it will no longer exist."

Hearing this, my long-stored tears came out of my eyes again, and I covered my mouth and tried not to cry out loud.

I once swore that I could give everything for this child, but now, I want to give it up ruthlessly, and my heart hurts to the extreme, almost choking to the point of suffocation.

"After taking this pill, I really can't feel anything?"

"Ula Ullah~ Yes."

"Then I don't want to eat it."

If nothing else, I want to accompany it to the end. I cruelly abandon it, I should suffer the pain, I have to suffer!

"Xiao Fan'er, be obedient."

"I want to be with it until the end."

"But you won't be able to hold on."

"It's okay, I can bear it."

In the end, Long Qianye couldn't help me, so he had to give up.

Ulla told me to lie flat on the bed, and then, its whole body glowed blue-purple, and then with a slight wave of the small green leaf on its side shaped like a hand, the blue-purple light turned into a palm-sized crystal clear bead, and in the blink of an eye, the bead came straight at me as if it had eyes, and shrouded the upper end of my abdomen!

"Little Fan'er, take a deep breath and try to calm your heart."

I did.

The blue-purple dazzling light made the whole room unusually bright, and at the same time stimulated my eyes not very much to open, and gradually, I seemed to feel the baby's very powerful fetal movement, giving me an unprecedented sense of strength! At that time, I was thinking, is it going to be launched?

It was as if something was about to rush out of my body, and it was uncontrollable, and then the pain was very obvious, and then the pain intensified! The pain was indescribable, so much so that in the end, it hurt me to breathe.

Looking at the tears hidden in Long Qianye's eyes, and the anxious emotions he wanted to hide but couldn't hide, I gritted my teeth and endured the intense pain that seemed to tear my whole person apart, until the pain was so painful that I couldn't resist it, I couldn't help but tear out, "Pain...... It hurts, Long Qianye, I ...... Me, I'm in so much pain......"

Long Qianye turned a deaf ear, turned his back to me in vain, and I vaguely saw that his broad shoulders seemed to be trembling slightly.

"Ula Ula ~ Master, look at you, let you take medicine and you don't take it, now you know that it hurts. Be quiet, startle the master The child in your belly may not come out. ”

Ula didn't let me shout, didn't let me scream, I only secretly exerted, ten fingers tightly clasped in the palm of my hand, almost pinching my palm!

At this moment, I clearly realized that I had a strong desire for Long Qianye to look back at me, and then scold Ula to stop.

But after all, it was just a fantasy for me.

He just stood with his back to me and didn't say anything, I guess he was probably shedding tears with his back to me, right?

But what's the use of crying? The child will never come back. Never, never come back!

I don't know whether to call him incompetent, or whether to say that I am useless, and perhaps, he and I are useless. He is such a powerful person, in front of his mother, my children and I seem to be less than half the weight of his mother in his heart, right? It's just that I care so much about his mood, I care about his feelings, and I don't want him to be sad.

It seems that in the face of many things, we are helpless.

Because of the pain, my vision was blurred until I could no longer see his soul-stirring poignant back.

Before I fell unconscious, I vaguely heard Long Qianye whispering something in my ear, but it seemed that thousands of pounds were pressing on my chest, something in my head exploded, shattered to the ground, and I had to fall into the dark abyss with questions.

When I woke up again, the pain in my abdomen was not so intense, but it was still not a slight pain. I tried to get up, but I found a hard, heavy head pressed against my stomach.

I looked down and it was Long Qianye.

His head was resting on my stomach on its side, and there were still tears in the corners of his eyes.

He cried again.

I had never felt like he was such a soft-hearted person before.

I pretended to moisten my throat and coughed, "Ahem————

As I thought, Long Qianye was shocked to hear this and immediately woke up, "Xiao Fan'er is awake?" How do you feel, hungry or not? The food has already been prepared for you in advance. ”

When he got up, he could see that his neck was stiff for a moment, but he was stunned as if nothing had happened, as if he had unintentionally brushed away the tears that had not dried up in the corners of his eyes.

