"Let's go clean up the master bedroom first!" Hao Lili said calmly to Qin Yang.

Qin Yang nodded silently. So, the two walked one after another towards the room where Hao Lili's father, Hao Chenggong, lived in the master bedroom.

The maroon chevron was still printed on the white-washed sheets! It's just that this time, whether it is for Hao Lili or Qin Yang, there is no sense of fear at all!

Today's weather in Zunyi, the wind is beautiful, and a gust of wind blows in from the window, with a smell of sunshine.

Qin Yang noticed that Hao Lili picked up the sheet without hesitation after looking at the brown herringbone shape of the bed sheet for a few seconds.

Put the quilts, bed sheets, and so on in a woven bag prepared in advance, and take it to the trash can downstairs and throw it away.

However, at the moment when Hao Lili ripped the sheets off the bed, a stack of boxy papers fell to the floor along with the cotton wool that had been earned by pulling the sheets.

Hao Lili bent down to pick up one of the square pieces of paper and opened it, Hao Lili looked at it, and it was actually her father's handwriting. Hao Lili remembers that when she was young, her father was not only a taekwondo instructor, but also loved calligraphy with a hard pen. My father's pen writing was as neat as the printed type. In the past, he also won an award in the urban hard pen calligraphy competition.

That's what the paper says

Xiao Yun, I have promised myself many times that I will not go out to drink anymore, and I also know that drinking is not good, and Lili is now in high school, and the impact on her is very bad!

But I don't know why, my head, as long as I am awake, whether I open my eyes or close my eyes, all I think about is you, only you!

When I sit on the sofa in the living room, I can't help but twist my head to the kitchen. It's as if you're still in the kitchen cooking for us father and son.

I think you are an angel gifted to me by God, but you have been ruthlessly robbed by the ruthless devil of fate!

Do you know what it is that a man really hurts his heart? It is that when he opens or closes his eyes, there is always a figure in his mind, but in fact, that person has left him!

I'm sorry, Xiao Yun! I don't know how I'm going to spend the rest of my life without you. I know Lili is still young!

Yesterday, the teacher came to me and said that my child's grades were declining badly.

I also know that I should do my duty as a father to her, but I really can't do it!

This is the end of the letter! The father did not sign it, nor did he leave a date!

Hao Lili couldn't cry anymore! Qin Yang on the side just watched all this quietly, and didn't even hand over a piece of tissue!

Then, Hao Lili opened the second square paper

Xiao Yun, I dreamed of you last night! I dreamed of when we first got married. The bike in my dream is still the same one you used to be, sitting behind my bike with short ear-length haircuts, a brand new floral plaid shirt, and beautiful rouge on your cheeks

Sitting!

It's just that as we cross a bridge, I find that as soon as I turn around, you are gone! At my feet, there is a raging flood!

So, I was so frightened that I jumped into the flood to find you. But I can't find you! At the end of the dream, I was standing on the bridge alone, soaking wet, calling your name hard.

The third square piece of paper

Xiao Yun, I'm sorry, I went out to drink again during the day! Actually, I don't want to go out for a drink! But once I wake up, my mind is full of your shadow.

I thought about getting rid of this house, maybe it would be better to change the environment! But I really don't want to do that! I felt particularly conflicted. When you appear in my mind, I always desperately want to get rid of this consciousness, but I don't want to forget you and let go of the past where you existed!

Therefore, I refused to be treated by a counselor! Although, I know I have mental illness.

By the way, today, I took your spiritual seat down from the main seat in the living room and burned it! Because, I still can't accept that you have left our father and daughter!

Because of this, she bit my arm, and I was angry and confused! Reach out and slap her! I regret it very much! She didn't even eat dinner, I boiled her eggs, ran for honey water, knocked on her bedroom door several times, and she still wouldn't pay attention to me!

When she said that she didn't have a dad like me, and even when she said that maybe you don't love my mom at all! I felt wronged, and my heart hurt like someone had stabbed me with a knife!

But then I thought that my daughter's words were actually not unreasonable! A man who loves his deceased wife deeply is unlikely to ruin her spiritual position!

And I'm nothing more than an evasive coward!

Sometimes, I even think, Xiao Yun, maybe you really owe our Hao family something in your last life. Otherwise, why do you go to another world when our days are just getting better?

Seriously, that night, I was really worried that my daughter wouldn't be able to think about it! I have been sitting at the door of my daughter's bedroom, silently thinking to Xiao Yun, you must bless our daughter with peace and security!

