I don't even know what's wrong with me, the tears seem to be uncontrollable, and now which of us is clean? Who is immune to all of this?

Our hatred, our stupidity, our resentment, and everything we are tightly entangled, like an intricate banyan tree, twisting and embracing each other tightly.

We hate each other, we lick each other's wounds, we do everything until we die.

As soon as I came out of the basement, I saw Zou Moyan smoking in the living room, he looked at me, threw the lighter in his hand on the table on the side, and snorted coldly: "Don't worry? ”

I didn't speak, walked to Zou Moyan's side, picked up the cigarette in front of him, and lit it skillfully.

I took a deep breath, and after being with Zou Moyan, I never smoked again, because I knew that no matter what happened, this man would help me and love me, even though there were many, many unpleasant things that happened between us.

"You're thinking too much." I spat out a smoke ring, looked at the exquisite crystal chandelier hanging in the air in front of me, and said casually: "I can't find you, look around." ”

"Thought I'd do it?" Zou Moyan didn't know what was going on, and his tone was cold, "Think I'm going to kill Lu Chengying?" ”

"People are here with you, you can do whatever you want, I don't care."

"Jiajia, you can't speak duplicitously, aren't you feeling uncomfortable now? Don't you care about Lu Chengying? Zou Moyan twisted the cigarette butt into the ashtray irritably, "Are you going to let them go?" ”

I really have a feeling of wanting to cry without tears, and I really don't know where Zou Moyan's strange idea came from: "Zou Moyan, what's wrong with you?" Why does something involve Lu Chengying, and you have low self-esteem like this? Don't you know what kind of person I am? I'm standing in front of you honestly now, I don't want to plead, I don't want to participate, I just want to wait quietly for myself, okay? ”

Zou Moyan snatched the cigarette from my hand, and the cold light in his eyes was like a sharp sword, "You must know that if you intercede, I will prepare other ways to make him die more slowly." ”

"That's your business."

I stood up and prepared to go upstairs, but Zou Moyan was still sitting on the sofa, and I didn't want to say anything to him, so I went straight back to the room.

Zou Moyan's whole person is now like a brain short-circuit, he can't listen to what I say, I really look like Lu Chengying, and now I still think about these things with such an inexplicable thought, I am really enough.

What about his wisdom? What about his emotional intelligence?

Why hasn't it happened now, and I have become like this first.

I lay on the bed for a short time, Zou Moyan came back, he went to the bathroom to wash up and went to bed, the smell of shower gel wafted into the tip of my nose, I felt the position next to me collapse, and a pair of hands clasped my waist hard.

I didn't move, my eyes looked at the tulle curtains, it was already early in the morning, and it was already bright outside, with the continuous force of the palm, I probably knew what Zou Moyan meant, but now I was not in the mood at all, especially when I saw the bloody scene, I didn't have any interest.

Zou Moyan's hand rubbed for a while, and there was no offensive movement, I was relieved, but who knew that he said, "I know you didn't sleep." ”

"Can't sleep." I looked at the window, "Maybe I took too many of those calming pills before, but now I don't want to sleep." ”

Zou Moyan got up and looked at me: "Are you blaming me?" ”

"When did you put that bag of pills in my pocket?" I said lightly, these things have to be asked sooner or later, and now that he mentioned it, I naturally want to know the truth: "How can you be sure that I will definitely give you food?" ”

"I'm not sure, but if you want to meet Lu Chengying, you have to do it, or you won't have a chance to get out."

That's what he admitted.

"You just came after me when I went out, go and save Zou Xue first, and then go find me."

"If Lu Chengying doesn't appear, I can't lock Zou Xue's location."

"Actually, you can tell me that I can cooperate with you."

Zou Moyan paused, "I didn't think about it that much. ”

"You don't believe me." I turned to look at Zou Moyan, "If you want to hear what Lu Chengying will say to me, you also want to know what I will say to him, if you don't believe me, at any time, once you get involved with Lu Chengying, you won't believe me." ”

Zou Moyan pursed his lips, and said after a long time, "I believe in you, but I don't believe him, men know men too well, I can't miss a point." ”

"I'm not stupid, I can't guess what you think, but I can also know a thing or two, everything is a scene you deliberately played, and even you said that Zou Moyun rescued Lu Chengying, which is also one of your plans, because then you can catch him again, maybe you enjoy the fun of catching him, not how to torture him."