"Don't wipe it, I see it all."

Long Qianye's expression was slightly unnatural, and his face was full of exhaustion, "Xiao Fan'er, do you think this palace is particularly useless?" ”

"No, you will always be my hero."

"Then, do you hate this palace?"

"No, you're not wrong, it's me who is wrong, I only hate myself."

He sat on the edge of the bed and gently massaged my sore body, "Why?" ”

"Hate yourself and fall in love with you."

"Do you regret it?"

Regret it? I do not know.

Because of him, after I was nine years old, my father didn't allow me to go out for half a step. So much so that they didn't even let me go to school.

Because of him, Ah Niang died in order to protect me.

Because of him, Daddy has not been heard from so far. With my current relationship with him, I don't even dare to mention it.

Because of him, my house was scattered. Running around in an unfamiliar city. From then on, there was no love, no warmth.

Because of him, I have also become someone else's soul carrier. Whenever someone else wants to occupy my consciousness, it keeps me in fear all day.

All the hardships and hardships I have experienced are thanks to Him.

If I hadn't met him when I was nine years old, I would have lived a very free life, learning about advanced knowledge like any other child. Auntie will not die, Daddy will not be heard from again, I will not leave them, leave Tongzilin, and I will not meet "jackals, tigers and leopards" like Su Luohan and Xiao Zunli when they went to Moxi. A family of three lived a peaceful and peaceful life.

Unfortunately, there are no ifs.

And I can't help but fall in love with him, and even fall in love with him and give up my own flesh and blood for him!

So look at what I've been doing all along, one is more ridiculous than the other, if A-Niang is still there, she may point her nose and scold me, why are you so useless, you know how to cry in one day.

After all, I can only go on so helplessly, right? Besides, I don't seem to be qualified, so I gave up halfway. I don't have the qualifications to play lonely and play decadent and broken jars, and I have no way out. I can only let myself live better than anyone else, live stronger than anyone else, and be worthy of my lost child.

I'm afraid that I will quarrel with him because of my emotions that have not completely calmed down now, after all, things are already like this, and there is no room for recovery. I raised my hand to wipe away the tears that could not contain my sadness, and smiled at him, "How is your mother?" ”

"Most of the drugs of the flower addiction have dissipated, but the remaining poisons have not been cleared."

I blurted out and asked, "What then?" ”

"Actually, it's no big deal. The affairs of the queen mother, this palace will take care of it, Xiao Fan'er, you just need to take care of your body with peace of mind, when your body is raised, how many children do you want, this palace will try to give you as many children as possible, okay? ”

"We'll talk about that then. I am hungry. ”

Oh, in fact, I'm not so attached to my children's affairs now, and some things are lost, and no matter how much I make up for them, it won't help. The child is gone, and no one can replace the child's place in my heart.

When Long Qianye heard me say that I was hungry, his eyebrows immediately flattened, and he hurriedly asked the palace people to bring me food. I didn't want to eat anything, but I just wanted him to blame himself so much, for fear that he would think I was angry with him, so I said that I was hungry, and I took a look at the food served by the palace people, and it was all fish...... Although the appearance is beautiful and the meat looks delicious, I can't get used to the smell, so I lose my appetite even more, and I just feel that my stomach is churning badly, which is disgusting.

"Go ahead and get busy with yours, I'll eat it myself."

"Taking care of you is the most important thing in this palace, you are very weak now, you must take in enough nutrients, come, this palace feeds you."

I really want to tell him that I don't eat, I don't eat, I don't eat, I don't want to eat anything, I can't eat anything, please get out of here, but I can't. Once I let this emotion out, he will blame himself even more and be more upset. And I, stubbornly, don't want him to be so uncomfortable, as soon as he is uncomfortable, I am even more uncomfortable.