It wasn't until the next morning, when I saw my daughter come out of the bedroom with red and swollen eyes, that I was relieved!

What I didn't expect was that Lili actually took the initiative to apologize to me. She said she regretted biting me last night! Tell me to be kind to myself! It's okay if you don't have your spiritual position, as long as we keep thinking about you in our hearts.

Xiao Yun, you know what? The child goes out to school with the front foot, and I cry at home with the back foot!

Hey, let's not talk about it! It's heartache to talk about......

The third square piece of paper

Xiao Yun, I found that now, there are only two things in my life, one is you, and the other is wine! Even though I know wine is bad! But I just can't leave, I can't leave.

I even had a premonition that maybe one day I would die in the jar!

When I think back to the days when I first started drinking heavily, I still feel guilty from time to time! But I really can't forget you, the job is that I can't find the job, and people don't

You want me! I can't help it. I often feel like I've been abandoned by life. At the same time, I was also abandoned by you!

Lili will have to pay the make-up fee tomorrow! I heard from her aunt that she went to borrow money from her aunt! I said, I'll pay it back, but her aunt doesn't believe it! She just thinks that my brother is possessed, and she doesn't want to deal with me! She lent money to pay for the child's tuition fee, just out of sympathy for the child, and it has nothing to do with me!

After listening to her words, I felt like my heart was half cold! I don't understand, why can't my sister understand my own brother?

It's just that I figured it out later! I don't blame Aunt Lili. Because, as a human being, it is extremely difficult to understand and be understood.

It's just, Xiao Yun, I still miss you tomorrow! I remember going out to the supermarket to buy rice last week, and when I crossed the red street light, I saw a woman in front of me who was clearly you! I walked up and put my hand on your shoulder, but you turned around and gave me two slaps!

When I looked, it wasn't you! The other party slapped me twice and was still angry, and threatened to call the police and arrest me to the police station! You don't know, I was so scared!

After a day or two, my ears were still rumbling and hurting!

After that, I couldn't hear much in that ear!

I didn't dare to tell Lili about this, for fear that she would be worried, and even more afraid that she would be sad!

……

The fourth graph paper

Xiao Yun

Lili went to college! I realized that I was really the only one left in the family! I heard her say that she was going to a place called Guancheng on the coast of more than 1,700 kilometers! I don't have much of an idea of how far away I am. I remember most vividly that the farthest place between the two of us was only to Panzhihua in Sichuan! That place was called a ferry port a long time ago.

As soon as the child goes to school, he only comes back once every six months. As soon as I come back, it's only once every six months! When I came back, I only stayed for a day, two or three days.

What made me even more depressed was that I found that we father and daughter had less time to talk! When she came back this time, she didn't ask me for tuition, living expenses or anything! I searched for a long time at home, and I only found 68 yuan in total!

However, when the child left, he was left on the coffee table in the living room! I'm so sad, I want to give her more, but the family really doesn't have any money! I also blame my father for being so incompetent.

Xiao Yun, if you have a spirit in the sky, you will definitely make Lili grow up happily! I could see that Lili was preoccupied. But as a father, I didn't know how to enlighten her, and she didn't leave me her contact information at school!

That's how we are father and daughter, and once she goes out to school, it's as if all ties have been cut off.

The fifth square piece of paper

Xiao Yun, our Lili has graduated and worked! My daughter is very competitive, she makes a lot of money! This month, he called me for a full 500,000 yuan and told me to buy a new house! But I don't want to leave the house where you once lived in you!

I'm afraid that if I change places, you will

Can't find a home to come back to!

In addition, I think that although our baby daughter is very promising, she can earn money! But after all, she still has to get married in the end, and I'm actually worried that she will meet a man who will treat her badly! So, I swore in my heart that if my daughter's boyfriend or husband treated her badly, I would definitely make that kid look good.

However, I am more worried that my daughter will be almost 28 years old this year! But when I asked her about the subject, she said that she hadn't talked about a boyfriend yet, and she didn't want to find someone to marry casually!

My health is getting worse day by day, and I'm really worried that I may not be able to wait for the day when my daughter will put on the red hijab!

However, Xiao Yun, I miss meeting you in another world very much! It is said that when you go to the underworld and cross the Nai He Bridge, as soon as you drink Meng Po soup, any memory will disappear! I don't know if you drank that stuff when you went, but I won't drink it anyway! Because, I will always remember you!

At that time, I will take your hand and talk to you many, many times

(End of chapter)

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