Lu Chengying and Zou Mo's affairs are in vain, now talk to me about the wedding at this time, Zou Moyan, you have no problem with your head, right?

I cupped my forehead, and suddenly felt a headache, "Mo Yan, do you think it's time for a wedding?"

"You don't want to?"

Zou Moyan raised his eyebrows and looked at me carefully, I was very uncomfortable with him, and turned around to go upstairs, but the next minute, Zou Moyan grabbed me hard, and then asked me, "Why don't you want to?" ”

"Zou Moyan, what's wrong with you? We have all done marriage justice, we are now a legal couple, but is it time to get married, don't tell me that you want to hold a wedding with me to stimulate Lu Chengying, you are so weak! ”

"He loves you very much," Zou Moyan looked at me, and pressed me on the table step by step, "It's also a good thing for him to see that we are married, and it would be better if he could be the best man." ”

Let Lu Chengying be the best man and watch me marry Zou Moyan, it is better to kill him.

The current Zou Moyan really makes me very unfamiliar, and his ideas are indeed ridiculous, if Lu Chengying is a dual personality, then Zou Moyan is simply a multiple personality, Lu Chengying has two positive and negative aspects, but Zou Moyan has countless faces.

I can't seem to guess more and more about such a man.

"It's your business to hate and resent Lu Chengying, can you not bring me in?"

Zou Moyan's hand gently stroked my hair, and looked at me with a little caution, "You are very resistant to me now." ”

"It's you who are resisting me, Zou Moyan, I think you want to go to Gao Ziqian to see a psychiatrist? You were suspicious before, you were weird, you tossed, you at least had a limit, but now, there is no lower limit to what you do, now the basement is closed up is your sister, your uncle's only daughter, you can't let it go is your business, what you want to do is your business, don't come to ask me again, don't come to test me again, I'm so annoyed! ”

After saying this in one breath, I felt a little better in my heart, Zou Moyan didn't speak, but the kiss fell on my neck, he was very hard, and I felt a strong possessiveness in this force.

I was pressed on the table by him, he rushed in from behind, Zou Moyan was not very gentle, several times I had pain to push him away, especially my ribs pressed on the table, I was in pain.

I'm angry, I'm bored, but at this time I can't refuse him, he's a husband, maybe he's going to do this kind of thing to soothe his heart, or maybe he just wants me to prove now that I don't love him.

It is Zou Moyan who is very sensitive and fragile.

I'm curious now, what kind of harm did Lu Chengying cause to Zou Moyan, making him lose his original self-esteem every time he met Lu Chengying.

Zou Moyan enjoyed this posture very much, when we met again before, he was like this, although we were excited to each other, but we were all resisting each other, that time was not pleasant, and now, we are in love, we are legitimate, but still not very happy, this is not a kind of logic when the love is strong, but an obligation between husband and wife.

He asked for it twice, and then I couldn't stand on my legs, but he carried me upstairs to the bedroom.

Zou Moyan rarely uses measures, he sometimes chooses to be outside the body before, but recently he has been presumptuously ejaculating directly inside, thinking of my biochemical child before, I still have palpitations.

Zhou Luo said that Zou Moyan may not be able to be a father for the rest of his life, not to say absolutely no, and Li Nan also gave me contraceptive pills before, think about Zou Moyan's amazing physical strength and endurance, what if I am pregnant?

I couldn't bear the pain, ecstasy, and loss like the last time I was born, as if I had gone from heaven to hell, and it was like beauty turned into despair in an instant.

I'm going to try to talk to Zou Moyan, of course, after all this is settled.

I slept well at night, maybe the afternoon exercise made me consume my physical strength, and Zou Moyan had another time in the evening, there was no conversation between us, only the physical entanglement, and he no longer induced me to let me say those embarrassing love words, everything, like a piston movement.

The next day, Zou Moyan didn't go out, he was in the study to deal with some work matters, I walked back and forth in the room, I really couldn't hold back, I wanted to go out to breathe, hesitated to Zou Moyan's study, I hesitated for a long time and then said:

"I want to get out and about."

"Now?" Zou Moyan looked at the time, and then made a phone call, "Cancel all my video conferences today, and find Pan Yiming if you have something." ”

After hanging up the phone, Zou Moyan came over and pulled me, although his voice was not warm, it was much better than before: "Where do you want to go?" ”

"Anywhere, as long as it's not this house."

Zou Moyan's hand tightened slightly, maybe this sentence really made him not like to hear it, but I don't have any other way, I'm holding it like this, sooner or later, I'll be sick, "It's okay to go around." ”

Zou Moyan put on a dress and went out with me, this is the first time I have walked out of that villa in the past few days, there is no scenery around, although it is spring, but the green is not green, and the flowers are not blooming, a depressed scene.

The villas are halfway up the mountain, and walking down the path is going down the mountain, Zou Moyan took my hand and walked slowly, I kicked the pebbles on the road, my heart was completely empty, and I didn't want to think about anything.

After walking for a while, Zou Moyan said, "I know you're messing with me." ”

I didn't speak, Zou Moyan continued, "I also listened to your words and went to see a psychiatrist, in fact I was fine, on the contrary, you were too sensitive." ”

"Am I sensitive?" I smiled, "You say yes, that's it." ”

Am I sensitive? I'm so fucking sensitive!

"Jiajia, you are curious about how I became the way I am now, in fact, you don't know that I experienced the days in the mental hospital for half a year before, I didn't mention those things, and the ones I experienced are ten times more cruel than the current Lu Chengying, maybe you say ruthless, but people who have not experienced the darkness have never known the preciousness of the morning light."

This is the first time Zou Moyan took the initiative to tell me about what happened three years ago, Zhou Luo said that when they rescued Zou Moyan, they found that he basically only had one breath left, and at that time there was a big problem with his body, and he raised him with Gao Ziqian for more than a month, but what kind of half a year Zou Moyan experienced, he said that he didn't know.

"I still have this inexplicable fear of those things, when I saw you being taken away and bullied by Lu Chengying, I was really afraid that you were going through those things that I experienced, those days that made you have no dignity, no hope, no faith, and no reason to persevere." Zou Moyan was stunned and looked at me, "Lu Chengying is a puzzle, I don't know what kind of thing he will do in the next minute, I have checked him for three years, and I have never really understood him." ”

"I understand how hard you've endured." I looked at Zou Moyan, and my heart was also distressed for a while, and the comforting words turned into three words: "I understand everything." ”

"You don't understand, Jiajia, you will never understand how desperate and miserable I am, and you will not understand the feeling that life is worse than death."

"Maybe those times are what I missed, I don't know, but I also want to tell you, Zou Moyan, do you know how desperate I was when I came back from San Diego? You haven't experienced the days of being chased by creditors every day to make a living, have you? I almost went to the sea to be a wine lady, almost went to let people support 100,000 yuan a month, and almost jumped off the roof of the hotel........ At that time was my most desperate time, I had no relatives, I wanted to cry without tears, but at that time I learned to be strong, I learned to face it, I learned to wear the cloak of a hedgehog, what about you? ”

Zou Moyan stopped talking, but holding my hand and sweating slightly, I looked at Zou Moyan, the blackness in his eyes gradually receded, and his expression began to ease, I knew that what I said had an effect, stood on tiptoe and imprinted a kiss on his chin, "Mo Yan, the past will eventually pass, and you are torturing yourself when you remember those things." ”