Zou Moyan was stunned for an instant, the corners of his mouth twitched, and then turned his head to the side, I knew I guessed right, Zou Moyan came out of the room, and I didn't chase it, after a while, I heard the sound of a lighter, he was smoking.

I can't sleep, it's dawn early, and in the early morning, we each have our own hearts, like two tigers that have just finished fighting, covered in bruises, recuperating.

I didn't ask Zou Moyun and Lu Chengying how it was going again, there were only four people in the entire villa hall, me and Zou Moyan, and two servants.

After a day in the villa, I felt more and more bored, after that night, I didn't talk to Zou Moyan, we would still eat and sleep together, but many times it didn't feel like that anymore.

I also gradually understand that the previous blank two years have long allowed me to grow up, although I am still as hypocritical as ever, as always willful, but when I encounter problems, I know how to deal with them, think about the time when I first met with Zou Moyan, every time I saw him, I had no brain, yes, now I think about it, I am much more rational than then.

People always have to stumble to grow, I am growing, and so is Zou Moyan.

On the third day, I still couldn't help but go to the basement, Zou Moyun saw me coming, there was no reaction, it was Lu Chengying, sitting on the edge of the mat, looking at me directly from the moment I entered the door, his face was still very bad, the clothes on his body were wrinkled and dirty, and he was completely inconsistent with his previous requirements for glamour.

It seemed that he should have survived the high fever, Lu Chengying stood up and looked at me with gentle eyes, "Are you okay?" ”

I nodded, "Hmm." ”

"Jiajia, you are such a child who likes to lie." Lu Chengying took the two small boxes on the side, which showed anti-inflammatory drugs and antipyretics, and I looked at the box and couldn't take my eyes off it.

Did Zou Moyan send medicine?

In the end, I'm too worried, Zou Moyan really won't kill Lu Chengying, maybe he knows a lot of things, but he just doesn't want to say it.

It may also be that I bet right, the more I care about Lu Chengying's affairs, the more Zou Moyan bites and insists on letting go, the more I ignore it, and he can calm down and deal with it.

I felt that I didn't have anything to say when I stood here, and just turned around to leave, Lu Chengying said to me behind me, "Jiajia, I don't regret all this, even if I'm in prison, I don't regret it, those things that happened at the beginning, if I had never done it again, I would still do it." ”

"Obsessed."

"Am I obsessed? So you're a fan of mine? Lu Chengying said self-deprecatingly, "The most rewarding thing for me is that I never force you." ”

Yes, Lu Chengying really didn't force me, he would respect me no matter what, from being caught and raped in bed by Zou Moyan in San Diego before, to living in the same rental house later, he really didn't force me, he said that he wanted me to be willing.

"Thank you. But the things you did before, wrong are wrong, and I still can't forgive them. ”

"As long as you remember me, if you can't be together, it's better for you to keep me in your heart, when you live happily with Zou Moyan, when you think of me, your heart will still hurt, I'm a person, I'm arrogant, either I make you hurt, or I make you happy, I can only choose one of them."

I stopped, trying to say something, but the words in my head turned for a long time, and finally the two of them strode open the basement.

Will you do this, Lu Chengying, don't you know that you are a burden to my good deeds? Can't you see how much I hate myself for being heartless before?

Back in the living room, my mobile phone rang, I saw Jing Qi's phone above, my heart was slightly sick, thinking that his relationship with Lu Chengying did not answer, the phone rang several times, I did not answer, and finally Jing Qi sent a short message, "I am at the airport ready to go to the United States, He Jiaran, maybe you guessed the origin and intention of my person, but I personally have absolutely no malicious intent, before leaving, I have something to express to you, the address is the house you rented, cherish, don't read." ”

I don't know what Jing Qi sent me, and now it doesn't seem to matter anything, so I don't dare to think about it, I don't want to reply, so I just threw the phone on the bed on the side and ignored it.

I read a book for an afternoon, and when Zou Moyan came back in the evening, he came to the bedroom to see me first, and after making sure that I was here, he changed into home clothes and went to the study.

The only difference between me and Lu Chengying now is that he is in the basement and I am in the house.

In addition to eating, Zou Moyan is very busy, and he can only see him when he sleeps, I don't know if what I said before was too heavy, but that is what I want to say in my heart, and it is an indisputable fact.

Dinner was very light, Zou Moyan was very quiet when he ate, and when I was almost finished, he said, "What are you going to do with the wedding?" Chinese or Western? ”