The scenes I saw and the conversations I heard when I hid in the shadows are still vivid in my mind.

……

"Yinzhen, what did you just call me?" Under the wisteria flower stand, Tong Jiashi held the fourth child in his arms and asked.

"Uh...... ......"At that time, he was under two years old, and he was said to not be very talkative.

……

"Yinzhen, do you know Concubine De Niangniang?" When she was standing outside the small door in the backyard of Chengqian Palace, she heard Tong Jia's voice coming from inside the door.

Then, what she heard was the fourth child's puzzled rhetorical question: "Who is Concubine De?" ”

……

"Yinzhen, do you want two Eniang?"

"Why two mothers? E-niang, you don't want me anymore? ”

……

"Yinzhen, what if this palace is not your mother?"

"Why? If E-Niang is not my E-Niang, who is my E-Niang? ”

……

Sentence by sentence, scene by scene, there are many, many more dialogues between Tong Jiashi and the fourth child.

Concubine De lowered her eyes, her palms clenched in her sleeves, and the fine silk handkerchief was destroyed beyond recognition.

If you can't do it, you can't do it after all.

Tong Jia's conversations with the fourth child, every time I think about it, I can still pierce her heart.

After the sixth elder brother died young, she begged the emperor to let the fourth brother come back, but the emperor did not agree.

If he had come back to her sooner, he might not have become what he is now.

And now......

The fourth, sixth and fourteenth, although they are all her own sons, are different after all.

The fourth child is filial, she knows.

The daughter-in-law is well-behaved, she understands.

But different is different.

After all, she couldn't mention the strength she had for Xiao Fourteen to treat the fourth.

She could rationally stop blaming the fourth child for what he said back then, after all, he was just an ignorant child at that time. However, they never got close.

And what about the fourth child to her?

is very filial, but filial piety reveals alienation, and this alienation emanates from the bones.

The son she gave birth to, even if he didn't grow up by her side, at least he still has the most understanding.

He can't get close to her, his biological mother.

The real Eniang in his heart is only Tong Jia's.

In order to envelop the fourth child into his son, Tong Jia's precautions against her back then could be regarded as an iron wall.

She tried a lot of methods, but she couldn't get close.

In the years after Tong Jiashi isolated her from the fourth child, how did she treat the fourth child...... This?

It should be good, fine.

Perhaps, Tong Jia's treats the fourth child as well as she treats the little fourteenth?

Fourth, in fact, it's not rare for her to be loved by her own mother, right......

Concubine De walked to the window, looked at the lush dwarf pine potted plants outside, and was silent.

In this world, are there still biological mothers and children like her and the fourth child?

Although they are mother and son, they are separated by the ocean.

Well, what is there to force?

She gave birth to three sons, one died young, and one was estranged, but fortunately there was a little fourteen who belonged to her completely.

It's actually pretty good to be like the fourth child now.

If there is something to talk about, it is basically gone. Holiday birthdays are rewarded, and occasionally come to ask for a few words of concern.

The life of Dongsansuo is casual for the two of them, as long as there is no trouble, she is too lazy to take out the money of her mother or mother-in-law to press.

Let's live in peace.

She pinched her usual gentle and indifferent tone and spoke: "Fourth daughter-in-law, it's okay, you can go back and rest." ”

"Actually, my daughter-in-law is here today," she said, getting up and walking over with a brocade box.

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